Written, recorded, and produced by Felicia Sekundiak
Artwork by Felicia Sekundiak

Lyrics:

If you knew that tonight would be the last time
Would you say something different?
Did you mean always when you said 'please be mine'?
Or did you mean something different?

Late nights in your bedroom
Everytime I leave it always feels too soon but
I can't stay forever
Because my brain says now or never 

Where's the joy in growing old?
Is it just something that we're told?
Is heaven even a real place?
Or is it what I felt the first time I saw your face?

End credits roll
End credits roll
End credits roll
End credits roll

Wait
I'm not the lead character in my movie
I think I've lost all control but
Everyone is gonna wish that they knew me
When those end credits roll by

Late nights in my bedroom
Everytime I cry I always think of you and
When I told you never
But my heart will hurt forever, and ever, and ever

Where's the joy in growing old?
Is it just something that we're told?
Is heaven even a real place?
Or is it what I felt the first time I saw your face?

End credits roll
End credits roll
End credits roll
End credits roll

If you only knew what I could see (hey!)
They love my acting, they don't love me
Never gonna share an onscreen kiss (dadadadada)
All my best moments are often missed

End credits roll
End credits roll
End credits roll
End credits roll

End Credits

Written/recorded/produced by me

Fleeting life
I might just let it pass me by
I can't afford to keep what's mine
I don't have much anyway
But all I hear is

Time is precious
Don't you dare waste it
Pour it in your mouth and taste it
Tell that someone that you love them too
I do

Will you love me beyond tomorrow
Will I ever feel beyond my sorrow

Everything is 
Fleeting
Fleeting

Peace of mind
I'm always trying to be kind
Sometimes I leave myself behind
I don't need much anyway
But all I hear is

Time is gracious
To those that make it
The rest of us just smile and we fake it
Tell somebody that we miss them too
Do you

Will you love me beyond tomorrow
Will I ever feel beyond my sorrow 

Everything is
Fleeting 
Fleeting

Fleeting

only ones who know-arctic monkeys cover

you always hurt the one you love-the mills brothers cover

Fleeting life
I might just let it pass me by
I can't afford to keep what's mine
I don't have much anyway
But all I hear is

Time is precious
Don't you dare waste it
Pour it in your mouth and taste it
Tell that someone that you love them too
I do

Will you love me beyond tomorrow
Will I ever feel beyond my sorrow

Everything is
Fleeting
Fleeting

Everything is
Fleeting
Fleeting

Everything is
Fleeting
Fleeting

Everything is
Fleeting
Fleeting

Peace of mind
I'm always trying to be kind
Sometimes I leave myself behind
I don't need much anyway
But all I hear is

Time is gracious
To those that make it
The rest of us just smile and we fake it
Tell somebody that we miss them too
Do you

Will you love me beyond tomorrow
Will I ever feel beyond my sorrow

Everything is
Fleeting
Fleeting

Everything is
Fleeting
Fleeting

Everything is
Fleeting
Fleeting

Everything is
Fleeting
Fleeting

Everything is

Slasher Flick

I like holding your hand
But it hurts, oh I can't stand
To see you
To feel you
My insides are turning blue

I like the way that you walk
Sometimes I wish you'd never stop
My heart aches
My bones break
With each little move you make

I can't help, I can't really help it
You make me feel like

You're waiting for the next best thing
Something had to change
A girl you'd give a diamond ring
It's kind of hard to explain
I'm not mad that you don't adore me
Wish you told me
But when I'm with you I feel lonely
Oh-oh-oh

I've been staring outside
Spare time, was thinking I could find
Where leaves blow
Where the weeks go
When the snow comes to dampen your fall

Far from the life that we knew
Months hurtle by and I barely see you
So I've been down
Dumb as it sounds
When you're with me, you're somebody else

I can't help, I can't really help it
You make me feel like

You're waiting for the next best thing
Something had to change
A girl you'd give a diamond ring
It's kind of hard to explain
I'm not mad that you don't adore me
Wish you told me
But when I'm with you I feel lonely

