Soundcloud Stuff 2

little song that I did so you guys can have something to listen to before I can release smth longer, I still hope that all of you will enjoy it ^^ (I also been inspired by https://soundcloud.com/heylog - give them a listen!!)

produced/mixed/mastered by me

insta:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

Truth hurts
don’t want to hear no more
and I know
that you just had enough
of me
to be honest, I understand
that’s on me
just pin the blame on me

we both know what’s better
for us and we can never
fix us cause we will never
come to get to know each other

and I’m completely honest
truth hurts but we’ve been trying
was it really all for nothing
was it really all for nothing

and I don’t wanna solve it
let’s leave it and forget it
I won’t be even trying
to reconnect as friends
 
Let’s seperate our paths
And heal these fucking cuts
We both had bunch of knives
stabbed in our backs

Truth hurts
don’t want to hear no more
and I know
that you just had enough
of me
to be honest, I understand
that’s on me
just pin the blame on

Truth hurts
don’t want to hear no more
and I know
that you just had enough
of me
to be honest, I understand
that’s on me
just pin the blame on me

truth hurts

I’m never good enough 
no matter what I do 
you’ll always find a way 
to make me feel so fucking blue 
you play me on a queue 
my heart’s so fuckin screwed 
use me and lie to me like I never fuckin knew 

I’m Drinking every night to break my heart over and over again 
cause you keep telling me that all we’ll ever be is just friends 
& can we make this end?
you’re just an actor always wanna fuckin pretend  
that you don’t feel shit but get jealous every time I fuckin get it in with someone else 
get mad at me like every time for sticking to the plan 
hot girl summer hot girl bummer you playing your fuckin self 
catchin feelings, never healing, movin on to someone else 


I always think I’m not good enough 
and always shutting down my heart cause 
there always was another man 
waiting for his fuckin chance 

Every time we broke it off 
we’d fight we’d yell 
we’d make up and fuck 
we’d start the cycle again 
He’s still there trying his luck 
you’re with him now 
and I’ve been learning to not give a fuck 

I’m finding excuses to pull the knife out 
baby shut the lights down 
kiss me like he’s not around 
tell me that you really love me 
And not this asshole of a clown 
Can I ever make you proud?

I Was Never Good Enough (prod. Jolst)

First track off my new EP "Hold My Hand In The Graveyard"
Featuring the amazing emerging artists Corey Gossett
https://soundcloud.com/corey-gossett-645800446

(Lyrics)
When I call I know you won’t answer
God damn you know that shit hurts 
When I wake up you’re in my bed 
I can’t get you outta my head
I come crawling back to you
I come crawling back to you 
Back to you
Back to you
I’m crawling back
I’m crawling back to you

I’m addicted to drugs 
I’m addicting to love 
Feel you in my veins 
But it’s not enough 
I need that high 
That doesn’t come down 
I need you to stick around 
You always leave
Baby at the best part
And you know 
That breaks my heart 
Im torn inside 
I can’t stand lies
So could you tell me
tell me, Why

When I call I know you won’t answer
God damn you know that shit hurts 
When I wake up you’re in my bed 
I can’t get you outta my head
I come crawling back to you
I come crawling back to you 

So here we go again 
And this just doesn’t feel like it did last year
Everything keeps going faster 
I can’t quite put my finger on
Why I feel like shit 
I should probably just call it
Don’t know why I can’t quit calling 
In the morning when I’m crawling back to you 

When I call I know you won’t answer
God damn you know that shit hurts 
When I wake up you’re in my bed 
I can’t get you outta my head
I come crawling back to you
I come crawling back to you 
I’m crawling 
I’m crawling 
I’m crawling back to you
Crawling back 
I’m crawling back to you
Crawling back
I’m crawling back to you
I’m crawling back to you 
When I call I know you won’t answer
God damn you know that shit hurts 
When I wake up you’re in my bed 
I can’t get you outta my head

Mix by Yago and Corey Gossett
Master by Kanashi
https://soundcloud.com/kanashisadface
Produced by The Living Puff

Stream on Spotify!

