Do it all again you light the fire inside my head
I need another way because im stuck between life and death
Fake love on and on, you hit my phone and again you said
"I love you" I said "here we go again"

i dont feel the same in my brain
my life keeps on falling off and off and off
oh why oh why oh why oh why
im falling off the deep end
for you all for you all for you

My brain do not feel the same around you
I wonder where you at girl I don't have a clue
I guess youre running around you gonna play me like a fool
Baby here we go again, you do things out of my control
Pick me up, you break me down, you throw my heart into the grave
It feels like every time we talk you tell me lies it's all the same
You texting me now, I wanted you then 
But I'm sorry to tell you baby I don't want a friend

i dont feel the same in my brain
my life keeps on falling off and off and off
oh why oh why oh why oh why
im falling off the deep end
for you all for you all for you

you go around puttin all of these lies on my name
then u come back to my place just to go break my heart again
u got me wonderin why everythin has changed
and why u wont pick up my calls

some people want me to be dead
girls like me get up all inside your head 
i guess ill go and lie in my bed
u got me waiting for yo ass to call me back

i dont feel the same in my brain
my life keeps on falling off and off and off
oh why oh why oh why oh why
im falling off the deep end
for you all for you all for you

ALL 4 YOU

Versions for the End

Demise (Sped Up)

Ig @Fantasyawaits

(Lyrics)

I wanna get something straight wanna cut to the chase 

All the negative opinions leave me with a smile face 

I’m just going slow and steady like I’m tryna win the race 

All these randoms hating on me frankly I don’t give a f***

Talking s*** on me for what?

N*** I’m just getting bucks 

Ill assume your out of luck.

Cause your girl be tryna f****

I’m a femboy goth furry hit em like a truck 

Now yall listening like what? 

Ima leave him starstruck 

Aye ima treat this shit like it’s a chore 

I see a baddy shoot my shot and now they at the door 

He say I love you to me cause I help him feel secure 

You keep on hating cause I’m passing gotta keep the score 

I’m a savage you keep on yapping 

You wanna spar let’s make it happen 

She tryna rub my lamp like I’m the genie from Aladdin 

My money stacking no I’m not capping I’m cashing and now I’m dashing 

I’m moving fast Barry Allen 

Aye you talking shit but you cannot afford 

You hating on me let’s go settle the score 

B*** I’m 19 whatchu bother me for 

My last did me wrong that shit hurt to the core

From then on I just solemnly swore 

Ima stack my money i just gotta explore 

Wanna fast car with the butterfly doors 

I be shooting shots playing basketball 

And I got the handles like I’m Mello ball 

At the rate I’m going I will never fall 

You cannot fit in you are not involved 

Ima dive in like I’m Hasselhoff 

Say my thighs soft like a stress ball 

And my shit he bouncing like a beachball 

Now I’m black and red like the hedgehog 

All this money in my face 

Gotta skirt on my waist

And I stay smooth faced 

The way they staring wanna taste?

gotta choker on my neck

I’m just getting bigger checks 

Bet they love it when I flex 

Steady tryna give me neck yah!

FEMBOY GOTH FURRY! (prod. LilReydz)

(all platforms)
produced by garrel

lyrics

you told me have faith in you
never did anything i knew i should never do
hand in hand we went and walked down in the cinema
even when the world is ending I'm never enough

can we chill in your basement
where i feel alright
are we on the same basis 
just look in my eyes
can we chill in your basement
where i feel alright
are we on the same basis 
just look in my eyes
can we chill in your basement
where i feel alright
are we on the same basis 
just look in my eyes
can we chill in your basement
where i feel alright
are we on the same basis 
just look in my eyes

your heartbeat on mine
your one of a kind
my baby i don't wanna do this anymore
with you
c'est la vie to our rendezvous 
criticize all the things i do
i wish i never met you
i wish i never met you 
i wish i never met you

