song still needs lots of work but i thought i would j share the demo :)

turned 22 today, here's a song

produced by stonesowavy

mastered by @sastrp

LYRICS:

let me in let me out

tell me what you know
bout your life the shit u hide and tell me what u owe
forget about the time i got it start right from the go
lemme know your fears the trauma buried deep below
tell me bout the time u didn’t have a place a home
tell me bout the desperation of being alone
moving day to day where every day was seeming slow
every time the outcome of events was still unknown 
it’s unknown where we at
no time to react
speculation mixed with fact and the fad of attention in remission
cause it’s not about you and it never was
and it’s not about me that’s what troubles us
expecting compensation for a life that seems mistaken
and receiving nothing but impatience conflict illness degradation
seems unfair all this monotony performed with calculation 
comparing hatred
constantly racing
wonder what’s the purpose of the pain
dream of peace a stable life consistent pay
don’t ask for too much only take the things u need
tell me how you heal and how you bleed

can i tell you what i know
bout my life the shit i hide and what i owe
hope you got the time cause imma start right from the go 
i got a lot of fear and trauma buried deep below
i got a couple diagnoses probably a couple more they haven’t found yet
but the symptoms are apparent and the treatment done is negligent 
i’m stubborn almost arrogant in my ability to counter obstacles it’s evident
that i would benefit from therapy if i just fucking went
but i can’t even dial numbers start the journey of salvation
once my halo dusty now it’s broken down to yo sediment
i said i wanna change the world
she said that i can’t make that promise
i told her that i need approval
she said i might be a narcissist
cause i’m so focused on myself in such a troubling way
i can recognize the rot but i still let it decay
doing the bare minimum so i can get through the day
but i’m still desperate for some clapping hands to say it’s okay 
cause just the thought of doing what is right is not enough if i don’t actually do it
i want diplomas houses i blew it 
why does life feel claustrophobic when i just got on my feet
can i tell you how i heal and how i bleed

let me in let me out

i simply can’t believe in over sharing
given proper context humans tend to love comparing
situations lived and coping methods revel baring
honest nature of existence and precisely planning
what to filter rummage memories depression or your BPD
and anything that’s troubling the most open that you’ll ever be
but only let out what’s acceptable the limit of your history
is undefined when you first meet somebody you can vaguely see
being in your life extended time bond through little things
like breakups high school bullies neurons firing
to find the sweet spot not too overbearing sort of comforting
to know you’re not alone in this eventually the dam will break
testing the relationship by showing what is underneath
standing at a checkpoint in the bond you built so carefully
started off with how your parents were divorcing
to how you know the makeup that can help to cover bruising 
buzzwords key components of a conversation hold em in their mouth and let them out
when necessity to shows up 
know i’m here for you i care but question if they do believe that
in their head are they judgmental bout a controversial past

and maybe i’m just nosy bout your life
not always my business do or die
imma tell you something bout me
this is how i heal and how i bleed

let me in [prod. stonesowavy]

hey hello goodbye w/2ach (siem spark)

just a song i made for fun lol 
lmk if i should fix it up and put it on spotify

the places u will go without me

Hyperpapi is here 
LYRICS
intro
Dont you move on 
Dont you move on 
bitch, im so confused 
dont you
dont you 
dont you move
dont you move now 
Bitch dont you move now 
HOOK:
YOU...got me all the way 
im so confused 
by the way how you make moves
you the reason that i sip brews
got me all the way bitch dont you move

BRIDGE:
Bitch dont you move
bitch dont you (X3)
Dont you move on 
Too late(x5) (Bitch dont you bitch dont you baby please dont you)

VERSE: 
get your panties out my motherfucking place
bitch got problems told em get em out my motherfucking face
im so sick and tired doing this motherfucking chase
it aint bout money told em get them out my way Cause 