Crawling Back To You (feat. Corey Gossett)

lately

guitar, production, mixing, mastering - fats'e

lyrics:

this is the last time that i’ll mention you 
we can’t be friends you know it’s true
you showed me your true colors and 
that energy’s too negative 
i threw my heart across the room 
a year went by real casual 
i’m glad it wasn’t longer tho 
you had me right under your spell 

i feel closure now 
and closer now 
closer to a happy place 
hope u feel the same 
cuz i don’t hate you 
but i don’t ever wanna see u again 

wasn’t meant to be 
blind to the truth neither one could see 
we opened our eyes 
and i’m glad that you left me 
now we can both be free

i don’t regret anything 
oh wait i regret everything 
i crashed your car into a wall
oh wait that was just in a dream 
life doesn’t have to make sense 
our future plans cease too exist
and i’m gunna keep my distance

free

@joshuasageart
@ddertbag

Lyrics:

When you walk my way
And I can’t explain
Why I feel this way
Trust issues
And maybe I’m to blame
You said I need to change
Put you in picture frames
I need you

And every single day
Is a passing day
Nothing feels the same
Again
You said that I should change
But I cannot change
You make it hard to stay
At peace again

Things feel so strange
Why do I feel this way
I’d go through time and space
If I could see you for 1 day

You’re all I have
Ahhhhh
Go through time and space
If I could see you for 1 day

And if there’s something I would go through
It might take a life
And there’s something I hold on to
it keeps me alive

It goes round and round and round and round inside of my head
I wanna know the rest can you gimmie a sec
Making sounds, they’re so profound, just to relieve the stress
And I feel truly blessed, it’s like I have no debt

Time & Space [+ddertbAg]

w/ @night_lovell

CORPSE: https://www.instagram.com/corpse_husband/
Night Lovell: https://www.instagram.com/nightlovell/
Milkgore: https://www.instagram.com/milkgore/
prod. deadwait

HOT DEMON B!TCHES NEAR U ! ! ! w/ Night Lovell

Featuring @Sewerperson

Other Platforms OUT NOW!
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/xelfiy/for-what-its-worth-feat-sewerperson

Lyrics:

Xelfiy:
i been feeling hollow 
She the typa girl to ask me for a follow 
Just cuz im up in my head right now 
dont mean that im really down that low
How you telling me Its all gonna be alright 
when u really dont know 
Damn girl you really got hope 
New whip on rain slick road 
To late momma gonna be so pissed that i aint home 
my bad i always drift back to the past when im on the road
And the future so i cursed i dont wanna see in the that coffin 
or in that hearse i dont wanna see you down that bad that hurt
My mind to fast it skirt 
My pain so old still hurt 
My face so numb ur blured 
All this pain so young what it worth 
My pops said id get the bag at birth
I come from middle class 
And im blessed have this worth 
And im blessed have this worth
And im blessed have this worth
Im not gonna be first to be rich in my family 
But Im be the first to give it back for whats it worth
I seen family spilt away like money was a curse 
But it only effects those with iller intentions that r worse

Sewerperson:
Waste my time cause I won’t need it
The clock strikes 9 and im still sleeping
For my whole life ive thought it worked this way
I was wrong but ill keep dreaming about it
The trees wreck homes as the storm rips thru
But its not so bad from the window in my room its calm
But in all due time itll hit me too
And what a peaceful death I will spend with u
We could talk all night of the same regrets
But with one night left I just dont want to
One night left until we all meet death
If its not about us then u could just hold ur breath
Just one night left
I Promise I won’t hold back
Ive spend way too long
With these words stuck in my chest

ALL PLATFORMS

For What Its Worth (feat. Sewerperson) (Prod. KG)

<3333333333
🕷🕷🕷
👾👾👾

Lyrics:
Put the blame on me
I can barely see
She got a blade on me
Your like make believe

Was it ever real
Cocaine i cant feel
Keep my heart beating naw it wont heal
I cant seal that shit away