not enough

know I'm not enough
never was the runner up
all I'm saying is the truth
i wont cover up
nobody else matters
look out for self disasters

know I'm not enough
never was the runner up
all I'm saying is the truth 
i wont cover up
nobody else matters
look out for self disasters

can we chill in your basement
where i feel alright
are we on the same basis 
just look in my eyes
can we chill in your basement
where i feel alright
are we on the same basis 
just look in my eyes
can we chill in your basement
where i feel alright
are we on the same basis 
just look in my eyes
can we chill in your basement
where i feel alright
are we on the same basis 
just look in my eyes

end

ivory

I luv midwxst 
Guitar & everything by me :3c but the choir is something on looperman X3

HOW I WANT TO (PROD. SWAIGE)

cover by @solukewarm

ushi san | tepcu

you tryna peer into my eyes and fucking steal my soul
how you wanna leave but you dont even know where shit gon' go
all I need is a drink and then a motherfucking answer
voices screaming in my head I couldn't hear you from this clamour

do you like being the subject of attention?
or do you like it when some niggas tryna break off from your tension?
i'm hoping on my soul that i'm not some fucking extenion
the clock been tickin' fast i can't gain shit from retention

i just let you take a hold of what I took for granted
I wouldn't even sell my soul if big man demanded
you robbed me for my heart and what I held dear to me
I swear you a motherfucking bandit

I'm falling from the sky just like an archangel
except that I can't fly, I hit the back table
i watch as my demise falls short as what I imagine it to be
it's not pretty, it's only fucking painful

how the fuck am I gon' go out like a bitch?
ain't no other time that I ain't fucking fight for my life
i rather myself not be left in past tense
how the fuck am I gon' let go of myself, that shit ain't right

i'm tryna go and peer into your eyes, just seeking closure
you never gave a fuck about me, you only want exposure
I go through this cycle everyday over and over
I only see the finer things when i get fucking sober

(over and over
when i get fucking sober
just seeking closure
over and over
when i get fucking sober
over and over
when i get fucking sober)

my ego took the pen and wrote up on my future
fell in love with another person,
now I can't pursue her
I'm glad that shit ended,
but not off of a fucking rumour
I'm glad that shit ended, but I wish I could've told you sooner

I hope you listen to the twenty seven voicemails i sent up in your shit 
before I fucking left the earth
it comes to understanding that I could've got some help
but i wish i would've got my shit together and told you first

you tryna peer into my eyes and fucking steal my soul
how you wanna leave but you dont even know where shit gon' go
all I need is a drink and then a motherfucking answer
voices screaming in my head I couldn't hear you from this clamour

do you like being the subject of attention?
or do you like it when some niggas tryna break off from your tension?
i'm hoping on my soul that i'm not some fucking extenion
the clock been tickin' fast i can't gain shit from retention

i just let you take a hold of what I took for granted
I wouldn't even sell my soul if big man demanded
you robbed me for my heart and what I held dear to me
I swear you a motherfucking bandit

I'm falling from the sky just like an archangel
except that I can't fly, I hit the back table
i watch as my demise falls short as what I imagine it to be
it's not pretty, it's only fucking painful

retention

Prod mee 

Why don’t you tell me how you feel
About me
(Cut me off) like I don’t even exist-ist-ist
This time
(I-might)
have to live with this
What a bitch
If we can’t resist, then we cannot coexist

I’ll just act like I don’t care that you don’t miss me
I can’t re-write our history
Why’d you have to go and fucking kiss me
Our love’s still a mystery to me
If you gave me one more chance I’d change 
I swear it

Yeah, but you know I’m a liar
I’ll tell you what you want to hear then burn it down to fire
I know that I’m an asshole
(Uh)
You know how I do it
Couple pills to get me through it
I keep on reminiscing on the past
I knew our love would never last
Should have seen it through the glass
I knew our love would never last

