deep october

Stuck in your mind 
You can’t be there for everyone 
Drugs you should try 
We can fiend them together, love 
Once upon a time we both had things to do everyday 
The we almost died when we wrecked your sister’s Chevrolet 

XANAX IS A TERRIBLE MIX WITH ALCOHOL 
I
WISH I COULD ADMIT YOUR DAD WAS WRONG 
And 
His stolen prescription; adderall 
How
Could I ever fix this after all?

The times when 
We were just 
Survivin 
You’re alive, 
Guess I did some
Thing right then 
Touch the sky
Whenev the sun is shinin
I’m just surprised 
We were too young to die then 

Ah ah I 
Ah ah I 
Oblong oxycada 
Watched a lot of friends die 
Damagin medulla oblongata inside 
Heart breaking my mama she wish god was in mine 
Ah ah I 
Ah ah I 
I rock gosha, Prada
And a lot of N9
No moonlight sonata 
Have u got up this high?
I can’t talk about it 
Not if god is implied 
Implied

drugs you should try (prod. suni vega)

Gun to your head 
Sun’s infrared 
Light covers your face 
I’m super high
Unsupervised 
Could go one if 4 ways
Flight of the soul
Close your eyes and it’s over
Plight to get sober
I just might get some closure 

As the nights older 
Eyes to the sky 
Got me blind looking nowhere


I wanted to die when she told me that she loved him 
I wasn’t surprised what it was and what it wasn’t 
That’s I survive, I hang on to my assumptions 
I can see it months in 
Like I’ve already done this

I look to the sky right directly where the sun is
Lock into my eyes let my retinas getting sun kist 
Issa different high when it’s way too much to function 
Am I the only one with 
No fear of repercussion 

Feelings to percussion, 
I hope I do it justice 
Ceilings that get busted 
Can really turn to dust quick 



I can feel the rush...
Rush rush rush 
This is what it does 
To us us us 
A culprit of 
Un 
Adultered love 
In ur touch touch touch 
I’m closed in, shut 
Might I open up 
If I must must must

I wanted to die (prod. suni vega)

Leme fuckin find out 
This shit was a lie 
Different color painted eyebrows 
You look me in my eyes 
I just wonder why, how
I believed u the whole time 
memories will die out 
Somewhere over time 
Baby come here, close ur eye 
Maybe somewhere I can find 
Empathy 
U could be my rider 
And my entity
I talked to ur mama
She was listening 
To all of our problems
I admittedly
Put them in my favor
I knew you might find out later 
I’m so catered 
It’s whatever 
It’s ok 
Cuz I’m forever MIA
I feel better when it rains
With all this weather 
In my brain 
And I feel pleasure 
I feel pain 
When I need effort 
To remain 
Stuck
We just took the same drugs 
Now I’m too high stay up 
And I just hope I wake up 
Tomorrow
And I’m dreaming of space
I can borrow 
With the stars that we traced
In Navarro 


But it’s whatever
It’s ok 
If in my head 
Is where u stay 
And it’s a never endin pain 
And on my bed where there’s a stain 
Of ur makeup
And you hate when I take drugs
Well I hate when u say stuff
About it 
And your parents both hate your
Surroundings...

itriedloving II (prod. suni vega)

Heart in her tummy before starving to ingest 
And the stars will coming as we plummet to our deaths
I got scars on my arm, on my stomach and my chest 
I was starting to love and now I wonder what it meant 
I don’t know 
If anything will change 
Keep me close 
Judging by the stains on your clothes 
There’s something that’s taking a toll 
On me 

Strung out 
She was drug addicted 
Only comes out 
When the suns eclipsing 
How can one sound 
Breed so much suspicion?
From the come down 
Of a month’s prescription 
With your brain
Cells 
Frying 
Face
Pale 
Crying 
And your make up 
Runs black on my shirt again 
Stays up 
Face down in the dirt and wind 

I know deep within  
Based on your relation to kolonopins
You could seek revenge 
Maybe it’d be better to get lost again 
We pretend 
Everything is better I don’t wander why 
Youre keepin in 
Everything I told you I was bothered by

strung out (prod. suni vega)

u can keep it (prod. Eadith)

eyes heavy, I'm tired

eyes heavy, im tired (prod. suni vega)

white freckles (prod. senshei) 2019

we may never get to heaven with the dogs who died

God Dies (prod. Thornskin)

Dashboard (feat. deep october x sewerperson)

Written, Recorded & Produced by TJ Real ✪
Copyright ©️ TJ Real ✪ All Rights Reserved.

I am an unsigned independent artist in Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada.
All my music has been self recorded and produced in my home studio.

