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produced by soloft
mixed and mastered by me

time is a blessing but cursed all the time
what i would give to rewind 
all of the nights where it felt so right 
they hit like a brick every time 
i still hate going outside 
sometimes I wish I was blind 
still choose to ignore it, but never forget it, and yeah I regret it 

tell me right now
tell me right now
is it nice on the other side of this hell?
i know calling at the worst time’s suicide
let me find out and I’ll tell you what it feels like 



i got a problem with spending my money before it deposits
that is an easy one, i have a thousand, don’t know how to solve them 
please do not tell me you love me if you’re always busy
no ring when im calling 
yeah, not gonna lie, a lot of my dreams involve bridges and falling 
i walk around with my anger a lot 
know it’s not healthy, im learning to stop
i been working OT
chasin a check tryna figure it out 
don’t really feel in control of my life 
and that shit don’t sound right 
only my best in the cover of night
kill every beat and I don’t even try 
on my mind in the middle of the night 
wanna die at the thought, can we go for a drive?
catch a vibe, smoke in the sky
nowhere near great but im feeling alright
all out of time
still gotta try
nothing to lose
so here goes the dive

i'll tell you what it feels like (prod. soloft)

prod. me

rest easy pops<33

dad, can you remember me?
cause i see those eyes are empty
i can't even eve talk with you cause u can't think
pls tell me when you look at me who do you see 
am i still your best buddy?
can u recognize somebody
i feel like ur soul has left
without ur body 
i hate to see u suffering

ever since u've been gone
shit's been different 
i hate myself
and can't take this distance 
been fucking my health 
i can feel the symptoms 
i need fucking help 
but can't face my feelings   

(i been hiding emotions
behind all the drinks
i been hiding emotions
behind all the weed 
people know about this
and still don't talk to me 
i might be fated to 
live the rest of my life all lonely)

dad, can you remember me?
cause i see those eyes are empty
i can't even eve talk with you cause u can't think
pls tell me when you look at me who do you see 
am i still your best buddy?
can u recognize somebody
i feel like ur soul has left
without ur body 
i hate to see u suffering

dad can u remember me?

prod. sorrow bringer
artwork done by my gf :)

you broke me down was it worth it?

you broke me down was it worth it?
i’m breaking beneath the surface
waiting for a higher purpose
but i know that’s worthless
i fear not for the end
i know that i’ll be fine
cause i’m the after life 
i know that you’ll still be mine
i’m letting go of the past cause it was flawed by desgin

failed from the fucking beginning 
they were out to get me
but i ended up winning
so i’ll sit back and wait
while you take your place
fucking your lying games
you’re such a fucking waste time for me
now it’s time for you to see

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 
you were to me
i can finally breathe
i was on my knees 
begging for you to leave
my life for good this time
well it seems i finally got what’s mine

nothing can change my mind
nothing can help you now
watch as the blood drips down
from your eyes
while you cry
no surprise 

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 
you were to me
i can finally breathe
i was on my knees 
begging for you to leave
my life for good this time
well it seems i finally got what’s mine

broken beneath the surface (sorrow bringer)

trying to connect the dots

prod. @solofttt 🖤
if you're reading this, thank you for listening.
it means, seriously a lot
thx, take care

can you prelude to how i'm feeling?
cause i've been addicted to these patterns
all this time (time)
and it's hardly fair; i'm breaking still
regardless if i've already lost my will
and if i should fade into a darker light
it just doesn't make sense how i feel alright
cause i know nothing's right

and i've known that since yesterday
i'm something that i haven't always been
i lock my door, and lower the shades
letting flow state straight into the pen
the floors creek, and my brain feeds
on a core memory i stowed away
but i come forth; take it head on
peeling flesh off of it's travesty
but the earth hurts; all i have is me
she's here too, but sorta overseas
you amaze me, rearrange me 
in a shape similar to something sweet
the window open on a cold night
honestly i love frostbite
numbing part of me, in which apologies 
aren't policy for the limelight
fight back
fuck off
i'm not going outside today
i woke up too late
to avoid the rays
now i contemplate when was yesterday
i contradict what i thought i was
what i am now's not so pretty
day to day feeling disgust
from the mistrust that i gave me
i had caved in; so shameless
but if you like my shit, put it on playlist
i am not in search of validation.
just something genuine

