I aint scared of dyin, but im scared of livin 😭

i played

sober

sober (feat. BOYFRIENDZ)

SAY MY NAME

SINGLE OFF THE ALBUM
'BITTER BLUE'

prod: https://soundcloud.com/nothingnowheremusic

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

And for the first time
Im feeling closer to closure
I Feel the storm blowing over,
like i can close my eyes tonight

And i can see it in your eyes
(Let go)
A whisper in the night
(Run home)
Run home, Run home

And thought i was right for too long
Now its time to face it
I can feel it inside of my bones
And its so hard to shake it
And for the first time
Im feeling closer to closure
I Feel the storm blowing over,
like i can close my eyes tonight

And i can see it in your eyes
(Let go)
A whisper in the night
(Run home)
Run home, Run home

Run Home (Prod. nothing,nowhere.)

BODYBAG EP(Prod. Nedarb)

Ft:
https://soundcloud.com/coldhart
https://twitter.com/Coldh4rt
https://www.instagram.com/coldhart_/

Prod:
https://soundcloud.com/nedarbnagrom
twitter.com/NEDARBNAGROM
www.instagram.com/nedarbnagrom/

Art: 
roelun.co
twitter.com/roelun
www.instagram.com/roelun/

Bodybag Ft. Coldhart (Prod. nedarb)

VIDEO: youtu.be/RWo_yQr_8bA?a

BODYBAG EP(Prod. Nedarb)

Prod:
https://twitter.com/NEDARBNAGROM
https://www.instagram.com/nedarbnagrom/

Art: 
http://roelun.co
https://twitter.com/roelun
https://www.instagram.com/roelun/

Lyrics:
I'm just tryna get to u
Shits been hard 
But I'm making moves 
Well I'm trying
I'm trying 

And I just hope u understand
All the pain in my back 
And blisters on my hands 
It's all u
Now you're screaming 
At the top of your lungs
I don't need u

Ask me what's my problem
Baby come outside 
Pulling on my hand like everything's alright 
Messing with my 
Something's just not right 
I don't wanna go back 
Baby u should know that 

Bitch don't hit my line
Do this every night 
Phone on 2% 
Like ya i swear that shit gone die
I've been getting money 
pretty baby what u like 
I've been getiin money 
pretty baby what u like

At The Top Of Your Lungs (Prod. Nedarb) *VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION *

the sun is way too bright (prod. trxpicvl)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LqRp4xaZO4w
prod. shrimp

laying in the dirt [video in description]

talk2me

big shoutout to @minesweepa for this beauty

MIA (prod. MineSweepa)

Emergency ft. Brennan Savage & Coldhart (prod. fish narc)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFE7yVvHdxo

LYRICS BELOW+++

BEAT PRODUCED BY @imissutelo

MIX AND MASTERED @darkskyparadox

I stay by your picture when I'm stoned
12 oz, punch liquor on the drive home
Shadows in the flicker of the light bulbs
Will anyone remember me when I go?
Lie low
Lie low
I've been suicidal
Neck hangs with my eyes closed
Don't matter where I go
This decision is final..
Never look behind you 
Might see what you don't like to 
I don't talk to God 
but sometimes wish I could find you
I look in her eyes
I see dreams, I see vitals
and I been seeing signs in the things I was blind to...

CALL ME A NAME,
CAN YOU MAKE ME CONFESS
ALL OF THE THINGS THAT YOU HATE I SUPPRESS ?
WHEN IT STAYS IN MY BRAIN AND IT MAKES ME A MESS !
STAYING DEPRESSED IS SOMETHING STRANGER THAN DEATH..

Song about a drug... 
You can see it in my eye, 
Something about your love gets me really fucking high
and
Through my mind you run from problems that you're hiding
I've been coming undone, put me in a cycle. 

CALL ME A NAME,
CAN YOU MAKE ME CONFESS
ALL OF THE THINGS THAT YOU HATE I SUPPRESS ?
WHEN IT STAYS IN MY BRAIN AND IT MAKES ME A MESS !
STAYING DEPRESSED IS SOMETHING STRANGER THAN DEATH..

MAKE ME FORGET (prod. IMISSUTELO x DARKSKYPARADOX)

you wanna be that way
well dive in
dive in my holy ghost

i was never worried bout the six feet
i just wonder why it wouldn’t kill me
i ain’t get above in the fifties
and i know this isn’t making up for lost time
no difference made but now i know mine
making the same mistake for my whole life
now i’m gotta keep it all tongue tied
forty five minutes till you’re really getting tired and you’ll keep your distance
oh my god
i don’t need time i just want your love
and no thought and prayers and heartfelt lies gon play i
guess i don’t know the faith i got
wasn’t myself, it wasn’t my boss
and now all this searching brought me back to say that

i don’t care
bout a stare
or judgment
i don’t care
i don’t care
i don’t care
what your friends want from me
play it fair
i don’t care
i don’t care
bout the gram
to prove nothing
breath on air
i don’t care

locked out heaven like i can’t upset
i don’t need the time to decide i like it the best 
i just came for it
now i got a commission
i ain’t even 18 and i found me a mission
fuckboy treating art like a test
it’s why he always got a issue never given respect
so i just stick to plans cos this shit fun now i got a mentor
toxic engagement is not what i’m motherfucking meant for
i’ll kill your reason with an MC sony camcord

i don’t wanna play the game no more
i don’t wanna play the game no mooooore
i don’t wanna waste my funds
doing something i don’t love
give a little bitty fuck
i don’t
i don’t know where the passion in my subs
so i’ll get it on my own
what’s inside of me is enough like
i don’t want no points
sin or holy
i don’t call shots
and i ain’t no kobe
i tried to wear a collar
tried to be a goalie
i’m done with all then roles you can sell me off as a phony

i don’t care
bout a stare
or judgment
i don’t care
i don’t care
i don’t care
what your friends want from me
play it fair
i don’t care
i don’t care
bout the gram
to prove nothing
breath on air
i don’t care
i don’t care
what you expect from me
i don’t care
i don’t care

you wanna be that way
well dive in
dive in my holy ghost

idontcare

photo by 50Landing

fuckboy tryna play my homie
but 2020 i’ma take time on me
out the window where my mainline goes
this is sacrilegious how i’m gon fade off IG

heartache comes in many forms
one day opens any door but
i’ve never seen this distant
what success? my eyes are on a screen
if you’re hurting call my line and if you’re doing good, it’s not like i don’t care
i wanna see the world
this shit ain’t the same if i can’t breath your air

fuckboy tryna play my homie
but 2020 i’ma take time on me
out the window where my mainline goes
this is sacrilegious how i’m gon fade off IG
hope you find someone who can be invested
i’m not over you that’s not my objective
so obsessed with my mistakes i gotta accept them
so i’m not gonna listen to him

he always wants a little more
lost in his fake love and subliminals
won’t stay true if it’s difficult 
a lie’s a lie won’t hide the real to waste your time
that’s just being honest
shouldn’t fall in love and i shouldn’t go to college
gotta fight off all the pain he made in august

i’m not who you think i am

fuckboy tryna play my homie
but 2020 i’ma take time on me
out the window where my mainline goes
this is sacrilegious how i’m gon fade off IG
i won’t put no filler or no dud in my setlist
you should up your standards for what i can be impressed with
out your metric
i’m alive and i need help
hit concrete bottom you could say i learned my lesson

fuckboy tryna play my homie
but 2020 i’ma take time on me
out the window where my mainline goes
this is sacrilegious how i’m gon fade off IG

laying in the dirt [video in description]

shrimp

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