Oh, you're waiting for the next best thing
You're saying hi to your friends
The table won't know what to bring
Nice to see you again
Your intentions are so damn hazy
Though it pains me
I wish you'd let your guard get lazy
Oh-oh-oh

Next Best Thing (feat. Vansire)

Wasted, wasted youth
I'm choking on the truth, oh
Growing old is never easy
When there's so much that I want to do yet
I can hardly leave the room so

Please won't you just leave me alone
Nobody can help me
Nowhere feels like home

Uh
Whenever I'm feeling lonely
Whenever I'm feeling lonely

Need to sort my shit out
Fell asleep on the couch
I never loved sleeping as much as I do now

Why do you think that is, huh
Prescribe me some more meds until there's nothing in my head at all
Side effects may occur

And now it's getting serious
I think I'm a little delirious
Cause I want novocaine injected right into my brain

To get this thing to settle down
And turn my sadness all around
Do you think that it's feasible

To feel or to feel nothing at all
To feel or to feel nothing at all

Why's it always got to be like this
When's it going to be the last time
When's it going to be the last time

Every day is hell
And I'm stuck in myself
Nobody can hear me calling out

To feel or to feel nothing at all
To feel or to feel nothing at all

Death Of

1, 2, 3, 4
Who can ever really know 4 sure
'Cause nothing you say has got any merit
I don't wear my heart on my sleeve 'cause I know you would tear it

5, 6, 7, 8
You're late 'cause you came from your last date
And it is already New Year's Day
I waited for you

You treat me like a dog or a parasite
I was always yours, you were never mine
I'm not the final girl in your horror movie
But you won't let me die you'd rather do it slowly

Left alone
Heart is in the Twilight Zone
It would be more of a jump scare
If you actually showed up when you said you'd be there

Now I know what you are
You were texting her number riding in my car
And I know someone better you should meet
She's fast, and she's shiny and her name's Christine

You treat me like a dog or a parasite
I was always yours, you were never mine
I'm not the final girl in your horror movie
But you won't let me die you'd rather do it slowly

Slasher flick
I'm living in a slasher flick
I'm not the final girl
Don't get another day in your world

And there's no sequel for me
Like you convinced me to believe
People like you are so good at
Always hiding behind a mask

You treat me like a dog or a parasite
I was always yours you were never mine
I'm not the final girl in your horror movie
But you won't let me die you'd rather do it slowly

Hey

It's just a matter of time
Before you finally reach me
I'll put my heart on the line
And you can put yours too

So c'mon give me a sign
And you can finally teach me
A feeling I can't define
Maybe you'll feel it too

1-800-LOVE
1-800-LOVE

Hello you've reached the hotline
At the tone leave affection
I'll do my best yeah I'll try
To get right back to you

So c'mon give me a sign
Before we lose connection
And I'll let you see me cry
And dance to my own tune

1-800-LOVE
1-800-LOVE
1-800-LOVE
1-800-LOVE

1-800-LOVE

1-800-LOVE

linger (cranberries cover)

Knockin' On Heaven's Door (Bob Dylan Cover)

Written, recorded and produced by Felicia Sekundiak
Artwork by Felicia Sekundiak

While we're close
Tell me all about the things that you love the most
I just want to kiss you
But I'm afraid to miss you, so I don't

I kind of want to go away
If I could crawl out of my skin I'd stay
But I always seem to toe the line
Living for your peace of mind

I can't escape forever
I can't afford the drugs that keep me together
A lifetime of pain with few moments of pleasure
Makes my heart go cold while my eyes get wetter

I know
I'm only here because you said so
I know
I'm only here because you said so

So it goes
I'm never going to love again, I'll let it decompose
I'll be broken-hearted 'til I'm dearly departed
What a joke

I kind of want to waste the day
Forget all of the things I wish I'd say
If I hadn't made my mind up on goodbye
I'm scared to live, not scared to die

