"Fireflies (Owl City Remix)" is produced, mixed, and mastered by Ed Pexing. "Fireflies (Owl City Remix)" contains samples from Owl City's 2009 hit "Fireflies," written by Adam Young and produced by Adam Young and Matthew Thiessen.

Fireflies (Owl City Remix)

"Racks" is produced, mixed, and mastered by Ed Pexing. "Racks" contains samples of Radiohead's schizophrenic "Bloom."

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Racks

"Where I'm Supposed to Be" is produced, mixed, and mastered by Ed Pexing. "Where I'm Supposed to Be" contains a sample of the transcendental "Klaus I Love You" by M83.

Where I'm Supposed to Be

"Goodbye to the Feeling" is produced, mixed, and mastered by Ed Pexing. "Goodbye to the Feeling" contains a sample of the manic "Mistaken for Strangers" by the National.

Goodbye to the Feeling

"Untitled 01" is composed, produced, mixed, and mastered by Ed Pexing.

Untitled 01

"Parades" is composed, produced, mixed, and mastered by Ed Pexing.

Parades

"Cruel Summer" is produced, mixed, and mastered by Ed Pexing. "Cruel Summer" contains a sample of the gorgeous "Last Ride" by Beach House.

Cruel Summer

Existential Dread is a four-track EP by Kansas Cory AKA Tab Bacchi AKA 1IllMafka AKA H.E. Gone AKA Ed Pexing. Existential Dread is written, produced, performed, mixed, and mastered by Ed Pexing from June 2017 to June 2018. (Pffffttt. It took the guy a fucking year to do four tracks.)

I’m in an abusive relationship with my friends. They shit on me constantly for things that seem so inconsequential: my relationships and interactions with others, my appearance, my personal habits. I deal with emotional and psychological abuse every day. I tried not to let it bother me, but it is starting to.

But I can’t quit now.
Gonna make it somehow.
Gonna make it somehow.

I might need a little help.
But I know you know how.
But I know you know how.

Mamacita, come around.
We can drop the top down.
We can drop the top down.

I ain’t never gon’ fail.
Keep my nose to the ground.
I keep my nose to the ground.

Every day with the hustle:
a little time, a little strength, a little muscle.
I may not know you, but I trust you,
and I would give my whole world just to love you.

Lately, I been feeling like
it’s been a minute since I’ve seen the light.
One too many of them sleepless nights.
One too many demons I can’t fight.

One too many enemies than friends.
One too many jokes at my expense.
I’m feeling like I’m at my fucking end.
I could really use a helping hand.

But just then, I remember what I’m worth.
I remember all my fucking hard work.
I know I have all these treasures to unearth.
I know I’ve only just begun the groundwork.

And I know that I can’t quit now.
I’m gonna make it, gonna make it somehow.
I know despite all this hate and self-doubt
I must ascend to the top and take my crown.

But I can’t quit now.
Gonna make it somehow.
Gonna make it somehow.

I might need a little help.
But I know you know how.
But I know you know how.

Mamacita, come around.
We can drop the top down.
We can drop the top down.

I ain’t never gon’ fail.
Keep my nose to the ground.
I keep my nose to the ground.

Every day with the hustle:
a little time, a little strength, a little muscle.
I may not know you, but I trust you,
and I would give my whole world just to love you.

All my gifts and my worth --
I feel like that shit is a curse.
I will never truly be heard.
I will never truly ever learn.

I will only ever get hurt.
I will only ever pervert.
I will only ever fuck up.
I will only ever be snubbed.

But just then, I remember what I’m worth.
I remember all my fucking hard work.
I know I have all these treasures to unearth.
I know I’ve only just begun the groundwork.

And I know that I can’t quit now.
I’m gonna make it, gonna make it somehow.
I know despite all this hate and self-doubt
I must ascend to the top and take my crown.

But I can’t quit now.
Gonna make it somehow.
Gonna make it somehow.

I might need a little help.
But I know you know how.
But I know you know how.

Mamacita, come around.
We can drop the top down.
We can drop the top down.

I ain’t never gon’ fail.
Keep my nose to the ground.
I keep my nose to the ground.

Every day with the hustle:
a little time, a little strength, a little muscle.
I may not know you, but I trust you,
and I would give my whole world just to love you.

Existential Dread

Can't Quit

Existential Dread is a four-track EP by Kansas Cory AKA Tab Bacchi AKA 1IllMafka AKA H.E. Gone AKA Ed Pexing. Existential Dread is written, produced, performed, mixed, and mastered by Ed Pexing from June 2017 to June 2018. (Pffffttt. It took the guy a fucking year to do four tracks.)

If people told you that you were a piece of shit every day of your life, would you believe them?

Psychosis.
Psychosis.
Psychosis.

Psychosis the feeling
you get when you’re told
you’re a fucking piece of shit.
It never gets old.
Every day of my life,
I’m surrounded by haters.
They stay tellin’ me
that I am an anomaly.
I can’t survive in this fucking economy.
Suffocating, and I know that they’re onto me.
Vultures overhead; they want every part of me.
Rip me to shreds ‘til there is nothing left of me.

I can’t feel a fucking thing anymore.
Got these fuckers on me, and they keepin’ score.
Give a goddamn 'bout who I’ve been before.
Got the Glock to my temple. "What you stand for?"

