My cover of "I Believe You Can Survive" by Lebanon Hanover.

I Believe You Can Survive (Lebanon Hanover Cover)

My cover of "Gallowdance" by Lebanon Hanover.

Gallowdance (Lebanon Hanover Cover)

Experimental Coldwave Project.
"FrozenInMonochrome" Demo.

Weird acoustic-ish "cover" of a song that I did with Les Modules Etranges

More Than Words (LME Cover)

Experimental Coldwave Project.
"FrozenInMonochrome" Demo.

7. Citadel (featuring Thalie Nemesis)

Experimental Coldwave Project.
"FrozenInMonochrome" Demo.

I will dream when the leaves turn
I will wake when the fields burn
An ancient curse befalls a city turned to embers
Families are faces only vaguely remembered
A king falls to his knees 
Israfel has lost his heart strings 
The angel of mercy spreads her wings 
In the sunlight
My skin burns green
This land is desolate
Its people are unclean
Evil templars are turned to salt
Fallen are the ones who are at fault
My skin burns green
My skin burns green


5. Chevalier Vert

Experimental Coldwave Project.
"FrozenInMonochrome" Demo.

  Sous la surface du lac
Mes jambes, elles commencent à trembler
Une vague de peur
Les cris de l'eau
Larmes salées qui remplissent ma bouche
Je commence à couler, mais je n'ose pas me noyer
Mon trône est fait de peur; une couronne rouillée
Je n'ai jamais voulu que mon règne à la fin
L'obscurité m'envahit alors que le soleil se couche derrière les collines
C'est la prison où j'ai choisi de souffrir 
Under the surface of the lake
My legs, they start to shake
A wave of fear
The water screams
Salty tears fill my mouth
I begin to sink but I dare not drown
My throne was made of fear; a rusty crown
I never wanted my reign to end
Darkness overcomes me as the sun sets behind the hilltops
Darkness overcomes me as the sun sets behind the hilltops
This is the prison where I've chosen to suffer



3. Malaise

*Please note that the release of this track does not signify a change in genre or direction for the Frozen In Monochrome music project.*

Being a one-man, experimental project since its conception, I decided to, well, experiment. I hope you enjoy it.

Darkness from the rain
Each drop forms a blood stain
Temptations in glass shattered on the floor
Crimson curtains over the door
Tears in the fabric bring me pain
Like steel on the tongue or a rope to hang
A wasted life into the wind
Fleeting days of innocence
Replaced by plagues of pestilence
This disease is in my mind
I can't regain control and now I'm out of time
A wasted life into the wind
The only means to meet my end
The meaning of existence is to be fulfilled
There is no hope left in this world
So I'll take this rope or this knife
And without thought I'll end my life
I've got no sorrow, no regrets
This is as good as it will get
So I'll take this rope or this knife
And without thought I'll end my life
The life for which we all yearn
Will put out the fire within burns
Burns

Empty Skies

Single version of Sunset from the album, Malaise.

I wear the sky as my disguise
Safe in the dark until the sunrise
The silence brings me peace of mind
I feel like I exist outside of time
When the earth stands still
I am released
Hanging just out of reach
Of the demons haunting me

Every new sunset
The colors shine for me
Trying not to forget
Those hues spread across the sky for me

I only see colors at night
Only through my misery is there truly light
Will the stars align
Or will I suffer for all of time
As I serve a life sentence
In a prison of my own design

The orange moon on the dark canvas
In sharp contrast to the light of day
Watching the Spring grass sway
Each blade is painted
Until the sun falls and everything turns grey
Except for the haze; the halos around streetlights
Like angels guiding the condemned to their graves

And I don't want to be saved
I just want to live forever while everyone else's body decays
And their minds wither away

I want to stay

Single for Upcoming EP "Colors"

Sunset (2018 Single Version)