I can't escape forever
I can't afford the drugs that keep me together
A lifetime of pain with few moments of pleasure
Makes my heart go cold while my eyes get wetter

I know
I'm only here because you said so
I know
I'm only here because you said so

Read the letters on the screen
Pretend you know what they mean
Don't hold on but don't let go
At my wit's end, no room to grow

Oh, I'm only here because you said so

Teleprompter

That’s My Love

girl like me


my heart is too heavy for my body so i wrote these songs.  don’t take life too seriously ok? love u. enjoy.


the sickness

strawberry milkshake

don't get ur hopes up when you're always down
the higher u fly the harder you'll hit the ground
i felt something i haven't felt before
a feeling i promised to keep behind closed doors

the waiting game
i hate it
the waiting game
i hate it

you're really under my skin
i don't know where u begin

don't fake a smile like you're a circus clown
the longer u tread the more likely u will drown
i felt something i haven't felt before
instead of being satisfied i still want more

the waiting game
i hate it
the waiting game
i hate it

you're really under my skin
i don't know where u begin

the waiting game
the waiting game

you're really under my skin
i don't know where u begin

the waiting game

it's not that bad
it's like a rubber band to the heart
i know u think u really killed me
give me a couple weeks and you'll see

i'm not that sad
sometimes i love to tear myself apart
i know ur trying hard to spite me
why don't u go ahead and bite me

woohoo
woohoooooo

it's not enough
to eat your feelings off of a lead plate
i know you're thinking i can't take it
i dodged a bullet so i'll make it 

u think ur tough
u won't be sorry but it'd be too late
i am so tired of the bullshit
i won't chase u i guess i'm unfit

woohoo
wooh00oooo0

demos

i'm just really tired ok

cycles
first it's warm and then it's too cold
getting sick from all this motion
washed away all my devotion

well

i never want to
become just like you
it's pretty simple
wish i could tell you why

i try my hardest
i would be honest
if i could think straight
if i could speak my mind

swimming
til the water started spinning
now i feel it down in my throat
heart's too heavy for a lifeboat

well

i never want to
become just like you
it's pretty simple
wish i could tell you why

i try my hardest
i would be honest
if i could think straight
if i could speak my mind

wash

How Deep Is Your Love

just 4 fun. made using royalty-free loops as well as my own synth!

nights like these
boy u got me feelin so weak in the knees
think i'm comin down with it i feel a breeze
love is such a strange thing
love is such a strange thing

scared to tell
or show anyone what lives inside myself
til u came along and freed me from this hell
love is such a strange thing
love is such a strange thing

if i could be there when ur feelin lonely
i'd sing u a song that goes like this
la da dee da ur the one that i dream of
as soon as we share a goodnight kiss

if i could be there when ur feelin lonely
i'd sing u a song that goes like this
la da dee da ur the one that i dream of
as soon as we share a goodnight kiss

goodnight kiss

happy together

laughing on the outside

Drive

just like a sad song
on a rainy day
just like a heartache 
that won't go away
all i've ever known
is feeling alone

just like a treasure
that i cannot reach
i bring a cake but
i can't have a piece
now something has changed
my life rearranged 

sleepless nights
i don't get no time off
still i can't get enough
you fit my heart like a glove

sleepy days
my head's no longer hurting
i'm not sure if it's working
i think about you too much
(oh too much)

you can always call me
if you ever need me
the sun might go down
but you know it's not leaving
i'll be around
i'll be around

you can always hold me
if you wanna feel me
baby don't be scared
you gotta keep believing
i'll be around
i'll be around

i'll be around
i'll be around
oh i'll be around

you can always hold me
if you wanna feel me
baby don't be scared
you gotta keep believing
i'll be around
i'll be around

i'll be around

nightcall

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ARTWORK BY CALE JAY LABBE
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LYRICS:
Doctor, doctor
I am dying
Don't save me
I see you trying
I don't think I'm one who can be saved

