still here after 4yrs, still doing the same dance. damn bro, you're almost at 5k now. cant believe how far you have come. so fucking proud of you bro. 🖤

New private playlist

I honestly can’t remember who produced this only reason I’m posting here and not main. 2019.

fox fur blanket

eyes heavy, I'm tired

eyes heavy, im tired (prod. suni vega)

AGORAPHOBIA

This is Going to Hurt

This is Going to Hurt (prod. Suni Vega)

Drugs are cool at seventeen
by now I might just overdose
Better choices pressuring
but I'm too fucking sober though
Moms I'm in the mezzanine
How set you'd be
If I was one who stole the show
You're not here for lecturing, I hold my own
Clouded mindset
Blurred perspective
Doubt my conscience heard the message
Found my eyesight through detection?
are you blind yet? I could question
And every night I wake up in a casket made of gold
Mistress made of plastic on her mattress made of stone
I find her attractive
It's too bad she has to go
Back home to her dad's house 
I'm a bastard and he knows..
My mother thinks I'm crazy
My brother thinks I'm nothing
My father thinks he'll save me
And they'll laugh when he doesn't
To assure me my safety
I stay far from the public
And I do this shit daily
And do not try to rush it
My sister asks me "brother 
Why you being so quiet?"
I can't tell her I'm fucked up
I tell her I'm just tired 
Been up two nights on substance
And that explains my mindset
Why the family loves us
And why my drugs expire.

I can't feel love; too tired
I'm stuck inside my mindset

production: @fl0ete
mastering: Luke Miller

Brace Yourself (prod. flöte)

@kaynives  @darkskyparadox 



PiHKAL
 June 17, 2017.
*LYRICS*

I lost a piece of myself
2012
I won't forget ya
Me see I never ned help 
Do this myself
Don't need assistance
Girl who depend on my wealth
Notchinmybelt
was fun but good riddance
Me and my baby do well
duet and duality
She's a pretty lil angel

I have no reason to cry
I got no reason to cry
I don't need u in my life
Ill have a wonderful time
Baby look me in my eyes
Pupils one helluva size
I can't attempt suicide
yet to have time of my life
I have no reason to cry 
I got no reason to cry aye

I found myself all alone
A year ago
I need a sunset
Ok, I get it, you know
life is a joke;
millennial fuckfest
I really thought I would blow
instead I do blow 
My only success
Suck it up, love me Im depressed
Up in her tummy das young $ex
idnc if you want me
want u to want me to undress

I have no reason to cry
Ill find a reason to cry
Tempt me and lead me to lie
I see a dream in her eyes 
Im gonna scheme on the prize 
U can just sleep in for life

Tell me, tell me, lie to me, lie to me
I get high of this irony
I decided that I should leave 
Not just you but society 
Do me one and just lie for me

You have no reason to cry
You'll find a reason to cry
Long.Live.MyDemons survive
Attached, I can't leave them behind
Even feel low when Im high
Oh what a wonderful life
I have no reason to cry
I have no reason to cry

Molly Melancholy  (prod. by KAY NIVE$ x DARKSKYPARADOX)

Art by me.


Up 2 nights on amphetamines
I draw lines to their heavenly
melodies
I felt fine but then fell asleep
questioning
everything
can deny who Im crediting for
taking me....
Things I didn't know
Thoughts we never thought of
Put darkness in my glow,
A chalk line made of stardust like
Softening the blow 
With salt all in my nostrils
8ball straight to my nose
put stones all on my tonsils like..
///
I AM THE COLDEST ONE
PHYSICALLY
MENTALLY
TOO MUCH TO SHOW U LOVE
I AM ALONE AGAIN
TOO CAUGHT UP AND ANGRY, TOO STUBBORN TO NOTICE IT
I CARE FOR NOTHING BUT
YOUR ENTERTAINMENT CAUSE FUCK MY UTOPIA
MY MAMA TOLD ME ONCE
JUST MAKE SURE YOURE OLD ENOUGH
///
Trapped in a city as black is my room
My captor left plenty,
'aye master, thank u'
Awful to be a new casualty
Offered to be a new (tragedy) soon
up two nights on amphetamines 
I draw lines to their heavenly
melodies,
Their melodies are settling 