HOOK

HYPNOSIS

wtfbrandon - missed calls prod. im w dustin

Mixed/Mastered By Me
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Produced By https://soundcloud.com/drmabeats-90606897 & https://soundcloud.com/prodveldt
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Lyrics 
I feel u right below me on the ground 
I don’t miss u u don’t know me 
love it when I’m bleeding out 
In the carpet 
I just wanna turn around and run 
wanna see u tonight 
u irradiate my life 
I wanna see ur face every night 

u were knocking at my doorknob 
left me fucking starving 
I don’t give a fuck anymore want u back 
u would whisper in my ear 
like to make me jealous 
tell me all these things like I give a fuck 

still bite my nails like I learned when I was seven 
why u still behind my back 
thought we ended it already 
feels like my life kinda blurry can’t focus no not at all
it feels no I can’t do it people tell me I can 

give u all the time u need 
try and fucking play me 
I need fucking time to heal 
don’t want u beside me 
it was almost like nothing 
I wanted u part of me but I guess not 
I wanted to talk it out with u but I guess we can’t 
and everything feels so fake can u go away 
and every time these bitches leave they’ll regret till the end 
until the fucking end

evolve (drmabeats x veldt)

u look tired, is everything okay?
𝕝𝕠𝕤𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕪𝕠𝕟𝕖,
(lyrics)
had enough,
this isnt fun anymore
you dont talk to me at all
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had enough
youre leaving more
words dont last
im feeling horrible

repeating words
all ive ever heard
its in my veins
never doing great

i find myself
drifting to the end
of all ive ever known
lonely is a word when used to describe my home
but love is such a waste when they are not the one
and im easy to replace, lets face the facts im nothing special
this game of life, is just an unbeatable level
i always think about whats called "have i lost you?"
well i have,
we'll never get it back again

back again
ive lost you
and now youre gone
gone
i miss you
i am nothing,
i never was

made 11/16/22

Ephemeral

epic song ft. @lxstboymusic
prod. judah B

LYRICCCC!!
Slide on the city yeah you know its time
Yeah shes pretty, mighty fine
Got myself locked in her eyes, a carousel right through my spine
She got me spinning round, round circles in my brain
I wish i could go back, and make my past not so plain

Cant change the past, but the future's yours to mold
So take your hand, ace up your sleeve, dont you fold, youll see
Youll make your name, across these plains, across these empty streets
Follow me, but i aint got a fkn clue
We gon bluff, we gon make it through the rough, 
losing all my confidence but fuck it ima run it up, 
look into her eyes n don't pass that up

[lxst boy]
yeah
slide through the city we gon make it fly
got so lost in her deep brown eyes
never could dance but she took my hand
got me hyped for what she got next
and i don’t wanna tell her now
that she’s all in my head
i wish i could just let her go
but i’m still here instead

imma lost boy
never found
but i’m always
underground
i don’t really
fall in love
but this girl is
all i want

slide on the city ft. lxst boy [prod. Judah B]

on all platforms <3

LYRIC/////
I did what i did, nothings gonna change that
Change who i am go way back
Ive been me, changing gradually
Through life were evolving we have to be

Time and place, everything gon change
Think you got the best of me but nothings in my way
except myself, except my mind, except my stupid ways to waste my time
We all change, life moves on, we recover from pain, and move beyond
We all fuck up, we all do wrong, the question is how u gonna stay strong

Its unlikely, i fucked up and you know that
Overthink myself sleep, time move forward cant go back
You try your best to make amends
But i cant fix what doesnt bend 
I used to think you were my friend
Now i see it was it all pretend
I fucked up once you left the end.

everything gon change [prod. mndls1600]

Puddles of tears are laid across my web
All eight legs take very careful steps
Feel like i'm trapped in my own knots
I know its self sabotage but i can't stop

Ladybugs and butterflies they get it easy
But when i'm around people get uneasy
Even though me and ladybugs are alike
I don't understand what people dislike

world so big i wish i could make it
People try to tell me that i should fake it
But even when i try i still look the same
An eight legged creep with sharp fangs

And if i was red and had spots
Would they still leave me until i rot
I guess ill stay in my spider-utopia
I wish you didn't have Arachnophobia

I'm stuck in my home with nothing to do
wish i could go outside and play with you
But all eight legs are hard to carry
And all the other insects find me really scary

Im soft and delicate and scared of heights
I don't like getting in physical fights
I might seem frightening but i am not
I know its your views it is not my fault

world so big i wish i could make it
People try to tell me that i should fake it
But even when i try i still look the same
An eight legged creep with sharp fangs

And if i was red and had spots
Would they still leave me until i rot
I guess ill stay in my spider-utopia
I wish you didn't have Arachnophobia

Arachnophobia (prod. WHAT?BOY)

Left Behind is an Ash 4K story Alt-R&B energy mixed with raw feelings. Every track is a moment you can’t forget, made to play late night on repeat.

the places u will go without me

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