prod. @ffiftyzeros

lyrics
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and all my vices, they so lovely
they keep me inside this house
to where i make excuses subtly yeah
we’re inching towards my self destruction
i don’t have a lot of friends
so socially i do not function yeah

and all my days are spent recovering
i put spells upon myself and read my cards just like a coven
i don’t know what’s come of me
but it’s apparent that this chapter isn’t what it’s supposed to be
drown myself inside a bottle
but i never learned to swim so these controls are hard to toggle
and the outcome dances on the edge of death
so the world i’ve built around myself surrounds my final breath

and these breaths fall sacred given time
i’ve got chains around my ankles and these clocks inside my eyes
i don’t think i’m doing fine
all these tracers in my vision but they never show the signs
ripping moss off of my skin
and i eat the heads of the worms that slither silently within
my blood is poisoned full of sin
guess the mud in my abode is throwing punches towards my chin
crawling out of my own flesh
imma torch off all my ignorance and eat upon the rest
serotonin in his vest
whatchu buying whatchu selling said the merchant on my quest

and we hate the way we feel inside
so we hide away until we die
and think of it as time well spent
the fear of burdening a friend

IF YOU CAN HEAR ME, GET ME OUTTA HERE! (PROD. FIFTYZEROS)

Produced and featured by @Sinxi 

Lyrics 

You don't know how to care for yourself
I'm right here
Every day if It helps
Tear your mind outside this rain
Help you move set yourself out the pain

And I know your losing faith
The abuse you endure just to break
Don't share your heart with him
When I love how your closer to me

Oh you don't even need to stay away
And cut my limbs and eat my heart out of my face
And set my eyes above your gaze
I know you`re worth the wait

I don't trust on decisions I have to make
Il lose us
What if my healing starts to fade
You never knew, how long it hurt
To be in love with her

Don't love
My feelings never felt so strange
I feel cursed
Why do I always end the same
I never knew, how long it hurt
To be in love with her
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(Sinxi)
I'm only human
But it's that u don't get
Tried my best to be near you
Yet your pushing me back
This silence is haunting
Like a movie and it
Doesn't seem to be moving
Cos your holding the brakes
I thought I could understand
This parallel we're heading in
It's hard to resist all the signals u give
And I'm lost in the sense that I'll find some relief
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Oh you don't even need to stay away
And cut my limbs and eat my heart out of my face
And set my eyes above your gaze
I know you`re worth the wait

I don't trust on decisions I have to make
Il lose us
What if my healing starts to fade
You never knew, how long it hurt
To be in love with her

Don't love
My feelings never felt so strange
I feel cursed
Why do I always end the same
I never knew, how long it hurt
To be in love with her

CUT MY LIMBS (feat. Sinxi)

w/ @notaheroo
produced by cxrter & threemvsk
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
(notahero)
i won’t miss these nights, i’ve had better times
i hope you know i pray for you like every night
if i don’t make it, hope i see you in another life
and if you wait around, i’ll show you that i’m still alive
i’m going crazy seeing shadows when i’m turning
i smush this cigarette out
blow it in the sky
and i’m the contrast, you’re so picture perfect
if only my heart wasn’t two sides
you keep begging me to stay, but my hands are tied
i’mma buy a ticket for the next flight
i really miss my friends living on the other side

and she said baby just stay
i promise you gon be okay
i made a fool out myself last night
i’ll try to forget it, but it happens every time

i wanna see you when you see me as a rockstar
and seeing me like this, i know that it’s hard
it’s hard
i broke your heart
you own my heart
the city stops and all of the lights are on
and now i don’t feel it all
now i don’t feel at all

i won’t miss these nights, i’ve had better times
i hope you know i pray for you like every night
if i don’t make it, hope i see you in another life
and if you wait around, i’ll show you that i’m still alive
i’m going crazy seeing shadows when i’m turning
i smush this cigarette out
blow it in the sky
and i’m the contrast, you’re so picture perfect
if only my heart wasn’t two sides
you keep begging me to stay, but my hands are tied
i’mma buy a ticket for the next flight
i really miss my friends living on the other side

picture perfect (cxrter x threemvsk)

lyrics:

