NULL EP

TO BE NULL
TO LACK PURPOSE
TO WANDER VACANTLY

''im forgetable anyway''
''the sun'll shine upon a new day''

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XYZ

our song
i wrote it after that day
tears on my cheeks
we needed rain on that day

oh
birds flying by
time passing by
clouds in the sky
must say goodbye
oh
wind blowing far
clouds grow apart
and eventually fade
into yesterday

but it's okay
once in a while
we all need rain.

oh 
fishes swimming by
how they make you smile
they wouldn't be right here
if it weren't for rain
if it weren't for space
pushing comets unto us.

yeah
we'll be okay
the sun'll shine
upon a new day

oh 
the tulips in the garden
we'd pick every season
they wouldn't be here
if it weren't for rain
so let's just accept it all
and fall

i'll always remember
how our skins felt
so tender

i'll always remember
the last days of
october.



thank you for us
thank for you all
thank you
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eose.

rain

i threw the petals out my window
and god knows where they'll go
perhaps the wind will turn them into dust
or bring them to your door after dusk
who knows?

oh
i'll be okay
the sun'll shine upon a new day.
yeah
i'll be okay
once in a while we all need rain!

-..- -.-- --..

ALWAYS SAY FORGET IT TO MYSELF
BUT I REMEMBER NOTHING IN THE FIRST PLACE

Oh I'm just a kid
Who grew up too fast
It's me the kid
Who'll always end up last

I'm taking my last breathe
upon this earth
But you'll still hear my sigh
Throughout the universe,
Night sky
Dont ask why

Just ponder upon my soul flying away
Like vapor, i'll be in your clouds and your rain
Always
(Birds don't sing no more)

IM FORGETABLE ANYWAY
ILL DISAPPEAR FROM YOUR MIND ANYDAY
BECAUSE

I'm just a kid
Who grew up too fast
I'm the kid
On which a curse has been cast
Forced to be an outcast
Stuck in the forgotten past
Skipped like an ad
And now I can't come back

I've got no future anyway
So I always look back yesterday
(Back when the birds would sing back)

(Birds don't sing no more)

ALWAYS SAY FORGET IT TO MYSELF
BUT I REMEMBER NOTHING  IN THE FIRST PLACE

IT'S ME THE KID
WHO GREW UP TOO FAST
IT'S ME THE KID
FOREVER STUCK IN THE PAST
ALL MY SENTENCES START BY BACK WHEN
WHY CANT MY SENTENCING JUST BE FORGIVEN
AFTER ALL
I'M JUST A KID
(Always say forget it to myself, but I remember nothing in the first place)

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XYZ

kids eye

THE SKY OUTSIDE RESONATES WITH ME
IM GRAY ON THE SURFACE WITH RAIN UNDERNEATH
AND I TRY TO SMILE BUT I CANNOT SEE
THE SUN ON MY FACE EVAPORATES, TRYING TO SLEEP
AND MY ??????? BUT I CANNOT FEEL
THE BLOOD IN MY VEINS JUST ISNT REAL
SEEMS LIKE MY HEARTS USELESS CUZ I CANNOT LOVE
AND THE WIND JUST FLIES ME AWAY SO ROUGH
(assiduity)
OF COURSE I TRY TO RUN BEEN TRYING FOR SO DAMN LONG
A FUCKING CRY FOR HELP IN ALL OF THESE SONGS
BUT DAMN
I GUESS ONLY I CAN SAVE MYSELF
TOO BAD I KNOW ME LESS THAN EVERYBODY ELSE
TOO BAD!

here we are again.
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He perdido mi sol
Sí, vuelvo a cero
Otra vez estoy solo
Qué puedo decir
pero ¿porqué?

I'm lost in another time
Why must I always get left behind?
I drown in my sigh.

Eu só posso dizer
Que há sofrimento em viver
Só quero procurar
uma razão mais 
pra sorrir...
(Ya no sé quién soy,
Hace años, estoy perdido en el hoy)

Sisyphe se croyant Atlas,
We'd wish it would be okay alas,
Te dejo atrás...

