LYRICS:

Designer tears and diamond fears, another day begins
Stilettos sharp, a gilded heart, concealing all my sins
Ironic bliss, a plastic kiss, the taste of cheap champagne
Living fast, a broken cast, inside this twisted game

Synthetic dreams in magazine scenes, a perfect, polished lie
Chasing fame, it's all the same, beneath this vacant sky
I'm a doll, wound up to fall, a tragic, twisted art
Screaming loud into the crowd, with a fractured, fragile heart

Oh, I'm a mess, I confess, a diamond in the rough
Too much stress, I must confess, I've simply had enough
Fuck the fame, fuck the game, I'm burning all the plastic
Call me insane, I feel no shame, this life is so elastic

Vintage clothes and vacant shows, another empty stage
A painted smile, hiding all the bile, trapped inside a gilded cage
Ironic grace, a vacant face, the taste of bitter wine
Living fast, a broken cast, this hollow life is mine

Synthetic dreams in magazine scenes, a perfect, polished lie
Chasing fame, it's all the same, beneath this vacant sky
I'm a doll, wound up to fall, a tragic, twisted art
Screaming loud into the crowd, with a fractured, fragile heart

Oh, I'm a mess, I confess, a diamond in the rough
Too much stress, I must confess, I've simply had enough
Fuck the fame, fuck the game, I'm burning all the plastic
Call me insane, I feel no shame, this life is so elastic

Maybe I'm a psycho, maybe I'm a freak
But at least I'm honest, not afraid to speak
This twisted truth, this wasted youth, is all I have to give
So take it or leave it, baby, learn to live

Oh, I'm a mess, I confess, a diamond in the rough
Too much stress, I must confess, I've simply had enough
Fuck the fame, fuck the game, I'm burning all the plastic
Call me insane, I feel no shame, this life is so elastic

Yeah, I'm elastic, oh so drastic
Living life like it's fantastic
But underneath, I'm just a mess
A diamond heart in a designer dress.

Confessions of a Mess

I remember standing in the mirror
Searching for a winner but I didn't see it in her 
Now I've gone from a zero to a super-hero-oh-oh
Whoa, whoa
Chasing dreams got me all over the world
Now I'm sitting on top of the world
We winning, we winning
'Cause we sitting on top of the world

This is for the little girls that say you ain’t all that 
The ones that think they’re better ‘cause they got the stacks 
Come on you know it’s all an act
You be up on the block, posted up in the drop
And everybody get up in, whether you like it or not
But how them girls blow up but don't come to the hood?
How they turn their nose up like they don't come from the hood?
Most of them be in sight 'til it's time to pitch in
That's why everything they write be a contradiction
I tell em I do it for the love, I do it for the love
I do it for the buzz, I do it for the thugs
I do it for the rich, I do it for the poor
I do it for the girls that can't do no more

I remember standing in the mirror
Searching for a winner, but I didn't see it in her
Now I've gone from a zero to a super-hero-oh-oh
Whoa, whoa
Chasing dreams got me all over the world
Now I'm sitting on top of the world
We winning, we winning
'Cause we sitting on top of the world

This is for my little homies that be asking for kisses
When I'm granting they wishes they be passing their digits
They be up on the block getting screwed by the cops
Cutting school, getting knocked whether they like it or not
Come on don’t be doing this shit, you better than the fakes, don’t be doing this shit 
They'll break in your door
Might break in your jaw
They'll bring back a lot
If you bring them an O
But what you really ain't know
They're airborne for stardom
With the ball in the Garden, stand tall, no dodgin'
No matter the squadron, lieutenant or sergeant
Air Force, the Army, Air Force and Army
Fatigues is on him, no heats is on him
'Cause grandmama prayed, that he'd leave the corner

I remember standing in the mirror
Searching for a winner, but I didn't see it in her
Now I've gone from a zero to a super-hero-oh-oh
Whoa, whoa
Chasing dreams, got me all over the world
Now I'm sitting on top of the world
We winning, we winning
'Cause we sitting on top of the world

