Childlike awe and wonder 
Makes you ponder 
Make you somber 
If you can even 
Recollect the feeling 

feel so alive 
You used to feel so alive 

Infantile amazement 
Entertainment 
Oh so nascent 
If you can just 
Recollect the feeling 

feel so alive 
You used to feel so alive 

Don’t slip away 
Don’t leave me here 
Don’t slip away 
I need you here

kneepads

rabbit trap  


feed into the thing that eats you inside, 
sink deep into the grasp of its vice.


when it all goes away,
But will it ever go away?


allow it to latch onto your mind, 
u haven’t the power to stop it this time.


when it all goes away,
but will it ever go away?


too deep into the rabbit trap,
u haven’t the strength to bring it back, 
u see yourself just ebbing away,
u haven’t the will to set things straight,
too deep into the rabbit trap,
u haven’t the strength to bring it back, 
u see yourself just ebbing away,
u haven’t the will to set things straight. 

when it all goes away,
but will it ever go away?

rabbit trap

You need lucky witnesses,
And ever wandering shade , 
Just to feel a worthiness,
I fucking hate your worldliness. 

You lie to yourself,
You’ll never be much more, 
You shape your face, 
With a need to be adored. 


Conceit is what you’re living with,
It drains on your allure, 
A picture so promising, 
But the story is a bore. 


You lie to yourself,
You’ll never be much more, 
You shape your face, 
With a need to be adored. 


And it makes me ponder,
I’ll try to see it from your view, 
Because you still conjure, 
A deep urge inside of me.
And it leaves me conflicted, 
But I’ll walk in your shoes, 
I’m so sanctimonious, 
And I blame it all on you.

sanctimonious

happy…
so glad you’re happy,
no really…
I am,
like dew on the morning grass, 
some things ain’t built to last 

happy? 
so fucking happy
Are you really…
happy?
happy?
I’m so happy…
No really…
I am

Glowing,
I can see you’re glowing, 
And blooming… 
I can 
Like frost on the window pane, 
You dissolve in the rain 

If only you would listen, 
Maybe you’d see it another way,
If only you would listen, 
And make it easier to say

happy? 
so fucking happy
Are you really…
happy?
happy?
I’m so happy…
No really…
I am

happy?

verse 1 

you want the recognition you feel you’re owed, 
though admiration feels unholy. 

hook

the creeping dread won’t fade, 
no matter how much you will it away, 
and you won’t feel it sucking you dry,
and you won’t see til you’re withered away


verse 2 

you fucking watch your life just pass you by,
time is finite,
ebbing slowly. 
death is abstract—doesn’t move you much, 
but isolation feels so lonely. 

hook

the creeping dread won’t fade, 
no matter how much you will it away, 
and you won’t feel it sucking you dry,
and you won’t see til you’re withered away

bridge 

It’s all in the fragments, 
It’s all in the grainy pictures, 
It’s all in the sex dreams, 
It’s all in the empty feeling, 
It’s all the fragments, 
It’s all in the lying memories, 
It’s all in the sex dreams, 
It’s all in the morning after. 

hook

the creeping dread won’t fade, 
no matter how much you will it away, 
and you won’t feel it sucking you dry,
and you won’t see til you’re withered away. 
the creeping dread won’t fade, 
no matter how much you will it away, 
and you won’t feel it sucking you dry,
and you won’t see til you’re withered away

fragments

Grey 

Verse 1 
Don’t change frequency, 
I like it, 
The hum and drone
Calming violet,
I warp and stretch to meet you, 
And I greet you… with a smile, 
The soil ain’t what it used to be. 

Hook 
Grey,
it’s falling away, 
Grey,
So far away. 
Grey,
it’s falling away, 
Grey,
So far away. 

Verse 2
You don’t take shit from me, 
I like that,
The song birds don’t do listening, 
They require it. 
I warp and stretch to please you, 
Do I please you? Would you lie?
The roots ain’t where they used to be.

Hook 
Grey,
it’s falling away, 
Grey,
So far away. 
Grey,
it’s falling away, 
Grey,
So far away.

grey

damaged goods 

Wedding photos, bridesmaid envy 
Absent husband, supplementary 
Hotel rooms and secret texting, 
Adolescent little sex thing. 

Half your age and he finds you…dirty, 
Oh to be young again and be…worthy. 

