Thankful Im Alive

Dive into the deepest parts of my psyche. sadomasochism is next to nihilism, your shadow must be comfortable in his skin. this is mine. enjoi
this album is full of thoughts and emptiness, and empty space in this album is for your personal use, reflect meditate, breathe. Life is a journey, mine is an album.

The Boticelli

Sag, Aqua, Aries: alicia keys aint got nothing on this

verse 1:

come to the city where the buildings look so damn pretty as it looms blowin smoke right  over the people, greenhouse gas is SO EVIL!
standing on the corner of the guy with his dog and soda  that he got from some really  kinda kind  people, (but they from Minnesota they not new york ppl)

you hear about the glitz and the glamour but never bout the scammers
breaking bank trynna keep up w landlords
they keep uppin the price up for a shoebox apartment with mice, 

new york aint that nice (uh)
other places ARE nicer
but you learn that with time
and you just here for the night
so youĺl be alright

refrain:
youll be alright, youll be

verse 2:
but we gotta take the train cuz the streets too busy
stall jumpin cuz it used to be $2.50
how it cost more but the floors still pissy?
how it cost more and its much more risky?

did you notice crime aint going down?
they got popos, you see them around
dont make contact while we strolling now
niggas is crazy, they smokin that hazy
with k2 sprinkled and they frozen now

follow my lead cuz you coming with me
sit close to me cuz i know you missed me
stay close to me cuz its fuckin risky
there are some places thats fuckin pretty
there are places that are fucking gritty
But you will be alright, you only here for the night
and you´ll be alright

REFRAIN

greenhouse gas is so evil, NYC

cap/aqua: i made this on december 11, 2021 and im dedicating it to my friend Vinny bc he was the 1st and only person to hear this b4 i released it.If u are listening to this right now, hi :)
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now its gonna be a new year like wow, 2021 was not ur time
starin in the mirror like ÏM not drunk¨ cuz it feel a bit better when I lie
clothes are pretty but it do not matter, get a good job and school, that matters
go thru life by the rules that matter
do a bong rip if it calms the chatter

now its gonna be a near year like wow, i love people who are not here
none of them dead but they did leave, whos gonna disappear next this year?
thats ok i am cool with me, focusin on things like astrology

now its gonna be a new year soon now, ppl feelin lucky, niggas wanna fuck me
sayin we gone find the time to hang out, like we been talkin for a long ass while
a lot of opportunities that i will take and
a lot of opportunités that i cant make and
a lot of good days and a lot of bad days and
maybe 1 or 2 mary jane haze days
just gotta keep thinking about the little things
gotta make them bigger than they really are
cuz when u get to the real of things
big things are smaller than u think they are

now its gonna be a new year and now
im sitting on the floor cuz i got too high
trynna stay chill, i cant kill the vibe
2021 kinda was alright

New Years Wow

Moon: I made this years ago, the title is a conglomeration, it just felt right! 

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so you trynna feel me?
smoke some fat trees w me
got da sticky green, nick at night
feel me? rocket power dreams
are you glidin w/ me?

2)r u down to ride, u  down to glide?
yk i can't roll right but w/ you  
yk imma roll tight w/ you
cuz we got a lil vibe goin

1)ask if you got fanto, u say you rollin innit
say u be here pronto, although its snowing innit
ya mama aint gonna ask where u goin?
you laughin, u say ¨im fuckin grown¨
im like oh, im like oh, i aint even know that u got down like that

but you arrive, lookin fine and you like "oh its like that"
cuz i got hella bark, smilin hella sharp, like i aint hype like that


butterflies in my chest, imma smoke em out 
i don't need them shits when we zoning out
sintting on the couch, sinkin on the couch
feeling on my ass, lookin in my mouth
looking in ur eyes, 
im looking in ur eyes, im looking in ur eyes
im fallin in ur eyes, yes i despise me
i told my fucking self that this wasnt fuckin likely
this wasnt like me

Zombie Eyes Drake interlude (circa 2019)

The classic tale of Kido on the search for immortality so that maybe one day he can outrun his tragic past. This is: Journey through Oz.

Golden Teacher

hiatus over for now

Verse 1:
I gave my heart to the moon 
An ever changing being 
Sometimes her cup, it runneth full 
And when its dry i feel it 
The sight of her is beautiful 
Her scars are full of freedom 
Her stories, they're so terrible
How could they ever mean it?

Chorus 
But i mean it, I'm in love with the moon 
I know it's a big up and down feeling 
But I'm in love with the moon

Verse 2 
I know she holds up bigger things
Some things I can't imagine
So when she sends her tides to me
I ask if I could have them
I said "I wish i could be wonderful"
Cuz maybe i could've saved her
But all she does is change the sky
Said "You'll never be my savior"

Bridge:
"This is the job i chose to do
It gives me so much freedom
My stories can be terrible
But through them i find meaning
So take your rest and close your eyes
And lose yourself in dreaming
I belong here, right in the sky
You belong with other beings"

je suis en amour avec la lune

libra moon: Où va l'âme du vampire ?


Darling I've watched you for a thousand years
And i leave traces of me in this atmosphere
So that you might see me more than you see yourself
for we both know you couldn't want much else

Ornate golden doorknobs, so obsolete
Closets filled with ruins you chose to keep
(it is all) so Hollow, oh so hollow, i feel you there
You are just body, no (sans) soul
And i am just soul, like air

oh, let's get out of here, oh

I know i could move on, but i stay for you
I know that ive had other things that i must do
So i stay here and wait for you
And i stay here and plead to you

Watch the sun rise with me, let this pass
You wouldn't be the ashes, you'd be free at last
There was a time....

there was a time once, when we were two together
But that was forever ago
We can make a new forever now

Darling I've watched you for a thousand years
And i leave traces of me in your atmosphere
For maybe you can't hear me or know that I'm truly there
Join me, we can float away from this small old sphere 


to haunt, is to love

habanero (rio leyva x vendr x census)

NIHILIST.

ANAUEL V Out Now
Contact: qundalinikido@gmail.com
Artist | Philosopher | DOOMBOT

Golden Teacher

HBK KIDO