I have been writing since a young teen, with over 500 songs written.
The music I write and record comes from a very deep place within me.
It is based off my own experiences in this crazy and beautiful world.
When I am composing I push to create an emotional feel and connection. 

I really hope you can connect and feel my music just as much as I do.
Thank you for taking the time to listen, even if you don't like it.

Peace, Love and Happiness to all of you.
-TJ Real ✪

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This is an alternate version of my song Spinnin' that I really like and wanted everyone to hear and hopefully be able to connect with. I hope you all can find the place you need to be in this crazy world we all live in, remember even when it all feels like its spinning out of control all you need sometimes is a reminder that there's a place you belong. Peace, love to all you.

Stop Spinnin'

[Hook]
What are the chains of night, you ask?
They’re the weight on your soul, the invisible mask.
But we break through the dark, we rise and we fight,
God’s light is the key, and it shatters the night!


[Verse 1]
Chains of night are fear that locks your mind,
Whispers in the dark that try to blind.
Addiction, greed, deception, lies,
The heavy disguise where the spirit dies.
They’re the voices saying you’ll never be free,
The prison of doubt, the fake reality.
But faith cuts deep, sharper than a sword,
Every chain is crushed in the name of the Lord.


[Hook]
What are the chains of night, you ask?
They’re the weight on your soul, the invisible mask.
But we break through the dark, we rise and we fight,
God’s light is the key, and it shatters the night!

[Verse 2]
Chains of night are shame and regret,
The ghosts of the past that you can’t forget.
It’s the silence that screams when you’re all alone,
The battle in the dark where the pain has grown.
But the dawn will rise, and the truth is clear,
The King of Kings casts out the fear.
Chains can’t hold when the heavens roar,
The night breaks open—there’s freedom in store.

[Bridge]
Chains of night? (We break ‘em!)
Fear and lies? (We shake ‘em!)
Darkness falls? (We take ‘em!)
God’s light shines—we awaken!

[Final Hook]
What are the chains of night, you ask?
They’re the weight on your soul, the invisible mask.
But we break through the dark, we rise and we fight,
God’s light is the key, and it shatters the night!

What Are the Chains of Night, You ask

shinigami x shy - crystal pistols (prod. jay vee)

spotify

apathy w/ guccihighwaters

no samples
prod mix master @93feetofsmoke

video: https://youtu.be/La0kW8IDOa8

lyrics:

nowadays
headache
cold shoulder
getting colder
guess I'm growing older

imma loner
lie and say 
i love her
u dont come over
when your sober

x2

i don't wanna tell you
what I think I about
drugs are longer now
i never leave the house
don't look at me for help
i hate to watch u drown
still tried my best no doubt
like fuck u talking bout??

lie & say i love her

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hcig2UlY7VA

Lyrics below 

produced: @prodnitrous

Mastered by @darkskyparadox

https://www.instagram.com/fatherfuneral/


I said fuck a litre 
I been chiefin foe
Percs make me anemic 
Barely bleedin in the cold 
We got lots of leaders
think that Jesus is a clone 
Tho I’m not a firm believer 
But them demons getting close 

Me and my father 
Finally got caught up 
He still has love for me. 
Went to my mom 
And I was surprised 
She didn’t smell drugs on me.
I feel okay 
And I’m in amazement 
Damn I love LSD.
I wanted to die 
So I can see why 
They say don’t do regularly
If mixed with amphetamines 
It’s something that’s heavenly sent. 
If psilocybin 
I feel alive when 
I feel the pressure and presence of god 
When I’m in a mindset 
End of perspective, don’t know what the time is 
Please bring a friend and come chill for the night 
And stall 
Let’s see how the night evolves.
I’m feeling sick 
I’m losing faith 
My ambition 
Like time, slips away.
5 in A.m. 
my minds in a place 
Where eyes to their lids 
Puts time in a maze. 


I’m subbing Kratom for Percocet 
Mind has been made up, no early death. 
I wouldn’t miss you 
Or being misused 
I’d prolly miss all those dirty texts. 
I feel the walls and they’re closing in 
Think I forgot about what sober is 
Haven’t been home in like over six 
Months think I’m getting too old for this 
I swear them Gucci lil loafers hit 
Givenchy is soft like it’s gopher skin 
She said she likes to get choked and shit 
And I’m the first one not an older man
I was 18 when I owned da whip
You was 18 on your phone and shit. 
More If I miss you 
Never an issue 
I’m all alone on the road (and shit) 

Move. 
Yeah you gotta move. 
Watch how I move 
Pussy is bruised 
From 2 intervals 
Can’t talk to the news 
Questions are cool 
but no interviews.

u can keep it (prod. Eadith)

Deep October

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