THIS INSTRUMENTAL PRODUCED AND CURRENTLY OWNED BY: @whatsworse

AND AGAIN THE MASTERING OF MY VOCALS DONE BY @darkskyparadox

FELL ASLEEP (prod. WORSE X DARKSKYPARADOX)

instagram- fatherfuneral
-----------------------------------

IM ALWAYS NUMB
IM ALWAYS STUCK
LIKE HOW THE FUCK
U COME UNDONE?
A CONUNDRUM
NEED ADVICE
BITE MY TONGUE
WHILE IM YOUNG
IM AFRAID THE LONG RUN
WILL BE ROUGH
WE’LL BE TOUGH..

MAMA ILL BE DAMNED TO KNOW
YOURE HIGH OFF THE ANTIDOTE
NOW FOLLOWED BY A PHANTOM AS
HIS HAND CREEPS UP YOUR PANTY HOSE
THIS IS WHY IM SCARED OF GHOSTS
GREW UP SAW YOU DANCING FOR
A MAN WHO LOOKS SATANIC SO
IM FRANTICALLY
PANICKING
INSANITY ALL IN MY FAMILY
NEVER TAUGHT ME TO PREAPARE FOR THINGS
THEY SAID ITS ALL JUST HEREDITY
I THINK ITS NONSENSE
THEY ALL JUST WANT ME 
TO GIVE MY LIFE AWAY
IM THINKING POSITIVE
NEGATIVE FORCES
DRAINING MY ENERGY
NEED TIME AWAY IN DIFFERENT PLACES
GET ME AWAY FROM HERE
YA 
REGULAR BASIS
EVERY DAY SHIT
ANOTHER HEMISPHERE
YA 
AND I CAN TYPICALLY 
JUST IGNORE IT
BUT I WANT ANYTHING FIOR ME AND MY SHORTY
SHE HAS EMPATHY FOR WHATS IMPORTANT
AND IVE BEEN LISTENING TO HER LIL GORGEOUS 
THOUGHTS AND SYMPATHY
I DONT DESERVE IT 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GbnrZ7Hd4x0

Instrumental created/produced/composed by @kaynives & @atbrehant

My vocals mastered by @darkskyparadox AGAIN

thanks to my girlfriend for the image <3

https://soundcloud.com/kaynives/rapideyemovement

SCARED OF GHOST [prod. KAY NIVE$ &  BREHANT x DARKSKYPARADOX]

instagram - fatherfuneral

art by me
-----------------------------------------

BROWN EYES, PALE FACE
I KNOW HELL WAITS
IN THE DARK
I SEE STARS

PRIZE OF THE SHOWCASE 
IM COMING HOME LATE
I'VE BEEN GONE
WAY TOO LONG

GOD TRIED TALKING TO ME
I'M HIGH NOT LISTENING
SHINE BRIGHT, IM GLISTENING 
FINE LINES DEFINE ANYTHING 
 </3

PROD.  @prblm

MM. @darkskyparadox
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6vvju_2NXs8&t=103s

IN THE DARK (PROD. PRBLM x DARKSKYPARADOX)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hcig2UlY7VA

Lyrics below 

produced: @prodnitrous

Mastered by @darkskyparadox

https://www.instagram.com/fatherfuneral/


I said fuck a litre 
I been chiefin foe
Percs make me anemic 
Barely bleedin in the cold 
We got lots of leaders
think that Jesus is a clone 
Tho I’m not a firm believer 
But them demons getting close 

