Self Loathing

Dull Feelings

you were never really there w/ Chriad, Whyhaze,Oddie,twentyfifth (redpriest) *bonus*

Weirdo (nitrous) REUPLOAD

Lyrics:
Pulling away in a ghost
Bitch I’m a ghost
How could I fall off
If I’m still afloat

Aren’t you the one falling on me
All night huh
You weren’t riding for me
When I was starving all week

I needed some set backs 
To put me on my feet
I couldn’t get too comfortable 
I can’t slow down
You wouldn’t see me in the dark
I’m the mist and the sound
And I’m stuck in a parable 
What you tryna tell me now
And I know I’m an asshole
Fortune teller tear me down 
Please don’t make a sound
Demons on the ground

Better not be falling on me
Too many snakes lurking in the leaves
Can try to out me But
I got the key of
I dont got time to hang around with janks
That's the  past just a stain of
Blood on my white tee
Spilt dusse on my sneakers

Pulling away in a ghost
Bitch I’m a ghost
How could I fall off
If I’m still afloat

Aren’t you the one falling on me
All night huh
You weren’t riding for me
When I was starving all week

I needed some set backs 
To put me on my feet
I couldn’t get too comfortable 
I can’t slow down
You wouldn’t see me in the dark
I’m the mist and the sound
And I’m stuck in a parable 
What you tryna tell me now
And I know I’m an asshole
Fortune teller tear me down 
Please don’t make a sound
Demons on the ground

Parables (DIEOM)

Produced by redpriest

I don’t wanna talk about our end
You’re the one who told me
Why you tryna fold me

Do you think that we could save us
We could change the story
It’s a battle but it’s not dangerous 
Know I fucked around
But let’s be honest I already paid for it

I lost all your trust
I know that’s just how it go
If she blew me in the dust 
ima show her how I ghost

I sip so much sangria 
thought I had blood up on my teeth
It’s a different kind of tilted
when you fumbling on me

Turn around
Then she turn me down 
I was high and out of hell 
And then she shot me down

I’m at the gallows once again
Just… Ring me out

It’s a blood eagle
My lungs turned inside out

If it’s not espresso then I’m sippin on capriccio 
I do all this shit I’m only going where I need to go
Here’s some chips feed you ego
I need a white chick for my weak nose
She don’t want a blizzard send me to montego

FumbleDEMO(redpriest) [Lyrics in description]ALBUM ON THE WAY

I’m playing castle crashers
After I just fucked his bitch
She disappear like rapture
And you don’t even notice

You don’t even notice Shit
How the fuck I’m the bastard
I wish I could disappear just like the rapture
Fuck a broken heart
My ribs got shattered
Got me drowning in a bloody cup
It seem to not matter
And It seem the broken heart got stale like shatter

You don’t know me
Sippin up with kuromi
This shit tuff
I’m in knots
It’s enough
It’s enough babe
I got swamp in my cup
Skunk in my lungs
I was tripping but it still was not enough babe
I got butterflies in my stomach
Know I’m fucking up
But you love it 
Dropped it in my cup so you won’t notice
Yeah I fell victim to the knots and you noticed

(Girl you noticed)

notice w LOLMONHEH (marty)

See Whats In My Coaster w/ GUSTO (VIOLET)

I swear I got it bad
When shawty told me hit the road
I got Stacy in my crib 
She a fine ass thick lil shawty
Slim thick on my bones 

I’d prolly remember your name
If I wasn’t going thru
Im dead in the back 
While I’m thinkin bout you
And I open up 
When I’m off of the shrooms

You in the light go strike a pose
Tell me the truth I’ll stay ten toes
Babe I want you I want nothing more
Don’t play with my head
I’ll give you the moon yeah you my Juliette
This a love letter more than a song
I been thinking bout you like all night long

I’m on this mountain
Bitch I’m in Berlin again
Baby I’m still thinking of you 
Smoking this pack still stinkin on you
I don’t wanna miss a beat
And baby I don’t wanna miss you
I’m sorry that you got misused 
I’m smoking on za
He smoke fish food
I’m getting this bread
He got fish food
Bet I break him off 
Like a chipped tooth

