suicide flow

visual/lyric video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YVdAtXTN6e4&ab_channel=ghosthands

late june evening (reimagined)

produced, written, sang, mixed and mastered by me
lyrics -
Ruin everything I try and do, cause it’s on my mind
So much that I gotta prove, too scared to try
I’m sick of everyone I just want you, in my life
I know I’ve got nothing to lose, but still I hide
Will I find out how to break out of the cycle
Hurry up, make a choice now and pick the right one
I’ll be alone once you go I know I’ll bleed out
I won’t fight it
And I won’t scream for help
Reasons, yeah I know all mine
Never really wanted to live this life
Still breathing, and I don’t know why
Already passed my original time
I need you, all the time
You are the one who calms my mind
A feeling, that feels so right
A feeling I need all the time
So tired but that’s nothing new
Just need more time
Motivation, never heard of you
Too hard to find
I’m submerging in despair
What a waste of my own life
Fabricated complications
Build up in my mind

Is it alright to feel this way
You hope I make it through another day
New commitments got me freaking out
It’s so exhausting to speak about
I’ve fallen too many time
Is it possible to rewind
I’ve wasted too much time 
And too many tears

Ruin everything I try and do, cause it’s on my mind
So much that I gotta prove, too scared to try
I’m sick of everyone I just want you, in my life
I know I’ve got nothing to lose, but still I hide
Will I find out how to break out of the cycle
Hurry up, make a choice now and pick the right one
I’ll be alone one you go I know I’ll bleed out
I won’t fight it
And I won’t scream for help
Reasons, yeah I know all mine
Never really wanted to live this life
Still breathing, and I don’t know why
Already passed my original time
I need you, all the time
You are the one who calms my mind
A feeling, that feels so right
A feeling I need all the time
So tired but that’s nothing new
Just need more time
Motivation, never heard of you
Too hard to find
I’m submerging in despair
What a waste of my own life
Fabricated complications
Build up in my mind

fallen too many times

lyrics //

me: we fell down when we were kids,
but we just brushed it off
now we’re trying hard to live
and it’s not fun at all

hurt back then but my hearts still beating
fuck my friends they don’t know that i’m 
leaving soon

piece by piece we can put it back
make you think i do track how i run right back to you
and it’s a heart attack, stabbing my back
but i think i’m numb to you
good times, feel you runnin through my bloodline
pack my bags let em all forget me
i’ll be good mom just keep the memories oh

we fell down when we were kids,
but we just brushed it off
now we’re trying hard to live
and it’s not fun at all

hurt back then but my hearts still beating
fuck my friends they don’t know that i’m 
leaving soon

fordy:

broke down city
run around town but it’s looking so empty
in a world so tempting
never done wrong till a girl had left me

said sorry, but it’s not enough 
you saw me, just lock me up
or let me bleed, i’m not enough to marry me 

what about the memories? nowadays i can’t even barely sleep nah
and what about the sympathy? wrote down pages on the way i feel now

i’m leaving you’ll see me soon 
still breathing 
the same fumes you hated
the same tunes 
same playlist

and now i know, it’s so clear
iv been drowning way below, and i can’t hear
if they’re coming or they’re leaving out the door

but one thing
don’t expect me to double back loving
don’t you think that we needed more trusting
cut ties cuz all ur assumptions 

me: we fell down when we were kids,
but we just brushed it off
now we’re trying hard to live
and it’s not fun at all

i was hurt back then now my heart still beating
fuck my friends they don’t CARE that i’m leaving soon
i just know that i’ll be with YOU
i just know that i’ll be with YOU

leaving soon w/ brecken

NotNevi x Gao the Arsonist - MAN IN THE CASTLE

Lyrics:

Hook (Gao)

Yuh//

Feel the gaps in the walls//

Always been the man in the castle//

Hallways splinter out like the cracks grow//


Fuck//

Dawn is for sleep//

Nocturnal//

Repeating patterns like fractals//

Body shrink, collapse into black hole//

Those without sin all live in the same glass house//


Turn my back just to cast stones//

I’m at your neck//

I’m at your neck//

I’m at ya//

Huh//

I’m at your neck//

I’m at your neck and it’s warm//

I’m at your neck//

I’m at your neck//

I’m at ya//

Huh//

I’m at your neck//

I’m at your neck//

Verse 1 (NotNevi)

I’m at her neck I bite down//

I need her energy like right now//

I know he don’t bite but he bark loud//

That boy cap he Kung Lao//

But that combat don’t concern me//

I got used to all the fighting so I’m never acting worried//

I just stay up in the crib//

Never leave//

Roll me up some tree//

Never leave//

What x3

Never Leave//

What x3

Never Leave//

What x3

Never Leave//

Hook (Gao)

Yuh//

Feel the gaps in the walls//

Always been the man in the castle//

Hallways splinter out like the cracks grow//


Fuck//

Dawn is for sleep//

Nocturnal//

Repeating patterns like fractals//

Body shrink, collapse into black hole//

Those without sin all live in the same glass house//


Turn my back just to cast stones//

I’m at your neck//

I’m at your neck//

I’m at ya//

Huh//

I’m at your neck//

I’m at your neck and it’s warm//

I’m at your neck//

I’m at your neck//

I’m at ya//

Huh//

I’m at your neck//

I’m at your neck//

Verse 2 (NotNevi)
Catch my stride and pack my pride I picked it off the floor//

Enjoyment turn to torment//

Started wishing there was more//

I liked it till I monetized//

Desire flipped to chore//

I cried my worth was tied in acts that’s masked the shit I stored//


Verse 3 (Gao)

Canine in your vein//

I’ll drain it if your show your face//

Daylight blisters skin//

They’ll stay white//

Bitch just know your place//

You’ll die like dynasties that’ve formed and fallen since I closed the gate//

I folded space to keep my distance//

Now I see the stone decay//

Huh//

The door is hanging off the hinges//

Step through and branding crucifix//

I vanish like syringes//

My view from castle roof is fixed//

My vantage point is frigid//

Don’t act like we are//


Huh//

Don’t act like we are kindred//

Verse 4 (NotNevi + Gao)

You not my missing link//

We linking//

Something’s missing still//

I only leave to feed now//

It’s not something you can bleed out of me hoe//

Gave you the kitchen sink//

I’m sinking in the kitchen still//

Under my skin’s been itching for others//

Relinquish my governance//

Reach out of this hole//

Huh//

Hook (Gao)

Yuh//

Feel the gaps in the walls//

Always been the man in the castle//

Hallways splinter out like the cracks grow//


Fuck//

Dawn is for sleep//

Nocturnal//

Repeating patterns like fractals//

Body shrink, collapse into black hole//

Those without sin all live in the same glass house//


Turn my back just to cast stones//

I’m at your neck//

I’m at your neck//

I’m at ya//

Huh//

I’m at your neck//

I’m at your neck and it’s warm//

I’m at your neck//

I’m at your neck//

I’m at ya//

Huh//

I’m at your neck//

I’m at your neck//

MAN IN THE CASTLE

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mixed & mastered: SoundMindBeats & weathrhead

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