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Closing My Eyes In The Dark w/ 93FEETOFSMOKE (Prod. tothegood)

@fats_e
@93feetofsmoke
prod.  https://soundcloud.com/ceasedmusic


LIL LOTUS:

you can find me dead inside my whip
death by hollow tips
try to talk about it i might slip
tighten up my grip

fats'e:

i just really want to fill my body up with lead
stop my heart from beating i will feel at peace at last
put the draco to my skull don't need another chance
steal my life with steel against my temple make it fast

93FEETOFSMOKE:

you can find me 
walking with a sense
snakes still round my limbs
been this way 
guess since I was a jit
tighten up my fist 

homie caught a rock 
up threw his head
ya I miss my friends
lil bo's hose winding 
inside the whip
a I miss my friend 

LIL LOTUS:

you can find me dead inside my whip
death by hollow tips
try to talk about it i might slip
tighten up my grip

hollow tips ft. 93FEETOFSMOKE x fats'e [prod. ceased]

https://open.spotify.com/artist/6NFHn7VH6jgV2nVWqW2bsa?si=4GL1fS_8Q7iRYjWf_FlXBw

https://soundcloud.com/skahbeatstore & https://soundcloud.com/cxldblxxd

lyrics:

I feel like I've got a gun to my head 
there ain't no blanks, a blank stare instead

couldn't care for myself have you been there 
doing harm to my health ima leave here
what I'd do for a day with my head clear
ima sin but bby know I'm sincere

ion sell so don't hit my cell no more 
blackout nights ima hit that floor
sip no sprite I like morphine more 
might take me away but I'm still yours 

it takes me away 
away from a place
been stuck on my head 
I can't look at her face.. 

fall asleep while she plays her piano
disappear still here like a shadow
sometimes I could drown in the shallows
she a bae she a marilyn monroe

all the same ima go where the wind blows
norflex & cigarettes got a sore throat
had to put it to the test now you know
no reply to the text on sleep mode

fall asleep while she plays her piano
disappear still here like a shadow
sometimes I could drown in the shallows
she a bae she a marilyn monroe

couldn't care for myself have you been there 
doing harm to my health ima leave here
what I'd do for a day with my head clear
ima sin but bby know I'm sincere

ion sell so don't hit my cell no more 
blackout nights ima hit that floor
sip no sprite I like morphine more 
might take me away but I'm still yours

spotify

still yours (prod. yung skah & cxld blxxd)

mixed / mastered by lil narnia

wishing you well
even though you're with someone else
and nothing but the numbness helps
when theres nothing to do
stuck in my room with these thoughts of you
wishing you well
even though now you're someone else
couldn't tell you how it felt
how much it hurts seeing you
so different now its what distance will do
every second awake
every step that I take
is another one back
hoping one day you'll ask
if I'm okay
i'll tell you everything if you care to know
what its like in this hell
hoping your doing well
so numb I cannot feel
anything but this guilt inside of me
blame myself for things I can't change
all because of you
I love the way that you fucked me
hate every something that we could have been
again and again and again and again
why can't you just love me for who I am
why am I always so fucking upset
all of my pain and my love is the same
it comes from a place with no one else to blame
other than me its all self inflected
wounds that bleed inside and no one can see
self destruction is such a beautiful thing
how does it feel to watch me suffering
how does it feel to watch me suffering while i'm
wishing you well
even though you're with someone else
and nothing but the numbness helps
when there nothing to do
stuck in my room with these thoughts of you
wishing you well
even though now you're someone else
couldn't tell you how it felt
how much it hurts seeing you
so different now its what distance will do

baby i'm wishing you well
scratching the walls in my cell
the clarity rings like a bell
if only i could say farewell
to the winds that carry me
into the shadows that follow me
they will treat you well
don't forget to carry me
in your heart 
feed my body to my enemies

self destruction (feat. LOCAL ZERO) [prod. Charlie Shuffler]

go follow this boi @guccihighwaters
he=god

prod @kryptik_official

lyrics: 
cabe-
I'm sinking to the bottom but my wrist still glisten
talking for a while but you never really listened 
would you really go
girl i aint no Romeo
you aint no Juliet but for you id take bullets yeah
how you still by my side when I'm so dead inside
i aint got nowhere else to hide
ill look you in the eyes i aint gunna tell no lies
vices got me falling I've got nothing to deny that
I'm falling deeper I'm balling daily
im calling no one they call me ignore em
I'm falling 
fuck it I'm falling 

guccihighwaters- 
i’m sinking to the bottom but my wrist still glisten
problems are a problem you’re the only one that listened
i don’t want new friends behind my back always bitching
you can always ask me and i’ll tell you why im distant
new year soon it always brings new faces
but imma keep my distance and just work up on my statements
i’ve been too lost like what the fuck is coming next
im always getting really nervous everytime i get a text
happiness in small doses
so im taking a breath
if im sad for too long then
im takin a rest
happiness in small doses
so im taking a breath
and if im sad for too long
then i’ll run up a check
sinking to the bottom

cabe x guccihighwaters - sinking to the bottom (prod. kryptik)

https://soundcloud.com/killedmyself
vocal mix by soundcloud.com/iamrellim

whip broke again and i still aint shit
you don’t what id do to fucking make this
you don’t know the road I’ve been down
just to stay here
pick it stick it flip it then erase it
check back try to relax 
dont mistake this as me coming clean
i aint sayin shit filler for an empty room

just to ease the pain in
roll a couple light em get up
for a minute now I’m changing
every line i right
i despise em all
i can’t stand this
delete another song
write another bar
just to hate it
work another day just to make enough
to get what little i want
that aint doing shit but rearranging
every fucking  thought 
i should have pushed way back
I’m just hanging by the thread 
we’ve sewn together
to make this bed
that we now lay in
have you even been
listening to a word I’m saying
so many delays
I’m losing count
tractions fading
I’m blasted in the black
lustful wishes
giving me a fucking
heart attack
this the tenth joint
I’ve smoked
in the past hour and
a half
fuck a fucking show
i just want my money back  

