tangeraymix

2022-09-29_21h36m21

NB: If for some unlikely, bizarre reason, you follow me DO NOT be offended if I don't follow back. I try to follow back everyone who follows me (if I like what you're about (I've had some very odd follows recently - my account is predominately psychedelic and my own burblings, why would I be interest in an account which is mainly K-pop...?!) but I'm at my limit and I don't have the energy at the moment to have a clear-out. 

Oh and, no, I'm NOT interested in buying followers/likes/plays. If you're not genuinely interested and/or an actual human, please kindly - and with extreme prejudice - fuck off. Spammers WILL be reported and blocked. 

I've no idea why I've just upgraded, waste of money really (and I've not got much to waste) - nobody wants to hear my bollocks. I guess - and this is stupid, I know, but if someone hears what I do, and thinks it's okay(ish) they might want to help me to stay existing (yes, I know that's ridiculous). The people who've told me I'm good were likely just being diplomatic. 

Today was my birthday(15/05/2022)and, as of today I've been detained 420 days (yes, could really do with it too). My physical and mental health have been completely destroyed. I guess that, if this place finishes me off, this account will at least let the world know I existed. This is what happens to autistic people in the UK - we're locked up and forgotten. I am literally in fear for my life here (I have hyperacusis, means I'm extremely hypersensitive to noise), I live - exist - in terror, 24/7. The only way I can describe this is hell. There's a lad here who slams his door 24/7 and for the past week I've had to contend with the schizophrenic lass kicking my door in every night. I have given up trying to get help, I'm now too sick and weak to try anymore. I'm severely malnourished, weak from hunger, and severely chronically ill. Nobody cares. I'm rarely given food, and when I am it's inedible. Staff tell me that it's "more than" their "job's worth" to stop him banging. Evidently they view their jobs as more important than my life - but I'm autistic and, in the UK, the life of a neurodiverse person is worth less than that of a neurotypical (I'd go as far as to say it's worthless). 

This is NOT a care home, this is a detention centre. 

The average lifespan of an autistic person is between 36 and 54. I'm 45. Unless there's anyone in the UK who reads this who can help me, I'm not going to make 46. 

Everything I upload here (unless stated otherwise) is my own BS, just what comes into my head when I'm listening to people who can actually do stuff. It's all completely unedited. 

Thank you to all those people, infinitely more talented than me, who have at least made this a teeny bit bearable.

🤗With all my love🤗

Sarah
☮️❤️🧡💛💚💙💜☮️

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