Am I a ghost
In your home?
Do you still choke
When you see me in the shadows?

It’s just your hand
On my neck
And my knife
Against your chest

if I crawl inside your mouth,
would you chew me up?
or would you spit me out,
‘cause you know your teeth would rot?

if I made myself a home,
in the dirt beneath your house?
would you leave me be?
or would you gas me out?

my shoulders are dragging 
from the weight of the wonder
I’m mourning a death
I won’t be our baby’s mother

if I laid down in the street,
would you crush me with your car?
it would probably hurt less
than what I feel in my heart

I could break against the pavement,
find a peace within the shards
maybe I would go out happy 
if I knew you were the cause

my shoulders are dragging 
from the weight of the wonder
I’m mourning a death
I won’t be our baby’s mother

Mother

You and your money came first, I was dying of thirst
But you couldn’t come with me to the river
Knew I had to go out on my own, 
knew it’d be hard but I had grown
I never thought it would be forever 

now she eats the spoils that I died hunting for
and you don’t bring flowers to my headstone like you always swore 
now she eats the spoils that I died hunting for
Hope when she sinks her teeth in your meat
She can feel me roar 
And I hope you love her more
I hope you love her more

Felt that my life was all a lie
I wasn’t happy, was just high 
but wanted marble in the bathrooms
and I felt free not paying rent,
but you didn’t know me, and I regret
whiskey to suppress my ego

And I might look like I’m up high
But I’m just on stilts
Gave my youth to you
So my foundation was never built
And the devil caresses my head and tells me I miss you
I call out to Jesus and ask if that holds any truth

'cause now she eats the spoils that I died hunting for
and you don’t bring flowers to my headstone like you always swore 
now she eats the spoils that I died hunting for
Hope when she sinks her teeth in your meat
She can feel me roar 
And I hope you love her more
I hope you love her more


Hope You Love Her More Demo v1

Couldn't Have You Yet Demo V2 - 2/15/25, 9.33 PM.m4a

writing songs that i’ll need to hear one day to remind myself of where i’ve been. if even one human can resonate with something that i’ve written, then i can die fulfilled

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