So close, so far
Close my eyes and crash my car
Fantasies of self-esteem
Eyes closed forever so I can dream
Remain unheard
Better off unseen
I feel used up
I feel unclean

You told me that I hate myself
More than I could ever love you
Well, I guess that's true
But I feel like it's your fault, too
You told me that I hate myself
More than I could ever love you
Well, I guess that's true
But I feel like it's your fault, too
I'm coming soon to meet my end
I'm overdue

Another chapter is written
Scrapped and thrown into the trash bin
Rewrite everything
Then tear it out again
My world is a temple built on sand
Shifting with the wind
And now I have to start over 
Each and every day I'm in
A maze of perception
I'm disassociating
I can't find
A cure
But I'm disintegrating

So close, so far
Close my eyes and crash my car
Fantasies of self-esteem
Eyes closed forever so I can dream
Remain unheard
Better off unseen
I feel used up
I feel unclean
I feel unclean

You told me that I hate myself
More than I could ever love you
Well, I guess that's true
I feel like it's your fault, too
I'm coming soon to meet my end
I'm overdue
You told me that I hate myself
More than I could ever love you
Well, I guess that's true
I feel like it's your fault, too
I'm coming soon to meet my end
I'm overdue

I feel unclean

3. Teeth

Falling apart at the seams
At least that's what it seems
Sometimes I get tossed around 
When someone finds my strings
It looks like I'm alive
But it's all just an illusion
And sometimes 
Someone new
Creates their own delusions

I'm inside my head
Cold, for I've been bled
I don't care what she said
Mishandled
And mis-read
Light a candle
'Cause I'm already dead
I'm already dead

All my teeth have fallen out
And my wooden spine is splintered
This is the fate of the wooden boy
Who denies he's self-centered
I lie broken on the stage
Another failed plan
One day
One day
Someone will pull my strings again

8. Never Again

prod by leftfordead

Feel a calmness
Washing over me
My mind is stable
Maybe I feel free
Everything is finally standing still
Everything is alright
At least I think it will be
Until
We turn to dust and fall asleep
For eternity

I love you
I love you

Feel a calmness
Washing over me
My mind is stable
Maybe I feel free
Everything is finally standing still
Everything is alright
At least I think it will be
Until
We turn to dust
(Turn to dust)
Fall asleep
(Fall asleep)
For eternity

I love you
(I love you)

I love you
I love you
(I love you)

Eternity (prod By Leftfordead)

prod by leftfordead

We had a nice time together
We talked until we couldn't stay awake anymore
And in the morning
I feel so sure
I need you in my life, forevermore
But I wanna know

Am I being too much
Or just enough
Are there reasons to stay
Or is it just too tough
I want you to know I'm feeling
Like I'm floating towards the ceiling
Every time I hear your voice
I see your face
I want you to take up space and be
Part of my life because
I know that this is good for us
(I wanna be good for you)
It's good for us

Woah

And I really think that I won't
(That I won't)
Make you regret getting close
(Close)
You make me open my chest 
Exposing every weakness
(Weakness, weakness)

I spill my guts all over the floor
In the best way
You give me my best days
(Yeah)
And I really wanna know more
Tell me everything 
That you feel like you want to say
(Hey)
Any thought on your mind
Any place, any time
Everything you do is just perfect to me
(Perfect to me)
This pedestal is built for you
I promise it's safe where you're standing
(Where you're standing, yeah)

Life In Reverse (prod By Leftfordead)

prod by leftfordead

Last night you spent hours with me
I felt so good, I couldn't sleep
Every moment spent touching
Meant so much more than
I could ever speak
To you
I want you badly
You take away my sadness
I want to make you happy
I hope you feel the same as me
(Same as me, yeah)

Last night was acid rain
Last night was an open vein
I feel no pain
I hope that you feel the same

Lost in a moment
No Monochrome, Not Frozen
Lights on with the door open
Feeling lucky like I'm chosen
My cologne in your nose
Are you feeling hazy
Smell me on your clothes
Do I make you fucking crazy

