Written, Recorded, Mixed & Mastered Entirely By MEEJ.
Executively Produced By MEEJ.

Co-Producers in order of appearance:
PXR.
SATURNGATES.
CXVI | "116".
SPYDERSOUND.
KC "MXXN" LUNA.
FRANK DUKES.
KYLE STEMBERGER.

Rights To The Sound Of Silence Go To Simon & Garfunkel, As Well As "The Disturbed".

Yet He Is I, I Shall Accept.

NOTHING TO DIE FOR. [PROD. MEEJ X FRANK DUKES]

Now Let me talk about what’s killing me.
People come and go and I can’t tell whether or not the ones I see will stay my enemies.
Drain me of my energy.
Take away my inner peace.
Feeling like the devil has been plotting and I let him in unwillingly.

Lately I been talking to this girl and.
I don’t even know if she take me serious enough to say she feeling me.
So I’m tryna play my cards right and see if we can catch a vibe but when I see her with somebody else it feels me up with envy.

I can’t get the message even after all the ones that she took time to even send me.
Know they wanna kill me.
Know they wanna put me in this box so imma cut myself a way out before they even conceal me.

I told my momma a few years ago they’ll hate me to my very last breath.
I fear no shadow of death.
She told me: “DJ if you truly wanna win you gotta sit down and repent because life is God’s ultimate test.”

As I tear away the fabric of reality.
Abandon my mentality.
Duality my mind, I hope you find that in the passages of life you read it way better than I Cuz within mine there is no purpose I feel worthless.
I have nothing to die for..

I have nothing to die for.


To this day I keep forgetting that.
All the people that kept on dismissing for some reason keep on coming back.
I can’t even walk outside in public look somebody in they eyes and feel like I’m a normal guy, because I’m not and I’m so tired of how good she makes me feel but I’m afraid to get way too attached. 

I’m caught like a fly inside the web of all your lies but I would really rather die than even think about dismissing facts.
You say that you care that’s cap.
Maybe I can feel the void if I can get a platinum plaque.

Hellcat and it’s matted black.
Pockets getting wide and fat.

Me and all my homies we just Kick it like Buttowski.
Shout out all the people in the streams that said they doubt me.
Shoutout both my mother and my father that pray that I can go harder and be farther than they were I know it’s no longer about me.

I used to have dreams about people like the present day me. Or more like nightmares. 
I don’t care, just say you hate me.
Don’t try to fight fair.

My whole life the odds was stacked against me, I don’t even know how I got out to even still be standing right here. 

Take a step in my mind.
Glance into the deepest parts and embrace all of my fears.

Do you know the feeling of going back to a broken home, 3 hours after getting beat up by your own peers.

Nothing To Die For.

ANGELIQUE. [PROD. MEEJ X MXXN]


I can’t even lie I got like way too much to say.
Time after Time and i still don’t know if I’m okay.
So far away from me.
I just want you to know you’ll always be my baby.
I wanna save you, how could you blame me.

I’ve had enough.
Watching you suffer took its toll it keeps on adding up.
You kept on saying that he’s trying, but it’s bad enough.
What does he have that I don’t, that makes you flattered.
You always mattered, he makes you feel as if that’s wrong.
Fact of the matter, that makes you madder.
Your friends took his side, said you were the problem.
Till the end of time, I wanna help solve them.
Just give me a chance, one day, you’ll see, together we’ll be.

Lies we’ve foreseen.
Can’t nobody else get in between.
Last name King, come and be my Queen.
Angelique.
Your mind is numb and all your feelings seem to leave.
The future may seem bleak.
We’re both so young and we have time to be complete.
They can’t compete.
Angelique.
Angelique.


Her whole life, she had to fight, like all the time.
She beat the odds.
But it seems as if he was, the one thing, that broke her heart. 
This wasn’t the first time she loved, nor the second or third but she knew that it hurt the worst.
She’ll remember the day that she suddenly woke up and took out the phone that laid in her purse.
Looking down at the messages, falling from heaven, it seemed as if she had came down to Earth.
She pleaded and begged, the tears dripping down on her bed as she wanted to make it work.
And it filled her with dread, put a stop to her breath, Woulda thought that she’d end up inside a hearse. 
Yet she lives in my head everyday as I said, will she ever know I’m the one who loved her first. 


Just hold me close.
I cannot get through to you, just wanted you to know.
And I’m aware that you’re torn into pieces.
Just had to confess to you.

I could love you better than he can.

That is my plan.

Can we be more than just friends.

In the end.

Piano outro sampled from VSNRY's "See You Again".
https://soundcloud.com/musical-genius185/vsnry-see-you-again?si=3698d0b2c59d480abcbc807192f8b966&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

Angelique.

Aven's Interlude.

