shit dude didnt know i needed more of this shi

pull me closer *recycleBin + garasu*

prod. flesh
master by @notluna

i 
cant go outside
and i dont know why
yeah im growing tired
of cancelling plans
it's only one night
with all of my friends
and i know it's alright to wanna stay but i
feel guilty when i dont even try
to power through and have a good time

i wish that i could be someone else
i wish that i could be someone else
i wish that i could be someone else
i wish that i could be someone that isn't me 
yeah i wish that i could be someone else
i wish that i could be someone else
i wish that i could be someone else
i wish that i could be someone that isn't me so much, oh

edit: I've never had a song perform this well!! shoutout the algorithm gods I'm glad it's resonating w ppl :') should be on Spotify etc in the next few days!!! thank u everyone for all the support it fr means a lot to me <33

i wish that i could be someone else

Not Upset + ybcmiley [xgatteora]

prod. flesh

sample: artist vs poet - like kids

lyrics:
from the moment that I woke up
I've been tryna see the sun
gotta wait a bit it's not up yet whoa
I've been throwing bricks into the pond
I'm just tryna skip all of the upset yea
I don't get a say in what I want
but I don't wanna end up on the doorstep uh
cuz then I get stepped all on
nah n I don't wanna stress too long

I remember it like it's yesterday
I'm still in it in the memories
swear to god I'll give them everything
but they'll never take the rest away
so I'll keep chasing notes I dreamed I wrote

I take my card and receipt
pack all my things into my bag then I step out in the heat
it takes longer than I want
and though it's hard as it seems
it's only everything I wanted
everything I wanted to be

Not up yet

me n u <3

Lyrics_

Your voice echoes soft 
Everything comes with a cost
This life i made is tearing me apart

The years are burning away
But, i still feel the same
My bones will wither away
But my ghost will remain

I built a house of cards
Only to watch it fall
A haunting dissonance
Melodies that never resolve

The doctor gave me pills
Prescription chemicals
As i walk through the gate
I ran into a wall

Don’t go
Don’t go
I know im turning gray
But i used to be gold

Don’t go
Don’t go
Seasons change 
The cracks begin to show

Don’t go
The cracks begin to show

Don’t go
The cracks begin to show

Misery chose me
But baby you’re the only one who really knows me
I flew so high when i came down
I had a nosebleed 

I suffocate on the words
I can’t say
I’m choking
Memories corroding 

Its been so long since i felt like myself
Desperate for help
Are you there?
Can you hear me?

Im sick of saying the same shit in all of these songs
Ive been hanging by a thread for way too long

Don’t go
Don’t go
I know im turning gray
But i used to be gold

Don’t go
Don’t go
Seasons change 
The cracks begin to show

Don’t go
The cracks begin to show

Don’t go
The cracks begin to show

don’t go

Lyrics_

Vessels in my heart detach
These drugs wont fix my feelings
Fresh wounds old scars still healing
I never thought it would get this hard

I watched it all fall apart in front of me
I lost a part of me
Im sick of dealing with these

Changes
I cant face it
A broken home they say that love is blind
The children watch their father cry

Changes
I cant face it
I think im running out of tears to cry
I’llpace around my room another night

In pain but I’ll still be there
Always my brothers keeper
Sister know how you’re feeling
Wish i could take it all away

I’ll bare the burden
I’ll catch the bullet right in front of you
I used to be gold
But the weight has slowly turned me blue

changes

prod fats'e x 6host x polearm

video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HU6n99Nob90&ab_channel=fats%27e

lyrics:
i've been underwater on a mission
i might sell my soul just for ambition
have another sip, poison my system
pour a glass of wine like i'm a christian
i'm on a new tip, i'm not alone
i'm on a new tip, don't hit my phone
DND, i'm hangin' with the bros

i need me some more, i need some more
i got a few moves, that's just a fact
i got a few movеs, i'm in my bag

i feel like i'm someone you'd avoid
it's not as if i еver had a choice
i'm afraid of how you hear without a voice
someone could've faked it
and i can tell you're easily annoyed
but wouldn't it be easier to write back
than pushing me away until you're bored?
i think sorry is a drink you could afford
hiding to be safe, i never liked that
the quiet's even harder to ignore
there'll never be a way to find the right path
you just wanted me to change the course

still . reaching w/ 6host

prod. flesh x tommy hydra

lyrics:
i'm so back, round 2
i'd be down again, i can trust you
all of our regrets made us who we are 
there's no going back so i just keep making these songs

for myself, lately i've been having fun
i unfurl, bloom until i see the sun
a spiral, really i'm just warming up
promise kept, i'm not going back

cuz i slept all of the time that i had
it's so hard when you always forget
i keep letting down all of my friends
i confess, i know i've been such a-

i think that i waited way too long
walking on the walls i been glued on
healing up while it's peeling off
once again, on the ceiling i
made a friend, yeah i wish
we could talk, we're the same
you and i, when you sing
so do i, i bet that's why we're so alive

i made a bet, i will not quit when i'm dead
i'll just keep on coming back, i am the voice in your head
i'm keeping tabs, so much i'm feeling the lag
i think i figured it out, i keep on moving them back
i keep on jumping the gun, been on my shit from the jump
i gotta go out the way to figure out where i belong
i think it's in the garage, doing whatever i want
tangled all up in the web that i spun

spider

spider (flesh x tommy hydra)

burning ft. hamilton (sailor x jolst)

https://soundcloud.com/evergardens/remorse original

lyrics:
were u always unsure
did u care for a while
tend to find myself
hoping we reconcile

and now its not urs
see ur losing ur smile
u must feel some remorse
to act so jealous now

ooooo

dont u cry its getting u nowhere
you come to find ur actions have consequences
i know u act under false pretenses

dont u cry its getting u nowhere
you come to find ur actions have consequences
i know u act under false pretenses

were u always unsure
did u care for a while
tend to find myself
hoping we reconcile

and now its not urs
see ur losing ur smile
u must feel some remorse
to act so jealous now

Not up yet

flesh golem

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