Vibes XV

Can you just stop for the weekend
can you just stop with the tweakin
can you not feel how im feelin
can you not get what im feelin

wakin up late every mornin again
stoppin the drugs cause u loosin again
fallin asleep without you in my bed
fallin asleep and u not in my head

breakin apart and im lonely again
wishin that i could just touch you again
its 3 in the 6 and im loosin my head
takin a walk, dont get shot in the head

distance in earth is just too much to take
makin a livin off beatin me dead
i wanna move out so i can get the bread
but im stuck alone, and im loosin again

Can you just stop for the weekend
can you just stop with the tweakin
can you not feel how im feelin
can you not get what im feelin

can you just give me a reason
can you just fall with the treasen
would you just leave me in feelins
couldnt just stop how im feelin

-not home.-

felt like cutting up my eyelids
i been working hard inside the silence
running circles on the island
like why the fuck i even trying?

codeine bright violet
ive been smoking on the hybrid
thoughts inside me turn to violence
emotion seeping through the highlands

welcome to my fucking head
i take the words and i put it to rest 
garbage to still floating and filling my chest
i cant pretend like im feeling the best

i guess im next
they want me dead
pump up my head and my legs with the lead
she second guessing im fucking her friend, yeah

Give Me A Reason w/ not home. (prod. nvki)

Im Waking Up

This really old but I’m just getting around to releasing it

ghost in my room

This song is about my internal fantasization of death

My Paradise

[+ Tosha]

1st - @user-411557229 
2nd - @northshoremusic 
3rd - @emptychest 
4th - @imperial223
5th - @strivemusicau 
6th - @caspywaspy 
7th - @soulfadexo 
8th - @x1fern 
9th - @noxious-nights 
10th - @navyxower 
11th - @shizukesaaa 
12th - @hoeplessboy

Holding Onto Something [+ Tosha x Kev]

Run It Back! w/notalexys (prod. Rosebone x DeathW!sh)

𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐫𝐲𝐬𝐨𝐧<3

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
cant even snap back 2 this snapchat
got 80 ounce in this backpack
making lame shit on this old mac
while my friends out in their pontiac
how are you so contagious
holding back on my anguish
'cardi rocks when im anxious
blood n mud on these pages
she dont talk but her eyes flirt
louis v n that black skirt
pulling up in that chrysler
bloody shirt n my chest hurts

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊. 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

ep w/ bry soon also~ if you've read this far then thank you all sm for all of the support this past year, and just in general if you listen to any of my stuff. it genuinely means the whole world. ily all sm<3

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let_down w/ residential. (ushanka boy)

@burgosmusic

lyrics:

(burgos)
In my mind I'm losing everything...
Rolling round
can't go to sleep
feel strange at night
yeah
Hold me down
I'm going in
gun kinda light
yeah
I ain't seen her
she don't talk to me
yeah, yeah
She think I'm weird, probably
yeah, yeah
Rolling round
can't go to sleep
feel strange at night
Hold me down
I'm going in
gun kinda light
I ain't seen her
she don't talk to me
She think I'm weird, probably
yeah
In my mind I'm losing everything
what the fuck is wrong?
what the fuck is wrong?
what the fuck is wrong?
yeah yeah yeah
what the fuck is wrong?
what the fuck is wrong?
what the fuck is wrong?

(raze)
I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me
Too many things that it could possibly be
I can't go too long without smoking some weed
I guess there's never any forest without the trees
Who was I to think that you and I could be?
Stranded by the growth, I think I should have seen
When you were the one, when you were the one
I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me...
Who am I to fucking judge anyone?
The life you live could have been anyone's
Still I sit expecting you to change?
Hyper critical hypocrite oh is it?
Who am I to be judging anyone?
Who am I to be judging anyone?
Who am I to be judging anyone?
Who am I to be judging anyone?

(burgos)
Rolling round
can't go to sleep
feel strange at night
yeah
Hold me down
I'm going in
gun kinda light
yeah
I ain't seen her
she don't talk to me
yeah, yeah
She think I'm weird, probably
In my mind I'm losing everything
what the fuck is wrong?
what the fuck is wrong?
what the fuck is wrong?
yeah yeah yeah
what the fuck is wrong?
what the fuck is wrong?
what the fuck is wrong?

