Sometimes the real death is to just stay alive...

@urnotperfecteither the promo aint promoing

my first mistake in a long time, this my first mistake in a long time
my first mistake in a long time, this my first mistake in a long time
my mistake, let you in my mind again
my mistake, let you waste my time, again

bitch i might kill myself, fuck yo feelings hoe don't doubt me
ion give a fuck about it hoe, this ain't about me
go about yo worthless ass life, bitch, without me
want yo remorse, yo regret bitch, i'm drowning

but ion know tho, laid up i'm like i'm dying again
getting cold oh, frozen, it's my time to repent
moving solo, lake of fire, fye to my head
ion know bro, this is how we die in the end

in the end, where i'm thrown, at the end of my rope
cut my ties, lemme choke, yeah i'm tired, losing hope
in the end, where i'm thrown, at the end of my rope
cut my ties, lemme choke, yeah i'm tired, losing hope

my first mistake in a long time, this my first mistake in a long time
my first mistake in a long time, this my first mistake in a long time
my mistake, let you in my mind again
my mistake, let you waste my time, again

disoriented

i just got blood on my pants
he got a glock now he think he the man now
pull up in this hoe too fast
if i'm around you know its man down
he did some hoe shit, yeah he finished
i take his soul yeah i'm replenished 
she suck my soul out now i'm finished
him and his whole set get diminished
blood mixed with the dirt
three holes in shirt
sink into the earth
where my body burns

just took a hoe 
im with his bitch in the backseat 
she tryna throw a lil neck
i was gon pop a lil sum
had to back up and look
cuz these niggas dont know where we at
bitch im on road
that prada my toe
150 this coupe
can you keep up with that
they selling lies baby im selling crack
300 this denim i aint tryna brag
got a white bitch that look like kehlani
got another one look like whoa vicky
got another on serving my chronic
its a problem nigga get up with me
if you cross me buddy then you finished
i was gon feed the dogs until they bit me
now i just step alone cuz they aint with me
she do a split on the dick call it fitness dawg

in the dirt i lie as my body decomposes

in the dirt i lie as my body decomposes (ft. sari)

it's always been the same
ion feel a difference, i still feel this pain
i still feel distain
you reflect me, i see everything i hate
nothing on this earth could ever make me feel the same
no matter what i try, i'll die, if i lie next to you tonight
i fall deep into this hate, it's late i wait to feel alive
ion feel alive, oh no i don't feel alive
i-ion feel alive, live

feel like i'm running out of options
i just fill my body up with toxins
i just lie alone and drown in darkness
everything i do is fucking harmless
in the darkness i thrive
i've done all there is to ever do to feel alive
i'm stuck in this loop but i still don't understand why
i can't end my life, no matter how much i have tried
sometimes the real death is just to stay alive
sometimes the real death is just to stay alive

it's always been the same
ion feel a difference, i still feel this pain
i still feel distain
you reflect me, i see everything i hate
nothing on this earth could ever make me feel the same
no matter what i try, i'll die, if i lie next to you tonight
i fall deep into this hate, it's late i wait to feel alive
ion feel alive, oh no i don't feel alive
i-ion feel alive, live

lemme up this to my head
if i pull this trigger ion care bout what come next
i feel it calling my body just want some lead
i wake up get up out of bed, i live in dread

no matter what i try, i'll die, if i lie next to you tonight
i fall deep into this hate, it's late i wait to feel alive
ion feel alive, oh no i don't feel alive
i-ion feel alive, alive

sometimes the real death is just to stay alive
sometimes the real death is just to stay alive

it's always been the same

if that's all it take then i might as well
drop 2 cops, pack it up, inhale
i'm outside, p365, in the all black truck
no i can't fail
if that's all it take then i might as well
drop 2 cops, pack it up, inhale
i'm outside, p365, in the all black truck
no i can't fail

girl it's seven o'clock in the morning
you still up, and you all alone, and u still suck
when my eyes close, thru the bullshit
yeah they still shut
ion ever get to feel nun
when i cut myself it's just to feel sum
only hurt myself so i can feel numb

girl i'm numb to you why you mad at me
had enough of you and yo tragedy

if that's all it take then i might as well
drop 2 cops, pack it up, inhale
i'm outside, p365, in the all black truck
no i can't fail
if that's all it take then i might as well
drop 2 cops, pack it up, inhale
i'm outside, p365, in the all black truck
no i can't fail

bitch i can't fail it's too easy, lets get it
switch on this g17, at yo fitted
134 i'm on i-95, and i promise yo soul
gon be mine when i'm finished
escalade modded butterfly doors
don't give a fuck i'm suicidal
it ain't really nun to take yo life bro
.50 on me now you in my sight ho

girl i'm numb to you why you mad at me
had enough of you and yo tragedy
girl i'm numb to you why you mad at me
had enough of you and yo tragedy

if that's all it take then i might as well
drop 2 cops, pack it up, inhale
i'm outside, p365, in the all black truck
no i can't fail
if that's all it take then i might as well
drop 2 cops, pack it up, inhale
i'm outside, p365, in the all black truck
no i can't fail

