Prod: Flxffy_

so i can't stop myself from fallin'
dont' think of coming back, i don't wanna stay at all
hands around my neck, bleeding out, i dont feel it anymore
hide away my pain, i don't care what u wanna say
im the only one to blame for my own mistakes
all i've done, all i've said has just left me here alone.

i don't wanna be myself no more
i feel like i had it all and its all just gone
put myself in a cage, hid away from all the world
nothing that i can do can save me now
so i just speak to myself, im gone
i wish i could say something now.

(that's just what i i've done
this is how im feeling
no one speaks at all
can't stop for a minute).

i can se the time passing
everything's so distractig
can feel it all retracting
i should just change it all.

but i can't stop myself from fallin'
dont' think of coming back, i don't wanna stay at all
hands around my neck, bleeding out, i dont feel it anymore
hide away my pain, i don't care what u wanna say
im the only one to blame for my own mistakes
all i've done, all i've said has just left me here alone.

fallin'

prod: Flxffy_

lyrics:
(its been so long now
when was the last time that you saw me?)

my throat is hurting
cause i've been screaming for some time now
im drowning
and i still wonder
what was i thrown down here to die for?
what's it that i've done?

cause i've never been perfect i can make mistakes
cause the things that i say are the thing that i meant
is that why i have spent all this time by myself?
is it cause you know i've always been a mess?

is that why no one checks up on me?
for whatever i did im sorry
its like everyone here forgot me
im sorry for being who i shouldn't be
getting further away from the surface
i don't think there's nothing left but to suffer
hope someday all of them will discover
that people can change like i did too

(its been so long now
when was the last time that you saw me?)

so much i can't see
all cause you just left me out
its getting pretty hard to breathe
now i can't even hear a sound

is it cause you know i've always been a mess?

mess

prod: Flxffy_

lyrics:
i've spent most of my time thinking everything was alrigth
cuz i've never been fine
i never learned to think twice
never thought at some point in my life i'd stay up all night
taking melatonine
its something that im done with

think i've been outside for too long
wonder if its my fault
i won't be the same as before

cuz you still want me to do things for u
and u still know that i hate it
i hate it x3
now its done
so i'll just try to forget it
forget it x3
push me down
u probably wont regret it
regret it x3
hate you now
why do i feel like i miss it
i miss it x3

t-t-tú me buscas a mí
yo no te quiero aquí
ahora vete por favor
que no estoy para ti
solo estoy para mí
a ver si entiendes
no te quiero más x2

can't say that im sorry
i guess i just never liked this
i miss 
the way i was living last week
i've been
focusing on less important things 
its not me, so i can't stop it

think i've been outside for too long
wonder if its my fault
i won't be the same as before

cuz you just want me to do things for u
and u still know that i hate it
i hate it x3
now its done
so i'll just try to forget it
forget it x3
push me down
u probably wont regret it
regret it x3
hate you now
why do i feel like i miss it
i miss it
i miss- i -i -i

hate it w/Angelatte

Prod: Flxffy_
Guitar loop: rjpasin

Lyrics:
i might be just a little stressed out
to the point that i can't even go to sleep now
sun's up and i can't even feel a thing now
this grew to something totally abyssmal
i dont know how to feel now

tell me
what do u think about this?
am i
just worried over nothing?
help me
is there a way i can fix something?
so that
i dont feel like im just nothing

(might as well dont care at all
anything about this
i will never get along)

i already carry too much in my backpack
im awful cuz im always getting sidetracked
sometimes i just forgot that i should text back
or should i just say ''fuck it'' and forget that x2

i hate to talk
(hate to talk x2)
about the thoughts in my mind
(in my mind x2)

its something that i must admit too
cause i know all the bad things u have been through
its probably my fault u wanna leave too
just hoping that u know that i will miss u
i just wanted to tell u

tell me
what do u think about this?
am i
just worried over nothing?
help me
is there a way i can fix something?