I knew It from the beginning
(Knew it form the beginning)
Should have see seen the signs
(Should have seen the signs)
I should have know better
(I was blind)
But I got one less sweater
(I’m so cold)
And a useless letter from you
Letter from you

We can’t coexist
Cause we we can’t resist old loves temptation

Coexist

Prod meee

I just spent some time thing about your face
What a waste
What oh what awaits my fate in your hands
Oh I I don’t understand 
How to move on from you like a man

I just miss the way, miss the way you would talk to me
I regret the way
(Regret the way)
I regret the way I treated you
I think apologies are far overdue
But that’s for me and not for you

I regret, I regret, I regret the way I treated you
I regret the way I treated you
Yeah, yeah
There’s nothing left to do 

I just broke the mirror, hope that I don’t have to see her in my dreams
But it looks like that’s not the case, memories erased
It’s not that easy, I’m a ghost
Can’t see me anymore 
No you can’t see me anymore

I’m a ghost
A parasite without a host
I hurt you bad and had the gull to say you meant the most
I see the irony, won’t justify that side of me
It’s time for my own reconciling

I just miss the way, miss the way, you would talk me
I just miss the way, miss the way, miss the way you talk me on the ground, the mirrors shattered now
All by my own fist
All by my own fist
All by my own fist

Look around
B707’s litter the ground
She said to me, it looks likes you’re addicted
It Looks like you’re addicted 
I’m begging you to fix this
I’m begging you to fix this

Don’t look back, don’t look back
There’s only pain in store for you
Don’t look back, don’t look back
There’s only pain in store for you
Only pain in store for you

Stay away

(I can’t forget)
I just can’t forget

I just miss the way, miss the way that you would talk to me
I just miss the way, miss the way that you would talk to me
Our love is on the ground, shattered into pieces 
No guts to sweep up, ooohhh
It’s on the ground, seven years of bad luck
Wish I could fix it but at this point I really just don’t give a single fuck

About you, about her, about him,
I just need to focus on me
Focus on me

Focus on me

Reconciliation

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The Fractured Angel (prod. Michael Harrison)

STEREO!

A poem accompanied by original background piano music:


A Dream - Sonnet by Christina Rossetti


    Once in a dream (for once I dreamed of you)
        We stood together in an open field;
        Above our heads two swift-winged pigeons wheeled,
    Sporting at ease and courting full in view.
    When loftier still a broadening darkness flew,
        Down-swooping, and a ravenous hawk revealed;
        Too weak to fight, too fond to fly, they yield;
    So farewell life and love and pleasures new.
    Then as their plumes fell fluttering to the ground,
        Their snow-white plumage flecked with crimson drops,
        I wept, and thought I turned towards you to weep:
        But you were gone; while rustling hedgerow tops
    Bent in a wind which bore to me a sound
        Of far-off piteous bleat of lambs and sheep.




An analysis of the poem:

Christina Rossetti's "A Dream - Sonnet" explores the ethereal nature of dreams and their fleeting beauty. The poem juxtaposes the dream world’s vividness with the stark reality of waking life, emphasizing the dream’s transient, almost illusory quality. Through rich imagery and reflective tone, Rossetti delves into the emotional impact of dreams, suggesting they offer a momentary escape from reality, yet ultimately leave a lingering sense of longing and loss upon awakening.



Concerning the background music:
 
Neo-Contemporary Ethereal Fusion music is an attempt at an extraordinary and intricate musical journey that incorporates an array of innovative elements and artistic influences. Drawing inspiration from Neo-Classical, Avant-Garde, and Contemporary music, it standw as a tribute to the limitless possibilities to poetic exploration. 

This track showcases relentless commitment to pushing the boundaries of musical expression beyond the musical rules. 

Its Experimental nature invites listeners to embrace the unknown, as it delves into uncharted sonic territories. The result is an intricate tapestry of sound that challenges traditional norms and expectations.

The Fractured Angel (prod. Michael Harrison)

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