(6x)
i'll connect the
i'll connect the dots

can you prelude to how i'm feeling?
cause i've been addicted to these patterns
all this time
(all this time)

travesty awaits [prod. soloft]

music video
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lyrics_
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hates the only way to get through
yeah i say this quite a lot, but i cant even make a move
take a second, wait to breathe
hold, on patient 23
my anxiety was never this bad, it only seems
when i sit, and think about my future, always running free

death was creeping on to me
in my mind,, i could never say what's right
i keep pushing on the knife, let me be, let me breath
disassociate with me
climbing high, cause i cant see
where am i suppose  , to be
hate just keeps waiting, on me

hates the only way to get through
yeah i say this quite a lot, but i cant even make a move
take a second, wait to breathe
hold on patient 23
my anxiety was never this bad, it only seems
when I sit, and think about my future, always running free

you were pushing on to me
always sexualizing me
always mess a making me
just come decimate me please

patient 23

its less than a month till i leave my home
its one year over due so its time to get gone

bad memories run thru my head
i dont wanna talk about what i said
i dont wanna talk around all the important shit
i dont wanna fight cus baby we are more than this
i see ghosts in my room
and they look almost like you

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you
ill make it better for you
ill find a way to change hue
i feel like alien
and i just want to relate
got me going

bad memories run thru my head
i dont wanna talk about what i said
i dont wanna talk around all the important shit
i dont wanna fight cus baby we are more than this
i see ghosts in my room
and they look almost like you

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you

if we're talking about time i wanna cut it down
if its gonna make the wait longer then fuck it all
you're in my mind right now
and i just wanna get to you so i can shut the fuck up
got me going
dont fall down
SINGING EVERYTHING FROM MY HEAD!
its generic
but im simple
when you speak to me you make my legs tremble
i see ghosts in my room
i see ghosts in my room

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you

its less than a month till i leave my home
its one year over due so its time to get gone
im so fucking sick of waiting for my life
im accepting the fact nothing happens over night

GHOSTS (Scottysplash)

hearteater w/ skrwd (splashgang)

whats the problem?
prod. @imcaves
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
whats the problem
i try not to think ab it in the long run
say it louder to convince myself i’m awful
i see ur face n think i’ll never pass the autumn
ain’t it funny how that works
never knew how much it hurt
put a price atop my head i got a target
thought i need more attention now i’m starving
i knew myself a whole lot less than i regarded
now ur over me w him
i don’t know where to begin

u can tell me that theres more to life
but i just wish we were immortalized
i think im brave until im forced to fly
i’ll never catch up to the morning light

suffer, suture wounds
i crushed my future; tomb
i’d see the sun
if you’d just move a bit
puncture lungs removed
tell me what u do
when night hits
everything is new again

whats the problem
isnt this all that u wanted in the long run?
i could spend my days just waiting for a phone call
but if i did then i wouldnt be someone u want
aint it funny how that works
i’ll just lie down in the dirt
u can bend me how u wanna cuz i like that
i miss how you’d make me hurt i never fight back
i know that it didnt work but yet despite that
i’m a sucker for ur love
i thought it was kinda fun

u can tell me that theres more to life
but i just wish we were immortalized
i think im brave until im forced to fly
i’ll never catch up to the morning light
i'll never

brave bird [caves]

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prod. me x @thislandis

lyrics:
quick smoke in the yard
i never thought you’d come back home
you’re drunk in the car
that we borrowed from your father 
just sleep it off
and turn your mattress yellow
love, just keep the faith
you’ll get your fix tomorrow

find me at my pity party
blacking out on cheap white wine
find me passed out in the backseat
find me running out of time
find me at my pity party
blacking out, blacking out
just find me something to wash all this down
wash all this down oh woah-oh-oh

and i don’t wanna talk too much
before this pill kicks in, so it won’t hurt
and i don’t wanna wait all night
for a phone to ring just cuz u sound like her
and you’re telling me that it’s too late
and love’s just photographs and tramadol 
but i don’t wanna go back home
just to black out in this hallway again

and again

pity party

Produced by @irby314 & @jolst
Mixed by @decksmusic
Additional vocals by @prodhorosha
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli

LYRICS
Wounded at a young age
Had nobody I could turn to
It’s sickening the things you did
And how I learned through
The example you set
I thought I was a black sheep
Turns out I’m just like the rest

Of my family tree
Rotting from the inside
Branches devoid of leaves
So please
Don’t ever idolize me
These eyes have seen more pain than you would believe

I’ve got a damaged brain
There’s not much can be done
After all I’m just a product
I’m my father’s son
I can’t cope with this all on my own
I kill myself slow
Insisting all the while I’m not suicidal
It’s hard to match expectations I put on myself
I took a step
I took two steps back
How will I know when it’s bad enough to need help
I thought I was a black sheep
Turns out I’m just like

My dear old dad
He was the man of the house
He wasn't often around
Guess what that makes me now
As if the world’s against me
I only rely on myself
Turns out I’m somebody else

broken beneath the surface (sorrow bringer)

epitomeoffailure (hiatus)

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