p365

i cannot remember when i felt a thing at all
double barrel up against my head, no one to call
blood fall down my body, now it's splattered on the wall
tie the rope around my throat, and watch my body fall
i don't wanna try again, they never let me fall
nail me to the wall
i can hear somebody cry my name out down the hall
i cannot recall
don't believe what i saw
i lay on the glass and cut myself with every crawl

i think i'm in danger
i think i see demons in my crib
i'm a stranger
i can never be alone inside my thoughts, i hate it
i take what i want, take what i can to get sedated
i always lose my patience
i can smell the iron from the blood mixed with the fragrance
one that i remember that you wore, i fucking hate it
i rip thru your body, yet you laugh, i stand there aimless
do the same to me and we both lie there, corpses vacant

we shared the same fate
everything i feel inside for you is fueled by hate
you were my reflection, break the mirror
we're not the same
never be the same

i cannot remember when i felt a thing at all
double barrel up against my head, no one to call
blood fall down my body, now it's splattered on the wall
tie the rope around my throat, and watch my body fall
i don't wanna try again, they never let me fall
nail me to the wall
i can hear somebody cry my name out down the hall
i cannot recall
don't believe what i saw
i lay on the glass and cut myself with every crawl

we shared the same fate
everything i feel inside for you is fueled by hate
you were my reflection, break the mirror
we're not the same
you were my reflection, break the mirror
we're not the same

we shared the same fate
everything i feel inside for you is fueled by hate
you were my reflection, break the mirror
we're not the same
never be the same
never be the same

i cannot remember when i felt a thing at all

i know something you don't
i know it's hard to understand what i know, i know
i know i get in my own way but, i hope i don't
get in my way this time i know i
won't fold, won't fold

it's a full lobby, 12 gauge shotty
i got kevlar on my chest
so why he think he got me
been a decade, i'm obsessed
the thought of dropping bodies
drop until ain't nothing left
until they all forgot me
i just dropped a body
ain't nobody caught me
i ain't doing nothing wrong
i just do what they taught me
this what my pc taught me
the shit that i embody
my brain so fucking foggy
don't wanna get too cocky

i know something you don't
i know it's hard to understand what i know, i know
i know i get in my own way but, i hope i don't
get in my way this time i know i
won't fold, won't fold

bitch i drop dead
body draining on the pavement
think i lost it
i consume and then i act
my brain so rotten
repetition of my actions
i'm so toxic
yeah i'm so toxic
blood is running down the walls
i'm at my own burial
i see things that nobody else can
i'm so scared of that
i asked them about what i just saw
they never heard of that
oh i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry
yeah i'm such a burden, that i can't help it

i know something you don't
i know it's hard to understand what i know, i know
i know i get in my own way but, i hope i don't
get in my way this time i know i
won't fold, won't fold

toxic

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lyrics:

i just get so numb when you stab me in my back
i don't know what to do, but one day i'll get you back
i stalk you, i'm obsessed, just wanna see how this pans out
i've seen way too much, i've heard too much, think i'm mad now

i'm gone
my wrist so gone
i pray to god, won't be here long
tell me its wrong, it must be wrong to wish you death
it felt so right, i must be right i do attest, test to my hate
i feel my hate strong as my love

drifting away, the abyss calls my name out
still feel the same, still the same, as i came out
no one should care, it's ok, i'm ok now
sorrow, my torment, my death, it's my way out

drifting away, the abyss calls my name out
still feel the same, still the same, as i came out
no one should care, it's ok, i'm ok now
sorrow, my torment, my death, it's my way out

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funeral - i'm doing what i can

lyrics

don't hold me tonight
please don't hold me tonight
the night you hate me most
don't hold me tonight
please don't hold me tonight
night- night- night-

don't hold me tonight
please don't hold me tonight
the night you hate me most
don't hold me tonight
please don't hold me tonight
night- night- night-

you move on, i know that
you come back, i get it
i move on, i stay back
you're too close, regret it

emotions i keep pushing out
i swear they're just too fake
you tried to change
i just shot back, afraid you're just too late

think i know what you are
i saw you in my sleep
again, we went too far
again, i'm in too deep

i feel the warmth of my own blood
no need to hold me tonight
know what you do when you're not here
so please don't hold me tonight

don't hold me tonight
please don't hold me tonight
the night you hate me most
don't hold me tonight
please don't hold me tonight
night- night- night-

so long i lay so wide awake
you try to change, i try to face
the darkness i brought to the day
it's all my fault, i wash away

don't hold me tonight

lyrics
you want my best, i can't give that
but i can give you more
you're in my head, you're in my ear
so much worse than before
you say the worst things when i'm high
try my best to ignore
it's like i hate you but i love you
my toxic amor

i'll do anything you ask me
love when you attack me
i get so obsessed with you
i love when you harass me
don't look in the backseat
of this fucking taxi
you might see something that you don't want to
just look past me

i love x21
i love the way you can talk me out of anything
you never care if it's bad or if it's good for me
the way this hate sits in my heart, you're my enemy
you never let me take a hold of my identity

i'll do anything you ask me
love when you attack me
i get so obsessed with you
i love when you harass me
don't look in the backseat
of this fucking taxi
you might see something that you don't want to
just look past me
like you always do
you know all i want is you
please don't get to close to me
not what i wanna do
not what i wanna see
you show me things i don't need
i feel so sick when you're all done
but that's just me

it's always been the same

funeral

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