(Yeah)

Tell me your problem and I'ma come fix it
Scratch on my back like a lotto ticket
Sink your teeth into my chest if you like it
And tell me you're feeling it, I'ma come with you
Surrender yourself to me, give me your pain
I'll find all the ways I can silence your brain
I want your attention
I want you crave me
I want you crave me

Yeah

Last night was acid rain
Last night was an open vein
I feel no pain
I hope that you feel the same

Lost in a moment
No Monochrome, Not Frozen
Close the door to your bedroom
Baby, it's just me and you
It's just me and you
Yeah, it's just me and you

Last Night (prod By Leftfordead)

prod by leftfordead

Lately, I've been thinking
And I don't know what you really feel for me
I care for you and I always will
Your friendship means the world to me
But still
I'm falling for you

I don't want to take up all your time and all your energy
I just wanna know your thoughts on us and what we might be
I really don't mind things just how they are, if that's what you need
The uncertainty is hurting me, I'm sorry

Some nights I sit in the dark 
Watching shapes move in the blackness
Sometimes I think I feel something
But most days, I'm just not so sure of that

Stomach's all in knots
And I've been having heart attacks
And wondering if
I want someone that doesn't want me back

Tomorrow Night (prod By Leftfordead)

Large birds gather along the radio tower
It's unsettling
Like the sound of the telephone ring
But
The setting sun
Stretches the shadows of the insects in this parking lot
I'm chasing a feeling that I forgot
I can't really tell if it was real enough
In my dreams, I'm running through the tangled weeds
And my heart is made of sunflower seeds
The happy paddles of the prickly pear plants in that field
Kinda, sorta, make me feel like it's worth being here and...yeah

I want to be a light in the lives of everyone I know
But I feel like a darkness that makes it hard for love to grow
And I know some of this is just inside my head
I know

I know it feels like I'm always bracing for impact
And I know that I really need to stop that
But I feel like maybe I deserved
Each one of those rat traps
Not with you, though 
(Not with you, though)
I feel so different now
The whole world
Just feels brighter, somehow
Yeah

Prickliest Pear (interlude)

prod by leftfordead

I don't just feel alone
I feel like I'm in prison
Separated
Isolated
Cell mates
Trapped within
These walls of this broken house
Don't Fall to this freakout
Pipes burst and the water comes flooding in
Here we go again
Here we go again

(I don't just feel alone
I feel like I'm in prison
Separated, isolated
Cell mates, trapped within
This endless cycle of stop and start
I got Pure Joy In My Heart)

I just want to be alone
I feel the presence all around me
I just want to leave this place
And silence the voice resounding
Escape the filth, but
My body is bound
Take my chains off
Leave them on the ground
Leave them on the ground

(I don't just feel alone
I feel like I'm in prison
Separated, isolated
Cell mates, trapped within)

I don't just feel alone
I feel like I'm in prison
Separated
Isolated
Cell mates
Trapped within
These bars and this concrete
Wait Til The Morning
I'm tired of vomiting
I'm tired of everything

Canihavemy<3backnow (prod By Leftfordead)

prod by leftfordead

I can't sleep
Did I forget to eat
Nothing keeps the ground
Planted firmly on my feet
Floating or sinking
Rest in peace
Picture one 
Stays on repeat
No one to turn to
Nowhere to go
I can feel my heart sitting in my throat
I've lost all hope

Try to stay
Looking on the bright side
How can I do that 
When nothing turns out right
Still depressed
It's been a long night
And no one ever checks
To see if I'm alright

Nothing's bright
And I feel like
Maybe 
I've gotten too much sunlight 
I feel so ugly
I want to shave my head
I feel so stupid
I wish that I was dead
I'm boring
Texts left on read
No one makes plans
And no one's excited

