Deep October

Stuck in your mind 
You can’t be there for everyone 
Drugs you should try 
We can fiend them together, love 
Once upon a time we both had things to do everyday 
The we almost died when we wrecked your sister’s Chevrolet 

XANAX IS A TERRIBLE MIX WITH ALCOHOL 
I
WISH I COULD ADMIT YOUR DAD WAS WRONG 
And 
His stolen prescription; adderall 
How
Could I ever fix this after all?

The times when 
We were just 
Survivin 
You’re alive, 
Guess I did some
Thing right then 
Touch the sky
Whenev the sun is shinin
I’m just surprised 
We were too young to die then 

Ah ah I 
Ah ah I 
Oblong oxycada 
Watched a lot of friends die 
Damagin medulla oblongata inside 
Heart breaking my mama she wish god was in mine 
Ah ah I 
Ah ah I 
I rock gosha, Prada
And a lot of N9
No moonlight sonata 
Have u got up this high?
I can’t talk about it 
Not if god is implied 
Implied

drugs you should try (prod. suni vega)

Gun to your head 
Sun’s infrared 
Light covers your face 
I’m super high
Unsupervised 
Could go one if 4 ways
Flight of the soul
Close your eyes and it’s over
Plight to get sober
I just might get some closure 

As the nights older 
Eyes to the sky 
Got me blind looking nowhere


I wanted to die when she told me that she loved him 
I wasn’t surprised what it was and what it wasn’t 
That’s I survive, I hang on to my assumptions 
I can see it months in 
Like I’ve already done this

I look to the sky right directly where the sun is
Lock into my eyes let my retinas getting sun kist 
Issa different high when it’s way too much to function 
Am I the only one with 
No fear of repercussion 

Feelings to percussion, 
I hope I do it justice 
Ceilings that get busted 
Can really turn to dust quick 



I can feel the rush...
Rush rush rush 
This is what it does 
To us us us 
A culprit of 
Un 
Adultered love 
In ur touch touch touch 
I’m closed in, shut 
Might I open up 
If I must must must

I wanted to die (prod. suni vega)

Leme fuckin find out 
This shit was a lie 
Different color painted eyebrows 
You look me in my eyes 
I just wonder why, how
I believed u the whole time 
memories will die out 
Somewhere over time 
Baby come here, close ur eye 
Maybe somewhere I can find 
Empathy 
U could be my rider 
And my entity
I talked to ur mama
She was listening 
To all of our problems
I admittedly
Put them in my favor
I knew you might find out later 
I’m so catered 
It’s whatever 
It’s ok 
Cuz I’m forever MIA
I feel better when it rains
With all this weather 
In my brain 
And I feel pleasure 
I feel pain 
When I need effort 
To remain 
Stuck
We just took the same drugs 
Now I’m too high stay up 
And I just hope I wake up 
Tomorrow
And I’m dreaming of space
I can borrow 
With the stars that we traced
In Navarro 


But it’s whatever
It’s ok 
If in my head 
Is where u stay 
And it’s a never endin pain 
And on my bed where there’s a stain 
Of ur makeup
And you hate when I take drugs
Well I hate when u say stuff
About it 
And your parents both hate your
Surroundings...

itriedloving II (prod. suni vega)

Heart in her tummy before starving to ingest 
And the stars will coming as we plummet to our deaths
I got scars on my arm, on my stomach and my chest 
I was starting to love and now I wonder what it meant 
I don’t know 
If anything will change 
Keep me close 
Judging by the stains on your clothes 
There’s something that’s taking a toll 
On me 

Strung out 
She was drug addicted 
Only comes out 
When the suns eclipsing 
How can one sound 
Breed so much suspicion?
From the come down 
Of a month’s prescription 
With your brain
Cells 
Frying 
Face
Pale 
Crying 
And your make up 
Runs black on my shirt again 
Stays up 
Face down in the dirt and wind 

I know deep within  
Based on your relation to kolonopins
You could seek revenge 
Maybe it’d be better to get lost again 
We pretend 
Everything is better I don’t wander why 
Youre keepin in 
Everything I told you I was bothered by

strung out (prod. suni vega)

