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scars 4 u they're bleeding out scars 4 u need healing now

scars 4 u (xofilo)

Poison Tree ~Grouper (Instrumental)

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wondersphere

life will be alright as long as im with you

life will be alright

https://hoo.be/2040
art by : www.instagram.com/ms.painter2k/
buy it: https://2040x2040.bandcamp.com/track/something-about-you

something about you

taking drugs? hardstyle

baby i remember #scenecore #hyperpop #digicore 

REMEMBER ☆ prod. takuori!

guess who's at her dads and got a new mic

this is so fucked up, that im losing sleep over this
no, im losing touch
losing all my sanity, shit
this is so fucked up, that im losing sleep over this
god please make it stop
before i have to slit my wrists (x2) 
you wont fucking reply
are you ignoring me
or are u just so busy
and im just so boring

or are u showing off
the way that u go hours
spending ur time alone
i dont have the willpower

i dont know how to say
you drive me so insane
i have to cut again
at least i had a chance

a chance to be with u
a chance to see it thru
but im too fucking screwed
for knowing what to do

this is so fucked up, that im losing sleep over this
no, im losing touch
losing all my sanity, shit
this is so fucked up, that im losing sleep over this
god please make it stop
before i have to slit my wrists
this is so fucked up, that im losing sleep over this
no, im losing touch
losing all my sanity, shit
this is so fucked up, that im losing sleep over this
losing sleep over this
losing sleep over this 

this is so fucked up, think ill pop a molly... smoke so goddamn much, im hallucinating

im so out of touch
u just seem so disgusted
like u cant fucking stand
to be around my presence

i think that im talking sense
what am i supposed to think
when u ignore me on the weekend of all fucking things
im sorry youre so busy
im sorry im so needy
i guess ill never be satisfied, yeah thats what im thinking

this is so fucked up, that im losing sleep over this
no, im losing touch
losing all my sanity, shit
this is so fucked up, that im losing sleep over this
god please make it stop
before i have to slit my wrists
this is so fucked up, that im losing sleep over this
no, im losing touch
losing all my sanity, shit
this is so fucked up, that im losing sleep over this
god please make it stop
before i have to slit my wrists

LOSING SLEEP ☆ prod. Takuori!

i dont wanna live like this anymore

why am i like this!!!!!!!!!

i don't want to live like this anymore. ☆ prod. fallenang3lx

pandora

fuck it up like the way u wanna be everybodys so happy
whats the deal with this guy is he new in your life 
does he wanna be with you like i dont know 
dont wanna talk about it
i will show up to your work

everyday is a pain to go on
and my life is so hard
dont say that youve heard this one before
step back and shut the door
who cares if i use the same chords
my heart will stay torn 
its not fair
i dont care
i wont say that i love your hair
two years that you werent there
i hope that you still care

Pain6

vintage feels/幻想を壊す/lofi/memphis/chill hiphop

f a n t a s y

Posttraumatic stress disorder/幻想を壊す/alternative/breakcore/EDM

mental disorder

https://open.spotify.com/track/0SKdUlTOSMovvyC7eeZBfR?si=d85f034962354a27

prod me

i am so
so in love with u
try not to overdo
wont stick to u like glue
nothin matters
when u are in my arms
my heart shatters
if i am left to dance

slowly i see
the walls r closing in on me
no matter the story i tell
u'll always be a part of me
not much time before
my bones are crushed to dust
either by these walls or
ur looks of disgust

u say im awful
but so are u
so are u
so are u
can we just say goodbye
one last time
one last time
one last time

dancing alone

lmk if u guys vant on all plats >_<

#Nihil

@iamsodead -
Call me on my cellphone tell me why we gotta stop??
I’m never gonna let it go cuz I’m feelin so stuck:/
Tell me what you need cuz I’m never gonna give up
T-t-tell me what you need cuz I’m never gonna give up

pupsies -
only wanna give u love
only wanna b enough
u tell me its js too tuff
guess i caught u on ur bluff

only wanna give u love
boy u got me crying tears
wondering why ur not here
i js wanna disappear

i needed you, all the fucking time
but you hung up every night
u were never by my side
boy js say ill be alright

and ill give u all my love
and ill kiss u all the time
yea ill kiss u all the time

..

cus i-

tell me !!! + iamsodead (prod. iamsodead)

i know it hurts

those cold autumn nights

releases on all plats: 03/08/25

edit: IVE REUPLOADED THIS IWTH A DIFFERENT MIX LIKE 5 TIMES IM DONE WITH IT. NO MORE.

i say "emfl" a lot (end my femcel life) and i said it today and thought WOW! that would be a GREAT song! so i made this
also little story before the lyrics:

BUT GOOD FOR THEM I LOVE LVOE AND IM HAPPY WHEN PEOPEL ARE HAPPY TOGETHER!! :D it makes me feel hopeful!! :DD a little !! :D sometimes !!! :D also the term femcel is not that serious here pls don't come in my comments complaining if u do ur a pussy 

ああ

just another day in my FEMCEL life

(living in a lie)

just another day in my fucking femcel life
and i need a fucking boyfriend
just to keep myself alive
wanna cut my wrists and slice
me to bits
cus i’ve never even held hands 
just said love you on a screen
are you a real human being?

got that captcha
could you capture
this moment permanently 

tell me that you’ll never leave
i can show you everything
i could be all you would need
and when you finally get tired
you can just leave me on seen 

they say i got daddy issues
need someone to hold me
wonder if you knew what i had been through
would you be kinder and see
that i don’t mean no harm
 
i’m sorry all i do’s fuck up
i’m a suicidal loser
and i don’t deserve your love

you can leak the things i say and show
and when i make my plan and end up 
inside of the hospital
break up with me cus it’s good for my own mental health
cus i need some fucking help
cus i cry and beg for you to stay
and promise that ill never make
your life more shit
promise ill fix
every mistake
ive ever made

no matter what it takes…
i just want our perfect future
with our own beautiful daughter 
and youll love her as her father
we can smile and ill make sure
that her life is happy
she won’t ever hurt

just another day in my fucking femcel life
and i need a fucking boyfriend
just to keep myself alive
wanna cut my wrists and die 
tell me why i even try
tell me why i can’t just give up loving — living in a lie.

just another day in my fucking femcel life
and i need a fucking boyfriend
just to keep myself alive
wanna cut my wrists and die 
tell me why i even try
tell me why i can’t just give up loving — living in a lie.

i know i have issues
but i forgive all of yours
i try to show that i love you
but i only end up worse

tried to help through every struggle
even when you broke my trust
told you “please don’t make that promise”
cus you broke it, my heart, crushed.

so it’s— 
just another day in my fucking femcel life
and i need a fucking boyfriend
just to keep myself alive
wanna cut my wrists and die 
tell me why i even try
tell me why i can’t just give up loving — living in a lie.

living in a lie…

my femcel life. (ilybeam)

https://open.spotify.com/track/0H4Atguloqg0ANQC2sUiP0?si=8a162f1c50fa4e8a

[ rei ]

prod me

wish i was a normal girl
in this totally fucked up world
now ive got no self worth
cus im not meant for this earth

if i die i can be replaced
im just used to unite the human race
another me can take my place
just the same expressionless face

just a stupid vessel
im rlly nothing special
wish there was no connection
between me and the angels

wish i was a normal girl
in this totally fucked up world
now ive got no self worth
cus im not meant for this earth
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