I've been wounded
Wandering around for these last few years 
I kept walking with an open wound
This was my thorn in my side

I used to walk with my head held high
I used used to believe in myself
It's time to get this back
I'm taking my life back

When I believe I can do anything

I've been to lowest of lows 
Battling myself battling my demons
This wound will heal
I will be me again

I'll return twice as strong

I'm taking my life back

You were pierced for my transgressions 
You saved my life

Now I owe my life to you
By your grace I have been healed
No longer wounded 
I believe

I want to be like You
I want to live like you 
I was once wounded 
But I've returned stronger

No longer broken
No longer a wounded man
I am stronger
And trust me, you are too

We can get over this 
Whether it's depression, addiction, lust, or greed
You can beat it through him
We growing together

I was once a dead man 
But new strength gave me life again

Wounded

It's never been easy for you and I
But I have faith we were made for each other
Overcoming together overcoming adversity 
My love for you conquers any doubts 

Remove the remainder of my heart 
All or nothing 
This half hearted torn feeling seems to be the trap I've been placed in
But traps aren't jail cells

Discordant love 
No more

I've seen the light through the crack in the door 

This chaos this turmoil has ripped me apart
But from the depths a fire glows
We are stronger than we perceive
We are harmony in the discord

Harmony in the discord

Push forward it will get better
I'm living proof of is
You will make it out stronger
Our love is an engulfing flame

Harmony in the discord

Our hearts ablaze with a purifying fire
The evil within burned away
You are my everything
I love you so much

Discord

From the depths of my soul
Is a despair greater than the ocean
A chasm created by a betrayal

A friend you've disregarded a trust you've broken
Life life for yourself
A bond that was broken 
Can never be mended

No trust from me
No longer faithful

How could you stab us all in the back 
Act like it's justified
My heart is broken 
My thoughts are defiled 

When you're at the end of your road
Will you be glad you've made this decision
I miss the real you 
You used to challenge me
Where do I go now 
I miss the real you
You have broken our hearts 
I miss the real you 
You have broken my heart

My sympathy is a well run dry
No more trust for cold blood traitor.

Redemption will come
And it will level you like a steam roller
Redemption will come

No Trust

I recieved a wake up call today
We're two different people
Who will never reconcile
We will never be the same
With your constant judgement of what's wrong
Never focus on what's good

We used to love each other
We used to grow together
Now you hold me down
But I'm not staying there
No I'm not staying there

We're drifting apart and I'm done
I'm just done competing
I hope you hear this and think about what you've done
Cause you've crossed the final line

I'm getting far away
I'm staying far away
This is a new beginning for me

To my friends 
I'm moving on

We used to love each other
We used to grow together
Now you hold me down
But I'm not staying there
No I'm not staying there

We used to grow together
Now we're drifting apart
It's best if I move on
This is best for me 
This is best for us

I'm getting back up
I bid you farewell
I'll see you on the other side

Distance

Is there proof in the way I feel 
Or is this just a state of mind
Can my knowledge justify truth 
Can you be faithful and be true

Honestly the honest side of me
It wants to believe you're there
And I feel it now the guilt that ensues 
Doubting you doubts my judgement

I'll meet you where honesty and truth meet
How can I be honest with you 
if I'm not honest with myself

If I could just honest for a moment
I'd tell you I'm not all I'm sought out to be 
I've read between the lines and fought these thoughts of mine
But am I really all that wrong?

Be honest with yourself
Do you really believe?

If we're being honest...
I'm a little messed up and a 
little desperate
Okay I'm really desperate
I'm not good at following directions
I just don't want you to leave me

Don't leave me don't leave me
Cause all I can offer is my honesty
Don't leave me don't leave me
Cause if you're honesty then you have always loved me

Through my doubts through my flaws
You remind that sometimes I'm wrong 
Through my pain and through my hurt
You've always loved me you've always kept your word

And I haven't kept mine...
Honestly

Honesty

I write this to you beloved
You must know I love you
I will take care of you as long as I'm alive
And when I'm dead just listen to this song

You are beautiful
Keep fighting
I have faith in you
I believe in you
Always remember
Do not miss me
I'll be missing you 
From beyond

