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I shed the skin
That has decay
Where have I been
I lost the way
I used to feel
I can’t maintain
This way I deal
With pain so blame me

I’ll take all the blame just save me
Took another eighth I’m empty
Took another pill got plenty
I got plenty friends laying six feet

Down in the ground
Look at me I might frown
Heart of coal
Hate is loud
Took a toll on my soul
Hate big crowds 
Might OD
From the sound 
Uncontrolled
Banging loud
So profoundly

Like a never ending storm
I don’t know where I went wrong
I’ll keep it real that’s on my mom
I’m doing better might reform
But these thoughts keep rolling in
Holding in how I truly feel
I won’t go down that path again like

I don’t know where I’m going
Man all I see are doors closing
Might catch me in the rain smoking
Or decompressing with potions
I feel the weight it’s been choking me
Watch me decompose slowly
I live this life way too callously 
But I choose this path for me

Don’t forget about me 
I was just a kid when they told me who to be like (what)
Now I barely get to sleep
Buy into the shit sell your soul for a fifth damn (what)
                                         (X2)

I’m nothing I’m nothing
I feel so disgusting
It’s numbing I’m shutting
You out I need substance
Like something worth loving
This blades steady cutting
Abundance of running
Becoming a no one

I shed the skin
That has decay
Where have I been
I lost the way
I used to feel
I can’t maintain
This way I deal
With pain so blame me

Blame Me

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Dear God
All of these broken dreams kill me
I could’ve of been so much more save me
Oh cause I’ve been spiraling I’m empty
Pick me up don’t shut me out I’m begging

Nobody knows how I’m feeling
Don’t talk to me cause I’m reeling 
I’m out of control what’s the meaning
To life cause I know this ain’t it

I split my ties with the noose won’t commit
Won’t slit my wrist cause deep down I feel hopeful 
A kid with dreams bright as opal
But sin this sin stains my focal

What the point of life
I’m borderline insane
I’m trying I hear your voice
When I start crying it fucks me up 
To know I’m lying cause I’m not fine
I pick me up by getting high
Lost track of time I hate myself 
I feel confined I’m overwhelmed just

Tell me you’ve heard what I said I’m 
Overly sick in the head I’m 
Morbid I think bout my death I’m 
Venting my sorrows in depth I
Pray to God that I find strength in
My darkness I’m catching my breath now
I’m learning my faith has been strengthened 
Now I refuse to live life hell bent 

Dear God
All of these broken dreams kill me
Could’ve of been so much more save me
Oh cause I’ve been spiraling I’m empty
Pick me up don’t shut me out I’m begging

Broken Dreams

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I just want to disappear 
Cause I know that I’m a let down
It’s been like six years
Since I took my first step hell bound
Don’t like all my peers
Got my hood up and my face down
Now we’re screaming cheers
Cause another year has passed now

I was all alone at my lowest point in life (ya)
Can you take me home cause I don’t think I can drive (ya)
Never tell the truth compromise avoid the fight (ya)
You’ve been on my mind but I’m talking to the mic (ya)

Overzealously I try to tear myself apart
I’m fine but mentally I’m suffering and I can’t play the part
Remember me indelibly the kid that you forgot my heart
Is torn but honestly my enemy is me the side that’s dark

I’m unstable
Anti social
Don’t see racial
We’re all equal
Hate is fatal
God I feel low
Your our one hope
(Your my one hope)

(I just want to disappear)
But I know that I can’t
So I smile in trepidation
All the love has been scant
So I found intoxication
And I don’t have a plan
Never did so I’m waiting

I just want to disappear 
Cause I know that I’m a let down
It’s been like six years
Since I took my first step hell bound
Don’t like all my peers
Got my hood up and my face down
Now we’re screaming cheers
Cause another year has passed now

Disappear

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I wanna change and I know who to be
A man with his bearings but that shit ain’t me
Five years ago I lost all of my peace
Still fucking lost tell me what’s all this mean
Living unrighteous what happened too me
Saw so much violence when I was a teen 
It’s all my fault I fell fault too my grief
Finding myself’s hidden deep in my dreams

I’m done holding back
What’s my whole life worth
Can’t live in the past
I’m done kicking dirt
Though my lungs are black
Have a lot to learn
Dreams will everlast
So I’m holding on

Holding on to life
Cause that’s all we have
But those evil eyes
That consume my fear
Is of no surprise 
That they’re always near
But I’m on the rise
There’s no going back

Still on a bender from five years ago
When my life fell apart demons creeping up close
God please take this addiction it’s eating my soul
You don’t know shit about me I’ve been through a low
That took all that I knew flipped it right upside down
So I’m searching for truth had to leave my old town
Now I’ve slowly been learning my shackles aren’t bound
All my thoughts have been easing I’ll stay on the ground know that

