mikey

Wither Without Her

ISSUES ft Rejae

And I've been taking drives alone
Wondering who's side you're on

And I've been taking drives alone
Wondering if I'll die alone
Wondering who's side you're on
Will I ever find my home?

Played me like a xylaphone
slayed me with the lies you told
There's a void inside of me and 
I will hold you liable

DAMN

You really took it out of me
You really push my boundaries
Bad vibes surrounding me
and now I see
We were never bound to be
You showed me what it's like to fly
before you showed the ground to me

When we hang out
I wanna hang myself
It's too late now
You make me hate myself

And I've been taking drives alone
wondering if I'll die alone
wondering who's side you're on
will I ever find my home

Driven by my denial
our plans weren't viable
now I'm grinding on my own 
cuz people aren't reliable 

I can't seem to make sense of 
All these demons in my head
Preaching evil in my head
Thieves and heathens in my head
I be seething in my head
I be grieving cuz I'm dead
I be singing aloud
but I be screaming in silence

and I won't stand by you
just to be put on standby

And I've been taking drives alone
And I know ima die alone

And I've been taking drives alone
Wondering if I'll die alone
Wondering who's side you're on
Will I ever find my home?

Played me like a xylaphone
slayed me with the lies you told
There's a void inside of me and 
I will hold you liable

DOG POISON

[Hook]
Reacting slow, but I'm drivin in the fast lane
Don't pull me over, why the police always bugging me?
Just let me put myself at risk, promise I won't kill no kids
If and when i wreck this whip (x2)

[Verse 1: looseid]
A couple shots down the gullet
Beers in my belly when I get inside the Lexus and I fumble with the keys, tryna start it up
I'm lookin all around me for an officer
Put that shit in drive, when I meant to go reverse
I shoulda kept it parked, but I never trust the words of the people in my life who try to give advice
That shit ain't gonna work, better luck next time
So what if I swerve?
I'm the only one on the road, leave me alone
I'm on my way home, then I'll go to bed
No more driving reckless
Until tomorrow that is, when I wake up from my stupor and I do it all again
Liquor got me feelin' stupid, sooner or later it's gon' get me in a whole lot of trouble, locked up in the Pen
Independent 'til a dealie come and get me and I ain't accepting nothing but a milli
So I can give it all away after I sign it on the dotted line
And I don't care if you think I'm lyin'
I owe so many people my life, and I'm gonna pay 'em back when the time is right
The world needs a whole lot of love, and I'ma ooze that 'til the strings in my heart's done tugging away

[Hook]
Reacting slow, but I'm drivin in the fast lane
Don't pull me over, why the police always bugging me?
Just let me put myself at risk, promise I won't kill no kids
If and when i wreck this whip (x2)

[Verse 2: Maigo]
Yuh
I know shorty wanna be my everything
Ain't no secret we been talkin every day
Said she got a man, I still don't know his name
I'ma take his bitch and make her fuckin famous
Fucking shameless, with the stainless
Ain't no way to make the situation painless
Baby, it's okay if everybody hates us
They won't change us, we gon' stay us
Yuh, ayy
I pour that liquor up, and then I pick her up
No literally pick her up
Closed doors, feet off the floor, and then I kissed her, yuh
Tell her I missed her, yah
She won't be missin' ya

SHAMELESS - ft. Maigo (Prod. Flip)

@yungxoxo - frozen hearts (feat. maigo)

waiting for you to call
with my eyes on my phone

laying on my side on my floor
with my eyes on my phone
waiting for you to call
waiting for you to come home

and I'm not getting any sleep not lately
and every day it's the same thing, god hates me
mom and girlfriend always telling me I'm lazy
but I just let every little thing phase me

laying on my side on my floor
with my eyes on my phone
waiting for you to call
waiting for you to come home

COME HOME

thoughts too hard to process
wondering if I have a fucking conscience 
and if you cross me I'll be heartless
storing all of your parts in my compartments

I know your heart's engulfed in darkness
you tore my fucking heart apart you dark bitch
carved it like an artist
left me with scars I'll never part with
finish what you started
hold the knife and I'll show you where my heart is
roll me up in carpet
drop my corpse into a dark pit

I've been fucking seething
hating every human being
dissociating feelings
'til I'm hanging from the ceiling

thoughts too hard to process
wondering if I have a fucking conscience
and if you cross me i'll be heartless
storing all of your parts in my compartments

I've been fucking seething...
hating every human being...

fuck every human being
fuck every human being
fuck every human being
fuck every human being
fuck every human being
fuck every human being
fuck every human being
fuck every human being
fuck every human being