No quiero saber más
No quiero que te preocupes
Te dejo solo,
Y me encontraré...

Me ahogo en mi sinrazon
Yo respiro con mi corazón
Missing.

Tudo vai passar
O sol vai brilhar
El tiempo dirá
If I can shine
Otra vez

Everything will pass
Just take a deep breathe
Adieu.

-

TIME PASSES I TRY TO FIND PURPOSE!
THINGS PUSH ME BACK BUT I SURVIVE NONETHELESS,
I'M HUMAN!
THAT IS WHAT I AM!
I'M LIVING MY LIFE DOING WHAT I CAN.
BEFORE I WENT TO SPAIN YOU GAVE ME MY FIRST FLOWERS:
HOW I HAVE KISSED THEM FOR MANY HOURS!
BUT NOW I OPEN THE WINDOW
LET THE WIND BLOW!

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XYZ

porqué

dédié à un vieil ami

New friends make a difference in your blueprints
Nuance the appearence of your sky if it seems clear and
Ever since you disappeared yeah tear apart my heart
I've realised how good it was for me not to be part of us

Oh, goodbye then 
(It's your choice)
We won't ever talk again
(For your joy)

My new friends are 10x better
than you could be ever
They don't push me to the side
While i try to be liked by them for my whole life
You call me selfish
Because you are

You lost a valuable friend
(It's your choice)
It was all for you in the end
(For your joy)

You know I'll miss you
Though I know you won't miss me too
But oh well I'll be okay
The sun'll shine upon a new day

I did everything for you
''Youphoria''
In the end all I got was nothing
''Youphoria''

New friends make a difference in your blueprints
Nuance the appearence of your sky if it seems clear and
Ever since you disappeared yeah tear apart my heart
I've realised how good it was for me not to be part of us

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XYZ

youphoria (new friends)

i found this recording in an abyss of files


?

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XYZ

interlude

Lost y'all gotta make new friends ay
My ascension in the black hole deepens ay
Melting in the event horizon
Waiting for my physical demise and
my husk turns into dust
slow
down, if you rush its dangerous
u risk u risk to be forgotten
so nourish nourish
all your rleations
For the only proof of me will be the mark in your minds
Or your wrist your wrist 
But eitherway i'll be forgotten through time
So i write this rhyme 
The only thing I leave behind,
'part from CO2 emiting form my sigh

Exhibit a sense of senselessness
Senses overstimulated since 
The suns sinking
snakes singing in my ears
since its still ringing
a representatino of my deafness
definite worthlessness
im null, mo'fo you see it in my soul
what is it worth for
if i am still a fool
nihilistic deny anything
that wouldn't make sense
if i explained it
to the void, the ultimate essence
loss of reasons, lost of purpose
my path is turquoise,
the lights are slowly fading,
the sparkle electrized ne
now im traumatized,
my demise is out there teasing me,
can't you just let me die?
why must i stand here living through a lie?
Do I know I
No I'm lost in my mind
I said

Lost in my mind
Walking down paris
Listening to jazz
Got more style than asian tourists
Walking with no purpose
Adelante, adelante
My vision is turquoise
Hay fuego en mi mento
Todo está pasando bien
Caigo, y todos mis amigos también
Representaciones de mi ego,
Murriendo lentamente,
En el fuego
Grito mi lamente
Nunca cambiando
Solo, ando en mi camino
Sueño con serpientes
Manzana en mi mente
No importa lo que hago
Ardo en pecado
Soy humano
Pero me siento como otro
El postre de mi vida
Será un outro
Acordes murriendo en fade out
XYZ mo'fo

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XYZ

serpiente

(iamnullforiamnosoul)

Daydream
I pinch myself everyday
Check out my watch, just in case
I go through hell everyday
So look out the window, and start dreaming
Not everything's as it seems
Maybe it's all just a dream
Just imagine
Maybe nothings real at all
Nothings your fault
Maybe
For now all i can do is dreaming