REALLY LOST IT. [PROD. MEEJ X CXVI X PXR X SPYDER]

I can’t even drive yet but I might sign my first deal.
You Gon need to watch yo self, protect yo wealth, thou shall not steal.
Although in stealth I know I’ll kill, anybody testing my own will.
If he talking nonsense, more than just unconscious he get popped just like a pill.
Don’t think 12 Gon try to stop me I been known to make pigs squeal.
Don’t think haters try to copy it’s the ones that say they real.
Tell me, you know how it feel.
Spin the block just like a wheel.
Hope I see my Little Sister at the Gates just like I’m Bill.
I was cracking seals.
I will never kneel to opposition.
I envision positions for my kids to have pots to piss in.
Yes Sir that’s the only mission.
Stay on point, aim with precision.
Take the shot it’s my decision, it’s the one God had intended.
Imma go get it I got it, I walk in the bank and go make a deposit.
The son of a bastard, The son of a prophet.
I’m outta my mind, and I’m outta my pocket.
I Needa have patience, come into my office.
 The sins of my father, the one who had caused it.
I don’t need no gas, I’m not moving like Caustic.
I walk in the store I don’t care what the cost is.
I bought it, I cop it she telling me stop it.
My options depleted Im stuck on the Offense.
It’s 3rd and 22 I think that I dropped it. 
My defensive players can’t even stop a running faucet.
This is real life, no madden, I can’t even pause it.

Oh my God I think I’ve really lost it.
She say she can’t look me in my eyes, she says it really often.
Way too many times that I’ve been lied to and I’m sick of talking.
Coughing up my blood I might just end up in a bloody coffin.
Hang around some headhunters they popping off ya brother’s noggin.

Keep the beat knocking like 12 in a neighborhood full of some people known to breed violence.
I just wanna tell my father that I’m suffering I keep quiet.
I just wanna tell my mother that I’m dying but I keep smiling.
Every time I close my eyes I think of how my parents screamed in different rooms I really keep crying.
I can see the growth it inspires me so I keep trying.
But the vivid imagery of Satan still just keeps finding.
Every single way that it can bury in my mind and.

My right hand, the sins of my flesh everlasting time and.
Time and again.
It feels like I never win. 
I can’t even lie I’ll die before I ever fight again. 
Cuz the children at my school to me are furthest from my kin. And I promise if they touch me then their blood is where they’ll swim. 
In the name of Jesus, promise afterwards I shall repent. 

Go to the sink I wash and rinse, the bathroom’s dark and it’s intense.
I stand and ponder was it worth it I have no choice but to cleanse. 
I sometimes wonder was I even worth the time that people spent.
I have no time, Ive made amends.
In due time, I’ll cut all ties, they will survive it just depends.

Really Lost It.

STARKILLER. [PROD. MEEJ X PXR X SATURNGATES]

I take a shot from the top of the key.
Might take a trip to Belize.
Ain’t his whip issa lease.
Play me I’m playing for keeps.
I had to dip on her I had to maintain my peace.
I make a beat then I’m tweaking out.
I make a beat then I’m geeking now.
Tell me I don’t need a reason now, he lay on the ground bleeding for treason now.

My new girl move just like Sector 7 wit the way she be keeping these secrets.
I think I’m a vegan the way I be chasing the green and stay clear of the Beef in the streets.
Clutch on my choppa, my heat.
556 with a beam, and I know it’s a blessing for me.

Jeans they too tight.
Diamonds my teeth yeah they bling and bite.
Scream, issa scary sight.
Told her to leave she get one night.
Yeah they tote nines, walk in the club wit a dime yeah she so fine.
She was a hard find.
That don’t mean nothing she call, know I decline.

Decline, I get it Everytime.
So blind, might needa recline.
Sublime, you can’t live this life.
Sublime, you can’t live this life.

Feel like I’m Megatron.
Straight out Kaon, I stay with a cannon like Nick.
Can’t leave the crib without grabbing my blick.
Imma blind man I stay with the stick.
I got the keys I feel like Stevie Wonder.
Or Future, I can’t see you in it.
The same people claiming they broken the same ones that never wanna see you winning.

Talk how I talk.
Get how I live it.
I’m livid.
I’m living it up in Belize.
Black Trackhawk.
Toyota Prius that’s what you be whipping yo friends in at least.
You still in the trap when I made it out.
How can you say you the one living good without me.

Starkiller.

DREAMS OF MY DEATH. [PROD. MEEJ.]
Too many people to please.
Too many reasons to leave.
Too many reasons to kill, Too many reasons you cannot believe.
Too many demons to feed.
Too many families grieve.
Too many years of my greed, I take a stand and turnover new leaves.
Too many wounds that I bleed.
No matter how many times that she tried I’m the only one that she could breed.
From the womb of my mother the ghosts of my kin all my brothers and sisters they scream.
I’m the only one they have, I’m the only one to live and continue the tree.
Everytime I think of death, you see a nightmare to me it’s a wonderful dream.