Should say sooner 
If it’s too much 
For that room that u been living
I hear rumors 
That you’re clueless 
I stay cool with ur oblivion 
The sooner I give in to it
The urge to hit ignore 
I see nights inside your kitchen I think Percocet endorsed 
Standin shirtless at you’re door 
Way more nervous than before 
Like for certain, think your purpose match perfect with your decor 
Like how smoke still stain your curtains
But her purse says Michael Kors
Way too much for me to work with, 
Might get worse with my support 
And I 
Urge you to think 
Bout them words before speak them
A current in sea
I submerge 
With the deep end 
Earth at my feet 
Make me hurtfully seasick 
I know when you’re distant
In existence that is speak in

time (x1000000000)

There were signs
I tried so hard not to waste your time
It gets so hard not to chase a high 
How’d you feel if I said you should stay behind
Here you stand while I sit face to face with god
And my life’s
Been a ride 
For some time
You’re so damaged how’d you manage to survive?
On this planet 
Disadvantages arise

face to face with god (prod. nitrous)

u can keep it (prod. Eadith)

for once (prod. jouska)

Produced @thafireman

Mix/Master @darkskyparadox

HOUSEHOLD OF A SLEEPER
ALL NIGHT I BE GEEKED UP
FEELINGS GETTING DEEPER
MY LIL MONA LISA
THIS SHIT HOLDIN ME UP
OTHERWISE I'M EMPTY
TELL ME WHEN U NEED SOME
TRAVEL TO THE MG

THIS THE SITUATION, THINK I NEEDA RE-UP
STILL BEEN ON THE SAME SHIT, I DONT FEAR THE REAPER
LIKE THE RAIN N THE WIND
THE DECAY ON UR SKIN 
THAT U REEK OF
NO EUREKA!
WHEN THE DAYS AT AN END
WE CAN STAY AT UR FRIENDS 
FOR A THREESOME
THINK I NEED ONE

I SAT ON THE BLEACHER
NOW I KICK MY FEET UP
TRYNA WATCH THE SUNSET 
OVER ISLAND EASTER
ASK ME IF I'M DONE YET
THIS THAT SHIT I DREAM OF
I AINT EVEN WANT FRIENDS
2K FOR A FEATURE

SHE ROCKED THAT LIL SUNDRESS
LAST TIME THAT WE LINKED UP
HARD FOR ME TO CONFESS
SHE'S ALL THAT I THINK OF
MY LIL MONA LISA..


idc

SKIN (prod. ThaFireman)

Off a pill I grin
I keep flexing when she text me
ain't gon' kill my binge
why do hoes still hit my phone up like we're real life friends?
I get lost in my persona for the fields I'm in
if its sealed, I send
I been swimming to my limit, I cant feel my fins
Swear this shit is way too vivid and it killed my friends
and I wish it's for a gimmick but 2 pill I blend

With the roof gone
Can you see the sky too
from this super high view?
Finna lose sun
at 11/High Noon
You can see the night's moon
in the blue once

Always tracing the stars 
like the fabric of time isnt breaking apart
Ache in a heart
and the static in mine 
is a wasted cigar
wasted cigar, can you wait for tomorrow?
I'm a tweaker
This a 3 day molly binge come thru ur speaker
She said that we're hardly friends
Didn't believe her
She said you're retarded if you think it's deeper
It gets deeper
I was nodding, told my mom I had a fever
I would stop but if I try I have a seizure 
Undecided, make my mind up before I leave earth
for I leave earth
for I leave earth
for I leave earth
When I jump in 
I go feet first 
and I run shit
until my knees hurt
I'm on something
Feels like ether
hella substance 
pink as easter
all this suffering
what is it for?
is it something
I can ignore

With the roof gone
Can you see the sky too
from this super high view?
Finna lose sun
at 11/High Noon
You can see the night's moon
in the blue once
Always tracing the stars 
like the fabric of time isnt breaking apart
Ache in a heart
and the static in mine 
is a wasted cigar

Is it over 
said its never gonna get better till ur sober
yeah whatever, its forever on my shoulders
as the weather's getting better it gets colder
Peak 11's triple 7 gimme closure
I said I want this forever what I told her
Even though I know forever is a bold word
is a bold word

Lose myself inside of the moment
prove that hell's inside of me growing
chose myself is how I am going
Life into motion, try to stay golden now

HIGH NOON (prod. Nitrous)