Call my mother
And my brothers
But whatever you do don't call my lover
I don't think his heart could take the pain

And I know it makes sense 'cause
I swore that I'd never fall in love
And now I'm crying on the floor
Oh yeah I'm dying on the floor
And it's all my fault

And every kiss was just like poison
I drank it up like it was spoiling
I knew it wasn't good for me
But I love all bad things you see
Now rub my wounds with salt

Say something to me
My vital signs are failing drastically
I heard 'em say I don't got a heartbeat
But they don't know that there's no heart in me

It hurts me when my secrets are all out
It's why I never ask no one for help
Until the words just spill out of my mouth
Something broke me now I broke something else

DNR, DNR, DNR form
Sign that shit in a permanent marker
I don't think that you understand this game
I need something a little bit stronger
Just to hold on a little bit longer
Or someone who can wipe my tears away

And I know it makes sense 'cause
There's really no such thing as true love
And now I'm crying on the floor
Oh yeah I'm dying on the floor
And it's all my fault

And every kiss was just like poison
I drank it up like it was spoiling
I knew it wasn't good for me
But I love all bad things you see
Now rub my wounds with salt

Say something to me
My vital signs are failing drastically
I heard 'em say I don't got a heartbeat
But they don't know that there's no heart in me

It hurts me when my secrets are all out
It's why I never ask no one for help
Until the words just spill out of my mouth
Something broke me now I broke something else

salt

losing interest
losing answers
it's a cruel world!
i don't care
i'll still be there

can you call me
in the morning?
i'm busy licking my wounds
i'll see you soon, yeah

what is this i'm feeling?
is this love?
i think that i'm dying
or it's love
it's running from my head down to my toes
and no one prepared me they said i'd know

all these issues
need some tissues
i got problems
i don't share
cause life's not fair
(it's a cruel world!)

try to shake it
but you're making
me have daydreams about you
and there's no room, woah

what is this i'm feeling?
is this love?
i think that i'm dying
or it's love
it's running from my head down to my toes
and no one prepared me they said i'd know

It's a Cruel World!

Hey!

It's just a matter of time
Before you finally reach me
I'll put my heart on the line
And you can put yours too

So c'mon give me a sign
And you can finally teach me
A feeling I can't define
Maybe you'll feel it too

1-800-LOVE
1-800-LOVE

Hello you've reached the hotline
At the tone leave affection
I'll do my best yeah I'll try
To get right back to you

So c'mon give me a sign
Before we lose connection
And I'll let you see me cry
And dance to my own tune

1-800-LOVE
1-800-LOVE
1-800-LOVE
1-800-LOVE

1-800-LOVE!

written by vansire & i <3
art by cale jay labbe

joshua augustin-vocals, mixing/mastering, lyrics, synth
samuel winemiller-bass,guitar
felicia sekundiak-vocals, lyrics

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lyrics:
i like holding your hand
but it hurts oh i can't stand
to see you
to feel you
my insides are turning blue

i like the way that you walk
sometimes i wish you'd never stop
my heart aches
my bones break
with each little move you make

i can't help
i can't really help it
you make me feel like

you're waiting for the next best thing
something had to change
a girl you'd give a diamond ring
it's kinda hard to explain
i'm not mad that you don't adore me
wish you told me
but when i'm with you i feel lonely 
oh

i've been staring outside
spare time was thinking i could find
where leaves blow
where the weeks go
when the snow comes to dampen your fall

far from the life that we knew
months hutle by and i barely see you
so i've been down
dumb as it sounds
when you're with me you're somebody else 

i can't help
i can't really help it
you make me feel like

you're waiting for the next best thing
something had to change
a girl you'd give a diamond ring
it's kinda hard to explain
i'm not mad that you don't adore me
wish you told me
but when i'm with you i feel lonely 

oh you're waiting for the next best thing
say hi to your friends
the table won't know what to bring
nice to see you again
your intentions are so damn hazy
though it pains me
i wish you'd let your guard get lazy
oh

FLOOR CRY

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