Me and my father 
Finally got caught up 
He still has love for me. 
Went to my mom 
And I was surprised 
She didn’t smell drugs on me.
I feel okay 
And I’m in amazement 
Damn I love LSD.
I wanted to die 
So I can see why 
They say don’t do regularly
If mixed with amphetamines 
It’s something that’s heavenly sent. 
If psilocybin 
I feel alive when 
I feel the pressure and presence of god 
When I’m in a mindset 
End of perspective, don’t know what the time is 
Please bring a friend and come chill for the night 
And stall 
Let’s see how the night evolves.
I’m feeling sick 
I’m losing faith 
My ambition 
Like time, slips away.
5 in A.m. 
my minds in a place 
Where eyes to their lids 
Puts time in a maze. 


I’m subbing Kratom for Percocet 
Mind has been made up, no early death. 
I wouldn’t miss you 
Or being misused 
I’d prolly miss all those dirty texts. 
I feel the walls and they’re closing in 
Think I forgot about what sober is 
Haven’t been home in like over six 
Months think I’m getting too old for this 
I swear them Gucci lil loafers hit 
Givenchy is soft like it’s gopher skin 
She said she likes to get choked and shit 
And I’m the first one not an older man
I was 18 when I owned da whip
You was 18 on your phone and shit. 
More If I miss you 
Never an issue 
I’m all alone on the road (and shit) 

Move. 
Yeah you gotta move. 
Watch how I move 
Pussy is bruised 
From 2 intervals 
Can’t talk to the news 
Questions are cool 
but no interviews.

IF I MISS YOU (prod. Nitrous x Darkskyparadox)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFE7yVvHdxo

LYRICS BELOW+++

BEAT PRODUCED BY @imissutelo

MIX AND MASTERED @darkskyparadox

I stay by your picture when I'm stoned
12 oz, punch liquor on the drive home
Shadows in the flicker of the light bulbs
Will anyone remember me when I go?
Lie low
Lie low
I've been suicidal
Neck hangs with my eyes closed
Don't matter where I go
This decision is final..
Never look behind you 
Might see what you don't like to 
I don't talk to God 
but sometimes wish I could find you
I look in her eyes
I see dreams, I see vitals
and I been seeing signs in the things I was blind to...

CALL ME A NAME,
CAN YOU MAKE ME CONFESS
ALL OF THE THINGS THAT YOU HATE I SUPPRESS ?
WHEN IT STAYS IN MY BRAIN AND IT MAKES ME A MESS !
STAYING DEPRESSED IS SOMETHING STRANGER THAN DEATH..

Song about a drug... 
You can see it in my eye, 
Something about your love gets me really fucking high
and
Through my mind you run from problems that you're hiding
I've been coming undone, put me in a cycle. 

CALL ME A NAME,
CAN YOU MAKE ME CONFESS
ALL OF THE THINGS THAT YOU HATE I SUPPRESS ?
WHEN IT STAYS IN MY BRAIN AND IT MAKES ME A MESS !
STAYING DEPRESSED IS SOMETHING STRANGER THAN DEATH..

MAKE ME FORGET (prod. IMISSUTELO x DARKSKYPARADOX)

Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ExM4-D9dUqE
Beat produced by @paczki
Song Mixed and Mastered by @darkskyparadox

AND IM FALLING
IN A PIT,
I ADMIT THAT IM SORRY :(
I DONT GET THROWING FITS WHEN YOU CALL ME.. 
OFF THE SHITS, MAYBE ITS ME WITHDRAWING..?
ME WITHDRAWING..
THINK I LOVE YOU !
I FEAR GOD IN THE ROOM WHEN I FUCK YOU..
AND ITS ODD, I ASSUME YOU'RE ENOUGH TO
FILL THE FOG AND THE GLOOM WHEN ITS SUBTLE..
NEVER SUBTLE, I KNOW..

