growing fast 
playing smart 
lying too 
acting sad 
planning times
growing fast 
playing smart 
lying too
and acting sad
say it one more time

no one says a word 
they all claim to be afraid of him 
afraid of him 
no ones says a word 
it might seem rude to him 
rude to him 
and then he gets upset

take me out 
on a date 
or knock me out
give me bruises 
and blame them on myself 
see how sweet he is to everyone but me 
cause i'm just his best buddy 

no one says a word 
they all claim to be afraid 
afraid of him, afraid of him 
no one says a word 
it might seem rude to him 
it might seem rude to him 
and then he gets upset 

we all live with his lies 
hoping someone won't prove him wrong 
he's so caught up with everything and nothing 
we all live with his lies 
hoping someone won't prove him wrong 
he's so caught up with everything and nothing 

no one says a word 
they all claim to be afraid 
afraid of him 
no one says a word 
it might seem rude to him 
rude to him 
and then he gets upset 

no one says a word 
they all claim to be afraid 
afraid of him, afraid of him
no one says a word 
it might seem rude to him 
rude to him 
and then he gets upset 

*coughing, more coughing, grunt*

No One Says A Word

Picture Credit to Alexia Hayes

tangy lips, swinging hips, red lipstick, in a field of rose 
where's my blush? it's not enough. 
i wanted to let you know today 

i'll sit on my porch, looking at pictures of you. 
phone in one hand, this song in the other. 
notification, it's from you. 
i'll sip on my blue slushy 

purity, means nothing to me. 
sit with me, tastes like all of the pain
is being washed away, i hope someday, you'll never know

i'll sit on my porch, looking at pictures of you. 
phone in one hand, this song in the other. 
notification, it's from you. 
i'll sip on my blue slushy 

can't you see? well maybe so, even though i like this stage better. 
candles burn, i hope people don't, don't assume of what you won't 

i'll sit on my porch, looking at pictures of you. 
phone in one hand, this song in the other. 
notification, it's from you. 
i'll sip on my blue slushy 
what do i do when it's gone?

i'll sit on my porch, looking at pictures of you. 
phone in one hand, this song in the other. 
notification, it's from you. 
i'll sip on my blue slushy 
what do i do when it's gone?
i'll sip on my blue slushy
what do i do when it's gone?
i'll sip on my blue slushy

Blue Slushy

Picture Credit to Alexia Hayes

well don't you think the brittleness comes with a sense of empathy? that everyone lacks, but no one cracks underneath all the pressure

well everyone thinks we are free, but in reality, not until we're 18
well everyone thinks we are free, but in reality, not until we're 18

but even then the demons crawl inside your ear until you die, until you die you have to suffer. 
make the choice, just down the sour sugar

well don't you think that we're here for a few short years and then we die, well you can't think that, cause it's a fact, what a disappointment 

well everyone thinks it's all right but really it's so pointless
my eyes roll back screaming "I don't wanna die "I guess i've always been a liar

but even then the demons crawl inside my ear until i die, until i die you have to suffer. 
make the choice, just down the sour sugar

Sour Sugar

Picture Credit to Alexia Hayes

the girl i love is like a lemon 
yellow, fragrant, and acidic too
i've always loved her
i've always cared 
is what i tell them, but the truth is there 

f major 7, and capo'd b minor 7 too
is what her voice is, but her heart too

and sometimes as the days go by
and your realize what all is there
and your finding just what your missing 
you lose all your care 

the girl i love likes to be near me
she says i smell like the moon 
my only friend while growing up
besides the lonely piano 
her hair and skin will then begin
to convince me i'm special too 

f major 7, and capo'd b minor 7 too
is what her voice is, but her heart too

and sometimes as the days go by
and your realize what all is there
and your finding just what your missing 
you lose all your care 

and sometimes as the days go by
and your realize what all is there
and your finding just what your missing 
you lose all your care 

the girl i love is like a lemon

Lemon

This song was written for M.P., who also took the picture. Not sure if you want your actual name on here so thas your initials. I liked you last summer. You didn't know. And i knew all you saw was a friend, i knew i wasn't the guy you liked. but it was okay as long as i could be the one you went to when for anything.  I don't like you anymore, but this song will always be yours. 