You know three things about me
And one of them’s my name
That I don’t like silence
So I love when it rains
You say that reminds you of some movie
And your friend that somehow knew me
In another life, yeah you mentioned twice
So where to next, oh where to

I won’t pretend that I can hear you
But I’ll pretend that it’s enough
When every wall I build is see-through
Can you see what I’ve been dreaming of
Tell a story, I’ll believe you
And you’ll believe a few of mine
Say goodbye right when you need to
And do it all again sometime

I blink twice
I don’t notice
That you’re right
We’re getting lost between the lines
It goes both ways, you realize
That I could be anyone you think I am
So what’s the plan
Should I even try to understand
Sing your praises at the right time
When my pride is in your hands

I won’t pretend that I can hear you
But I’ll pretend that it’s enough
When every wall I build is see-through
Can you see what I’ve been dreaming of
Tell a story, I’ll believe you
And you’ll believe a few of mine
Say goodbye right when you need to
And do it all again sometime

Do it all again sometime
Do it all again sometime
Do you hear me now
Do you hear me now
Tell a story, I’ll believe you
And you’ll believe a few of mine
Say goodbye right when you need to
Do you hear me now
And do it all again sometime

SPOTIFY + APPLE

see through

lyrics

only thing i wanna buy is time
when i blow up, selling tickets for free like shots at the line
you dont wanna play those games no more and thats fine
baby imma be alright
its like you know im waiting for the end when you drive straight to my house and you lift me up
wonder how i made it to my house when im this fucked up
none of this shit was ever in the playbook but i cant take the bus
half the shit i do, the moms on facebook like "control your son"
but this is all of my doing
havent been inside of my head as of late but now im tryna move in
tryna move on if you standing in front of me get out my way
i got them waiting on the next track, dont know what imma say yet
been going to sleep so high i cant tell if im even awake yet
should be a picture perfect life, somebody smeared up the painting

jai's lyrics soon...

chrysalis w/ love jai (p. under the maple tree)

pretty sure if i tried to shoot myself it’d jam at this point

Lyrics:

torch what we had
that shit wouldn't last
fuck weed we pack kief for our passes
don't care who you send i'm not paying my taxes
lie me face down or just bury my ashes 
she's canon
i'm fodder
you try to convince me you're an introvert
pronounce what we were in the way of a proverb
hope i don't see you at one of my concerts
fuck water cuz i live on the monster
REPLACE ME AGAIN AND THEN USE ME LIKE CLOCKWORK
gave you a part on my song 
like you earned it
switch up the lyrics to prove that im learning
the cleft in my armor is much too inviting
the way that they gut me i guess that it might be
i think i'm in love with the way that she strikes me
the rupture of organs i'm beautifully dying

i'll blow all my money i got nothing to lose
i cannot vibe when our distance is huge
find somebody else
how the fuck could i ever
i spend all my nights vivid dreaming of you
say what you want i can say i've been used
this mind is my prison this heart is my tomb
if i am to die in a couple of weeks don't you buy me a funeral
save for your food

don't plan for tomorrows 
if i wake that's the plot
if i'm still alive i guess something went wrong
i'm capping at 30
and driving too quickly
if i am to die 
hope i shared all my sauce
wait in the car while i break in the spot
mold growing steady like cream on the crop
i do not know if i'll last thru december
if not fry my drives n release all the sessions

i think i have plot armor (prod. whyke)

a little demo lol
guitar by me

if i try the same snow cone
i wonder if it will still
taste like coconuts
if i try to love myself
maybe it will stop
all of my cuts

we were 16 i believe
sometimes i think it was all a dream
i think about it all the time
just look under my sleeves

it takes me back
to the place i used to live
ur house looks different now
theres no room for me to fit

if i try the same snow cone
i wonder if it will still
taste like coconuts
if i try to love myself
maybe it will stop
all of my cuts

i want to hate you
so fucking bad
but i really cant
hate someone
who had my back
i want to hate you
so fucking bad
but maybe i can
hate someone
who stabbed me in the back

if i try the same snow cone
i wonder if it will still
taste like coconuts
if i try to love myself
maybe it will stop
all of my cuts

NOW NOW

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