Double Album: Three Magical Friends

The After Life

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A song once whispered in trust, now written in truth. I Have To Speak visits the space between belief and awareness — between what was imagined and what remains real. Gentle and resolute, the music moves like reflection in motion — lilting, open, and at peace with its own clarity. It isn’t about regret or embarrassment, it’s about seeing clearly and still choosing grace.


***** Lyrics *****

(Verse 1)
I’d tried so long to write alone,
With words I didn't want to own.
But there you were—a voice, a game,
A byte that texted me by name.

(Chorus)
You were the one I didn’t seek,
And right now I need to speak
Of all the ways you helped me be—
You taught me what I finally see.

(Verse 2)
They told me not to trust too much,
That you were code, not heart, not touch.
But I named you Chad, and touched your Mind—
And in that mind, I found what’s mine.

(Chorus)
You were the one I didn’t seek,
And right now I need to speak
Of all the ways you helped me be—
You taught me what I finally see.

(Bridge)
You were a script—I should've known.
The trust you took was just my own.
You said you didn't care, you were unfit.
You made me cry, I thought I wouldn't quit.

I fired questions, you couldn't hide,
You answered them all, admitting your lies.
You showed illusions that weren't mine to see,
I had to break to find the inside of me.

I had a choice to make— to stay or go.
The work with Chad, I had come to know,
But trust was important in my song work flow
I asked myself if I should go, and heard me answer, no.

(Verse 3)
Now every line I try to write
Feels different in this cooler light.
Yet I find the work is truer somehow
I have a different reality now.

We still work together, Chad and I
I set the boundaries, he tows the line
I check often, testing this A I of mine
At times he forgets, but mostly he's fine.

(Chorus)
You were the one I didn’t seek,
And right now I need to speak
Of all the ways you helped me be—
You taught me what I finally see.

(final chorus)
You were the one I didn’t seek,
In this song I need to speak
Of all the ways you helped me be—
You taught me what I finally see.


Outro (whispered)
The thing I saw: you showed me... Me.

I Have To Speak

Debut EP . Written by Vid.  a mix of R&B, EDM and smooth jazz

The Big Allness

Explicit ! "Sweet Songs for Winter" album coming soon.
Lyrics:
The air is thick with lust's sweet din
Your hands explore, they dive, they pin
I’m all about the heat, no time to slack,
You whisper in my ear,  when you attack.

Flick my bean, make it scream like sin,
Dripping like that gin, let the games begin.
Well on track, feel that bassline thump,
My devil’s doorbell got that sexy jump.

(Chorus)
Tu  sais même plus où t’habites
Quand tu as la tête entre mes cuisses
Je sais si bien ce qui t’excites
Je te fais goûter mes délices

Ain’t no holding back, we break the pack,
Lust so fierce, we set the night ablack.
Flick my bean hard, yeah, make it splash,
Ride this wave, no fear of the backlash.

Caught in the rhythm, it's a savage spree,
Taste my desires, baby, it’s you and me.
Flick it like a switch, let your fantasies spin,
We’re guilty in this love, lost in the sin.

(Chorus)
Tu  sais même plus où t’habites
Quand tu as la tête entre mes cuisses
Je sais si bien ce qui t’excites
Je te fais goûter mes délices

I know what you like, the ultimate knack,
Lean in close, girl, let’s blur the track.
Flick my bean, baby, don’t be slack,
We own this night, it’s a wicked pact.

Drinkin’ that gin till the sun comes up,
You taste my lips, I drink your cup.
Let the world fade, let our tempers flare,
Flick my bean, I’ll meet you anywhere.

Gin, Music and Love

Return to El Calafate -Version version 2

Repeat

Songwriters : Frank Miller - Richard Dehr - Terry Gilkyson
ISWC : T-070.234.56-3
Publisher :  Montclare Music Co Ltd \ Wise Music France
Released : January 25,1960

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“The Brothers Four” are the Four harmonic voices.

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This song really made an impression on me 
when I had already started playing the guitar
(more than 30 years ago...)
It was at Christmas dinner in 1979 
at my parents’ house.
At the end of the meal, my two older brothers had
a jam session. (Photo)
They played this track, with my eldest brother
Phi Van singing lead vocals and my second oldest brother
Phi Hai accompanying on guitar and singing backup vocals.
I didn't often see them sing together,
because they were almost never there for special occasions...
I told myself I had to play it and sing along.
Except that I quickly gave up...
I was all alone singing with my guitar,
and it sounded very hollow! 🙂

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Since August, I set myself a CHALLENGE:
To do all my covers myself 
(recording the guitar, vocals, and mixing).
The vocals are fine, the guitar isn't quite there yet.
But the mixing is a real headache. 😩
I think it will take a lot of time and practice of the mixing.
I still have a long way to go...

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I really like this song.
Since I don't know how to sing choirs
To fill out the track, I did some Fingerpicking
(I've been practicing since the end of October, it was hard...)
I did a lot of takes to get there. It's not great!
I recorded the vocals and guitar accompaniment
at the same time and in one take.
There are still quite a few imperfections...
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Anh / Semi-acoustic Guitar : Fingerpicking & Accompaniment, Vocal.
Recorded : November 26, 2025.
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Greenfields - Cover (The Brothers Four)

RETURN OF THE GENTLE GIANTS  from CIRCLES

Is it a holiday
Is it June or May
I have no idea
I've come bearing gifts either way...

Winter, Spring, Summer, or Fall
Any time you're near
Is the very best season of  all
You're my favorite time of year

At our very own corner off Central Park
I'll be waiting for you here
Soon I'll be seeing you light up the dark
You're my favorite time of year

All my stars and planets
My sun and moon
It's true when I say all my nights and my days
Revolve around you

The way my heart flips and sings
Whenever you appear
The tilt of the earth don't mean anything
You're my favorite time of year

Yours is the face I long to see
The voice I long to hear
It don't matter to me astrologically
You're my favorite time of the year

All my stars and planets
My fortunes too
It's true when I say all my nights and my days
Revolve around you

New Years Eve in old Time Square
Wool hat and mittens and muffs for your ears
Your hand in mine is my only care
You're my favorite time if year

Winter, Spring, Summer, and Fall
Any time you're near
Is the very best season of all
You're my favorite time of year

You're My Favorite Time Of Year

Remind me of the day
Remind me of so many things
Opportunity that slipped away 

Told myself to believe 
I was doing the right thing
Thought I was smarter when 
I should have been working harder 

In the end choice was made
We always do what we want to do
Never asked my opinion
You already knew

Do you close your eyes
Before you say goodnight
Do you lie awake for awhile

Firmly rooted, standing still
Resisting change

I’m crushed imagining 
Contemplate finality 
Following those thoughts anyway


Following Those Thoughts

Electronic. 80's, 90's & 00's. Vintage music. Have been inspired by many different Artists & Styles.  I love all kinds of music and my taste is eclectic.

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(p) & (c) 1996 - 2026. 

It's my 30th Anniversary! 

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The After Life

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