I remember when I used to doubt myself too
But I remembered I’m better than these monkey from the fucking zoo!
Shout outs to my brothers, i got four of ‘em
A sister too, yeah that’s my boo, don’t need fake friends
Need some new ones, cause these bitches out there lying
Letting our friendships fuckin’ die, and 
Sometimes you get mad, and I do too 
Look, I see you without a man ma, you raised ya son and girl too
Well look, when you blow up everybody go shudderrrr
This goes out to everybody on the come up
You better than the fakes, fucking snakes!

I remember standing in the mirror
Searching for a winner, but I didn't see it in her
Now I've gone from a zero to a super-hero-oh-oh
Whoa, whoa
Chasing dreams, got me all over the world
Now I'm sitting on top of the world
We winning, we winning
'Cause we sitting on top of the world

BETTER THAN THE FAKES

Yeah, uh, okay, like, who's the vibe, who's a flop?
Shorty trippin', thinkin' she on top (nah)
Come to my zone, you know you might get clocked
Semi auto, watch how quick you gettin' blocked
I'm like, "Hold up, who this chick think she is?"
Still that queen, yeah, everything I do is biz
Lashes, gloss poppin', everything glitz
Write these fire lyrics, yeah, my pen doin' splits

Representin' for the girls, level up, up
You wanna play games? Imma shut it down, yup
Roll through your town, snatch the crown, what now?
Young goddess energy, platinum sound

When I pull up, they watchin', I'm comin', I'm comin'
These rap chicks mad, always huffin' and puffin'
(Damn) Why they always frontin' for nothin'?
Mess around, I'll have 'em runnin' from somethin'

Guess what? I spit heat, like lava flow
Yeah, so what? When I rap, it's a knockout, yo
Step in the spot, all the boys screamin', "Oh no!"
Guac and avocado, extra on the low
Word on the street, I ain't here to play, though
These chicks talkin' loud, but they soft like Play-Doh
Got a lotta racks, yeah, they wanna be me
Got a full tank, while they runnin' on E

Flyin' private jets overseas, you see me
Snappin' pics, strawberry kiwi
They ain't even close, still wanna be me
"Mrs. Me Too," always gotta copy

When I pull up, they watchin', I'm comin', I'm comin'
These rap chicks mad, always huffin' and puffin'
(Damn) Why they always frontin' for nothin'?
Mess around, I'll have 'em runnin' from somethin'

I'm who they believin', mommy, don't even try
Soon as I step in, switchin' up the vibe
Got the beats pumpin' from my boy, so easy
Why would I even try hard? This is breezy

When I pull up, they watchin', I'm comin', I'm comin'
These rap chicks mad, always huffin' and puffin'
(Damn) Why they always frontin' for nothin'?
Mess around, I'll have 'em runnin' from somethin'
When I pull up, they watchin', I'm comin', I'm comin'
These rap chicks mad, always huffin' and puffin'
(Damn) Why they always frontin' for nothin'?
Mess around, I'll have 'em runnin' from somethin'

Yeah. uh that's me

I’M COMIN’

My boo, my boo, yeah
My ride or die, true
My bestie, my bestie
This for you, uh!

Where my girl at, shine so bright?
Got that glow up, blinding like a light
Haters salty, watch us roll up tight
In that new whip, lookin' like a whole damn bite
Got that energy, yeah, we on a new level
Sippin' bubbly, dancin' with the devil
Nah, I'm playin', but we still the crème de la crème
If you ain't with us, then scram!

