Deadman Collection

stream on all platforms: https://too.fm/vp8ryyk

produced by @prodgrayskies

lyrics:
"There's no good times left
No matter what you think
It's all in your head
You should see a shrink"
I don't give a damn
It's happiness she brings
Lead me to my end
That's the greatest thing

If there's darkness ahead
Then lead me to it
I don't care at all
No, I don't care at all 

So break my jaw
Rip out my spine
I would love to die
Inside your arms tonight
It's all my fault
Bring me despair
'Cause in the end you are 
The only one who cares

I won't leave your side
No matter what they say
'Cause you're all I have
At the end of the day
They say that you're messed up
I guess that I am too
We're the perfect pair
That's why I'm sticking to you

stream

break my jaw (with love, my dear) (prod. grayskies)

prod me (guitar from a splice pack)

lyrics:
you ask me why i've been hiding
i lock myself inside my room and think about dying
i wanna feel alive but my mind's bad at deciding
can never show emotion because i know they'll start prying
i feel all the cuts you made seeping through my skin
i wish i could turn back time and start it all again
we'd be happier inside a giant house
a perfect family that always has an out

you ask me why i've been crying
'cause i woke in a cold sweat dreaming about you dying
i know that i need therapy, it's just hard deciding
i'm scared to show emotion 'cause i know they'll start prying
you ask me why i've been crying
you ask me why i've been crying
you ask me why i've been crying
you ask me why i've been crying

chronophobia

erm.... what the pop punk?!?

all plats: ffm.to/dirkleimfine

guitar from LOWTOW splice pack

lyrics:
used to look back at a person that i hated
but now i'm glad i can say i've finally made it
further than i ever thought i would
and that's good! \(^-^)/
i used to mope around and pout (╥﹏╥)
but now i wanna scream and shout

'cause i'm fine!

and i'm not changing 'cause i know that's what you wanted
and you have faded away from every little part of my mind ✖✖✖
and now that you're gone i finally feel right
for the first time in my life imma tell 'em i'm fine! \(⋋‿⋌)/

'cause i'm fine!

I'M FINE!

all plats

stream "i love the world :)" on all platforms: https://too.fm/ebbxjkk

guitar from boxtrod splice pack
mastered by my pal jason

lyrics:
i don't sleep like i used to, sleep like i used to now
at 6am when it's peaceful, sunlight would peek through
i'd rest without a sound
now it's earlier lately, the stars they elate me
make me realize i'm bound
to be somebody useful, somebody useful
before i'm put in the ground

i don't grieve like i used to, grieve like i used to now
i realize that you're gone, headed to the beyond
and resting without a sound
i've been happier lately, my thoughts they engrave me
with hope that i'll come around
and be somebody youthful, somebody youthful
and live while my time is now

like i used to

guitar by johnny808 on looperman

lyrics:
when i was 18
i thought that i'd do great things
but instead i went and did nothing at all
except for worry about death
and make my life a fucking mess
and now everyone else is watching my downfall
i did this all on my own
i fucked it up by myself
now i have nowhere to go
and there's no one who can help
i did this all on my own
i fucked it up by myself
now i have nowhere to go

eighteen

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guitar by nynycomante on looperman

lyrics:
you drew some lines in the sand
still held out your hand for helping
i've been so selfish to you
i'm on my own, never felt so alone
i'm helpless 
i feel so jealous of you

you make feel desperate
i don't wanna lose you again
know you felt neglected
deserved more attention
i should've respected your want for acceptence
'cause now that you're gone
i just can't move on
can't reverse the past
i wish that i could go back

you drew some lines in the sand
still held out your hand for helping
i've been so selfish to you
i'm on my own, never felt so alone
i'm helpless 
i feel so jealous of you

jealous

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guitar from oakscreen splice pack

lyrics:
you're a figment of my mind
and you look different every time
but i guess that's by design
you always hide behind my eyes
i wish i could see you tonight
i wish i could see you tonight
oh, woah, oh
oh, woah, oh
oh, woah, oh

figment of my mind

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guitar from a lowtow splice pack

lyrics:
you looked me in my eyes
then you tore me limb from limb
i saw through your disguise
and knew i was never gonna win
i hope there's somebody out there
looking for the pieces of me
they told me that life would be unfair
can't believe it took me this long to see what they mean

always connected

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guitar from a lowtow splice pack

lyrics:
i took all of it in stride
even when you tore me down
let you rip apart my pride
hoping you would stick around
but things didn't work out the way i wanted
and now all my memories are haunted
i guess i'm back to where i started
but instead i'll pick myself up again
that's just how it goes
that's how it goes
that's how it goes
that's how it goes
that's how it goes

that's how it goes

produced by nathan p

lyrics:
they cut my wings
before i could fly
now bluebirds sing
above me in the sky
i wish i was someone
someone in your eyes
i wish i could be
someone that you need

but i went bad at 17
and now my heart is lost in memories
i guess we were never meant to be
my blood runs red, red like grenadine

they opened up my head and all they found was a brain
they thought that i'd be different, thought that i would change
they put me back together and sewed me with a string
they asked me what i wanted, and i said everything

but i went bad at 17
and now my heart is lost in memories
i guess we were never meant to be
my blood runs red, red like grenadine

grenadine

My car (prod. Julian Ceaser)

low-fidelity hip hop to ride trains and look at stuff to

stream on all platforms: https://too.fm/triptoakihabara

trip to akihabara

kevin gates gif

original song: https://soundcloud.com/deebillz41/kai-swervo-dee-billz-kyle-richh-kj-swervo-beckham

beckham.

you know me as the rizzler

original song: https://open.spotify.com/track/3zKUAP5iLc4cT4w9uDg9p3?si=33896f03f9b14e69

we bring the boom.

tell em kendrick did it.

original song: https://soundcloud.com/kendrick-lamar-music/gnx

gnx.

"to move forward i had to look back" december 20th

stream on all plats: https://too.fm/keoonon
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to look forward i had to look back

what it's like to love

"to move forward i had to look back" december 20th

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pre-save my album :)

waking up next to you

"to move forward i had to look back" december 20th

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you don't need me

it feels so simple
lovin' always
it feels just right
i can't explain it

sample from splice

can't explain it

out by the beach, singing love songs 

18 | trans (MtF) | pansexuality | she/they | mentally ill dog thing

https://flamecanine.straw.page/

Deadman Collection

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