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Field of Memories is a deeply personal journey through time, capturing the essence of childhood innocence, life’s transitions, and the emotions woven into growing up. Each composition drifts like a warm breeze over an open field at dusk—calm, reflective, and filled with nostalgia. With delicate melodies and atmospheric soundscapes, this album invites you to sit in the stillness of the evening, letting memories unfold like distant echoes in the wind.

Produced and mixed by Maximilian Schmitt (Arrival in Eden)
Mastered by Maximilian Schmitt & Dionis Afonichev (Dionisaf)
Cover picture by Maximilian Schmitt with AI
Cover design by Dionis Afonichev

Field of Memories

Luminous Heart

let it go

I left the apartment. not because I had anywhere to go, but because I couldn’t breathe in it anymore. The walls were too familiar, the silence too personal. Out on the street, at least the stink of gasoline and strangers’ curses gave the illusion that something was still happening , that the world hadn’t completely died.

Though maybe it had. Maybe it’s just lying there, rotting quietly, and we’re all just worms with cigarettes in our teeth and traces of lost time carved into our foreheads.
 
At a café that never smelled like coffee, I sat by the window to watch other people move. Life was always somewhere else. Women passed by with dead eyes, and men who looked like they’d lost something they didn’t even know how to name.

There was a letter in my pocket. I hadn’t opened it. Not because I was afraid. I already knew what it said. 

I was tired of myself. Not even the suffering, it had long since dulled, but that thick, oily emptiness that spills out of you when you don’t even have the strength to long for anything anymore.

I wanted to go home, but there was no home. I wanted to sleep in arms I’d never known. Maybe this is someone else’s dream, someone sleeping peacefully while I drown.

learn to drown

I feed on what’s left of me.
day after day.
it’s not hunger, not really.
more like… maintenance.
keeping the rot from falling apart too fast.

the demons
they don’t scream anymore.
they hum.
soft, constant,
like the sound behind silence.

I tell myself it’s discipline.
that I’m fighting.
that I’m becoming.
but I know what that smell is.
I know what it means when the mirror looks tired before I do.

sometimes I think the rot isn’t decay.
maybe it’s transformation.
maybe I’m not breaking, I’m… refining.
yeah.
refining.
that’s what I said last time, too.

there’s no redemption.
no release.
just the slow rot of trying again.
again.
again.

I forget what I wanted to fix.
I just remember the shape of the wound.
it’s familiar.
it’s home.

and I feed on what’s left of me,
day after day,
so the demons won’t starve.

two_o_three_no_more_me

Immersive collaborative album of Atmøsphäre and Dionisaf, steeped in cold textures, shadowy resonance, and layers of abrasive noise, conjures a bleak sonic tundra — where icy drones, distorted textures, and shadowy pulses stretch across vast, unforgiving landscapes.

Produced, mixed and mastered by Tom Lievens (Atmøsphäre) and Dionis Afonichev (Dionisaf)
Cover picture by Tom Lievens
Cover design by Dionis Afonichev

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