Lyrics: 

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I met you in the heat of the sun
And I knew you, knew what you had done
But I knew that you deserved better 
And i knew what had begun

And you're not into me
And I know i'm not him
and i knew we were only friends 
and i knew that's all you saw
was a guy who was nice 
but that's okay if i can help ease the pain 

you'll probably never hear this song
and if you do, you won't know it's for you
but your summer eyes pull me in closer
and i knew what had begun 

And you're not into me
And I know i'm not him
and i knew we were only friends 
and i knew that's all you saw
was a guy who was nice 
but that's okay if i can help ease the pain 

and you don't know how your eyes light up the night  
and if you knew id surely die 
and you don't know, and if you did i'd try to fly away 
but you'd find me
just don't find me yet 

And you're not into me
And I know i'm not him
and i knew we were only friends 
and i knew that's all you saw
was a guy who was nice 
but that's okay if i can help ease the pain 

And you're not into me
And I know i'm not him
and i knew we were only friends 
and i knew that's all you saw
was a guy who was nice 
but that's okay if i can help ease the pain

M.P.

the fairs only a few days away and ill get to see you, yellow covered dreams baby, yellow covered dreams
why the fuck is there a yellow cupboard singin' outside my window
my blinds are never closed baby
in case you decide to come spend the night, or come look at me, oh spend a couple hours baby

and i know they tell me to not be afraid but i fuck up everything and i fuck up with everyone else
and i know ive been a bad person, i know ive been a shitty person, but your yellow covered dreams baby

and i know they lie but still you cry about me
but trust me baby ive tried
and im not just another physco-coated pretty boy whos hollow underneath, underneath all the sheets
thats not all i want baby, thats not all i want, thats not all i want baby i want your heart
i want your heart baby, i want your heart, i want your heart and your mind and your soul

Yellow Cupboard

the water outside my window at night
i guess i'm a disappointment
i said i can't swim
but still they begin to push me outside slowly
wheres my raft?
im looking for a life jacket
but then i fall asleep 
im in your arms

Water Outside

dream of freedom on a street corner
cause nothin' could get worse than this
see my future in your eyes
trapped inside this mind 
strum my magic strings to make the things i call my own

and i dont wanna get there cause i like this song
yeah i dont wanna get there cause i like this song

and your the one that makes this song come to life with your eyes
and your the one that makes this song come to life with your eyes

bloodstains on my pants drippin' down the drain
7 on a bus, thoughts of pure white pain
the earplugs whisper in my head my mind is broken and everything is dead

cant fake no more by myself, cant fake no more 'round everyone else 
and all i wanna do is sleep right next to you underground in peace
underground in peace

Freedom On A Street Corner

hi ur listening to this which mean im obligated to tell u that in the summer of 2018 i wrote three separate songs but realized that they sounded great together so i put them all together and here they are i hope they blend well i hope u think that they blend well because they do and i spent a lot of time working on this

a little betta background on the 2, on the summer of 2018 by the way um i went i did a lot i went swimming even though i cant swim i did not swim technically i just floated around the water uh i went to band camp again uh i went to the fair again like every single year

but one thing that i had not done yet i did and that was fall in love, and it was the best thing that ive ever done highly recommend it anyway

one of the things that i did that summer was feel like shit a lot, and out of that summer, obviously it does not take away the fact that i felt like shit and im going to feel like shit throughout my life, um one thing that ive realized is that i just cant give a fuck i just cant i just thats just not me, like everybody, thats the one thing that i pride myself on everyone says im so confident everybody says im so funny and im so outgoing but the reali-the re-the re-the re the r- fuck the reason that that is is because I've realized that if you wanna do something just fucking do it because the world will explode and everyone that you know and will know will die so theirs nobody around to tell that embarrassing story of you theres nobody to- to remember you as that person. just do whatever the hell you want because in the end it does not matter nothing matters nothing at all nothing has purpose there is no purpose in life, you die. so just fuckin' do it man

Re - Re - Reason

Whether it’s 3 AM or 3 PM and throwing up in the bathroom and my blood pours out of my mouth I’m thinking that this is just the norm



So I’ll cry while I’m high hoping that you and I are all right and if I work so hard for you why should he just get you



 You know that feeling when you’ve got to yell, and the words can’t fall out fast enough, and it feels like your whole world is crashing down?

and the only way to scare everything back into place is to scream and shout?

well that’s how I’m beginning to feel, you and him comfortable in a hotel, oh what the hell I’m hoping that he never touches you again



So I’ll cry while I’m high hoping that you and I are all right and if I work so hard for you why should he just get you



I’ll admit that im jealous if you admit that he’s toxic 

and when I’m dead will you notice what I’ve been writing about

Why Should He Just Get U

raspberry kisses brought up with disgrace 
blueberry hot tubs that mend my contest
when will the sun come and we will be free
when will my walls be painted blue, you

well you know i like to keep a knife on me in case someone attacks you and i can cut their face off 
well you know i like to keep my spite on me in case the situation calls for some stupidity 

eraser crumbles all over my bed 
strawberry smoothies with sugar made with care
new stratocaster for 75, red over black babe, new gear and all

felix unknown

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