every word that I say seems far too contrived..

@guardinmusic
Prod by: @sinxi x Tagliatore

lyrics-

yung van-
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault, yeah
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
guardin-

Yeah I got an ice heart
Fuck all your feelings I’ll tear them apart
What nice start
I’m unaware that I do this I’m sorry sweet heart
I’m a boggart
Keep to myself up until I depart
Can I restart?
I only see dark at the end of the tunnel

And I cannot focus on all these fucking emotions
They constantly go unspoken, for I do fear being open
And I can feel my throat closing
As my heart starts decomposing
A Hollow being just floating
As my demise is approaching us

yung van - 
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day
I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid, yeah
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day

I ain’t ever love since I was a kid
Yeah you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

Something's in the Way w/ guardin (Prod. Sinxi & Tagliatore)

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the tallest man on earth - honey won't you let me in (guardin cover)

lyrics
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so take all that stress
decompress it & hang it up right at the door
feeling like this isn't fun anymore
not that it ever was
but lately everyone's 
misunderstanding what's really import
tantalizing sights & feelings ignored
paths to get over it never explored
overgrown nothingness
stemmed from destruction
it's deeply embedded beneath all my subsidence

goodness gracious
i'm so cold
my body's filled with brittle bones
they'll break and bend as i grow old
i hope your hand is mine to hold
goodness gracious
i'm alone
broken my sticks & thrown my stones
i'll go somewhere where no one knows me
i don't mind being this lonely  

so maybe it's grim
but i'll spill on a whim about all that i think
my thoughts subside till i'm pushed to the brink
miscalculated
so often equated
to shit so insane i think i need a shrink
traumatized by flies that hatch in my head
metamorphosis ensued till i'm dead
it's funny how they can grow
little do they all know
their home is rotting & damn near condemned

dissociation 
deserting my patience
i don't think i'll wake up & realize
that feeling this vacant
no communication
is simply leaving me terrorized
i see all these faces
inside of the places
that only exist when i close my eyes
so if this is a phase 
that is bound to erase
then i guess that i ought to just give it time
 
goodness gracious
i'm so cold
my body's filled with brittle bones
they'll break and bend as i grow old
i hope your hand is mine to hold
goodness gracious
i'm alone
broken my sticks & thrown my stones
i'll go somewhere where no one knows me
i don't mind being this lonely  

all i ever will be
is someone that'll kill me 
a parasitic head fuck
monotonous & willing
all i ever wished for
is sanity by twenty four
but i never got that
i never got that

all i ever will be

s/o chxse bank
rip summer
got some new shit for y'all real soon
<3

august (prod. chxse bank)

prod. @its-naawoj

lyrics
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strawberry blunt ash flicked to the pavement
drank too much my minds outta place
this long walk home i hope i can make it
make it
make it

twas the night
i never felt so alive
then you crossed my mind
i tried to leave you behind
but of course you hide
kept out of reach & unkind
so my pulse will rise
as i look into those eyes
and i know
i don't wanna go where you're always chasing
leave me to the road as i start erasing
everything i know it's yours for the taking
take it
take it
walking all alone my feet start to ache
this party isn't over until i say it's
over and i'm over you when i'm waking
waking
waking

waking up to the sun
the stars don't know where i've been
bad luck is all that i know
bad luck is all that i am

i don't wanna go where you're always chasing
leave me to the road as i start erasing
everything i know it's yours for the taking
take it
take it
walking all alone my feet start to ache
this party isn't over until i say it's
over and i'm over you when i'm waking
waking
waking

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bad luck (prod. naawoj)

I Am Shit - Guardin

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//ごめんなさい//

thank you guys so much for the endless amount of support. working with my favorite artists is something i never imagined would become a reality, but you've all made it achievable. i cherish what this music has brought me & i hope we can all grow together in unison through it. i love you guys so much.

this is the first single off my upcoming album, "lacuna" which'll be out october 28th

huge s/o to my mans @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
i can't thank you enough for hoppin' on this one with me

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guardin x 9TAILS - suffocate

original sample: https://soundcloud.com/kahlua-and-milk/cheap-wine-1
by kahlua and milk 

shattered:
your beauty is something to notice
unravel my mind like a lotus
got something to say you might know this
but everytime i see you i just lose focus 
lips on your thighs got the roses beside 
swear to god i think the stars have aligned
drunk out my mind like your pussy is wine
stuck on your lips like a grape to a vine 
words fall from petals like roses
loving you shawty you know this
cupid hit me at my lowest
missing you takes all my focus

9TAILS:
turning grey
youll be okay though
no halo
i am no angel
gotta worn down old face
cold gaze
how im spose to love you how u want it
with a full plate
every step i stumble i got no grace
its a trick maze
up inside my mind im on a tight rope
how i fix it up fuck if i know
fuck a high note
smoking blunts singing slow while my eyes low
thoughts attack me make the lyrics sappy
turn up the tune cause my voice scratchy like a vinyl
i hear another person bitching i might uninstall the game
eye strain back pain tooth aches weed shakes
took a break from the music for a week 
came back and it was all the same
new face with the same sound
damn
something like a "we already lost" game plan
fucking up they life to make a new song slam
u wont make a banger just because u kick cans
still it could be poppin if u got the right friends
no reason to sweat it tho u bringing in bands
you and me are gone eventually we all end
we should live the life we proud to live amen to that
amen to that