hop up in it
oh we back again
round for round
i be smacking hits
know you lames
all fuck with this
y’all be dropping duds
but they fuck with it
don’t you care a bit
change things up
maybe try to switch
sticking to the script
seems to work the best


putting my heart in to be washed away
waking up checking the fucking plays
lets see who aint gone respond today
another blog posting all the shit that i fucking hate
what the fuck is it gonna take
i love it and hate it all so much
i need a fucking break
watching the people move up 
who i want to cave
negative energy is all i can muster myself
to fucking bring
i don’t see why i can’t even think
a positive thought long enough
to keep me sane

still aint shit (prod killedmyself)

follow me on twitter @jakkystealurgrl
prod/mix/master by meee

i’m blind 
why’d i get attached like last time 
she been on my brain now i’m tongue tied
ya i’m tongue tied
I don’t even really know why i go try ya
  
and i’m like why  
why is she still on my mind
tried to get her off my recent search but there she fuckin lies again

hey i know it’s just the same
go and fuck her once now i want her all day x2
now she playing with my brain ya
give a boi a break like wait 

i’m okay despite of everything
tell her i’m okay despite of everything 

Pull to the side I don’t think you wanna know
how I feel I’ll shut before u wanna go 
I been thinkin’ bout the rest   
I’ve been doing better drugs i’ve been blownin up a check ya 

I don’t even need this now
she just make me feel a type of way somehow 
I don’t really wanna give in quite yet but god i kinda know 
she don’t even love me so I gotta go… whoa

hey I know it’s just the same
go and fuck her once now I want her all day
now she playing with my brain
give a boi a break like wait 

I know it’s just the same
go and fuck her once now I want her all day x2
now she playing with my brain
give a boi a break like wait

Give a Boi A Break

no samples
coprod @kellbender

running round these dirty streets like imma labrat
still buy bottles everyday you'd think i'm past that
right back another void, how'd i forget that?
i'm mostly running from myself i know you hate that

there's a sadness in the sky i want to scream at
like get the fuck away and never come back
there's a voice inside my head 
that likes to laugh and tell me
"u aint fucking shit and yeah you'll never be"

running round these dirty streets like imma labrat
still buy bottles everyday you'd think i'm past that
right back another void, how'd i forget that?
i'm mostly running from myself i know you hate that

there's a sadness in the sky i want to scream at
like get the fuck away and never come back
there's a voice inside my head 
that likes to laugh and tell me
"u aint fucking shit and yeah you'll never be"

6SPEED

there's a sadness in the sky i want to scream at w/ kellbender

Lyrics:
Hold up, wait

First I wanna date you
Fall into your love until
I can't even escape you
Then it switches up to where
I think I fucking hate you
Someone take me back to where
I thought you were my angel
x4

Like having a flannel in the woods
Or a blanket on a sandy beach
You keep me warm, you keep me warm
Never fail to keep me warm
And baby girl you keep me warm
You got my thoughts up in a swarm
Each word you speak is like a poem
You're not them and you don't gotta show 'em

Grab me by the wrist, but I feel it in my heart
You're trying to pull me back but it's pulling me apart
and I just wanna restart

Holding moments, overloaded
I don't want pain I'm like "donde money"
When I feel strained then I'm dipping, runnin
back to the start then I'm overcoming
x2

Holding moments, overloaded
Don't want pain I'm "donde money"
When I'm strained I'm dipping, running
To the start I'm overcoming
x4

filming our own destruction

Official Video: https://youtu.be/n8XmlBr60Fc

round the valleys we roll
TV blasting out the static 
making peace with my soul
calabash was way too far
so i skate smoking a bone
the hazy sun blessed me with wind
and now the ocean's my home
lately all i do is drift
collect the bag and phone home
hit my pops up, know he's sad
cuz life always takes its toll
but I'm certain all the pieces 
that i need will still fall
from the sky and i smile
been a while since we talked

flushed my xannies down the sink
about like four months ago
im so grateful waking up
times ticking over my dome
never know where I'll end up
keep my pockets lined with gold
no one's ever told me wrong
i blame myself for the most
got a shot up on my ass
cuz she stayed sleeping around
now my wallet doesn't fold
shoes dirty working till close

flushed my xannies down the sink 
about like four months ago
im so grateful waking up
times ticking over my dome

guitars/prod/mix/master by @93feetofsmoke

this song is the antithesis of "if my dad saw he'd me mad at me" which explored the consequences of poor decision making and the overall negativity that used to completely encapsulate my life. Hope it means something to you. Take care <3 love ya pops

if my dad saw he'd be proud of me (video in desc)

lyrics:

and they wonder where you go
it's no wonder you're alone
i don't wanna talk at all 
sometimes i just don't wanna wake up
other days i just wanna get my bread up 

yeah, they thinkin i'm crazy
it's fuck em all lately 
someone please save me
we not relating 
so don't try to act like you do when i know that you won't
you standing around, i'm doing the most
and i'm so sick of this shit
i'm gon build me a bridge cause i'm so done sinking in ships
and i've been floating around can someone toss me a bit? please?

nothing ever changed i still i feel the same
still stuck inside of my stupid brain 

and they wonder where you go
it's no wonder you're alone
i don't wanna talk at all 
sometimes i just don't wanna wake up
other days i just wanna get my bread up 

nothing ever changes now i know that
i don't wanna be all alone when the world's black
i just wanna know that you're right there
lately i've been feeling like you're dead and so unaware

filming our own destruction

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