PARDON ME
I CAN SEE 
U & ME
IN HARMONY 
STARTING THINGS
OUT WEST.
OUT WEST, OUT WEST, OUT WEST.. yeah. (x2)
--
FUCK ME !
TRY TO MAKE ME FEEL SOMETHING 
SOMETIMES MY THOUGHTS GET UGLY.
SOMETIMES YOUR THOUGHTS ARE OF ME.
ARE OF ME
I KNOW SOMETHING
SOMETHING THAT LIES ABOVE ME
I TRIED TO DIE, IM SUFFERING
IM OUT MY MIND, IM UNCLEAN (DIRTY? IDK)
IM OUT MY MIND !

GOD IN THE ROOM (PROD. PACZKI x DARKSKYPARADOX)

beat composed by @prodbeef
 
mix/master @darkskyparadox

DONT KNOW WHAT THEY KNOW
DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY
BEG ME TO COME HOME 
PRETEND I'M NOT FAR AWAY
I STILL FEEL YOUR GLOW
LIKE THE SUNLIGHT ON MY FACE
I'M NOT SCARED OF GHOST
CAUSE I KNOW WE FEEL THE SAME

DONT KNOW WHAT THEY KNOW
DONT KNOW WHAT THEY SAY
SHELTER ME FROM GROWTH 
PRETEND I'M NOT FAR AWAY
I STILL FEEL YOUR GLOW
LIKE THE SUNLIGHT ON MY FACE
I'M NOT SCARED OF GHOST
CAUSE I KNOW WE FEEL THE SAME

RAIN 
FALL ON WINDOW PANE
PLACE
ME IN YOUR EMBRACE

UGH, AGAIN ?!
HOPE THAT I DONT FALL AGAIN..
(FUCK IT THEN),
OK I WAS WRONG AGAIN.

STAY CLOSE
IDK WHAT THEY KNOW
I ASSUME THAT IT ALL DEPENDS ON WHERE THEY WANT TO GO
I CAME HERE LOOKING FOR REVENGE ON ALL THE THINGS THAT THEY STOLE
I'M AFRAID TO FALL AGAIN AND PARTING WITH MY SOUL

STAY CLOSE
STAY CLOSE
STAY CLOSE!

STAY CLOSE (prod. Beef x Darkskyparadox)

After over a year its finally here thank you for your patience, love, and support. Here is a piece of me for you. -✦✦

producers:
1. @808gila
YT: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC2a4MbzmNLr59O7ryeFLf-Q/videos?view_as=subscriber

2. @jtpark
YT: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC-4r-CQERjH2Yf3z8OZ0qxQ
IG: https://www.instagram.com/prodbyjtpark/
TW: https://twitter.com/prodjtpark

2, 3, & 13. @user67beats
TT: https://traktrain.com/user67
IG: https://www.instagram.com/user67beats/
TW: https://twitter.com/prodbyuser67

4, 5, & 15: @prodby2k6
TT: https://traktrain.com/2k6#398704
IG: https://www.instagram.com/prodby2k6/
TW: https://twitter.com/ProdBy2k6

6, 7, 10, & 11: @Kcaaz
YT: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXAzzCItZ91iCEUJbWqrAgA
IG: https://www.instagram.com/kcaaznc/?hl=en
SPOT: https://open.spotify.com/artist/5evZsbAa7rBuUzmrrSyBIe?si=iUEGtukVT_mLxO_UvHJ7DQ

8. @wavkid90
WEB: https://wavekid.infinity.airbit.com
YT: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCePpyk8hUD8NjwnuDXtHmYQ
IG: https://www.instagram.com/liltutur/

9: @lilbearshawty
IG: https://www.instagram.com/lilbearshawty/
TW: https://twitter.com/lilbearshawty
SPOT: https://open.spotify.com/artist/7hkeWsaD98uWlpKLukw0qK

12: @young-enzo
YT: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCVEQ2aSgBXJUVcaK-W-VBcA

14. @shanikai
IG: https://www.instagram.com/shanikai/

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