Not How I Want To

Blame The Moon

The Reaper

Want Me

[VERSE 1]
Different city new playground 
Running round 
Sniffing out
Drugs like a greyhound
Take the 101 south
Head downtown
To yet another warehouse 
I know I need to find a way out
But the way I came in is blocked off 
House lights on
Crowd goes home
And I still can’t stop

[PRE CHORUS]
And I won’t take my bow just yet 
Got a couple stories left
Need to get this shit off my chest
And I’m done 
Gotta make my parents proud 
when they look at me now
All they see is the damage I’ve done 
They don’t like who I’ve become 
They miss the girl that I was
Now I’m too sensitive 
Sad and directionless 
Wasted potential 
And more broken promises 

I’m the problem kid 
An embarrassment 
Might not say it out loud but they’re thinking it 
Opportunities come in like battleship 
Every time I get one I start sinking it 
Overthinking shit 
Here comes the spiral again
Pick up the bottle
And oh here we go…

[CHORUS]
Got too drunk last night
I threw up in the taxi 
Line after line 
Passing out in the backseat 

Yet another morning after 
She’s so pretty when she’s plastered
When the night is long 
And her mind is gone 
What a beautiful disaster 

I get too high I won’t come back down 
I’m scared of heights
But I’m more scared of the ground 
 
Head in the clouds
I’m not coming down 
You can’t catch me now 
I’m gone 
What a beautiful disaster 
What a beautiful disaster
What a beautiful disaster

[VERSE 2]
Drug cravings 
Long before I took my first sniff 
Had my first hit 
Of validation
Innocent enough 
Just a little buzz
Til I started searching in the wrong places 
Found friends who couldn’t tell you what my name is
Half a life
Spent with strangers 
Now it's all blank pages…

[PRE]
But I won’t put my pen down yet 
Still gotta make my amends  
Needa get this guilt off my chest 
And I’m done
I just want to make ‘em proud 
Its a real tough crowd 
And shame is a loaded gun 
Now I'm too quiet 
Cold and defiant 
Play it like im fine 
When I’m not 
I’m not the daughter they want 
I'm just the daughter they got 

I’m a letdown
Disappointment 
Though they try hard to avoid it 
I can see in their eyes 
Their annoyance
I’ve made peace with my pain 
So they think I enjoy it 
That I self appoint it 
Like I wrote the script
Predestined to ruin 
My future before it begins 
Here we go again…

[CHORUS]
Got too drunk last night
I threw up in the taxi 
Line after line 
Passing out in the backseat 

Yet another morning after 
She’s so pretty when she’s plastered
When the night is long 
And her mind is gone 
What a beautiful disaster 

I get too high I won’t come back down 
I’m scared of heights
But I’m more scared of the ground 
 
Head in the clouds
I’m not coming down 
You can’t catch me now 
I’m gone 
What a beautiful disaster 
What a beautiful disaster
What a beautiful disaster

[OUTRO]
If I can be frank for a moment 
While I still have your focus 
I want to tell you bout a little girl 
Who always felt broken 
Lost and hopeless
Looking to others
For reasons to keep on going 

As I sit here now 
It's still raining, and storming
And I can't control it 
But 
There's beauty inside of the clouds
They cry and reset with a smile in the morning
And maybe that's all that is 
Let go and move on
Find new reasons to live
Never thought I'd make it past 16
This year I'll turn 26

Beautiful Disaster (Demo version)

Flora Cash - “Until Love Only Hurts”

(6 June 2021 - Love Only Hurts (3rd fret - am F C G) picked up 11 to 13 march 2023

picked up 13 april 2025  possible titles: the edge of an edge, love only hurts, love until love only hurts, Purgatory, 

latest upload: 15 april 2025

file: flora cash - Until Love Only Hurts (logic project- 6 June 2021 - Love Only Hurts (3rd fret - amFCG) bounce 6, 15 april 2025

working lyrics:

i don’t want to waste your time
after all  
time is the most precious thing in our lives
here on this earth  
knowing
someday the sun will explode
i just remembered the scene
us moving in circles
and trying to feel anything
now we’re alone  and  right on the edge of an edge

