Welcome to mindfulness meditation by the beach.
Close your eyes and focus on the sound of the waves. 
Pretend you’re on a beach. Hear the seagulls in the distance. 
Focus on your breath.
Breathe in, filling your belly with air. 
Think about your troubles—how your psychiatrist won’t refill your Abilify or give you that emergency appointment you need because the school’s health services don’t care about you.
Breathe out, pushing the air from your belly out through your mouth.
It doesn’t matter.
It will be okay. 
You’ll find a new psychiatrist.
The Abilify doesn’t work anyway.
You’ll find medication that doesn’t make you want to gouge out your eyeballs—
Your eyes.
Don’t forget to keep them closed.
You’re still at the beach.
Now breathe in again.
Fill your belly with the air of your worries, your mistakes, and pain. 
Expand your belly outward.
It might hurt. 
Your old psychiatrist doesn’t listen to you.
Move on. 
You can grow from this. 
Exhale.

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