MANIC

Ride Or Die (feat. Maigo)

I Swear - ft 93FEETOFSMOKE

GRIM WEEPER - ft Sadzilla

I've been rotting in my bed
cuz I couldn't seem to get the fuck out of my head
I've been feeling like
I've been feeling like 
nothing in the fucking world will ever get me feeling right
try to leave it all behind
tryna get out of this mindset
wishing I would die
but when I close my eyes it
burrows deep inside
I'm not sure if I'm alive but I wish that I would die
I don't think I'm alive but I wanna fucking die

j u s t  g e t  o v e r  i t

I've been rotting in my bed
cuz that's the closest thing that I could get to dead
and if I had it my way I would slit my wrists
but there's too many fucking people in on this

I've been rotting in my bed
I've been rotting in my bed

fuck this

I've been rotting in my bed

HxC is Dead

audio samples taken from the show Shameless and an MTV interview of the artist Juice WRLD (I do not own these samples)

dont @ me - prod. dead spyro

PLZ STOP

NUMB

am i there for you
am i adding up or are we crashing cos
i care for you 
but you've had enough of me slacking on
what I'll swear I'll do
feel like a waste of space and I'm afraid to face it
hate the way that I cant erase it
fake our way through every day we've wasted

but I can't help myself
put you thru hell but i am just a shell without you
I hope one day we recover
so every chance I get I tell her i love her
I'm not
okay I cant withstand a day without you
I will never make you wonder
cos I could never love another

FIRESIDE BALLAD prod. Arvnd

MUST HAVE

I've been lookin in the mirror lying to myself
putting on a mask so I can tell em all I'm doing well
I ignore the facts but my vices gon' affect my health
I been going fast, ima crash the whip straight into hell
shawty throw it back then my demons come out of the cell
I'm never relaxed, grinding for the paper by self
when I get it stacked, ima have lil shawty in a spell
need a hundred racks so I can come out of my fuckin shell

can't nobody ever see the pain that I am covering
rolling through my city with my shinigami hovering
ima write your name up in my note if I discover it
I'm talkin to these demons whenever you see me muttering
body bags
heart attacks
(yea)
playing god
killing rats
(yea)
I'm like Kira with the Deathnote I'm killin em with a pen
I used to have a soul but the power got to my head

DEMONS

TENSE

time again and time again
i find i fall behind and its
eating me alive and i
feel best when I'm behind the lens
i hate the way i see myself
i hate it when they look at me
my body is a shell
my lack of confidence imprisons me
i think that if i killed myself
it might just end the misery
i wonder who thinks that im playing
and who is really listening
i'd never want a second chance
i love my friends and family
but nothings gone as planned and
failing you is scaring me

i hate myself and
i wish that i had done more with my youth
but its gone and i'm pissed off
a million self deprecating thoughts I could list off
i'm sick of feeling this way
aura emanating dismay
i just wanna fade into grey
wind on my face as i fall to my grave

DISMAY

i keep everyone i know at arms length
if i let them in i'm putting them in harms way
i been hurting i cant let go of my dark ways
only thing i have to offer you is heartbreak
voices in my head but i don't ever listen
white noise i can never hear my haters dissin
fuck a flex i dont even need a pot to piss in
dont test me, you might end up going missin
i been doing everything the hard way
needed distance but i think i got too far away
poppin pillys for the stress so i can hardly think
might not make it through the night its kinda hard to say
fuck that, i'm immortal boy you're rappin like a fuckin rug rat
bunch of bitches you don't even got a fuckin nut sack
hop up out the whip to piece a pussy in and run back
you's a bunch of chickens thats a motherfuckin fun fact

i get fucked up then i pick a fight
you could run up any day or night
shut the fuck up talking like we're tight
fuckin with my money now it's on sight
runnin into me is runnin into bad luck
ima act up you gon wanna back up
tryna act tough, thickening the bad blood
think again before you stab me in the back bruh

never could i ever be afraid of staying ten toes
i could never let her in my only friends are benzos
high up off of two and writing music in the rental
best leave me alone because i'm feeling temperamental
pushing everyone away because i wanna be alone
barely make it through a day without them blowing up my phone
i pop out to drink a 5th hop in the whip and then i'm gone
then go search for some answers because i don't know what i want

i can't believe i've been in this rut
for so long that i don't see the sun
still trying to find my way
after two decades of endless pain
its fucking killing me i can't take 
the weight of knowing that i dictate their fate
no way i'll let you get in my way
my grind is fueled by hate

STFU

4 bowls till I’m whole finding peace in the grams.

mikey

(sobbing)