I can't sleep
Did I forget to eat
Depression is the only
Company I keep
Anxiety and stress
Make me feel like I'm a mess
I just some space
I just need a place

Too bad, so sad
Sometimes I feel like I'm dead
I disassociate 
From my body and my head
Negative reflections
On the failed life I led
Fuck all this
I'm going back to bed

Going back to bed

Try to stay
Looking on the bright side
How can I do that 
When nothing turns out right
Still depressed
It's been a long night
And no one ever checks
To see if I'm alright

Try to stay
Looking on the bright side
How can I do that 
When nothing turns out right
Still depressed
It's been a long night
And no one ever checks
To see if I'm alright

I Called 911 Because There Was A Fire And She Was Rude To Me (prod By Leftfordead)

prod by leftfordead

Just sixteen
I was Running Free
Zeppelin on my shirt, Dokken on my CD
Under Lock and Key
Even your family liked me
Like me

Yeah

After nine, talking on the landline with me
I'd listen to your voice until you accidentally fell asleep
You meant so much to me
I wish that I could tell you that I'm sorry
I'm sorry

I still think of that picture with you riding on my back
The first time I smiled in a picture, who even took that
You were the first one I wanted
We were best friends and I hate that we ever parted
It was my fault, I just let it happen
I wish could restart it
I hope I'm gone but not forgotten
Not forgotten

Just sixteen
I was Running Free
I never meant to hurt you
Please know that it hurt me to lose you
I know it doesn't mean much to say
I know I found it hard to articulate
To really find a way to express my hate
For her
For myself
Sorry I ever let anyone get in the way
Me or anybody else

Don't get close to me
Cause I could die tomorrow
Don't get close to me
I'll just make you feel hollow

Oh

Don't get close to me
Cause I could die tomorrow
Don't get close to me
I'll just make you feel hollow

Oh
Frozen In Monochrome

The Meadows (prod By Leftfordead)

prod by leftfordead

I feel all alone
Isolated
Everything is so alienating
Losing patience 
I waste the years
I'm facing my fears
Someone get me out of here

Blinded under sunlight 
As my clouds hide a sullen sky
Sometimes I still wanna die
But I'm trying

The wind picks up and I'll lose my head again
I just don't want to be all of those things that you said I am

Money can buy a house but not a home
Either way I can't afford either one of those
Money can't buy you a fair election
Money can't buy me sincere affection

I just wanna feel like myself
I just wanna be healthy, oh well
I want real interactions with you
Honestly, I just miss you

Money can buy a house but not a home
Either way I can't afford either one of those
(I can't afford it)
Money can't buy you a fair election
Money can't buy me sincere affection
(Please love me, please me love me)

Money can buy a house but not a home
Either way I can't afford either one of those
Money can't buy me sincere affection
Money can't buy me affection

Hold me closer
Help me feel empowered
The world is crashing down on me
But I feel like a sunflower
Just for a little while
At least until tomorrow
I'll try to smile
And not drag you down, no

Money (prod By Leftfordead)

2014 - 2020

FrozenInMonochrome was a project that began as a one-man coldwave-inspired musical endeavor, created following the release of several songs (as Sialuk) alongside Kevin Shames (Basavriuk/Lake Milk/Dead Souls), and included further collaborative efforts with Kevin Shames, Les Modules Etranges, Kelly Sinclair, Thalie Nemesis, and leftfordead. The project evolved throughout the six year period of its existence as an experimental mess that was as much fueled by depression as it was self-indulgence and, oftentimes, even actual earnest expression. Also, emo rap and, like, a black metal song. Or whatever. Anyway...the project was retired in the first days of 2020 as a farewell to a musical identity that was born out of a situation with which I no longer feel any connection or familiarity. 

While some of the songs will remain the same, staying in the past, some have been transformed and will follow along wherever I take them. Regardless, all of these tracks will continue to be important to me and I hope you get something out of listening to them.

I now release music as Norman Certainty. 
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