All voices are mine, taken from home videos of me from two weeks to nine years old. 

No Scholar (home video edition)

A refrain - The sweet and suffering soul. L'ame evaporee et souffrante by Claude Debussy

A spoken word poetry piece about how I can experience the world as an autistic adult.

Paradise: Lost & Found

Expand your mind 2 'January dreamin'

Song by The Paper Kites. Guitar/vocals cover by Jake Stone.

Paint (The Paper Kites)

These tracks feature Dr James Kirby delivering Compassion-Focused Therapy exercises in order to help build individual's own compassionate self.

CFT - Deepening The Compassionate Self (Part II)

Song by Frank Ocean. Piano, vocals, vocoder by Jake Stone.

Godspeed (Frank Ocean)

I do not own rights to this or claim to. It is posted purely for my love of the original and the cover. Please support either or both of the artists.

[Verse 1]
What's the furthest place from here?
It hasn't been my day for a couple years
What's a couple more?

And if I go, don't forget the one good thing I almost did
I learned your name without words
I used my eyes, not my hands

[Verse 2]
What's the closest you can come to an almost total wreck
And still walk away, all limbs intact?

And when I go, you'll be there
Crying out, begging me
I won't hear
I'll just go fast into this night on broken legs

[Chorus]
A near miss or a close call?
I keep a room at the hospital
I scratch my accidents into the wall
I couldn't wait to breathe your breath
I cut in line, I bled to death
I got to you, there was nothing left
 

[Verse 3]
What's the meanest you can be to the one you claim to love
And still smile to your new found friends?

In the same confusing breath
You pull away and draw me in
I wanted you, you wanted more
I built this life and now it's mine

[Chorus]
A near miss or a close call?
I keep a room at the hospital
I scratch my accidents into the wall
I couldn't wait to breathe your breath
I cut in line, I bled to death
I got to you, there was nothing left

[Instrumental passage]

[Chorus]
A near miss or a close call?
I keep a room at the hospital
I scratch my accidents into the wall
I couldn't wait to breathe your breath
I cut in line, I bled to death
I got to you, there was nothing left


"Sad songs.... make me .. happier" - Connor Oberst

ACCIDENT PRONE (live jawbreaker piano cover) by Julien Baker

This track features my vocals and was written/produced by Samuel D.

Samuel D - Black Eyes Ft. Liv Suphena

Donations/ contributions to the making of the music:
If you would like to donate towards the making of the album and to create physical copies of the album you can do so here:
paypal.me/bexjohnstone

or direct to my bank:
Miss Rebecca F Johnstone
Bank of Scotland
Sort: 80 45 53
Account number: 10014762

I have so far paid just over £4000 in production, mixing, master and studio time.
Any donators will receive a full copy of the album before it is released alongside a written thank you in the album leaflet.

I appreciate any donations so very much but equally do not expect any <3

A refrain - The sweet and suffering soul. L'ame evaporee et souffrante by Claude Debussy

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