i already carry too much in my backpack
im awful cuz im always getting sidetracked
sometimes i just forgot that i should text back
or should i just say ''fuck it'' and forget that x2

backpack

prod: Flxffy_
guitar loop by jkei on looperman

lyrics:
"now im stuck in my head"

what's the point in life if i can't enjoy even a little second?
i end up feeling worse when i notice i don't know what im chasing
i convinced myself that nothing's going on so i'll just keep on breaking
doesn't matter tho cuz i gave up on life ever since that last weekend

i don't like this
everything that happens around feels like its my fault
stop crying
it'll take sometime till they know im not there no more

it wasn't so bad at the start and i miss it
i can't keep going on cuz im sick of it
oh
so i'll slowly keep going insane

i feel tired but i don't wanna sleep
help me get out i've been stuck in a dream
its too late now there's some things i won't see
i'll live my life not knowing what i've missed 

i really do not care if they forget me
i'll probably go back and do the same thing
its cuz the only thoughts i'll end up keeping
are things that im regretting
the people im forgiving

i don't mind it
they're simply just months of my life that i won't get back
i can't help it
just hope that the thougths that i have won't come back to bite

can i get a second?
i need to retrace my steps
i finally feel better
im hoping that it stays like this

i feel tired but i don't wanna sleep
help me get out i've been stuck in a dream
its too late now there's some things i won't see
i'll live my life not knowing what i've missed

(ty for taking the time to listen, it means a lot <3)

dreaming

prod: Flxffy_ & @nightigerxo

lyrics:
i wish that i knew what's the path that im taking
i still feel so bad now im worried that im breaking
i wish i could talk, but they won't know what im saying

its been years and i
still hate to waste my time

i spend my days in bed while im looking at the ceiling
the only thing i hear is my lungs when im breathing
reflecting from the past comes the thought that i just feel like

i just ended up feeling useless
i hate that i still think about it
people keep saying that i have no excuses
then, why the fuck do i feel like this?
after all this time i kept on feeling clueless
i wish that i could do something
can somebody tell me what the fucking point is?
i hate to act like i feel nothing
all that's left's just see me rotting

i did try saying all i thought
its in a letter that they probably never saw
and now im thinking that is all my fault
i need to force myself to finish every song

cuz my brain is still poisoned
my thoughts are just noise and
there's not much to do cuz im still stuck in the same place

i don't know why i think about it
i did it once, i don't wanna try again
i guess that i just have to force it

i just ended up feeling useless
i hate that i still think about it
people keep saying that i have no excuses
then, why the fuck do i feel like this?
after all this time i kept on feeling clueless
i wish that i could do something
can somebody tell me what the fucking point is?
i hate to act like i feel nothing
all that's left's just see me rotting

useless

srry for taking so long to put this one out, haven't had much time to make music lately

prod: Flxffy_

guitar loop by jkei on looperman

lyrics:
everything in life's gettitng harder than it used to
already hate my life, that still  makes me feel upset too
i don't really care, i know no one wants to hear my thoughts

another day of hating my own guts
cuz people all around seem to despise me
and i don't really talk of me at all
i guess its just a waste of time to ask me
its like if my own life isn't about me

im breaking into pieces
just hoping i can change things
i hate the way im thinking
i hate the way im living 

im breaking into pieces
just hoping i can change things
i hate the way im thinking
i hate the way im living 

im beggining to doubt that time will heal me
now i hate waking up cuz everything feels wrong
people act like hey care too much about me
yet, i still feel alone and now i've 
written many songs where i take my own life
i wish that i didn't have so much to hide

hold back tears
still feel broken
will my pain be
ever over?

always speaking (nothing here but silence)
back to no one (its only me i can talk to)
this still  happens (i care to much about this)
way too often (oh)

everything still sucks and im running out life

im breaking into pieces
just hoping i can change things
i hate the way im thinking
i hate the way im living 

im breaking into pieces
just hoping i can change things
i hate the way im thinking
i hate the way im living 

into pieces

prod: Flxffy_

its my bday today :3

lyrics:
(i hate it when i cry
all night until the sunrise
im hoping that i die
before i ruin my whole life)

i hate it when i cry
all night until the sunrise
im hoping that i die
before i ruin my whole life
i've always said im fine
i know that things can't be right
now i don't wanna try
it makes me feel worse most times

(i often find myself 
sinking deep im my own thoughts
got myself so fucked up
its all just my own fault)

been punched down so many times it still hurts me
everything i do makes me worry
all the things i could say i just think

I don't think that i'll be around for long
don't think anyone cares for me at all
don't think none of my words are even heard
i don't even know why i tried to know

i just don't wanna cry
all night until the sunrise
im hoping that i die
before i ruin my whole life
i've always said im fine
i know that things can't be right
now i don't wanna try
it makes me feel worse most times

sunrise

always exagerating my feelings.

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