I wanna change and I know who to be
A man with his bearings but that shit ain’t me
Five years ago I lost all of my peace
Still fucking lost tell me what’s all this mean
Living unrighteous what happened too me
Saw so much violence when I was a teen 
It’s all my fault I fell fault too my greed
Finding myself’s hidden deep in my dreams

My conscience ain’t cautious
To let me breathe no room
When I’m conscious to process
The way I feel consumed
By my darkness I’m left with
Just me my thoughts of doom
I feel boxed in act shameless
To cover up my wounds

Leave me lone
Read the news I dropped my phone
That your gone
Raw emotion filled my veins
All year long
Hide the feelings still unshown
No please don’t 
You can’t save me guilt remains

I wanna change and I know who to be
A man with his bearings but that shit ain’t me
Five years ago I lost all of my peace
Still fucking lost tell me what’s all this mean
Living unrighteous what happened too me
Saw so much violence when I was a teen 
It’s all my fault I fell fault too my greed
Finding myself’s hidden deep in my dreams (So I’m holding on)

Everlast

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Let it go
I’ve been through enough to know
That I’m wrong
I was tearing up my soul
I’m a fool
I was just a naive kid
With a mood
That would switch on you like

(Shit) The presence of mind 
Doesn’t seem to be present 
But I never mind to be out of my mind
I think I need a reverend 
I feel like a blind man
No sense of perception
My thoughts are so violent
It’s vile just give me a second
A mile or some form of heaven
A child with so many questions
No answers God show me your presence like 

From telling lies to getting high
I’ve traumatized myself
I know what’s right I try to fight it
But I’m not compelled
To say goodbye to all those times
Where all my joy was felt
But I was blinded rage incited 
Wanna fucking yell

In an instant I’m consistent
With being distant with being different
I’m insistent on redemption
But contention all this tension
Brings depression sad reflection
True confession life’s a blessing
Took for granted now I’m venting
Call it tragic but

I’m just passing time hate reality
I’ve been roaming earth with no sanity
I think my life’s cursed endless vanity
But all things aside it’s mentality

Let it go
I’ve been through enough to know
That I’m wrong
I was tearing up my soul
I’m a fool
I was just a naive kid
With a mood
That would switch on you like

Let it go

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To the man in the mirror
I hate you 
You’ve had enough 
Now it’s time to erase you
You gave your all
But it’s time to sedate you
You shut em out
Truth is they all forgot you

What’s some pride to an addict
I lost mine through all the static
They say I’m just dramatic 
But my eyes have seen some manic
My eyes have seen the madness
And tragically it’s traumatic
We live our life in panic
That one day we might be stranded

And the truth is life is ruthless 
We all useless I feel clueless
But it’ll take time 
Stand clear of the grapevine
No one gives a fuck
So I won’t let you have mine
Im always feeling stuck
I get high just to pass time

To the man in the mirror
I hate you 
You’ve had enough 
Now it’s time to erase you
You gave your all
But it’s time to sedate you
You shut em out
Truth is they all forgot you

Live and I learn 
Nothing comes easy but bridges will burn
One day all my demons will churn
And burn up in flames put they’re ashes in urns 

Live unrighteous I’m in crisis
Call me toxic I’m a virus
I’m neurotic I act shamesless 
But the truth is that I hate this 

So why the fuck do I come back to all this comatose
Cause this ain’t living now I can’t see myself growing old
I had a dream the world was ending I was all alone
Talk to the mirror cause some days I miss when I was home

To the man in the mirror
I hate you 
You’ve had enough 
Now it’s time to erase you
You gave your all
But it’s time to sedate you
You shut em out
Truth is they all forgot you

Man in the Mirror

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Take my decay
I want to know who I am
I guess this pain ain’t a phase
Sometimes I feel like I’m dammed 
I talk to God when I pray
Like when did life make me sad
He tells me son it’s okay
Cause this is part of your plan

Reminiscing on the porch on a cold day
Blowing smoke grab a drink that’s a good day
Work so hard 9 to 5 done on Friday 
That’s my life in a shell things are okay

So trust me I get it
I’m saying words try to live it
Your feeling dark so demented
You lost your spark grew a vengeance 
You feel depressed feel lamented 
I swear I’ve been in torment
But now I stand representing 
Souls that were lost not forgotten

It’s so cold and I don’t feel right
I’m alone in the night miss my dawgs damn right
So I spark dream a dream that it’s all alright
Take me home don’t belong damn my noose it tight

Tired of loosing my patients
I’m tired of feeling like shit
Left my blood on the pavement 
And now my innocence gone
Life is so damn vexatious
Makes me wanna go sip
Liver needs a replacement
Now from the heart I feel torn

