i would’ve left just the same as you 

@nevrfall

you hurt me in ways that you don’t even know 
n you’re never there when i need u the most
n you never care when i break n it shows 
don’t say that you’ll stay when i know that you’ll go

i jus keep getting fucking worse 
i’m moving backwards 
i’ll keep on breaking 
do your worst 
it doesn’t matter 
it’s funny that i need you
we won’t have an ever after 
say you love me while you’re fucking someone else,

how does that work
our love was filled with patchwork 
a fucked up worn out pattern 
n everything was shattered 
so tell me how does that work 
n i thought you were better 
but every night my chest hurts 
n i can’t take the pressure 
so tell me how does that work 

so what does it feel like 
to know that you’re always on my mind 
to know that i really broke this time 
to know that it’s fucked up my whole life 
i don’t know what to do 
know that i hate me too 
n i would’ve left 
just the same as you 
n i can’t sleep 
in this worn out room 
drink through the night 
till my heart turns blue 

oh well
it’s cold out here 
kinda feels like hell 
left me for dead
but i wish u well
say i’m alright 
but i can’t tell 
isn’t that what u want

how does that work (prod. nevrfall)

mixxed by 36

i tried to kms 36 hours ago
i kinda hate u but i hate myself way more
everyone around mes dead thats why im always alone
sometimes i do the right thing but i get ignored

gone 4 today

prod mac demarco

without u here im so broken
come here and fucking cut me open
all my pride is worthless now
i sleep in shit and im treated like a cow
im such a loser compared to you
imma die when i leave school
i have no plans im always in my room
im so alone and dont know what to do

cut me openn

Suicide is the only way out - i miss our memories/wifiskeleton

disappear (prod. dead spyro)

its been getting warmer but i haven't seen the sun

prod: https://soundcloud.com/caspr
master/vocal chops: https://soundcloud.com/trechorboy 

lyrics:
and it's the same things
that keep me awake at night
it's harder to sleep when i 
see what's lost in my mind
(x2)
i don't wanna sleep cause i don't wanna wake up
(x4)
i've been feeling out of place here
i swear i'd give up everything to get my head clear
i'm losing everyone i hold near
and i feel like i'm falling all i wanna hear
is your voice
i've been calling out to you
can you hear me
i don't wanna sleep cause i don't wanna wake up
its been getting warmer but i haven't seen the sun
bouta hit the road for some shows ima kick it in the backseat
i've been doing well i hope you're proud of me

the same things (prod. caspr)

give me 5 more minutes

prod: https://soundcloud.com/irby314

lyrics:
i know that you wont hear this
so i can be as honest as i want
isnt that fun
ive been wondering how it feels to stare down the barrel of a gun
so give me 5 more minutes
so i can clear my head up
so i can dry my eyes, love
i know that u wont get it 
but i think its time i said it 

i still care, but i know that i shouldnt
i cant help but wonder 
i hope your not hurting 
im getting used to my burdens
i know u wont hear this
my mind isnt working

my mind isnt working 

i still care
i hope u know that u can talk to me 
even tho your words cut me to the artery
i hope u know that i dont hate u 
even tho i really fucking want to 
so when its late and im feeling low
replacing air with chemicals 
i tend to forget what im holding on for
and nothing feels real
its so hard to forget when i cant heal

i still care, but i know that i shouldnt
i cant help but wonder 
i hope your not hurting 
im getting used to my burdens
i know u wont hear this
my mind isnt working

i still care, but i know that i shouldn't (prod. irby)

but what did i expect

prod: https://soundcloud.com/caspr
artwork by: https://soundcloud.com/caustyk



i don’t wanna fall in love 
and fall apart again 
idk if i’m ok enough so i keep taking medicine 
to give my head a rest 
but what did i expect 

i said i’d give him everything but everything meant nothing 
but i still stayed so i could feel i’m holding on to something 
n i feel like a burnout 
lie n say that i’m better on my own now 

ok 
alright 
i’m starting to feel nothing when i lay awake at night 
ok 
alright 
i’ll fool myself with every other lie 

i still think of every word you said to me 
trying to ease the memory by drowning it in nicotine 
i swear to fucking god that one day you’ll be dead to me
but right now just to hear your voice i swear that i’d do anything

medicine (prod. caspr)

it gets hard to breathe
https://soundcloud.com/crackxlizard
https://soundcloud.com/hellahaunted
mastered by: https://soundcloud.com/trechorboy


so is he everything
wanna fall in love
get a wedding ring
taking back all the memories you got from me 
when i look at the past yeah, it gets hard to breathe
i bet he's giving you everything
it's killing me

wake up, i don't wanna wake up 
don't wanna live another day feeling the fake love
and they like wait up, i don't wanna wait up
i keep breaking apart
i'll take the pain, love

do you treat him like me now
say he's the worst now
sending heart eyes while he's falling asleep now

i don't wanna wait till i break down
haunt me like a ghost until i'm bringing the knife out

i bet he's giving you everything, it's killing me (prod. cracklizard & caspr)

i already tried my best, so why try again

prod: https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic

wake up
i can see my breath
cold hands
i can't feel my skin
shaking, body aching
pull me closer
breaking
i can't take anymore
this isn't the life that i wanna live
i already tried my best 
so why try again
is it over yet?
can i call it quits?
it's
seasonal depression
sick of everyone telling me it's a lesson
i should make more of my life 
cause "it's a blessing"
"and you'll be fine once you stop with all the stressing"
nobody understands
i can't get out my bed
i hate the helping hands
i've lost my fucking mind so don't you get it man?
they know nothing about me 
"he's just having a bad week"
it's lovely 

hide my problems in the alcohol 
drink myself away till i can't even feel a thing at all
i'm becoming just like you
it scares me to death,
i don't wanna but i have to

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