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Wtf Is Wrong At 124bpm V4 - Slowed Down 32bit

wtf is wrong? w/ Burgos

Yea she say im smart but i been feeling clueless
you fucked me up and ion really wanna do this
whats the point if ion even know the movement
she say she wanna fuck but ion wanna do this

and yea its true i still dont wanna be nobody else
call him mario, he fw me he eat a couple shells
sent me to hell, all the time i cant get back
best you ever had, ik you wont forget that

(angelic) OOOOHHHHHHHH

no i cant love you anymore
feelings is dead leave dat shit at the door
no i cant love you anymore
feelings is dead leave dat shit at the

yuhhhhhhhh 

Yea she say im smart but i been feeling clueless
you fucked me up and ion really wanna do this
whats the point if ion even know the movement
she say she wanna fuck but ion wanna do this

Don't Wanna Do This +prod. faketalency+

Like Spielberg, yk we really bout dat action
(Prod. Yung Felicia x Chef9TheGod)

Laughing To Da Bank w/33chino

Shout out sybyr
prod. Marciwiththeglock

Lyrics:
Ion wanna be your friend x8

I can’t feel myself
How tf you want my help if I can’t help myself
It’s like too many fucking times I tried to kill myself
And ik you wouldn’t really care if I killed myself
Just wanna be myself

Welp
My mind ain’t feeling too well
Like a cigarette, pack it up, match it and burn that mf like Satan in hell 

Oh you made another diss
I just want another bitch
I just want another feeling on my fuckin dick
Ik I’m a fuckin dick
Ik imma fuckin AAHAGYRHRHGGEHEHHG

Ion wanna be your friend x8

Myself

[lyrics]
these eyes dont lie 
i cant go on 
i seen too much shit in my life 
am i even alive
hangin on by a thread
mf took another pill n now isss fuckin lights out 
jus woke up n isss alr bright out
idk where tf im going w my life now
suck my dick or pipe down 
mf my hometown 
im the only god dat ive seen around 
nohopeshawty king of underground 
im the only one dat they know abt 
i could do it all w the weight of the world tryna hold me down

@jacc_ak
@nohopeshawty

these eyes dont lie

these eyes dont lie (prod. sustain)

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my coat at anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(it’s not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
i’ll stay here if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before? 

(oh, for real?) 

my bad, i guess not but- 
do you wanna go
we can smoke at mine
if you don’t smoke
i got some beers n we can pass time
i don’t give a fuck about what’s going on 
as long you’re here watching always sunny
til bout quarter past 5 

and hey there 
“hey u :)” 
im fucked up
turned blue 
yeah im too slumped
how bout u 
like oh god !!!!
you’re too cool 

dont walk out 
leave me 
im cut up 
bleeding 
so just stay
these sun rays 
they make me 
feel okay 

all of the things 
that i could now say to you
i don’t know whether to laugh or cry
do you even feel at least half of this?
or will you just sit with your friends and all laugh at this- 
FUCK

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my at coat anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
but i’ll stay here
if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before?
oh, for real?

pale (pekarot x jolst)

𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚜 𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚎𝚍

prod by. @domesticsoul

'tiedyed' ep
10/27

thank you for being here. 
take care

(it's way too damn bright out)
i know
it's always i don't know
idk, idk, i don't..

i feel the worst
reheat the burns
shoot down the birds
show me you hurt
care bout me less
don't feel distressed
don't recollect, proclaim me as dead
i'm recondite in all of their eyes
believe me, i've tried
the fuck would i lie
line after line, tongue's getting dry
water to hydrate
my subconscious, it migrates
fluttered past in the writing
eating less carbohydrates
sleeping less got me dying
note and pens all that i see
in a cold sweat from the sights seen
sights seen..
i don't wanna do no sightseeing, no..

every day means less than the last
always puttin off, task after task
just to grasp, 'cause i've heard enough
trash from the last pass back, i'm the burden
i've felt wrong for so long
can't get a word in

rain check;
she told me we should make a reign check
bellow out my frustrations
etching out these elations
now i'm fine, 'till i break, yeah
now i've calmed, feel it in my palms now
a couple scorn clouds
cry a storm out, with no warning
it's important;
you seem to know them 'till you stay foreign
(stay foreign)

so i guess i'll put my trust in the darkness
we talk a lot, bustin' chops over toxins
i hear my thoughts pushing me to be heartless
missin' my shots, wouldn't think i'm a marksman
fuck love, i'm misunderstood
filtering light into words overlooked
i disapprove and rebuke how they're crooked
i just went weak in the knees, now i'm puking

one sunset at a time
another day a new vice
show me you care without dragging your hair
through grease trails and the lice
it must be my mind that's gotten so distant
plenty surround but they always low pitch
or don't get the picture; fragile demeanor
prone to be withered, but never stay with

laugh it off like you always do
no surface shit, up the magnitude
let the ground crack 'till you fall back
from the forecast, as the magma spews
got hot veins and a cold brain
as i fuck up my stability
you can't drown out what's already sunken
i don't want there to be room for me

here we go again
meet another end
reinvent your head like second nature
lose it to a friend, who wasn't quite your friend
people only plead when it's on paper
well how about that
dirty mousepads
unaware of how i got here
did i steer clear, or was i pulled back?

every day means less than the last
always puttin off, task after task
just to grasp, 'cause i've heard enough
trash from the last pass back, i'm the burden
i've felt wrong for so long
can't get a word in

downcast (p. domesticsoul)

Drown It Out

happy halloween! thought i'd hit y'all with a fun one for the holidays!
s/o to @siemspark + @rjpasin for brining this to life!