Take my decay
I want to know who I am
I guess this pain ain’t a phase
Sometimes I feel like I’m dammed 
I talk to God when I pray
Like when did life make me sad
He tells me son it’s okay
Cause this is part of your plan

Where the fuck do I go
When I don’t know myself 
I don’t reap what I sow
I know I’ve lost control
I see crows everywhere
I think I’m out of time
Watch your tread best beware
I’m lost and I don’t care

Always pessimistic
Always in my head
Sometimes I wish I was different
Stuck in my bed
I don’t wanna leave I’m ridden
Dwell on the dead like
I’m never optimistic 
I was misled
Man this hope shit feels so mystic

Look in my eyes
What do you see
A future that’s bright  
Or pain filled debris
Try not to cry
Cause that shit ain’t me
Don’t wanna die
But life is OD

And I’ve OD’d off pills
So I know how it feels
Feel the chills down my spine
Swear that loneliness kills
Holding on to the vine
That’ll spark my appeal
I’ve been on the decline
Tryna find all that’s real

But nothing is real to me
Stuck on my memories
I need some therapy
Rolling off ecstasy
Sipping on Hennessy
Memories of remedy
I need some clarity 

Memoirs of the past 
Come to haunt me everyday
Hope the good times always last
All my bad vibes pave the way
Need to slow it down live fast
I don’t want an early grave
All my deepest feels unmasked
Pray to God that I don’t cave

Take my decay
I want to know who I am
I guess this pain ain’t a phase
Sometimes I feel like I’m dammed 
I talk to God when I pray
Like when did life make me sad
He tells me son it’s okay
Cause this is part of your plan

Memories of the Past

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Fighting with dad
He says that I’m going crazy
But you misunderstand 
And you can always blame me
But this is not the man
That I’ll be when I turn eighty
No one understands 
It’s the drugs so please don’t hate me

Lonely nights got me fed up
With my life feel the venom
In the knife pushing deeper
Through my spine but it get better
As they say I wrote this letter
Just to say that I regret it everyday
And I’ll do better I’m just saying

There’s more to life than feeling numb
Or getting high or toting guns 
Or toxic fights or a tab on tongue
Or shooting dice or to always run
And no I’m not the man you wanted 
Me to be my dreams are haunted Memories of me in darkness 
I concede in fear I’m

Heartless I don’t want this don’t go
                                        (X2)

Dear dad I’m sorry I love you believe
That things are in order I hate when you grieve
But all things aside I’ve been turning the leaf
I’ve been using your lessons to listen preceive
And dear mom I’m sorry I’ll answer you calls
I know you get lonely and worry bout Ma
You worry bout me if I’m having withdrawals
But I swear that I’m clean and I’m making a change

Fighting with dad
He says that I’m going crazy
But you misunderstand 
And you can always blame me
But this is not the man
That I’ll be when I turn eighty
No one understands 
It’s the drugs so please don’t hate me

The Turning Leaf

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(We all) go through loss painful thoughts dwell on what you told me
You said this world is mine to make youngblood it’s time you show me
These midnight talks endless walks miss when you would scold me
Then doubt unfurled I always break cause I know these are memories 

(I said) this ain’t it
No this can’t be it
I’m a go off grid
I’m a sell my soul 
Wait maybe not that
But you catch my drift 
Thought maybe I’ll rap
That’ll get me through this

I don’t care for speculation call me broken
My brokenness is an ocean
Emotionless never open
I’m motionless from this potion
No soulfulness in my motion
I’m motiveless in my notions
It’s bottomless with corrosion I’m

Young and broke with a big old heart
Ever since that day I just fall apart 
Act like I’m okay but inside I’m scarred
But I persevere cause I can’t restart

I know it’s hard let me be there for you
I know this year I could see skies bright blue

(We all) go through loss painful thoughts dwell on what you told me
You said this world is mine to make youngblood it’s time you show me
These midnight talks endless walks miss when you would scold me
Then doubt unfurled I always break cause I know these are memories 

(Yeah) I need substance I’m a nuisance 
Don’t got two sense got like two cents
I feel distant from my loved ones
Always roll one I’m insistent
On my own fun but it ain’t fun
Coexistent with my demons
I feel so numb God I’m so done
Reminiscent on the lost ones

Now I feel like a burden
And nothing really feels worth it
I know I’m lost that’s for certain
I feel like nobody sees me
I’m getting lost in this bourbon
I need somebody to hear me
I don’t want you to feel sorry
Oh God you know that I’m sorry

Oh God you know that I’m sorry
                                               (X4)

(We all) go through loss painful thoughts dwell on what you told me
You said this world is mine to make youngblood it’s time you show me
These midnight talks endless walks miss when you would scold me
Then doubt unfurled I always break cause I know these are memories

Let it go

GBOWL

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