This for my girlfriend (uh huh)
This for my, this for my girlfriend (yeah)
This for my, this for my girlfriend (ooh)
This for my B-F-F, girlfriend (that's right)
This for my girlfriend (so true)
This for my, this for my girlfriend (my boo)
This for my, this for my girlfriend (my ride)
This for my B-F-F, girlfriend (my bestie)

She my queen, crown stay tilted right
Got that fire drip, burnin' all through the night
We ain't trippin', livin' our best life
If you hatin', get a grip, find a wife
We be flexin', diamonds dancin' on our wrists
Kissin' boys goodbye, blow 'em a kiss
Too busy vibin', climbin' to the top
So good, we make the record skip and pop

This for my girlfriend (uh huh)
This for my, this for my girlfriend (yeah)
This for my, this for my girlfriend (ooh)
This for my B-F-F, girlfriend (that's right)
This for my girlfriend (so true)
This for my, this for my girlfriend (my boo)
This for my, this for my girlfriend (my ride)
This for my B-F-F, girlfriend (my bestie)

Uh, we the duo, breakin' all the rules
Too hot to handle, we stay cool
Step aside, move, comin' through
Me and my girl, makin' dreams come true

This for my girlfriend (uh huh)
This for my, this for my girlfriend (yeah)
This for my, this for my girlfriend (ooh)
This for my B-F-F, girlfriend (that's right)
This for my girlfriend (so true)
This for my, this for my girlfriend (my boo)
This for my, this for my girlfriend (my ride)
This for my B-F-F, girlfriend (my bestie)

Yeah, my bestie, my girlfriend
Always there 'til the very end
Love you, boo! Mwah!

GIRLFRIEND

Lost in the sauce, boy, I'ma track you down
Be my solid ground, watch me climb around
But you blink right through me, like I'm a ghost in the town
Invisible ink, no trace profound 

A-Town, Bay Area, see you everywhere
Got me tongue-tied, caught in your snare
Midnight strikes, Cinderella's gotta dash
But this ain't no fairy tale, baby, facts

Maybe you, maybe me, vibin' on a frequency
Maybe meet, plant a seed, defyin' biology
Yeah, baby, let's dream, rewrite our destiny
Let's make a bay-baby, a fam-i-ly-ly-ly
Let's make a bay-baby, a fam-i-ly-ly-ly

Be my sunlight, lead you through the night
You my ocean wave, I'm ridin' you right
Give my everything, show you I'm sincere
This ain't just a crush, baby, it's crystal clear

A-Town, Bay Area, see you everywhere
Got me tongue-tied, caught in your snare
Midnight strikes, Cinderella's gotta dash
But this ain't no fairy tale, baby, facts

Maybe you, maybe me, vibin' on a frequency
Maybe meet, plant a seed, defyin' biology
Yeah, baby, let's dream, rewrite our destiny
Let's make a bay-baby, a fam-i-ly-ly-ly
Let's make a bay-baby, a fam-i-ly-ly-ly

They see me shinin', thinkin' it's a stunt
I'm the whole damn show, ain't no need to front
Globetrotter, baby, from London to Japan
Searchin' for my king, being trans and proud
He so raw, got me stutterin' my words
Sweet and spicy, like the finest curds
Ladies wanna taste, fellas wanna chase
Stackin' paper, grindin' at my own pace
Where the spotlight? Need my binoculars
Tell him I'm a tidal wave, ain't no hope
I'm everything, baby, deal with it
Search the cosmos, ain't a star that's lit

Maybe you, maybe me, vibin' on a frequency
Maybe meet, plant a seed, defyin' biology
Yeah, baby, let's dream, rewrite our destiny
Let's make a bay-baby, a fam-i-ly-ly-ly
Let's make a bay-baby, a fam-i-ly-ly-ly

Yeah, a family, a bay-baby

MAKE A BABY

Yeah, yeah, baby, are you okay? (You okay?)  
Hit me up, don’t keep it on delay (On delay)  
Text, call, let me know if you okay (If you okay)  
Kiss it all away, make it okay (Make it okay)