Can’t be mine forever
You said that you hate me then we cry together
I been thinking lately I don’t mind the weather
Always seems so shady borderline the desert 
Oh...
Cried for lesser
I been here before at least this time it’s better 
More or less distorted, you decline the pressure 
Outside every morning 
Sun to blind a retina oh


“I forget 
How nice it is
I’ll die for this
I Will..
Life to death 
No confidence 
No hope”

I possess 
My mind w/ less
How I protect my skull 
Side effects 
Just might affect 
How I project my lows 

Life to death 
Life to death 
Try for next 
I’m fine with that 
Life to death
Life to death 
Sight suppressed, timeline progress

I don’t mind the weather (prod. suni vega)

I know why 
You need time 
Just to trust one
You get high 
So do I 
Let’s get fucked up 
There’s nothing to do here anyways...
Love when u can’t move your pretty face 

Every time tell me lies 
That you made up 
Tell me why 
In case I never wake up 
I guess I used you to get away
I touch ur tattoos and skinny waist

Guess it’s how it goes 
I can’t be adored 
It hurts way less than before 
But I found control 
Wherever I find it 
I think that depends however high that I get

I told you things I shouldn’t have (prod. Eadith)

You were right beside 
on the floor we slept with roaches
A matter of time 
You said before I was goated
Spent $105 on her hand so I could hold it 
A whole new different side 
Of me that she never noticed 
2021, pony boy I’m staying golden 
I been on your mind 
Don’t act like I didn’t notice 
A horrible time going through different emotions
On the passenger side 
When the conversation’s flowing 

I think it gets deeper if we catered it 
Now 
Im not gon lose sleep if we just waited it
Out 
Couldn’t stay 10 down 
When I came to your house 
Ur voice in my head is still my favorite sound 
Think bout when you asked me if I hated it
how?
Your voice in my head
I was obviously nodding 
I can’t feel my legs 
But you stopped me from falling 
Optional? Hardly 
When It’s me but you partly 

You act like u hate me, get no text in the morning 
It keeps me up lately 
But the rest I’m ignoring 
2 months at ur nest at least the sex isn’t boring

I wrote bout my ex, then made a second recording
I talk bout some bitch that I invested in shortly 
effects of it bore me 
what’s next in it for me..

prod 4 am 
mix/master suni vega

can we talk..?

can we talk..? (prod. 4am)

single from Strange Death. Enjoy ♥️ prod. @stillvanishing


Cage me in, ok I may just never leave 
3 day binge, this is like day 70 
brain won’t quit, it inflicts pain regularly 
Drain like wrists, it’s a switch blade severing 
Baby it’s unsettling
In the dark, least the stars look heavenly 
We’re so far apart from everything 
Have you thought about that Evelyn?
Send me a text when the sex gets boring
I don’t think about my x no more 
Left on read, I press ignore 
Out my head, protect, restore. 
Yes of course 
Come to the crib impress me more 
Fuck everything I said before 
Way too deep in the red leaf Forrest 
I see signs I’m pressing forward 
There’s no time to let me mourn 


Said you feel so pretty with my hands around your throat 
Things I been forgetting still gonna dance around my skull 
Lights inside the city, let a tree fall when I go 
I could use your pity, can you sweet talk to my soul  
Stuck in deep thought, here I go 
This my default MIO

You're So Pretty

YOU'RE SO PRETTY (prod. eadith)

Feelings Are Synthetic

Feelings Are Synthetic (prod. Suni Vega)

I would lie
Just to build on your trust 
I realized 
Like the pills 
Ur my crush 
I ain’t jealous idc where you go 
As long as it’s still gon be a us 
We can fly 
w/ no sky in the Way 
We survive just to die different days 
Tell me something that I didn’t know
Or maybe should let it get away 

She want me forever 
Why I came in her v
She’s the half of me that’s better 
Make the same enemies 
And she missing a letter 
But an A and a B
How Wanted this forever
She was named with a G

Carolina weather and the changing of leaves 
You can wear my sweater we can stay at the beach 
Brand new Prada leather but ur chain came from SHEIN 
If ur sane , you can see 
Its a dangerous thing 

And it all comes falling down
Thru halls the walls make sounds
Can’t pause, no stalling now 
And it all comes falling down

can we talk..? (prod. 4am)

Deep October

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