“It was impossible to explain to the healthy the logic of the sick, and he didn’t have the energy to try.” 
― Hanya Yanagihara, A Little Life

Depression, as a construct

Frankie Cosmos - Too Dark

You might recognise this as the theme to Salad Fingers 10 - it is also the intro to my new album, which isn't quite finished and hasn't got a name yet, and neither have you. Downloads are not available yet because I think I might still tweak this a bit before putting it out.

Birthweek

A short, scintillating piece which evokes nostalgia, naiveté, and timelessness. It is, surprisingly, hard to maintain the pseudo-perdendosi rhythm that is the signature of the piece, in my opinion. 

The title is taken (for the few that have not yet seen the film) from Alexander Pope's (or, for the many that have seen the film, Pope Alexander's) 'Eloisa to Abelard', the Ovidian heroic epistle published in the early 18th century (1717). 

The film borrows line 209 for its title:

'How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd'

However, the poem is brimming with wonderful lines. I have taken the liberty to highlight some of the ones I think are particularly interesting below;

'Forget, renounce me, hate whate'er was mine.
Fair eyes, and tempting looks (which yet I view!)'

'Enter, each mild, each amicable guest;
Receive, and wrap me in eternal rest!'

'No, fly me, fly me, far as pole from pole;
Rise Alps between us! and whole oceans roll!
Ah, come not, write not, think not once of me,
Nor share one pang of all I felt for thee.'

'But o'er the twilight groves and dusky caves,
Long-sounding aisles, and intermingled graves,
Black Melancholy sits, and round her throws
A death-like silence, and a dread repose:
Her gloomy presence saddens all the scene,
Shades ev'ry flow'r, and darkens ev'ry green,
Deepens the murmur of the falling floods,
And breathes a browner horror on the woods.'

The poem is thought to be inspired by the 12th century story of Héloïse's illicit love for (and secret marriage to) her teacher Pierre Abélard (one of the most illustrious teachers and philosophers of Paris at the time). 

The story tells of the unfathomable vengeance exacted by Héloïse's family, who castrate Abélard after the lovers had married. Abélard goes to a monastery and bids Héloïse to do the same, even after their child is born. Héloïse is tortured by the separation, and unwillingly vows of silence. Time passes, and they are not reunited. A letter that Abélard writes to a friend, entitled 'Historia Calamitatum', or 'History of my Misfortunes', falls into Héloïse's hands, and her passion for him is rekindled. They exchange a series of letters, in an attempt to come to grips with their intertwined tragedy. The incompatibility of their masculine and feminine viewpoints is, finally, the concept which prevents them from doing so. 

In Pope's poem, Eloisa anguishes over the feelings she has, still, for Abélard. She suffers when thinking that Abélard, now a eunuch, couldn't ever return to his feelings even if he would want to. It is both a reprieve that liberates him from the 'contagion of carnal impurity,' and a perpetual set of shackles. 

Eloisa begs, then, for forgetfulness, not forgiveness. 

illustration: Monet, 'In the Rowing Boat', 1887, private collection

Jon Brion - 'Row' from "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind"

teen suicide - crying

A collection of Max's recent filmscore work, together with some tracks from the albums which have recently been featured in various feature films.

STRANGER THAN FICTION / Marc Forster - On the nature of daylight

A Message To Tina Belcher	

a message to tina belcher feat. Fifty Grand

off you (the breeders cover)

we're fighting again

Elvis Depressedly - New Heaven, New Earth

10 Teen Suicide - Im So Fucking Bored

16 Teen Suicide - Salvia Plath

I remember feeling relaxed the first time I played it.
Enjoy.

Echoes

one day i will 
get drunk and txt you 
and i’ll say 
and i’ll say 
that i want you 
lets get coffee 
when you’re down 
when you’re down 
yeah you scare me 
the nicest person 
i will wait 
i will wait 
dali said that 
you want me also 
will you say 
will you say 

i thought no one would think about me 
but it’s not surprising that 
you thought about me 
i thought 
you’d feel like an ocean all reactive 
and lucid in emotion why’d you think 
about me

Girl- Salvia Plath

Hissing Fauna, Are You The Destroyer?

The Past Is A Grotesque Animal

Artist: Eluvium
Title: Regenerative Being
Album: False Readings On
Release Date: September 2, 2016

Pre-Order: store.temporaryresidence.com/products/trr265

Cognitive dissonance is, at this point, an everyday part of modern society. The difference between belief and reality is blurrier than ever, and there is often sufficient manipulation to both so as to make the distinction intentionally unclear. The source of those manipulations can either be external, or deceptively internal.

False Readings On is the new album from renowned experimental composer, Eluvium. Its creation was originally inspired by themes of cognitive dissonance in modern society. By its conclusion it had become a mirror rather than a magnifying glass, evolving into an hour-long meditation on self-doubt, anxiety, and separation from one's self.

There is an emotional lucidity and melodic ingenuity to Eluvium's music that has made him increasingly stand out from the sea of ambient artists that his earlier albums no doubt helped inspire. Sounding like an orchestra ceaselessly performing even as it sinks beneath an ocean of distortions and tape noise – with the occasional operatic voice piercing the surface – False Readings On is assuredly the most daring, dynamic, and distinct album of his luminous career.

TRACK LISTING
1. Strangeworks
2. Fugue State
3. Drowning Tone
4. Regenerative Being
5. Washer Logistics
6. Movie Night Revisited
7. Beyond The Moon For Someone In Reverse
8. False Readings On
9. Rorschach Pavan
10. Individuation
11. Posturing Through Metaphysical Collapse

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Depression, as a construct

Geomel Kramer