Let me, let me know now, shorty (Let me know)  
Are you feeling fine? Just give me a sign (A sign)  
Gotta let me know now, shorty (Let me know)  
Don’t keep me in the dark, babe, don’t waste my time (My time)  
Don’t hide what you feel, yeah (Don’t hide what you feel)  
'Cause what you feel is real, yeah (What you feel is for real)  
And you deserve the glory, yeah (Deserve the glory)  
You just gotta let me know, yeah (Let me know)

Let me, let me know now, shorty (Let me know)  
Let me know now if you okay (If you okay)  
Gotta let me know now, shorty (Let me know)  
Let me, let me know if you okay (If you okay)  
'Cause you know I gotta check for you (Check for you)  
When nobody else checks for you (Checks for you)  
You know I was there for you (There for you)  
When nobody else was there for you (Was there for you)
  
See, baby, I was there for you (There for you)  
When nobody else was there for you (Was there for you)  
So don’t act like it’s easy for you to just leave like that (Like that)  
So don’t act like it’s easy for you to miss me like that (Like that)  
Said you know me, I know you, don’t gotta be like that (Like that)  
'Cause you know nobody else gon' come through and see ya like that (Like that)  
And make sure you’re okay (You okay?)

Yeah, baby, are you okay? (You okay?)  
Hit me up, don’t keep it on delay (On delay)  
Text, call, let me know if you okay (If you okay)  
Kiss it all away, make it okay (Make it okay)

Let me know now if you okay (If you okay)  
Yeah, just let me know, babe (Let me know)  
'Cause I’m always here for you (Always here for you)  
Baby, are you okay? (You okay?)

YOU OKAY?

Even though this song doesn’t fit in any album that I’m currently producing, it was too good to not release as its own single. Enjoy!

ANXIETY

Thought I had you figured out, like a simple equation
But you're just a fraction, causin' all this frustration
I was too naive, wearin' heart-shaped glasses
Now I see your true colors, faded like old ashes
You thought you could play me, like a vintage arcade
But honey, I'm the high score, never gonna be swayed
Keep your trinkets and your lies, they don't impress
I'm a cosmic goddess, in a holographic dress

Yeah, I'm levitatin', risin' above the drama
You're just a static cling, stuck in my past persona
I'm a supernova, baby, watch me ignite
You're a burnt-out bulb, hidin' in the pale moonlight

I'm okay, I'm a queen, call me Cleopatra
Sippin' on cosmic tea, laughin' at your disaster
Time keeps tickin', but I'm timeless, can't you see?
Better bounce before you're swimmin' with the Pisces, flee!

Remember those sweet nothings, whispered in my ear?
Now they're just echoes, fadin' into thin air
I'm a fucking diva, livin' in high definition
You're a blurry snapshot, lackin' all precision
I'm servin' looks, drippin' in celestial glitter
You're just a background blur, a forgettable Twitter post (X)
Keep your drama, baby, I'm too busy shinin'
You're a dime store trinket, while I'm a diamond findin'

Yeah, I'm levitatin', risin' above the drama
You're just a static cling, stuck in my past persona
I'm a supernova, baby, watch me ignite
You're a burnt-out bulb, hidin' in the pale moonlight

I'm okay, I'm a queen, call me Cleopatra
Sippin' on cosmic tea, laughin' at your disaster
Time keeps tickin', but I'm timeless, can't you see?
Better bounce before you're swimmin' with the Pisces, flee!

Just a cosmic upgrade, ain't no turnin' back
I'm a galaxy brain, spittin' fire verses
You're stuck in dial-up, missin' all the curses
I'm a boss, I'm a god, I'm a intergalactic hitta
You're a zero, a nobody, just a glitch, a flicker
So step aside, make way, for the queen's parade
You're yesterday's news, while I'm the future, unafraid

I'm okay, I'm a queen, call me Cleopatra
Sippin' on cosmic tea, laughin' at your disaster
Time keeps tickin', but I'm timeless, can't you see?
Better bounce before you're swimmin' with the Pisces, flee!