stay with me here  for a while in this bed on this earth
love until love only hurts
suffer with me  through the seasons attached and accursed
painful  but empty is worse

lets live as long as we can  between heaven and hell
‘cause you know the truth all too well

no matter how much we drink of it it won’t fill us up
that’s how you know that it’s love
that’s how you know that it’s love  stand in the consequence 
of standing in coming days
and pick up the pieces next
sound the alarm
as i fall in your arms ‘cause it’s always coincidence 
to the powers that be
while we’re down on our knees yeah you know that all this matters
in the end  stay with me here  for a while in this bed on this earth
love until love only hurts
suffer with me  through the seasons attached and accursed
painful  but empty is worse

lets live as long as we can  between heaven and hell
‘cause you know the truth all too well

no matter how much we drink of it it won’t fill us up
that’s how you know that it’s love
that’s how you know that it’s love

until love only hurts

latest upload: 23 april 2025 - 12:45 AM

file: flora cash - call in sick tomorrow - acoustic mix 3 (22 april 2025)

lyrics:

i’ve learned that love is hard
lovers scribble on our hearts
little whispers in the dark 
careless words that turn to scars

that start to feel like stab wounds 
i’m sorry for my bad moods
i don’t know where to start

let’s call in sick tomorrow 
and spend all day in our room
and open up a bottle 
it’s all we need

to fall in love all over
like we did on New Year’s Eve 
and we won’t go to sleep 
to finally dream

we’ll call in sick tomorrow
we’ll call in sick tomorrow 

i let it slide
i let us down
i let your dreams 
lay on the ground

i love your strength; 
the way you stand,  
even on your own

i get weary when the night ends
and i scoot to you in bed 
put my hand upon your head
and listen to your breath and
pray for all the moments 
from now that we are left

let’s call in sick tomorrow 
and lean into the sorrow
and open up a bottle 
it’s all we need

to fall in love all over
like we did on New Year’s Eve 
and we won’t go to sleep 
to finally dream

we’ll call in sick tomorrow

i let it slide
i let us down
i let your dreams 
lay on the ground

i love your strength; 
the way you stand,
even on your own

call in sick tomorrow (unreleased / acoustic)

Hold My Love

latest upload: 29 april 2025 2:02 PM

file: flora cash - i got you (featuring Maya Miko) - april 29 2025 bounce 2.18AM

go to sleep little prince
rest up
i’m talking to that little boy inside me
yes i’ve
messed up
kept him locked away  ignoring what he had to say
i showed up to his funeral 
dressed up
all in black
holding back 
all the tears
it’s been years
living a life created by fear
living a lie
this ain’t a career
this ain’t what i dreamed about
when i was younger
awaken the kid from the grave
internal slumber

how don’t you know that i need you?
that i’d shackle my soul to this earth just to free you
and wander in darkness alone not to haunt you
…tell me you know in your heart that i got you  yeah you know that i got you
yeah you know yeah you know  that i got you
 how don’t you know that i’ve got you? 
somewhere along the Line
I lost the will to fight
knocked down so many times
I stopped climbing
just stayed at The Bottom
blaming everybody else
no silver lining (no silver lining)
on god
drowning sorrows in these bottles
do it all again tomorrow 
look I'm Tired Of being tired
I got hired i got fired by these
jobs that I hate
I am tired Of being sad
yeah I miss being Brave
I remember me and You
Open Mics On the stage
just rapping My truth
and I know it's a Been a Minute
but we Back in the Booth
brush the dust off The dreams
this track is for you
break the shackles
break the chains
going back to the tunes

how don’t you know that i need you?
that i’d shackle my soul to this earth just to free you
and wander in darkness alone not to haunt you
…tell me you know in your heart that i got you  yeah you know that i got you
yeah you know yeah you know  that i got you
 how don’t you know that i’ve got you? 
if this is love
then why do i hurt you?
i’m always in my head
missing what you’ve said
no, i don’t deserve you

so i should prolly go
but i won’t desert you
and through every life 
every “one more time”
all the pain was worth you

i got you (featuring Maya Miko)

Everlasting

Hey Lovely

this is the place for those who care to go deeper

i got you (featuring Maya Miko)

flora cash

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