lyrics
--------
wake up
get the crust out of your eyes
it's so late it's like 7:45
this whole place is asleep while i'm alive
i'm lonely but i guess that i'll survive
it's alright if you look me in the eyes
don't be afraid yeah i promise i won't bite
i'm not awake was asleep when you arrived
now i'm half baked & i don't think that i should drive

and i don't think that you're alright
it's the little things about you i've been noticing on site
you've been howling all night
inconsistencies will always be attached to your life
if you're running don't hide
cause the probability of getting caught is so high
oh and at least i fucking tried
a corrupt intervention when your truth is just a lie
so throw this away
flush it right down the drain
you've perfected your aim
looks like nothings changed
so maybe

wake up
get the crust out of your eyes
it's so late it's like 7:45
this whole place is asleep while i'm alive
i'm lonely but i guess that i'll survive
it's alright if you look me in the eyes
don't be afraid yeah i promise i won't bite
i'm not awake was asleep when you arrived
now i'm half baked & i don't think that i should drive

music video

half baked (prod. siem spark x rj pasin)

heylog - know a thing (irby)

lyrics: 

Maybe I fake it Maybe Im really ass
Drunk calls faded Ion even try to text
Fully committed But I didn’t know the half of it
Drug addict I should’ve stayed in class
A good night to me is one where I came off crass
But Ion get no help Im focused on getting it masked
When god feeds me signs Im focused on blowing the stop fuck it vroom 
When god takes away I focus on getting it back way too soon

We all bleed so what the difference between me and you
Maybe I talk maybe I walk in a way u wouldn’t too
Really im so self conscious for someone working this job I do
Maybe im mad at the world but fuck it I gotta keep my cool
People I know live so much different then what I had learned in school
I gotta keep receipts for taxes they gotta keep a tool
I wish we all had similar starts I wonder what choices change
Life like starting a game of chess that luck gon rearrange
We are born into pain
The cause may change its all the same
We are programmed to think but these thoughts might just kill ur brain
How the fuck pure thought forms like love get used as words in vein
U get fucked up while people pray still time passes the same for us
Its nonsensical 
Take a step back and look my way
Im toxic
Im fucked up
Im certain that my lucks up
I will sail thru this drama
Dont sweat it I skipped the sauna
Rollin up this marijuana
3 in my face this Ganga 
She dropped in dolce and gabbana
Money from pain get spent up
8 balls laying on dressers 
Ion gotta try to impress her
Rap shit leave me fed up
Im Sick of tryna get my bread up
But still I refuse to let up
People I know had got leaded up
People I had known turned veggie
But these people I know resent me
I got regrets in plenty
Is this where god had sent me
Ally I know u got me baby 
U the only one to accept me
Looking past all my faults
Every single time u call 
I get a break from it all
But still Im thinking like 

Maybe I fake it Maybe Im really ass
Drunk calls faded Ion even try to text
Fully committed But I didn’t know the half of it
Drug addict I should’ve stayed in class
A good night to me is one where I came off crass
But Ion get no help Im focused on getting it masked
When god feeds me signs Im focused on blowing the stop fuck it vroom 
When god takes away I focus on getting it back way too soon

jonestown

@paineko

Lyrics

Lost what I had and I can't get it back
Cause I'm stuck in a mind that just always attacks
Every hope that I have, every thought that ain't bad
It just turns it around till my heart turns to black

So I feel like a body with no life inside
My favorite hobby is hoping to die
This hate inside me is waiting to fly
So I'll sit back and wait for the day that you lie

My only purpose is wondering why
Everyone that is happy could never be I
You wanna save me but don't even try
Cause I'll just fuck it up I'm not worth any time

Drag me to Hell that's where I belong
You prolly can't tell, I'm not really strong
I just do not give a fuck about life
I can't see any light I must be fucking blind

Fuck feelin' love that shit too hard to find
Lately my life ain't been feelin' like mine
I'm always upset but it's honestly fine
I'm just using excuses to go and get high

I like having reasons to not even care
I hate that I'm breathing so smoke is my air
Pumping my lungs full of poison
It's bad and I know it, the rush that it gives, I enjoy it

God if you hear me just fucking delete me
Stuck in a world that I know doesnt need me
I need it neither, I need the reaper
Don't get too close I might blow up like creeper

Fuck ups are my craft, how you been? I'm sad
Why am I here? I might dip out like my dad
Don't wanna fight back, I'ma give up
I made my life bad, I've had enough

Leave me alone cause I'm not what you need
There for you something I never will be
Happiness something I never will see
I'm broke as fuck, got a 10, buy a g

I might go MIA
You wouldn't care anyway
I'm all that's in my way
I pray for death everyday

(Backgroud)
Leave me alone
I wanna go
I cannot take this life anymore
My heart is sore
Brains I might blow
I might just end up dead on the floor

Vibes XV

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