my hell

sick&tired! w/ guardin + sewerperson (noah thomas + jolst)

cD pLaYer (prod. differentwrldR)

worth

residential. - worth (all we left unsaid)

P. nomansland 

Support my friend enyu!

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Lyrics~

(Swamp) 

My lifes in a spiral 
And I just can’t seem to catch a break
When I tried this shit the passive way 
they hit me at a faster pace 
It was a massacre up there on that caligo hill
Sends A shiver down your serabelem, signal the chills 

Ok yeah I’m back up on attack, there’s just no foldin us 
Grab that ammo load it up 
It’s gettin kinda quiet on this California western front 
Give it all you can until you can’t and hope the war is almost done 
Shell shocked, you’ve had enough 

There you go, you’re telling yourself that never again 
Will you put you’re life on the edge for something that somebody said 
The battle goes on in your head 
And shurly you’ll face a certain death 
But I guess you love that shit because you never left 

(Enyu)

Loaded chambers caught in a deadlock
choke on me like a tight knot
rewinding all of my future plans
hailing down on me till my heart stop
yeah, but i’m still in it
guess i’m twisted
drawn to where i fucking bled
need some god to grant my wishes
rather than be fucking dead

i scrape my wounds when its dark
a shiver down my extremities
and while the whole world fell apart
i stand upfront with serenity
and when I turn around
the time has come for confession
to learn a beautiful lesson
i’m heading outbound
to fend off my imperfections

(Swamp)

Hopefully when the dust settles I’ll be alright 
All intact and alive 
The only loss being time 
Trying to figure out another way to save myself 
From the war in my head, it’s been a living hell

never ending spiral w/ enyu

If It Only Gets Better

lyrics:

Its Tough luck tough love

How many people i try to become I been stuffing inside of my body
Some of them pieces of shit well probably
I keep so many in here its an army
And If they could hurt u, theyd probably harm me
Already on purpose they emotionally carved me
So I kept all the shit inside me
And it just keep ulcering out of my body

Animal masks step foot in the lobby
I had cast spells thats banned and they got me im fucked
Oh but Peeling back skin is my hobby
I pull the skin from my pinky to palm 
So What is the problem in here whats the qualm
80 bpm my heart I am calm
I killed a man in the winter 06 
And I had been wearing the same clothes since
But Its too hard lie now
I knew someone’d find out
I kept all his things and
I dress up and play house
That saran wrap body
Its my only friend now
Hes got strong opinions
Ones I aim to shut out
When the smell is fucked up
And my neighbours riled
Ill just blow his skull back
And wear him a while
All this blood had filled the eye holes
Im so out of style
I just Fit my feet in his feet
Now I wear his smile
And What do you do all night while im up at work
I see you sit back tongue tied tryna find the words
To try and ask me why exactly im not home at dusk
Girl just ask me cause ive spent years just carrying on for us

How many people i try to become I been stuffing inside of my body
Some of them pieces of shit well probably
I keep so many in here its an army
And If they could hurt u, theyd probably harm me
Already on purpose they emotionally carved me
So I kept all the shit inside me
And it just keep ulcering out of my body

Tough luck and tough love
Tough luck tough love

winter of 06 (eric godlow)

Stay A While.Mp4 (Throwaway)

lyrics:

im so misunderstood i dont get it
im ok im alright im pretending
open the wash i got puke on my linens
drink is good but tomorrow unforgiving
u aint mean to send it whyd you write it
u couldve been so clean without replying
mixing up drugs i like to feel like im dying
stand back watch me fuck this up without even trying

i cannot lose my rules dont follow rules that you would follow
i cannot break my heart my love my bad my heart is hollow
i am not tryna argue with u why u goin full auto
even though im just ice with u i feel more like gelato
what is this place my love i feel were being followed
plenty people u know i know turn up in the grotto
im not tryna be one of them  man im barely good with potholes
this route we should not go she want to ok
i guess we could check it out
i wonder what well see
how far it go down
im kickin out debris
what is that light did u make it down safe
lantern fire running up the propane 
blown back i feel the heat from  the flames
ill come back whenever it looks like it is safe
ill come back i promise u gon be ok
said and done i barely recognized the face

im so misunderstood i dont get it
im ok im alright im pretending
open the wash i got puke on my linens
drink is good but tomorrow unforgiving
u aint mean to send it whyd you write it
u couldve been so clean without replying
mixing up drugs i like to feel like im dying
stand back watch me fuck this up without even trying

3 (eric godlow)

lyrics:

isolated
take me out back for some fresh air
contemplated
she could never kill me but she contemplate it
fun
baby im just trying to have a little fun
run
she squeeze out my breath until my throat go numb
come into my house im in the underground
im close to mother earth my lover look around
how im pose to feel when u burn it to a mound
she get way too mad u should mediate it

girl its just a party and id rather not be here
these are your friends i got no one i wanna see here
cold
oh its cold
i cant walk thru this alone
take me home
i know im horrible
i wish you could see thru my blood shot eyes
baby girl were really not that different you and i
everything ur feeling is the usual
but everything ur feeling i just hide
i gave her my heart do u got one i could borrow
you aint gotta give it back im already hollow
broken bodies buried in the grotto
let me see the face it look like someone that i used to know
every time we sin we sin again i dont wanna
girl i do not wanna go i just gotta
dark pelt coat in october is like a sauna
i live in the forest off the fauna

isolated
take me out back for some fresh air
contemplated
she could never kill me but she contemplate it
fun
baby im just trying to have a little fun
run
she squeeze out my breath until my throat go numb
come into my house im in the underground
im close to mother earth my lover look around
how im pose to feel when u burn it to a mound
she get way too mad u should mediate it

isolated (killedmyself)

lyrics:

trees rot and flowers start to curl
baby what happened to the world
winds rip away at the walls of my home
whats the matter oh i never know
baseball hail hittin cars in the road
were hopeless if we rally let alone on our own
save the good thoughts for your mind to unfurl
welcome to the end of the world

touch
touch my body
id been left alone too long im starving
dont you run away for too long stick by me
baby what hes got that i dont be honest
i can do it better gimme time and i promise
guess u never know what u had got when u got it
please dont build impressions off the habits i adopted
har to solve the problem when u dont know what caused it
i lay up
for two nights
my eyes stained red
in sunlight
they got u now
its too late
my door breaks down
and i die
but somethings changed
im alright
my blood slows down and turns ice
the blade breaks down from frostbite
getting up now im ghost white
power up 
recharge oh im recharged
double up
had triple up i put one more
eat it up
i might eat it up im in feast mode
fuck it up i might fuck it up im in beast mode
people 
u not special u just like all the other people
i dont need to try that hard cause i dont have an equal
u not bad u just rude u just evil
she a fraud she a fake she deceitful

trees rot and flowers start to curl
baby what happened to the world
winds rip away at the walls of my home
whats the matter oh i never know
baseball hail hittin cars in the road
were hopeless if we rally let alone on our own
save the good thoughts for your mind to unfurl
welcome to the end of the world

Stay A While.Mp4 (Throwaway)

Fyrius

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