I just miss the way you would close the door on my face 
I would break with every thought and second of the day
Leaving me here with tears that i cant replace

Im always fucked up
Yeah yeah
I dont care get me fucked up
Yeah yeah
When i wish it wasnt fucked up
Yeah yeah

Imma slam the whole bottle
Will i be here tomorrow 
Need the money and models
Think ill deepen my sorrow
From the devil i borrow

CLOSE THE DOOR (Prod. Discent)

💔Links : linktr.ee/notkeaven

Take a glance
Feeling worn
Got no time
To find a home

One more time
Guess we’ll know
What it takes
To break a soul

Took a chance
Now I’m torn
Whats at stake
Guess I’ll know

One more time
Guess I’ll know
What it takes
To break a-
Soul

Feeling so broken
I can’t see where I’m going
Took a taste of your poison
Now my life is eroded

Im so anxious and broken
All alone in commotion
Took a taste of your poison
Now my life is eroded

Told me you were here you were never really there
Turn me into stone and I’ll ash into the air
Breaking all my bones and you never seem to care
Told me you were here you were never really there

Tell me wassup no you don’t give a fuck
So I pop another pill now I’m feeling fucking numb
And I’m never getting better all this pain is adding up
Separate from my emotions I don’t wanna give a fuck

I got pain in my heart no I’m not fine
Hear these voices in my head in the night time
All this shit that I take imma let it go
Sell my soul I’m demon like whatever though

Poison (prod. Kubsy)

westpalmbeach - prod by(noahmadethiss)

Featuring @kaiyko
Produced by @horoshavibes & @splashgvng

LYRICS
I know I fucked up real bad and I can't win you back now
I look straight ahead but I don't see a way out of this
Turns out the vow that we made
Didn't mean anything to you anyway

Now everything just seems meaningless to me
I meant it when I said 'til death so let me rest in peace
I know I fucked up
Blame it on my bad luck
There no more bad blood
It's only love

So when you look back do you do so with tenderness
Or am I just another memory that you repress

(Kaiyko)
I wait for you to come around to say
The things I've already heard before
So tell me what's new
Got a broken heart and nothin left to lose
I know 
You're doin okay
But I am always
Thinkin' of ways to
Get right back to you
But it's too late too late
Gotta get back home to our places
Not sure if I can make it
But I will tell you I would take it all for you
If we could take it all back too
Even if it's all even if it's all for you

Listen on Spotify!

I Meant It When I Said ‘Til Death, so Let Me Rest in Peace w/ Kaiyko (Prod. Horosha & splashgvng)

New track from me new EP "Hold my hand in the cemetery"
Featuring skrwd (link)
https://soundcloud.com/skrxwd

(Lyrics)
Now you’re gone and I’m in a empty room
Packed your bags told me we’re through
Heard our song all my thoughts are you
Now you’re gone and I’m in a empty room 
We called last night I want to save it 
But all you said is you hate me 
I don’t get why you’d say this
Cause now you’re gone and I’m breaking

-talking part-
You literally just packed your shit and left
I don’t know why you do this everytime
Especially don’t know why I keep taking you back, fuck

I guess that’s just what I deserve 
3 years down the drain you’re so absurd 
You act like you’re the ones that’s hurt
When I don’t know if your fucking him or her 
Maybe this time I’ll keep the door locked
Really show you that I don’t give a fuck
You know I’m a sucker for love 
And I fell for you so I guess that’s shit luck

Now you’re gone and I’m in a empty room
Packed your bags told me we’re through
Heard our song all my thoughts are you
Now you’re gone and I’m in a empty room 
We called last night I want to save it 
But all you said is you hate me 
I don’t get why you’d say this
Cause now you’re gone and I’m breaking
You’re gone I’m breaking 
You say you hate me
Empty rooms shaking 
You’re gone I’m breaking