These thoughts of hell, my mind.
Will I prevail, no time.
Please wish me well, sublime.


I remember back when, I had my hands on the blade put it right to his neck.
I ain’t do it for a check, I was tryna get revenge cuz he ain’t give respect.
He was no more than a boy so was I, I saw the fear that he had in his eyes.
As I look back in hindsight I’ve been in that situation and felt more alive.
That was the only way I got attention.
But I couldn’t do it, I couldn’t just end him.
I threw the knife down on the pavement my mother arrived and I finally understood patience.
Curiosity had turned into hatred. Hatred I left in the past.
That’s why I can’t even care if she getting cold feet and she says that we moving too fast.
I’m not her first or her last.

Dreams Of My Death.

ANAKIN. [PROD. MEEJ.]
Every single song I write it seems like more than me just writing.
Typing away my thoughts and my flaws and all of it blinding I’m flying close to the sun I can run but there’s no use hiding.
Fighting I trade my weapons for knowledge I hope he guides me.
Living in both his image and mine these laws I’m abiding.
Second guessing my talents.
Falling in losing balance.
Take away all my malice. 
I suffer in total silence inside this labyrinth of havoc.
Give me pain just let me have it.

I feel like I’m Anakin.
Mom short on the rent again.
Trapped inside my destiny.
It’s best for me to let you see.
I feel like a mannequin. 
Will I ever stand up on my feet and be a man again.
I’m so sick of opening up but I need to let you in.

I treat my fans just like my enemies and lash out if they copy even one pattern.
Apollo told me chill out it’s too minuscule it don’t matter.
To me it does it’s more than just a beat I want the whole platter.
The life I live has been sort of a joke except with no laughter.
And after the fact I don’t wanna be the one for pity parties.
It’s just that in these beats that inspire them is what really haunts me.
Like how do people relate to a kid sitting in silence crying, confined to a laptop and a hard drive with his parents fighting for hours and hours till he finally gets up to go check it out.
Right after exporting, exploiting his mind and his doubts.
Will I ever see better days.
Will I ever recognize, imitation is praise.
Will I ever realize that right now is a phase, I got a whole life to live and it’ll all be okay.
Will I ever realize that the way I was raised was but a omen of the blessings that God has on the way.


I hate the life I live sometimes I wanna be invisible then stand out.
Outstanding performance for some reason I’m the man now.
Actually no I’m not I’m so sick of giving these handouts.
Sick of going to class with these hidden talents of passions I patented patting my back stabbing dont even say I’m here now.
Like “DJ how it feel now? You moved to Florida I really wish that I could hear about”.
I swear you really don’t lately I’m prone prolly Gon lash out.
Sitting in lunch I look over cafeteria trap house.
Students turned into fiends it’s obscene I’m seen in the background.
Seething, bleeding I’m keeping my head hung low can’t turn back now.
In the bathroom they cheesing and screaming “We gotta fade now.”
I ain’t even debating bout pleasing I just behave now.
Maybe a lot less brave now.
Staring at my reflection depressing depict my thoughts as I wrote this I had a break down.
Thinking how I got chased down by 15 different dudes I’m the loser that they still hate now.
I don’t know why my family keep lying bout how I look good, that’s why I don’t got a date now.
Praying that I grow taller could happen like any day now.
Saying that I’m a baller my father can’t even say that I worked hard enough to see the field.
I probably should just stay down.
Never been good enough I’m too tired to even change that.
Sitting in Sunday service still feeling worthless I’m nervous as I listen to the word and it’s purpose the surface of my pain could prolly go way deeper than the Earth is.

Anakin.

THIS LIFE. [PROD. MEEJ.]

I’m moving weight.
I had to trap out the kitchen been whipping in pots but I don’t need a plate.
I had to find me a reason to live so I took me a flight outta state.
Now I get racks offa rapping I’m spazzing too hard I might buy an estate.



Telling these girls that I love em but I never cuff em don’t go on no dates.
I’m tryna get me a Bentley or maybe Amiri to sag from my waist.
Why you keep laughing I’m outside ya crib I don’t need me a time or a place.
I whip a 4 door just like it’s a 2 door I skirt off I slide and I skate.
I mix the Louis with Bape and I flooded my neck now its prolly Gon drip like a Lake.
I put the reds and the blues on two different sides of my denim I look like a Jake.
Please do not come around toting them weapons lil boy I can tell that they fake.
I wanna see how you look when you faced with a nine or a .45 right at yo face.
I went to Hell & Back and went tit for Tat with the Devil im standing unscathed.
You say you living this life I’m not phased.
They tryna copy I turn em to Paste.
Dipping my chips really at my own Pace.
Might drop a check for her nails and her lace.
Might blow the top yeah the roof of the place.