what's in my mind

this track describes my feelings some tragic things happened to me I lost my brother last year and I just feel different this a sad dark piano song again creds to (prod p4ra x utrab) I hope it is to your liking enjoy 


lf VØIDCHANT (prod. p4ra x utrab)

pls take a moment and open your mind to this track thank you for your energy will not be monetizing this pls no hate this is for those who have gone thru depression and who have also so had suicidal thoughts just know that you are not alone in this pain is proof that your a survivor 

dark place freestyle.credits to (prod BLKSATURN)

this track dedicated to someone I lost—someone who left this world to soon. it's about pain unanswered questions and the silence that suicide leaves behind. I made this to speak what I couldn't say out loud...if
your going through it you not alone

beat:Death Speaks(prod. by flowers in Narnia ) will not monetize this

wheres heaven VØIDCHANT (prod.flowers in Narnia)

lonely cold sad dark soul feeling 
left alone 

numb VØIDCHANT (prod.melone)

sad raw emotions bursting out 
credits to (prod.wxsted)

falling down.(prod.wxsted)

this a song I made specifically for two people in my life and both of them are sisters I love them with all my heart.
credits to (prod.rude boy)
will not monetize this 

do you know what you mean to me VØIDCHANT(prod.rude boy)

if you are the producer pls contact me for credit or removal of the beat.
this a chill sad xxx type freestyle
dark and story telling type vibe. 
not monetizing this 

???-VØIDCHANT ⚠️NON PROFIT ONLY!! PROD.unknown

credits to (prod.bxxnose) non profit use only 
I fw nascar aloe🤟I like his style alot and his raw material this one is kinda like him just of vibes 

you hate me and wish I was dead. (prod.bxxnose)non profit use only

all credits go to (prod.beats by hills)

(Verse 1)
Every time I think of you, I break
Try to breathe, but my chest just ache
You left too soon, I can't escape
The pain you gave me won't erase

I still see your smile in my sleep
But I wake up, and I just weep
I had to carry you six feet deep
That moment plays on repeat

My hands were shakin', knees were weak
I dropped a tear, but didn’t speak
They said be strong, but I feel weak
I ain’t been the same since that week


I’ve been thinkin’ too much
Feelin’ way too numb
Wish I could call you up
Tell you I’m messed up

I don’t wanna cry no more
I don’t wanna lie no more
I just want peace, but
I don’t know what that’s for

(Verse 2)
I ain’t been right since you left this world
Can’t find light, just pain that swirls
I hear your laugh in the back of my brain
And it hurts like hell when I hear your name

They say time heals — I say it lies
'Cause I’m still hurt, I still ask “why?”
My heart been broken, soul been tied
And some days I don’t even wanna try

If I OD, it’s not by mistake
It’s ‘cause I don’t wanna have to do it myself
Can’t keep drownin’ in these pills I take
Tryna fix a hole, I made in my health


I wish I didn’t miss you this much…
I wish I didn’t hurt when I think of us…
I wish I could forget the way I felt…
When I saw them close your casket shut…


I’ve been thinkin’ too much
Feelin’ way too numb
Wish I could call you up
Tell you I’m messed up

I don’t wanna cry no more
I don’t wanna lie no more
I just want peace, but
I don’t know what that’s for


And I just…
Wanna be where you are…
But I’m scared of the dark…
And I’m scared of myself…

not monetizing this 

I don't wanna fight but hope to die. non profit only(prod.beats by hills)

all credit goes to (prod.beats by hills)

Yeah…
Mmm…

(Verse 1)
I gave you trust, you gave me pain
I held you close, you walked away
Now every night, I curse your name
My thoughts are dark, they never change

You took my heart, and let it rot
You watched me burn, like I was nothin'
I sleep alone, and dream of death
No one to save me from myself


In my grave, I’ll rot alone
Don’t call my name, don’t blow my phone
I gave my soul, and now it’s gone
I’m just a ghost, no place called home

(Verse 2)
I hear your voice inside my head
It’s hauntin’ me while I’m in bed
These pills don’t help, they make it worse
I numb the pain, but feel the curse

I wrote this down in case I go
I’ve been so lost, you’ll never know
Don’t shed a tear, don’t fake regret
Just let me sleep, I’ve paid my debt


In my grave, I’ll rot alone
Don’t call my name, don’t blow my phone
I gave my soul, and now it’s gone
I’m just a ghost, no place called home


If I die tonight…
Just know I tried…
In my grave…
I’ll rot with time…

not monetizing this 

reVenge r3v3nue. non profit use only (prod.beats by hills)

this song has a sad dark raw vibe going and it's about how I still blame my self for things that happened 
all credits go to (prod.beats by hills)
this is for my brother who tragically past away I miss him very much 

is this the end. (prod.beats by hills)

all credits go to (prod.rusty // umakashi)
I had alot to say in this track I just had alot on my chest and it just got out and I'm sorry for saying that to my family it just gets so hard to carry all this weight in my chest 
and just to be clear I never got high never I was just tired cause I wrote this at 3 in the morning 