So depraved, so far from righteous,
Perverse yearning, degrading vices, 
Desperation, no disguises, 
Does he know what you’ve been hiding?

Half your age and he finds you…dirty, 
Oh to be young again and be…worthy.
Half your age and he finds you…dirty, 
Oh to be young again and be…worthy.

And all you do is selfish, 
you’re always wanting more, 
All that you’ll end up left with, 
Is remorse you can’t ignore,
All you do is taking, 
So fucking self-absorbed, 
That you can’t what’s see happening, 
And you couldn’t care less.

damaged goods

Poppy 

Black stains, 
That cover your teeth, 
That smell, 
The rehearsed routine.
Poppy is an artist, 
Paints the same old scenes,
Wearing the harness, 
She won’t let you get clean. 

Poppy, 
Don’t ever leave me
Poppy…
Poppy, 
Just whisper sweetly, 
Poppy…

Small boy, 
You keep letting him down, 
No voice, 
And he’s watching you drown, 
Poppy the deceiver, 
I’ll leave her next week, 
Liquid handcuffs,
Ain’t quite as sweet. 
 
Poppy, 
Don’t ever leave me
Poppy…
Poppy, 
Just whisper sweetly, 
Poppy…

Poppy, 
Your oldest friend. 
When no one else was there, 
She kept holding your hand. 
But Poppy,
Will tell you lies…

You keep reaching for the light, 
Til the rooms golden brown.

poppy

comatose 

Somewhere still before I crash, 
Swap this racing mind for an…
empty sack.

Comatose would be so easy, 
To decompose, 
It would complete me 
Comatose would be so easy, 
To decompose, 
It would complete… 

Bury me here before you leave, 
Take this sick warped mind and don’t come… 
back.

Comatose would be so easy, 
To decompose, 
It would complete me 
Comatose would be so easy, 
To decompose, 
It would complete… 

All used up, 
And void of, 
Hopeful drugs 
All used up, 
And void of, 
Useful thoughts. 

Life’s a windless day to a…
Flag,
To always aspire is such a…
drag.

Comatose would be so easy, 
To decompose, 
It would complete me 
Comatose would be so easy, 
To decompose, 
It would complete…

comatose

Luminary 

You try, 
To become better,
But you can’t seem to see the colours, 
Pickett fence, 
And other cliches, 
Dreams seem so overrated these days,
No sleep, 
You wanna stay up, 
Find all the things that you make you break up,
No verve, 
You wanna check out…
Never check back in 

I ain’t your luminary, 
I won’t help you with those memories you keep buried,
In the corners and in all your medications 
I ain’t your luminary, 
I won’t help you with those memories you keep buried,
In the corners and in all your… 

Inside, 
Under the covers, 
All you find are electrical failures, 
Your head, 
Is made of iron, 
If it learned to sweat and get tired, 
Your chest, 
Becoming hollow, 
Lost track of which instincts to follow, 
No verve,
You wanna check out…
Never check back in

I ain’t your luminary, 
I won’t help you with those memories you keep buried,
In the corners and in all your medications 
I ain’t your luminary, 
I won’t help you with those memories you keep buried,
In the corners and in all your… 

Medications…
Medications…

luminary

velarium

Upstairs, 
Faint hum of narcotic sounds.
(Bent)
Subdued,
Drugged panic… feels so loud.
(Skip)

Don’t let em see the, 
Fractures and fissures, 
Stop checking vitals,
Don’t expound.
No soporifics, 
No palliatives, 
More stimulation, 
Don’t come down (now) 

Shape-shift, 
Fix up and straighten out.
(Face) 
Big sip,
Take a swallow and wash it down.
(Change)

Don’t let em see the, 
Fractures and fissures, 
Stop checking vitals,
Don’t expound.
No soporifics, 
No palliatives, 
More stimulation, 
Don’t come down. 

(Interlude) 

Don’t let em see the, 
Fractures and fissures, 
Stop checking vitals,
Don’t expound.
No soporifics, 
No palliatives, 
More stimulation, 
Don’t come down.

velarium

far (away)

dead petals  


Feel like a fly stuck in a room,
I keep bleeding while you bloom, 
Dirty stimulation—scratch the itch, 
Stay a safe but lonely ostracist.