Daydream

Silently ill
Sample silent hil
Soundin of IL
Sound test
At my limit
A demain lyric
It made me sick
Repetitive like the lick
Make music every week
Whenever I feel weak
So that is often
Everything's rough
And I'm not so tough
I fell in love
Couldn't get enough
I heard your cough
Gave you all my medicine
But your cold was too menacing
Now I caught
Reminiscent of the times
Where I would smile
Alright,
So now all I do is write
About the past, is that right?
Nah
Life feels tighter than a v-
My state of mind bigger than the capital
Just like china
Tell 'em that I'm fine
But that's wrong
And attention is all I long for
Took a wrong turn
Now look at all those things that I yearn for
I learned through the hard way
That the reaper 'bout a mile away
Everyday
So keep out his way
Shit could end in a snap
And considering the state of y'all mentals
That wouldn't be a shock
You're on loose territory
Give up your euphoria

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XYZ

daydreaming

I STILL FEEL SOMETHING IN MY SOUL
THOUGH WHEN I LOOK AT MYSELF ALL I SEE IS NULL
COULD IT BE I SIMPLY DON'T HAVE A PULSE?
AND I'M FLYING AWAY, SO FAR AWAY FROM YOU ALL

A SPARKLE EMITS FROM THE LIGHT BULB
SHOULD I REACH FOR IT? TELL ME SHOULD I REACH FOR IT?
CUZ IF I FAIL I WILL JUST FALL
LIKE A CIGARETTE, LIKE A CIGARETTE,
ON THE FLOOR
STEPPED ON BY THE POPULACE
NEVER BEEN FAVOURED LIKE LICORICE
I HAVE NO SAVIOUR XCEPT FOR MY GRIMACE THAT
GETS ME OUT OF TROUBLE
YEAH MY THROAT IS SORE
MY SURVIVAL IS MIRACULOUS
THE REASON I SURVIVE IS BECAUSE I RESIST
THE URGES TO SIMPLY LET GO

I'M FORGETABLE ANYWAY
I'LL FADE ANYWAY ANYDAY

I HAVE NO WORTH
AND IT IS MY CURSE
I'M NULL!
(i'm forgetable anyway)

I'VE CHANGED SO MANY TIMES IN MY LIFE
JUST TO FIT A NARRATIVE TO WHICH I WAS BLIND
COULD IT BE EVERYONE ELSE IS IMPROVISED?
AND I'M JUST LOST IN TIME, YEAH LOST IN TIME

A SPARKLE EMITS FROM THE LIGHTBULB
SHOULD I REACH FOR IT? TELL ME SHOULD I REACH FOR IT?
BECAUSE IF I SUCCEED IT'LL BURN MY SKIN
AND REVEAL MY SIN, YEAH REVEAL MY SIN
TO THE WORLD
THE EYES WILL NOTICE
THAT I AM SIMPLY NOT PERFECT
THAT I AM JUST A FRAUD IN A WORLD OF ERUDITES
AND I FADE AWAY, YEAH I FADE AWAY
MY THROAT IS SORE
SO I SCREAM IN ALL OF THESE SONGS
THAT I AM WORTHLESS AND I DON'T BELONG
FEEL IT'S URGENT TO SIMPLY LET GO!

I HAVE NO WORTH
AND IT IS MY CURSE
I'M NULL!
(i'm forgetable anyway)

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XYZ

i'm forgetable anyway

cloud
floatin'
tryna make you proud
by loadin your mind
with that stuff thats so loud
and pound with that sound
it's profound
tryna get sumn down
but i dont rly know me or u
would u plz turn down the volume?
actually boost it up
i valued stuff,i messed it up
it's a loop
stuck it sucks,
socks and stocks
shut the fuck up it's all fictional!
value life,
not some rocks i mock it
fuck the free market!
and if you don't like my style
mo'fo you can suck it
shadow of lucky luke
tryna find it's way
doesn't matter the speed,
if i shoot eitherway
tryna look for a brighter day
so this shadow can go away
i'll fade anyday
cuz what am i?

i'm forgetable anyway

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XYZ