I veered closer to under the bleachers, finding solace near a puddle by the garbage. At this point maybe I’d sat for a quarter lap’s worth, wailing my hearts out behind the safety of this darkness, hoping never to be found. Was ‘I’m going to hurt you’ simply euphemism for ‘I’d been dating all along’?

Night Jog - Audio Drama

The cupboard door opens and closes, then the rustle of a newly opened packet of coffee and taking cups from the drawer. 

"Black coffee, two sugars?"
"Black coffee, two sugars." She confirms.
"Gonna make me some, too."

For a three-shot kind of life, he only opens the cupboard for a new packet of instant milk coffee. The really weak one with the golden rim. Equal parts coffee, creamer, and sugar.

Coffee at Three - Audio Drama

Lord I seek to build in me and others
A trustworthy ally and a worthy adversary
In whichever way, shape, or form.
A boundlessly proud, cerebral, snappy eloquence, and
A wholeheartedly passionate resilience
In relentless compassion 
For there is no might or power except those of yours, amen.

Birthday Prayer

deep blushes turning scarlet
arrows flying sharp in blooming lights

whisker dimples hollow cheeks
clever cookie silly grin
what are you doing, count me in

maybe everything's a favor
but not everything i do has a motive

tried to kill it from the start 
But what if there's something to start
Cause i bet i do make the part

i might be reading, doing a lot of reading, reading into this
learning how to rumba like a Roomba 
going back and forth like you

And here we go, let the chips fall where they may
little bits of stories
intersecting like clover, petals on your cheeks
learning how to push the brakes, 
For the bigger things I do

So here we go, chips fall where they may
little bits of stories
growing softly like clover, petals on your cheeks
hit the road and floor the gas, 
cause I am launching into space

Hello who's this, oh yes it's me
I'd like to deliver milk tea downstairs 
What are you on? No, it's just a gag

Clover

Overdose / Goyang Inul

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News En.MP3

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Event Indo.MP3

Event En.MP3

Traffic English.MP3

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Music Indo.MP3

I guess i'm on a roll today! Why not demonstrate civilly and creatively? :>

Bayar gajinya, bayar gajinya, bayar gajinya sekarang juga, sekarang juga, sekarang juga.
Pasang koyonya, congkel hidungnya, pirangkan rambutnya  sekarang juga, sekarang juga, sekarang juga.
Colok infusnya, rampok duitnya, masukkan UGD sekarang juga, sekarang juga, sekarang juga.
Pasang musiknya, dan mikrofonnya, tiket pesawatnya  sekarang juga, sekarang juga, sekarang juga.

Pay the wage, pay the wage, pay the wage, now, now, now.
Put on the muscle patch, wreck the nose, blonde the hair now, now, now.
Stick in the needle, grab all the money, put him in the ER now, now, now.
Turn on the music, and the microphone, and the plane tickets now, now, now.

DIACAPELLA SEKARANG JUGA!!!

Main Serong

Accumulate

Vegas

Chalice

River Knight

Wallpaper

Ayo Mama

Tuhan akan membungkam elakanmu
Bahwa engkau bukan pencuri atau pembunuh
Karena sesungguhnya hanya mereka yang takut atau bersalah
Yang akan menyalak dan menyiksa
Demi menutupi telinga-telinga pekak mereka

20 Oktober 2015.
Sudah ditindas jangan ganti menindas.

Sabda

It's not every year that I share my birthday with a special Someone. :)

Salawat Ulang Tahun

Puntir Pelintir
Kamu adalah urat ungu dan darah merah yang bermekaran di jantung hati dan mata kaki kamu.
Kamu puntir urat biru dan darah putih yang nyaris seputus asa kamu.
Yang nyaris putus itu kamu dan urat kamu dan asa kamu, tapi mungkin bukan cinta kamu, yang dari saban hari masih jadi bulan-bulanan tabloid.
Kamu dan urat syaraf kamu adalah duri yang mekar di kepala kamu, seperti yang kamu tulis di puisi kamu.
Kamu adalah urat nadi kamu yang membentuk jalan lingkar luar bernama leher kamu
Yang penuh bercak merah air panas dan bercak kotak koyo panas dan bercak ungu gigi panas.
Kamu adalah urat nadi yang mengakari jemari gempal kamu
Yang tidak senyaris putus urat sendi kendur kamu 
Yang terlampau hangat dan penuh memar tanpa detak.
Nadimu, kamu, berdetak.
25 Juli 2016

Puntir Pelintir

Bento Ratu Sejagad

I am not a conquest
Or a feat or a trophy to boast
Or a fraud and a whore
Warranting eternal repentance
Or a promise suspended
Over sweet nothings that weave holographic tapestries
For if you take me as a hill to conquer
Then I will conquer
my terrains will turn rough and tempestuous
My roads steep and caves jagged
With shouts and teeth barren
An animal on a leash it never asked for
Yet if you take me as I am, warm blood, soft heart and soft flesh,
Capable of will and flaw and compassion
Then I will give to you willingly
With ease and warmth
And a slow and true kind of joy that does not wash away

Conquest

The poet you fell in love with

This is me,
The poet you fell in love with
With all her silly murder mysteries and inconceivable love stories
With all her grand big ideas bursting out of her head
In all the excitement and vigor
That you fell in love with

This is me,
The college student that you didn't know you would've fallen in love with
Weaving the words that she loved the most
Just for a few nods of approval
Wanting to be in, but also be out
Always reaching for strangers and far away places
When all she wanted to be was
home

This is me,
The star-crossed lover that you didn't want to have to be loving
Again
All she wanted to keep was the fact that she managed to find happiness
Even in the worst times of her life
So that she can remind herself
That happiness is what she can make wherever she goes

This is me,
The poet you fell in love with
But she never wrote anything for you
Because every single thing she wrote
Or drew
Or made
Killed whatever was left of the ones never meant to last
But she did write a prayer on the first page of her new journal that said:
God, grant me the most truthful of beliefs
Till I may roam your earth in your faith and name
Grant me a peace of mind
That comes from remembrance of your company
Grant me tireless servitude and sweat
That comes from the certainty of your design
For there is no might or power except those of yours

This is me,
The basic, callous bitch you had to spend time falling in love with
She might have come off as weird
Or uncomfortably uncouth
But she's learning.
Pray, she's come so, so, so, so far with these things
From the poet you fell in love with

This is me,
The scarred lump of trembling anxiety you deem too emotionally expensive to keep falling in love with
She loves being good and being loved
So at the slightest chance of imperfection
when she is sized up and scanned for flaws
By gallant, impenetrable hearts,
She kicks water at sea and forgets how not to drown
Her thorns show and her nose just under
Paddling padding paddling
Just hoping to come up again

So remain at the seaboat
To sail yourself away, alive
Or watch
As she stops fighting the currents
And reminds herself how to float
To shore
With words
For you
As she heals the scratches and dries her wrinkled fingers
Out loud
Being the silly, bright, loving, although sometimes scared,
Poet you could've fallen in love with

The Poet You Fell In Love With

An ode to the beauty of the Indonesian language

#dia #compose #acoustic

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