(Skrwd)
Still tripping on everything you said
Going in circles again
I don’t wanna waste my time 
But your on my mind and it makes no sense
Shoulda known you’d never have my back 
Left me like a needle in a haystack 
I hear your name in so upset
I’ll always be second best
(I’ll always be second best X2)

Mixed by yago & skrwd
Mastered by Kanashi
https://soundcloud.com/kanashisadface

Empty Room (feat. skrwd) [prod. King Theta]

crumbling

crumbling.

love i'm sorry 
god knows i tried 
i know you see through 
the wall in my eyes 
it's all i had left
so say what you mean 
don't worry about me, 
cause it only hurts a bit more through a screen
and i
love 
you

so please don't go 
cause i never could 
turn off my phone,
be perfectly fine tryna sleep on my own 
n i
need
you 
when i fall through 

so take what you want 
i'll try my best to replace it 
and even if it means breaking 
put the barrel back on my tongue 
i never wanted to feel so alone 
but i "felt so much better"
cause you were my home 
i guess that i shouldn't have 
given all of the things that i'll never get back
four in the morning i stare at my ceiling 
and wonder why the pale white wall 
looks so appealing to me 
asking why my eyes always look so sad 
guess it's what's left of the the things i had 

i never wanted to feel so alone
but i felt so much better 
cause i loved you
guess it's what's left of the things i have 
i guess that i shouldn't have 
i guess that i shouldn't have 
given all of the things that i'll never get back

all of the things that i'll never get back (prod. afterlife)

n i just miss the way 
you used to talk,
i guess
cause now i tend to think myself to death 
it's hard for me to sleep without a text
n i really fucking need to get some rest

i can play it up for you if you want 
grab my neck n i'll say it's fun 
push my chest with a loaded gun,
i'll do anything to prove that i can be someone
that you really want
but i have a tendency 
to fuck everything up, up
i need some medicine 
don't know what the method is 
off the sedatives 
till i don't know what day it is 

n i just miss the way 
you used to talk,
i guess
cause it's all i want when i'm a mess
it doesn't feel the same inside my head
so tell me goodnight and get some rest

n i just
n i just
n i just 
n i just

i just miss the way you used to talk, i guess (prod. afterlife)

oh well, whatever
i hope he's cool 
gives you everything you wanted
like i did for you
and it never even mattered
i guess i was a fool 
lost control of my heart 
tryna give it all to you

and i never meant anything to you, 
i guess
i'm glad found someone that you can love instead
i hope you tell him that 
say it with your chest 
cause it's all i ever wanted to hear
i tried my best
feeling everything,
i wish i was wasn't used to that
losing everything, 
i wish i wasn't good at that 
i can't understand
wish that you would tell me how 
to be okay with this 
i can't even save myself 

(vito)
it cuts deep 
through silk sheets 
where i sleep 
god damn,
you love watching me bleed
that's karma
i've had it coming
enough trauma for you to want me 
you can't even tell when i'm gone 
your life is still moving on 
maybe i'm coming off strong 
but i've been hurt for so long 
and still the worst is yet to come
i should've knew it all along 
i flew too close and in the sun 
lost everyone i ever loved

oh well, whatever (w/ vito) (prod. jolst)

[+] do you love me, do you hate me? I can't tell
* produced by @thersx *

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zFN_OlKU7m8

INSTAGRAM: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TWITTER: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: www.discord.gg/DRfW7Q4Bmu
LYRICS:

do you love me do you hate me I can't tell
I been tryna find your face lately im in hell
baby I need help yea

do you love me do you hate me I can't tell
I been tryna find your face lately im in hell
baby I need help yea

every time I see your eyes wanna die a little less
im still tripping off the shit last week that you said
was it something that I said damn
you know you hurt me think I might need surgery
you on a burglary might just let you murder me
ok
cuz I don't wanna live that much
and I just wanna feel like im loved

yea used to pop them pills just for fun
now im two months sober this shit dumb
I just miss the feeling when im numb
I just miss the feeling of your love

(repeat)

Soundcloud Stuff 2

Kuranashi-ya