 
Dead petals on the windowsill,  
Wrap me up with your biofilm, 
Blank stare when I touched her lips, 
Noon sun feels like fresh air to a fish


Feel like a wasp in a cocoon, 
All that comes easy dies so soon, 
Easy fornication—don’t get hitched, 
Stay a safe but lonely ostracist.


Dead petals on the windowsill,  
Wrap me up with your biofilm, 
Blank stare when I touched her lips, 
Noon sun feels like fresh air to a fish
Dead petals on the windowsill,  
Wrap me up with your biofilm, 
Blank stare when I touched her lips, 
Noon sun feels like fresh air…

dead petals

mammoth  

A simple plan,
Bred consequence, 
And built your home…
In a hornets nest, 
And shakes it constantly, 
Why do you stay? 


Lost, 
In, 
The promises… 
That you make. 
Far, 
Away,
The person you should’ve been. 


Like potters clay, 
You mould and sway,
Against your will.
In an open box, 
Remain there persistently, 
Why do you stay? 


Lost, 
In, 
The promises… 
That you make. 
Far, 
Away,
The person you should’ve been. 


To form, 
Into…
A dark, passenger. 
And,
Murder, 
That old youthful gaze. 
To form,
Into…


Is this all? 
Good as it gets? 
Am I thankless? 
The August sun…
Feels like fresh air…
To a lamprey 


Lost, 
In, 
The promises… 
That you make. 
Far, 
Away,
The person you should’ve been.

mammoth

algorithm koi 

Synthetic,
Keep me company, 
Artificial,
Speak to me…

Never let me go, 
Always keep me close,
Never let me go, 
Always keep me close 

Superficial,
Kill some time with me, 
Manufactured, 
Connects with me…  

Never let me go, 
Never let me go,
Always keep me close,
Always keep me close…
Never let me go, 
Never let me go,
Always keep me close,
Always keep me close…
Never let me go, 
Never let me go,
Always keep me close,
Always keep me close…

Malfunction, 
Make me disappear, 
Assassination, 
Make me see…

Never let me go, 
Always keep me close,
Never let me go, 
Always keep me close 

Don’t you ever…
Disappear…
Never…

Synthetic, 
Company…
Keeps me still…
Calming…
Silicone,
Intimacy, 
Keeps me still…
Coming 

Never let me go, 
Never let me go,
Always keep me close,
Always keep me close…
Never let me go, 
Never let me go,
Always keep me close,
Always keep me close…
Never let me go, 
Never let me go,
Always keep me close,
Always keep me close…

Algorithm Koi

i wish (i was) 

Little surrogate, 
Build me a bonfire (you don’t get it) 
Little surrogate, 
You’re all full of…(you’re all full of shit)

I wish I was…
I wish I was…
I wish I was…(magnetic) 

Take me in…
I’ll let you chisel me down to size (you don’t get it) 
Moth’s cocoon….
Build me a bonfire (you’re all full of shit)

I wish I was…
I wish I was…
I wish I was…
I wish I was…
I wish I…
Was…
I wish I was…(magnetic) 

Take me as I am…
Go slow…
Or I’ll lose composure 
Would you take me as I am? 
Go slow…
I’m losing my grip
Take me as I am…
Go slow…
Or I’ll lose composure 
Would you take me as I am? 
Go slow…
I’m losing…

I wish I was…
I wish I was…
I wish I was…(magnetic) 
I wish I was…
I wish I was…
I wish I was…(like you)

Little surrogate, 
Build me a bonfire (you don’t get it) 
Little surrogate, 
You’re all full of…(you’re all full of shit)

Moth’s Cocoon

Cataracts (In the Killing Field) 

Verse 1
Can’t hide behind the wall, 
In the killing field, 
So auspicious— and ready to bruise…
Can’t dig yourself a hole, 
With your bare hands, 
Lying prostrate—in the field…

Chorus 
So defenceless,
Stillborn…
And the sun spill gives you cataracts.
Cold to the touch, 
So pale…
And your lips are turning greyish blue 

Verse 2 
Dust coating on your lungs, 
In the killing field, 
Uncultivated—and ready to burn…
I’ll dig you a hole,
With my bare hands…
No more turmoil—in the field 

Chorus 
So defenceless,
Stillborn…
And the sun spill gives you cataracts.
Cold to the touch, 
So pale…
And your lips are turning greyish blue 

Breakdown 
You say you’re not tired…
But your eyes give you away

Outro 
In the killing field…
You’ll burn…
You’ll burn…
In the killing field…
You’ll burn…
You’ll burn…
In the killing field…
You’ll burn… 
You’ll decay…

Cataracts (In the Killing Field)

Aesthetics 

She sits by the lake just tossing rocks, 
In a button-up shirt and knee high socks,
The picture said more than a thousand words, 
She only wished that it did not, 
You sit by the rocks just tossing stones, 
With your phone turned off just glad to be alone…
You start,
You start to get it, 
You start,
You start,
You start… 


A kaleidoscope…
Wear your wire coat 
Reach a higher post…
In your vinyl ghost. 