shattered:
your beauty is something to notice
unravel my mind like a lotus
got something to say you might know this
but everytime i see you i just lose focus 
i'm losing sleep over you
dreaming of colors that i never knew
painting the picture of you in my mind
wish i could somehow just stop all the time 
from the ashes of your love
we can go and fly above
leaving rainbows when we die
really hate it when you cry
feeling really slow
i got the flow
give her the ice now she colder than snow
i wanna know will she love me for long
or is it a feeling from ripping the bong

flowars:
babe i'm afraid
i'm just letting you know
i never loved someone like you before
hearts in my eyes
i been shot in the skull
mind in the sky
feeling gravity's pull
oh
words fall like petals from roses
your beauty is never unnoticed
shawty you're glitching my focus
oh shit
shawty you're glitching my focus
you're bringing hope to hopeless
i think you already know this
know this

lotus love w/ 9TAILS & flowars (prod. taurusmoon)

lyrics
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what’s it like to me?
think i finally got the answer if you wanted to see
take a look in my mirror cause it’s shittin’ on me
like a pigeon to a branch when i be up in the trees
pick me up with the breeze
take me far away from here cause i don’t like what i see
constantly contemplating if i really believe
all the feelings that i’m feeling lately life is a dream

but not a good one
really it’s a nightmare
we could hit the park but i don’t really wanna bike there
heard you like my music but the way you treat mes not fair
i address the issue you sell my address for flight fare
and i’m scared
but justifying that is hard & i swear
my focus isn’t on it but i caught it in my sights there
20/20 vision 2020’s been a nightmare
we comin’ full circle ain’t nobody fuck with my square

(chorus)
swallow
all of that moscato
you said you wanna get fucked up
so tip back the whole bottle
i feel fucking ugly
all my friends lookin’ like models
the internet got my perception skewed full throttle
(2x)

i locked myself inside my basement
smoked till i got faded
must get back to basics
take a shot of bourbon
give yourself a fucking facelift
i’ll work on the album all damn night until i make it

and you can probably hear the frogs
in the background of this song
while they’re swimming in the pond
cause i just moved out of my moms
i got everything i want
i ain’t even gotta flaunt
cause it’s weird shit
like couches from the 80s
lights that star the ceiling and make it look kinda spacey
books about the cure or poetry from ali malee
and some charcoal colored towels in my bathroom for my baby
yeah it’s crazy
the life that music made me
my problems still exist but i got space to calm the shaking
anxiety don’t own me anymore ain’t that amazing
the focus is the future and the mornings i’ll be waking

(chorus)
swallow
all of that moscato
you said you wanna get fucked up
so tip back the whole bottle
i feel fucking ugly
all my friends lookin’ like models
the internet got my perception skewed full throttle
(2x)

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full throttle (prod. ka1)

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she makes home feel like a home in my head
and when i’m with her i feel hope again
i swear the weather on the coast all depends
on where we are but it’s still home in the end

i felt hopeful for once
you’ve got all of my trust
you have no clue what you’ve done
we were drowning in love
i lost myself in us
i don’t know where to go
and who to call when things get like this

my car ran outta gas
you said you could pick me up
but i feel like an asshole
offered you some cash you declined
it didn’t matter
i was full of glee and you were full of laughter
laughter and after
we went home and watched shit
turned on the tv, kickin’ back we were exhausted
flipped through channels three to thirty six while eating chex mix
couldn’t find a thing so we resorted back to netflix
till we passed out
and then i got up off of the couch
i picked you up in my arms & wiped the drool from your mouth
both half asleep but i still stumbled silently through the house
until i came upon a path that i’ve never known about
and then i saw some lights in my reflection of doubt
my conscience beheading north while my heart trips to the south
and honestly i’m feelin’ torn in which direction i route
because i believe in everything we’re building around

hope again

ft. @daddydandy
prod. @prodjody x @iofmusic

lyrics
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sun don’t shine it’s always so rainy
fuck at least it watered the daisies
stay at home watching patrick swayze
oh my god this bitch sounding crazy
told my friends that they couldn’t save me
what’s it like to always stay hating

can’t help but to constantly wonder
how this storm would feel without thunder
losing me? would that be a bummer?
all the memories that we had now
all fell with the leaves in the background
dead to me by morning how’s that sound?

let me speak some facts
leaving me alone increased my intrusive attacks
yeah my brain ain’t really felt the same since knives went in my back
and you called me insecure for being right about your past
baby that’s so whack
talking to me’s easy with the doorbell still in tact
tactical insertion place yourself up on the map
then you hit me with some pillow thoughts
so we can just relax
like don’t be shy my love for you’s lucid
all my words got choked up by cupid
you must think that i am so stupid
told me not to jump to conclusions
said it must be my own delusions
look at me & tell me i’m losing
cause i’m not not not not

woah i just had a thought like
“if i’m not alright...if I’m not alright am i really alive?”
cause i feel undead daisy chain atop my head
everything is messed up lately
feeling like i caught a cold on the daily
i just keep my head on straight & a good ass vibe cause
i don’t wanna lose myself before i try
i got too much left to prove in life before i die
so i won’t ever let myself be left behind

sun don’t shine it’s always so rainy
fuck at least it watered the daisies
stay at home watching patrick swayze

daisies (ft. flowars) (prod. jody x iof)

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