What a flipping bloody yeaaaar ..well out of all the years of existence I’ve felt the shift and cycle / year round the sun approach more than ever …. This date has gained huge significance and will probably stand out from all the rest for a long time for me now !

On this date last year around 9am I had an aneurysm I wasn’t aware of having in my brain rupture whilst lifting weights in the gym. This caused a bleed in my brain in the subarachnoid space, what I was experiencing was called a subarachnoid haemorrhage.- more about meanings https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/subarachnoid-haemorrhage/ 

what is an aneurysm - https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/brain-aneurysm/#:~:text=An%20aneurysm%20is%20a%20bulge,bulge%20outwards%20like%20a%20balloon.

The past year has been shaped by the traumatic brain injury and I finally feel like I’m in a stage of deeper healing… still living with some long term effects like chronic fatigue / dizziness/ occasional crashes and memory fog, but overall so able to keep doing the things I love Nd keeping me sane in in my life that require full mobility, which I am sooo grateful for still having, and feel forever grateful for ever having!


To mark the aneurversary (couldn’t help myself) I came together with my pal nd housemate Liam to ask questions nd ignite a convo about wtf happened. This has been the first time I have brought it up in this much detail for a while and it felt like we only just scratched the surface !!


Due to the amount I have realised I still need to talk about. I’ll hopefully release a few episodes surrounding different topics that are very much just based from my experience, and maybe in the future invite some other ppl to have a convo with who have also experience brain injuries. 


Doing this for myself has been cathartic and reflective, but also with the hope that other people who may have experienced something similar could find some home or comfort in hearing my story! 


It’s been Tough at points to recall the fuzzy memories, but feels like the right time to be reflecting in a refined, introspective manner. So here u go for anyone interested 1 nd a half hour podcast about how a 0.8mm wide aneurysm popped in me head nd nearly took me life 🙃🙃🙃 (tried to cut it down as much as poss I promise) 

huge shout out to Liam for interviewing me and being a safe person to bring everything up again with- Ruben who did the art work and Thiea for lending recording equipment <3

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inspired by this podcast to share my story : https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/is-it-because-of-my-brain-injury/id1541766374?i=1000517260097 

Content deets: There wasn’t too much structure in the end to this so it’s really just a chat and going over mostly the sensation I remember feeling, experience in hospital, the care I received which kept me alive, In detail about my operation and a bit about the immediate time after hosp and coming home.  

Feel so grateful to be alive and to have had support, love Nd care from close ppl over the past year, u kno who u are I can’t thank u enough 💗💗💗 TOUGHEST YEAR OF MY LIFE but damn coming out the other side Nd in the words of the Og Suga babes nd finally I’m getting stronger xoxoxo 


Life can literally throw anything at u keep the ppl who care, listen , do the tough work with u, stick by u when ur at ur worst nd love u close coz honestly community care is what keept me alive xxxxxx

Aneurversay Podcast - 1 year marking my Subarachnoid Haemorrhage

voice notes from nearest and dearest collated together to send a bday wish to our beloved, dearly missed, never forgotten and forever in our hearts, Alex T. 

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A Message From Everyone, Happy 26th Bday Alex X

sound creator sometimes dj / performer  xoxo

LU_XXOX