He sits in his room and begins to rock, 
In his baggy jeans and pearl jam top,
His regret and shame just can’t be put into words, 
He only wished that he had not.
You lay on the floor with your head in your hands, 
With your phone turned off and your canceled plans…
You start,
You start to get it, 
You start,
You start,
You start… 


A kaleidoscope…
Wear your wire coat 
Reach a higher post…
In your vinyl ghost
A kaleidoscope…
Wear your wire coat 
Reach a higher post…
In your vinyl…


Death…
Of…
Innocence…
Cold…
Blood…
Adolescent.

Aesthetics

While I Was Gone 

Verse 1 
Words spill…
Can’t get em out…
Your poor liver…
You’re fading…
Such a burden…
With your swollen eyes…

Chorus 
While I was gone,
The world kept turning, 
Infant innocence…
So corrupt.
This empty house,
Just keeps on burning, 
The years don’t stop,
Feel so abrupt. 

Verse 2 
Phone keeps ringing…
But I can’t answer…
My poor mental…
I’m withered…
Such a nothing…
With my purple eyes…

Chorus 2
While I was gone,
The world kept turning, 
Infant innocence…
So corrupt.
This empty house,
Just keeps on burning, 
The years don’t stop…
Feel so abrupt. 
While I was gone,
The world kept turning, 
Infant innocence…
So corrupt.
This empty house,
Just keeps on burning, 
The years don’t stop…

Bridge 
Your call…
I’m so conflicted…
I wish you wouldn’t…
Keep on…
Trying…
I’m so conflicted…
I wish you wouldn’t…
Keep safe…
Your idea of me…
Your false memories…
Your idea of me…
Your false memories…

While I Was Gone

The Cycle 

Verse 1 
The lamp…
Leans…
Closer…
And I…
Can taste the ceiling…
Fold the hours…
Into neat piles…
I feel juvenescent  

Hook
Constant…
It’s a constant break—to watch you wither away 
Constant…
Take pleasure in just watching as you break  
Constant…
Here I lay—you fucking subjugate 
Constant…

Verse 2 
Young boy…
Down the hall…
Becoming so…
Burdensome…
But sugar-fly…
Still feels juvenescent 

Hook
Constant…
It’s a constant break—to watch you wither away 
Constant…
Take pleasure in just watching as you break  
Constant…
Here I lay—you fucking subjugate 
Constant…
Take pleasure in just watching as I break 

Bridge 
As I break…
As I break…
As I break…
As I break…

The Cycle

Limbic 

Verse 1
When you’re.. 
Fast asleep…
I get…
To thinking,
Seldom comes…
Peaceful…
Silence…

Chorus 
Your design…
Never settle…
Your design…
Keeps me coming…
Your design…
I keep wanting…
Your design… 

Bridge 
Empress…
Stay primitive…
Primitive…
Primitive…

Verse 2 
Iron grip, 
What becomes?
Of me…
This time?
Yellow walls, 
Wretched…
Silence…
Prolific, 
Killer, 
Of dreams…
Ambition, 
Wasting light, 
Murder…
Fallow…

Chorus 
Your design…
Never settle…
Your design…
Keeps me coming…
Your design…
I keep wanting…
Your design… 

Bridge 
Empress…
Stay primitive…
Primitive…
Primitive…

Bridge 2 
I’ll keep you fed…
I’ll find new ways, 
To keep you fed… 

Outro 
I keep tasting what’s undone, 
What have I become? 
You’re hungering again,
I can’t seem to say no,
I keep culling all my flames, 
And try to justify…
Keep feeding this beast,
I can’t seem to say no,
I keep tasting what’s undone, 
What have I become? 
You’re hungering again,
I’ll keep you fed…
I’ll keep you fed…
I’ll keep you fed…

Declared Dead in Absentia

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