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Approach Me Now

Lyrics:

I'm not pure blue
I'm not the sea
I'm not the things you want from me
I'm not a wreck without a brain
I'm not brown engines in the rain
I'm not the girl you thought you wanted
Do you want a girl at all? I guess we'll see

I'm not one for your manifesto
You wrote in the dark in the car park
You drew your flies and sighed and spoke
Of temporary autonomous zones

I'm not a boom
I'm not a bust
I'm just an animal of lust
I'm not a garden
Not a contract
Not some limestone by the Thames
All the gifts that you steal me
All the chapbooks that you write me make me swell

My friends say you're a massive ego
Not in so many words
I'm too young to have been there
The station at Lenin Square

I'm not an ant
I'm not too small
I won't speak of love at all
You're a centre
I'm a weirdo
You're a star about to fall
You're not the cigarette you put out on my thigh
I don't care at all

I'm not one for your manifesto
You wrote in the dark in the car park
You drew your flies and sighed and spoke
Of temporary autonomous zones

Manifesto

YA DEPRESSED WITH MONEY, GROW UP PATHETIC RICH BOII

27 years ago today, September 28, 1996, I was on the platform of Sendai Station.

I dropped out of college to pursue my dream of becoming a professional musician. And on this day, I finally arrived at the station to head to Tokyo.

My dear friends I met during my university days came to see me off.
My beloved girlfriend, who I've only been dating for half a year, also came to see me off.

I stand in front of the door as the departure bell rings. 
I waved my hand while smiling, wanting to part with a smile. She just looked lonely and embarrassed, but still smiled awkwardly.

The moment the doors closed and the train started moving, her face was covered with her hands and she began to cry, but in a split second her figure faded further and further away.

At that moment, I felt an overwhelming sense of loneliness and regret, and tears overflowed all at once.

I managed to wobble to my seat, but the tears didn't stop and just kept overflowing.

Worried about me, an unknown old lady sitting next to me called out to me, ``Are you okay??Did something happen??''

I thought I had to stop crying, but I just couldn't control my emotions, so I sobbed and explained intermittently.

"I have a dream, so I'm leaving this town today, but because of that, I'm making the people I care about feel very, very lonely.
I really don't know if this decision was the right one. "

I think that's what I talked about.

The old woman rubbed my back and said, "It's okay, you're going to be okay," over and over again.

I continued to cry because of her kindness, without fear of being seen by others. I thought my eyeballs would melt and run off.

I have never cried so much in my life, and if tears have colors, I have never cried the same color as I did that day.

"All the dreams I dreamed that day have come true, and I'm still living happily with my girlfriend."

If I could say that, it would be a beautiful story, but unfortunately it didn't happen and in the end everything just fell out of my hands.

But still, life goes on today.

If there was a "second round" in my life, I often think that I would have done things that way at that time and in that situation.

But even if I could go back to that day again, I would leave. Even if you know the future 😉

It was the most emotional day of my life, but even though I thought, ``I never want to forget this day,'' the memory slowly fades away.

Even so, I wanted to somehow capture this moment forever, so I created this song.

(I chose the 25th anniversary because this song was created in 1998, about a year and a half after my departure. It was a cold winter morning on January 2nd.)

A song about the moment of departure and the days of long-distance love, big dreams and unchanging friendship.

Everything that I have cherished and nurtured is packed into this one song. I would be happy if you could listen to it🤗.

P.S. I'm currently translating the lyrics. I will update it later, so if you like this song, please read it.

Thank you so much for listening 🙇‍♂️🙇‍♂️🙇‍♂️

エヴリデイ(everyday) -25th Anniversary Re-construction-

“A national musical treasure" The Guardian

Steven Adams, formerly of The Broken Family Band releases new album DROPS on Fika Recordings in November 2023.

Since calling time on TBFB at the height of their success, Adams has released half a dozen albums under various names (Singing Adams, Steven James Adams, Steven Adams & The French Drops), his witty, incisive lyrics and melodic sensibilities taking in DIY indie rock, folky introspection, and off-kilter pop hooks. 

Originally from South Wales, Adams now lives in East London.

“Every record I’ve made has been in a hurry of some sort” says Adams of his new album, “and with this one I took my time”. DROPS is the first album to be credited to him as a solo artist since 2016’s Old Magick, his first new music since 2020, and his noisiest record to date.

Armed with a new batch of material, he began by upping sticks to the Welsh countryside to experiment with drummer Daniel Fordham and bassist David Stewart - both formerly of psych oddballs The Drink. The trio then took the songs to Big Jelly, a converted chapel on the south coast, with co-producer Simon Trought (Comet Gain, Johnny Flynn, The Wave Pictures) to lay down the basic tracks for DROPS.

Eschewing a full band set up (“I wanted to concentrate on one thing at a time”), recording sessions in East London followed with Laurie Earle (Absentee) on guitar and Michael Wood (Hayman Kupa Band, Michaelmas) on keyboards.

Adams then took the recordings home and to the French countryside, to work alone.“I finally got my head around home recording in 2020, while things were a bit quiet. Once I worked out how to record things I realised I didn’t have to think about time. I could let the songs evolve and change once we had the basic tracks down. After a while I started to think of them as paintings; trying something one morning, painting over it in the afternoon and attempting something completely different… it was about enjoying the process, making some bangers, playing around... and giving Simon the producer a mess to sort out when it came to mixing the record". Whenever Tom from Fika Recordings checked in to see how the album was progressing Adams would reply, “it’s taking ages but it’ll sound like it was recorded in an afternoon”.

The result is a dynamic and spirited collection of songs, with Adams's love of 90/00s US underground rock (Pavement's Bob Nastanovich is a fan) to the fore.

DROPS is a sonically compelling piece of work: from bleak/exultant opener Out to Sea and the motorik Living in the Local Void to the weirdly funereal Fascists (where Adams imagines the “little skip in our steps” that we’ll have upon outliving some baddies), and Day Trip's psychedelia in miniature. There are also moments of tenderness: the avalanche of empathy on closing track Cheap Wine Sad Face, and I Tried to Keep it Light’s “worse things could happen… I don’t know how, but give me time”.

Adams says: “I'm preoccupied by the passing of time and the way it affects how we feel. This record is about time and bewilderment and trying to make sense of things".

“…astonishing tenderness in its simplicity … brilliant lyrics.” Q Magazine
“…the tunes are instant and uplifting, but the real wallop comes from the lyrical imagery.” The Guardian
“…barbed modern life chronicles.” UNCUT

Drops

Heads Keep Rolling

Steven Adams - Heads Keep Rolling

Remastered by Mikey Young and reissued by Dandy Boy Records

Won't You

Coming To You

Hell Again

Lyrics:
Please don't leave me yet
Stay down here a bit
I swear the air is fine
I swear the air is fine

I hate to see your face 
It reminds me of better days

Yeah you make me feel sad

HELP!!

Words & Voice by  Donnie Ozone
Music               by  Skippy Groover

Everybodys House (feat. Donnie Ozone)

Le sol arrive mais j'ai peur de te le dire
Je perds l'équilibre
Puisqu'on va tomber ensemble j'espère que tu vas être folle de moi
Comme je suis fou de
De toi...

Miel de Montagne - Fou de Toi (re disco ver ''Comme Je Suis'' Mad About Her Club reMix) back to 2025

Fika Recordings is a diy indie[pop] label run from London.


Steven Adams - Heads Keep Rolling

Fika Recordings

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