Find life in the life you live 
Find love in what you love
Find hope from above
Find peace in the process

Everyday that passes
Breathe the air
See the sun 
Live your life 
With a perseverance 
That's contagious

I hope you find eternal love 
And you never stop smiling
You are everything to me
You are amazing

Find life in the life you live 
Find love in what you love
Find hope from above
Find peace in the process

And don't forget I will always love you 
And that doesn't stop

When I'm dead

When I'm Dead

A hollow vessel with nothing to offer
misleading words and a black hole honor
I'm so sick of your lies
be honest with yourself
Are you even a believer?
Do you even believe yourself?

Your stories are a cry for attention
a miserable way to earn some friends
how you be so dishonest?
a liar in an ocean of discrepancies

Fake
You don't fool me 
Faker
You've lied right through your teeth

but I pray somehow you would wake up 
and realize you have nothing to prove
and if your friends leave you then you don't need them
at least then you'd be harboring the truth

I want you to know that ill never turn my back on you
I will always show grace and compassion
just don't lie to my God 
he cant be fooled

Repent now while you can

I hope your tongue gets ripped right from your throat
with your mouth filling with your own blood
a slice through the skin in your mouth
ill make sure your tongues the first part of you to burn in hell



Death Tongue

"Nobody Fights Alone"
is the motto for these weary bones
just a constant reminder
that I'm broken but I'm never alone

I am a city that's falling apart 
with an anchor in place as my heart
a ship that broken down at sea
that's all ill ever be

My mind is playing tricks on me
getting the truth mixed up with the enemy
just a ship that's broken down at sea
I think this is all ill ever be

so God rebuild me piece by piece
with a structure that's founded on my knees
bring me back to a stronger faith
reconstruct me with your grace

as I lay down my guard I see that you've never given up on me
you're rebuilding me piece by piece

I am yours
I am yours

reconstruct me

I am an anchor in a neverending sea
I keep sinking
you keep reaching


Reconstruct (ft. Cody Ostrander)

Death plagued lips
as the serpent lifts your hands in "worship"
You are the betrayer
You are death in sheeps clothing

You are the anti Christ
You don't follow Christ

I am ashamed to know you
to know the things you've done
how can you still claim to be holy 
your words are a loaded gun

and after so many attempts to
convince you you're wrong
I know exactly what you are
you're not fooling anyone
the fool is you
a mockery to the righteous
a tool for the evil one

you are the one he's warned us about
you deserve the lake of fire

you are the devils hands
you deserve the lake of fire
for doing the work of satan

you are the one he's warned us about
you deserve the lake of fire

The Devil's Hands

I am the fire 
I am the light
I am the wrath
that's filling up his eyes

this is war

I am a soldier for the one true king
laced up with righteous fury inside of me
with a weapon from the holy throne
victory is his he stands alone

don't question the lord of lords
its not a battle to fight that's yours
carry with the torch of salvation
we seek redemption on the entire nation

ages and ages the war has raged on
with righteous fighter never giving up
I hold on to that legacy
I will bring honor
to the warrior dynasty

our generation will claim the victory
you don't scare me

I fight Ill gladly give my life
cause this war is ours to fight
with the fury of a thousand men
a battle for salvation we commend

this is the time to step up
this is the time to say enough is enough

Dead inside I am a monster I am barely alive

the thoughts of murder run through my head when I'm alone
I think I am better of dead
the world doesn't need monsters like me if only you could see
I am a bastard most of the time
its just the way that I live my life
its not your fault its mine plagued with this sin nature inside

I'm psychotic, disturbed, deranged
is there hope for a monster like me?

is there any way out or am I a prisoner unto myself
you've told me that I'm not alone
but sometimes I feel nobodys home
these demons they tell me lies
I'm the one of us that has to die

this is the part of me that I want dead
this is the time, this is the end

dead inside I am a monster I am barely alive

dead memories of innocence 
id rather cut my beating heart out than to deal with this

Dead Inside (ft. Elijah Schumaker)

Fear Within is a one piece side project band from ex-Nigh is the Hour guitarist John Ostrander. 

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