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once upon a time i would smoke weed everyday
i gave myself bronchitis cuz i couldn't stay away
i got prescription steroids had to take for 7 days
light it up in my garage listening to mgk
and around this time
i would throw up everyday
i went to the doctor just to see what they would say
he said i'm gonna have to give u an endoscopy
so should i put down ur throat 
or do u want it up ur ass?
i'm good on that
double that and give it to the next person
let my condition worsen
ya i think i have an ulcer
and i'm throwing up blood
in the sink, let me think
maybe i should have a drink
down 12 shots of vodka
no survival instinct
waking up in my vomit
never spare me the reprieve
i don't really need my liver
maybe losing it's a kink
so i get drunk everyday
i can feel my ulcer bleed


ulcer (prod. 88h00dy)

i need to sleep but i feel fine
i feel amped up so energized
they think i'm manic, a troubled mind
god forbid i catch a vibe
stars in my room, they surround u
i couldn't meet u, at least i tried to
mesmerize me, try to find me
i know ur watching me through my tv
fabricate my mental health
are u reaching out right now
my bodys weak my mind is loud
u turn me on u freak me out
u want me begging on my knees
saying pretty pretty please
i can't stand it if u leave
slivers of u stuck in me
slivers of u stuck in me...
please get the fuck out of me
ur curses crawling up my skin
the potency makes my head spin
i never met u, u don't exist
i wish i never let u in
maybe it's real, and u never lied
i thought u killed urself, so i took the knife
my thoughts are so fucked up i think the world just wants to die
we have to figure out how to keep it alive
there's a puzzle that we all have to start trying to solve
the earth is talking and it'd be rude just to shut it out
i see it in ur face u think i'm losing my mind
but there's things u cannot see i'm picking up on the divine
signs and synchronicities keep confirming what i think
everybody else is wrong and only i am right
everything is flipped, a perversion of the mind
nobody's living in the truth of how they were designed
stars in my room, they surround u
i couldn't meet u, at least i tried to
mesmerize me, try to find me
i know ur watching me through my tv
i know ur watching me through my tv
i know ur watching me through my tv

i.know.ur.watching.me.through.my.tv (prod. theaXO)

the same old feelings that come and go
still have to face them all alone
you'd write them out but ur too scared
maybe one day when it feels like somebody cares
you're not yourself anymore
bitter tears cover ur floor
its been 6 years
but u say its not permanent
did it turn out just like everything u wished
would u ever read a letter from the past
relearn all the hopes for a future
that u used to think you'd have
would it change ur mind
about the choices that you've made
could u ever realign
with someone you are not today
i know you'd give it everything
if you were given what you need
if you were given even a single chance to breathe
maybe you'd be able to reclaim what fell off the brink
who told u u were gonna leave this house
it’s funny how u thought that u had it figured out
news travels fast these days
ur not the only one who felt they had to hideaway 
ur so fucked in ur loose head can’t make it straight
u wanna make it right
but this is not the way
did nobody ever teach u how to behave
ur scaring everybody that u love away 
you're not yourself anymore
bitter tears cover ur floor
its been 6 years
but u say its not permanent
did it turn out just like everything u wished

you're not yourself anymore (prod. dan rxck)

i hate my face
i hate my voice
the silence in between the noise
excruciates me even more
it's getting late
you made me bored
always need a pick me up
when ur by my side
miles away inside my mind
the pitch of ur voice bites
suffer another sleepless night
caffeine to nullify
daydream about a day
i could be with someone i like
think i need a pick me up
or i might lose my mind
that sound has been inside my ears
all day and through the night
deconstruct my reality
you didn't make the cut
some things we have to leave behind
to keep on moving up
mini liquor bottles in the sink
i do this everytime we disagree
suppressed contempt rising up inside of me
you think its a red flag
if u dont get everything u please
said something wrong
i bite my tongue
you remind me of
my favorite songs
that’s not really
a compliment
bulimia and
toxic men
i always need a pick me up
when ur by my side
i shouldn't need a pick me up
think i just need a new guy

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