CLEOPATRA

(Diamonds dancin', yeah, they doin' the tango
Bout to shut it down, then ghost like a shadow)
 
I am go-going home
I am go-going home
I shut it down, already 
I am go-going home
I am go-going home
I am go-going home
I shut it down, already
I am go-going home

Guess who? (Mwah!)
Drippin' in honey, sweeter than kiwi
Fashion week, front row, takin' it over
Every designer beggin' me to be their poster (Ha!)
Switch my hair, watch 'em all mimic
Switch my gear, yeah, they caught the fever
Look at how they stare, tryna steal my flavor
Well, roger that, did you copy that, copycat?
(Who do these bitches think they are..?)
I am go-going home
I am go-going home
I shut it down, already
I am go-going home
I am go-going home
I am go-going home
I shut it down, already
I am go-going home

Back door, slide out, I'm leavin' (peace!)
One more drink, but these fans gettin' greedy (ugh)
Tell 'em to bounce, no mistakes, gotta jet
Color up shades, incognito, no regrets
Switch my hair, they gon' copy her
Switch my gear, they gon' copy her
Look at how they stare, just to copy her
Well, roger that
Did you copy that, co-co-copy cat?

Yeah, they see me rollin', they hatin'
But I'm focused on elevatin'
Got my own lane, ain't no debatin'
So while they copy, I'm creatin'

I am go-going home
I am go-going home
I shut it down, already
I am go-going home
I am go-going home
I am go-going home
I shut it down, already
I am go-going home

Get ready for the show, we get a lot of dough
And you already, yeah, you already know
That I done shut it down, that's why I'm going home!

GOING HOME

I dig your style, the boots, bling, and kicks you choose, 
Always with your squad, where drama brews.
Win or lose, you're cool, not trying to prove,
Up on that stage, roofless ride, you cruise.
I know you're feeling it, but you're holding back,
I see you, yeah, checking my track.
You're missing out, I should be your main act,
Baby, if you let me, I'll make-you love me, that's a fact.

I'm your Kate, you're my William,
I'm the mistress, you're the CEO.
Low-key in the Matrix, we flow,
They're fake, out in space, you know.
Love me, honey,
Them other girls are nothing, I'm the money bunny.
You're the only one for me, see,
But I saw you with those fakes, not cool with me.
Listen up, they call me in clutch,
Three seconds leftl, too much.
Nothing but net, that's the score,
Star box wet, wanting more.
Come on now.

I dig your style, the boots, bling, and kicks you choose,
Always with your squad, where drama brews.
Win or lose, you're cool, not trying to prove,
Up on that stage, roofless ride, you cruise.
I know you're feeling it, but you're holding back,
I see you, yeah, checking my track.
You're missing out, I should be your main act,
Baby, if you let me, I'll make-you love me, that's a fact.

When you talk trash, I'm like, "Oh, you're silly.",
Make me feel good, like Justin and Hailey.
Not a monster ball, but I Gaga,
Dropping tops, shopping 'til we own the yard.
Kawasaki, then a flight,
Watch a fight, popping bottles in the pepper light.
This one's for you, true,
This one's for the crew, take a sip, this is for you.

I like it when you're around,
Can't show it, gotta stay grounded.
Don't mean to blow you off,
Gotta step right, no fall off.
You're fine as hell, don't wanna play myself,
So I act like I don't care.
If you knew the truth, it's clear,
I only wanna be with you, my dear.

I dig your style, the boots, bling, and kicks you choose,
Always with your squad, where drama brews.
Win or lose, you're cool, not trying to prove,
Up on that stage, roofless ride, you cruise.
I know you're feeling it, but you're holding back,
I see you, yeah, checking my track.
You're missing out, I should be your main act,
Baby, if you let me, I'll make-you love me, that's a fact.

IF YOU LET ME

FREYA, sometimes Freya and The Fantasy 💭Song Writer, EP. Alternative Music 🎼🩷🦋🏳️‍⚧️ 

CONTACT: aonarecords@gmail.com

Confessions of a Mess

FREYA

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