Every day in the trenches: this is fuckin’ war.
Every fucking good deed I do just gets ignored.
Everything about myself they seem to deplore.
Everything about my life they seem to abhor.

Psychosis.
Psychosis.
Psychosis.

Psychosis the feeling
you get when you’re told
you’re a fucking piece of shit.
It never gets old.
Every day of my life,
I’m surrounded by haters.
They stay tellin’ me
that I am an anomaly.
I can’t survive in this fucking economy.
Suffocating, and I know that they’re onto me.
Vultures overhead; they want every part of me.
Rip me to shreds ‘til there is nothing left of me.

I can’t feel a fucking thing.
Got these motherfuckers bitin’,
man. They jockin’ me.
They name-droppin’ me.
They wanna talk to me.
But they don’t even see
they’re fucking choking me.

I got the Devil on me, man. Wait and see.
But I keep lookin’ for the light, the Holy Trinity.
I need some fuckin’ help quick before it gets to me.
I got some sins that I can’t take to the grave with me.

Psychosis.
Psychosis.
Psychosis.

Psychosis the feeling
you get when you’re told
you’re a fucking piece of shit.
It never gets old.
Every day of my life,
I’m surrounded by haters.
They stay tellin’ me
that I am an anomaly.
I can’t survive in this fucking economy.
Suffocating, and I know that they’re onto me.
Vultures overhead; they want every part of me.
Rip me to shreds ‘til there is nothing left of me.

Psychosis

Existential Dread is a four-track EP by Kansas Cory AKA Tab Bacchi AKA 1IllMafka AKA H.E. Gone AKA Ed Pexing. Existential Dread is written, produced, performed, mixed, and mastered by Ed Pexing from June 2017 to June 2018. (Pffffttt. It took the guy a fucking year to do four tracks.)

I'm geekin'.

Geekin' every day 'cause the stress.
Geekin' every day just to try to do my best.
Geekin' every day 'cause my mind can't calm down.
Geekin' every day 'cause it's been too long now.
Geekin' every day 'cause it's time to move work.
Geekin' every day 'cause I'm tryin' not to hurt.
Geekin' every day 'cause I'm by my fuckin' self.
Geekin' every day 'cause every day a livin' Hell.

I'd be lyin' if I said I was fine.
But time stay flyin', and I gotta get mine.
I appreciate you for the tryin',
but it's tryin' that make me wanna die.

I been out of my mind a long time.
I been out of my mind a long time.
I guess what they told me -- they was right --
'cause my twenties feelin' like a fucking nightmare.

Got no friends.
Got no plans.
Got no feelings.
Got no ends.
God knows why --
why I try --
when every time,
you’re never mine.
You’re never mine.
Was just a lie.
Was just a dime.
Plenty of fish.
Plenty of time.
Plenty of this.
Pay it no mind.
Just pay me mine.
Just say you’re mine.
It all is fine
in all due time.
I’ll do this line
and say goodbye.

I'm geekin'.

Geekin' every day 'cause the stress.
Geekin' every day just to try to do my best.
Geekin' every day 'cause my mind can't calm down.
Geekin' every day 'cause it's been too long now.
Geekin' every day 'cause it's time to move work.
Geekin' every day 'cause I'm tryin' not to hurt.
Geekin' every day 'cause I'm by my fuckin' self.
Geekin' every day 'cause every day a livin' Hell.

I’d be lyin’ if I said I was fine
‘cause I been alone a fucking long time.
And you know what the silence does, right?
It makes your mind run in circles all night.

I been out of my mind a long time.
I been out of my mind a long time.
I guess what they told me -- they was right.
I’m too weird to live, but I’m too rare to die.

Jesus Christ,
shield my eyes;
protect my life;
don’t let me die.
I’m way too high.
I’m scared of heights.
I’m in denial.
I’m in and out.
I can’t slow down.
I’m ‘bout to crash
with no airbag.
I’m fuckin’ dead.
And I wake up.
I’m in my bed.
These dreams I have --
they drive me mad.
I’m happy then.
You’re with me there.
I can’t go back.
I can’t do that.
I’m feeling trapped.

I'm geekin'.

Geekin' every day 'cause the stress.
Geekin' every day just to try to do my best.
Geekin' every day 'cause my mind can't calm down.
Geekin' every day 'cause it's been too long now.
Geekin' every day 'cause it's time to move work.
Geekin' every day 'cause I'm tryin' not to hurt.
Geekin' every day 'cause I'm by my fuckin' self.
Geekin' every day 'cause every day a livin' Hell.

Okay, I do remember bits and pieces of the dream, but it isn’t going to make sense. I remember that I lived in a really nice apartment somewhere. I lived on the third floor, and my neighbors (a married couple) kept unlocking my apartment door on accident. I guess their key worked for my lock, and they were always drunk, so they kept accidentally going into my apartment when they would come home. I remember coming home, and my apartment door was open. I freaked out because I thought I had been robbed, but everything was cool. I locked the door behind me, and I got naked for some reason. But then, my neighbors came home, and they unlocked my door and came in again! I was like, “What the fuck, man? I am naked! Get out!”

Geekin'

"Fever Dream" is written, produced, mixed, and mastered by Ed Pexing. "Fever Dream" contains a sample of the Rocky and Bullwinkle opening theme written by Frank Comstock.

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Fever Dream

I'm just out here livin' lavish like I'm ballin' for the Mavericks.

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