debut (itch.) [09/09|22]
https://focusupo.bandcamp.com/album/alopecia-hope-for-my-shelf-life

Alopecia / "Hope for my shelf life"

Alopecia

[10/04|22]
cw: potential self-harm trigger
https://focusupo.bandcamp.com/album/alopecia-hope-for-my-shelf-life

"Hope for my shelf life"

reducer "unjoy"

sympathy for the reducer

mangled vexil of degendered desire, "bb"

less is more, poor mona
recorded in hour-long burst sessions over the course of 2 weeks.

released March 28, 2025

eileen - vocals, keys, production
unown B.O.S. - production consultant
cover photo by nor
mastered by e.m.b.

all title formatting has specific artistic intent.
thanks for keeping me alive, I started dreaming again.

focus005

pettule

free go home

bastard zombie at 12

phantom flavors

participation trophies volume II: i dropped the ball so you could chew (2024 & adjacent)

"THIS SHIT IS MY COLD BEAT. AND THEY CAN'T TAKE THAT FROM ME. NIGH 2 YEARS OF WORK ON THIS SHIT AND 4 REVISIONS. NO MORE. I SEE ANGEL NUMBERS ON THE CEILING AND ARROWS POINTED DOWNWARD. SUNKEN HAPPEN; I'LL FIND THAT BOAT SOMEDAY."

further reading: fumitake tamura, brrd, purelink, hari han, matmos, and all the people that see the worst and take the best. I love you all.

released June 5, 2025

production by eileen
cover photo by nor
mastered by e.m.b.

focus006

"yhv"

sanit raw unorbital

journal 6: "is that enough"

telomere fortress feat. sani kova

angel number feat. poison damage

"keleo 1000 years" (arrows)

gunther

"ys"

"mib2"

"should have been diff" (b)

presenting: lyser
FKA "in awareness of i's; you long to be seen in oneness"
AKA lyserian intermotive

cover artwork by motka (@motkaambu on insta)

an album about being siloed into the quadrilat
about living for the rides that might kill you
about longing to become one with the unwieldy blade
about seeing the world from the eyes of a lanternfly
about strings that intertwine across the great ceiling
about words that change meaning as needed

an album by:
e.m.b & nor
eileen & norway
eleanor and leeway

"talk is cheap but so is a boat"

"norway's dream is to see the world glow its brightest; for the clouds and stars to be intersected by quasiuniversal motion and purpose. eileen's dream is for that boat to come sooner rather than later; to be able to give up all trophies and sail far beyond the storm, in hopes of someday being able to touch capricornus. they both say, 'running is no longer an option, so my last wish is to see our strings winding in orbit; to be seen in oneness with those unseen', et al." --𝘜𝘯𝘱𝘶𝘻𝘻𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘘𝘶𝘢𝘥𝘳𝘪𝘭𝘢𝘵, 𝘗𝘢𝘨𝘦 96

from eileen: shouts out to chase, georgia, oscar, vivi, mio, kelly, ethan, caleb, lily, sock, heather, gabe, chris, and all the other bitches that have stuck around time and time again. I cherish and immensely appreciate the fact that you all have went out of your way to keep me company over the years. I may not talk to all of you currently, but I care about you and wish you the best regardless. also special shout out to jade weapon.. I needed your sonic gestalt in these trying times.

from 'nor: shouts out to prince, october, eris, iris, willow, bea, ria, sam, rayna, and all the others who have been able to deal with my idiosyncrasies and/or have taken a liking to me. y'all are seriously beautiful people and don't deserve the current state of things. if it weren't for you all I wouldn't have been able to help materialize this record. I hope y'all can find your boat soon. please be safe!!

further reading: secretmommy, gel:, june strings, sybarite, andrea belfi, kota hoshino, mica levi, oliver coates, baths 

released October 11, 2025

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