Yeah I’m sorry that you got misused
Like I got the tools fix the issue
I wrote this song for you
Stuck in here facing my doom
Bitch you know I’m off the shrooms
I’m losing my sleep over you
I just wanna know what you do

Letters To (VIOLET) lyrics below

Above the line

I’m falling up
Can’t feel my face
I get so numb
Can’t deal with this shit
Watch me throw it up
How you found me in the function
I got 4 in my cup
Like I was busy in the dungeon
Cause I know it’s not enough
They can hate on me
I know love don’t pay the rent
I got stakes on me
Treat me like I’m hell sent
Yeah she got me in knots
I know why you’re upset
I been sippin on this drop
Got my vision offset

And I know he got no motion
All you talk is bullshit
How you turning crooked
You walk around shooken 
Like how the fuck you play with me
How he stepping on crease

And you know I turn it round
Piece of shit and I’m a clown 
Oh my god (4)
That’s the picture that they painted of me
But I’m not
I’m in knots (4)
Yeah I know that it’s never gonna be enough

Ay how you take time when you do it all alone
I don’t know (4)
Like how you hit my line when he leave you
All alone(4)

Like that’s not misleading to you?
You know I’m bleeding for you
I understand that you left me all alone
Like I just want a 4th time
I don’t wanna waste time
I been on your waistline every other -

I just need a fan out
How this shit all pan out
Drop something in my Fanta 
I don’t wanna care right now
Yeah you caught me bitch I’m off it
Just throw me in a coffin
This shit I can’t stomach
I’m just so exhausted 
I been up tossin
I been up sideways
It’s a blessing I can never feel face
I got Russian roulette on my digit I’m okay
I’m okay (4)


I’m falling up
Can’t feel my face
I get so numb
Can’t deal with this shit
Watch me throw it up
How you found me in the function
I got 4 in my cup
Like I was busy in the dungeon
Cause I know it’s not enough
They can hate on me
I know love don’t pay the rent
I got stakes on me
Treat me like I’m hell sent
Yeah she got me in knots
I know why you’re upset
I been sippin on this drop
Got my vision offset

And I know I might be wrong
I just know that you’re my one
I can’t help but fall apart
Pieces fall into the sun
Why you think I’m sippin drop
Why you found me off blunt
Why you tell me kick rocks
Now you think I’m having fun
But I’m not(4)
I dug up this hole
But I’m crawling out the plot
Out the plot(3)

falling up (outby16) *BONUS*

Prod. @1violetss
Written by me


I just hit it and quit
Cause this shit not the same
Got in, sippin syrup
I been sippin on this pain
I still miss you in the club
Been like three hundred six five day
She so good at remembering faces 
but she forgot my name

Cause I’m still pouring up
And I’m still feeling stuck
Shawty left me black and blue
Im still frozen up
Yeah my heart still strung
Cant give you all my love
Already gave it all
Then I gave it up

I should drop some xans again
Got a mystery drank
I swear Adam my only friend
I’m off sum I’m smoking stank
I swear I should’ve shot myself
I feel like I should’ve left a stain
All these problems building up
I can’t tell you when I’ll break
Damn it’s hard to open up
I don’t really wanna talk
Yeah I been fuckin on a ghost
Treat me like a dog
Treat me like a ghost
Start to grow moss
I just wanna po
Got me feeling off

That’s just how I feel
None of this mean thing
Yeah none of this was real
She got me crackin seals
Yall think this shit for fun
This bih got me down 
And im tryna numb

I just wanna torture you
How I put it down Versace couture you
I’m just chillin for the ride 
please don’t turn around 
Too much in my cup please don’t shut me down

x

downers p. violet [DEMO]

soma holiday p.epv

Intro p.violet

Man I don’t feel right so I’m out the way
Poppin pills I still feel my face
Now I’m off some Coke I can’t feel my face 
Like I can’t smoke to ease the pain 
Like I’m off sum else you can’t complain
You did this to me what I did to myself
Fuckin a check but I’m fuckin my health
This really what it is when you live in hell
I got off the couch and I’m still hurt
You fucked me up man this shit hurt
I know she hate when I lace my spliffs
I know she hate when I get like this
Why the fuck you care won’t let me be a dad
I can’t complain got me in my bag
I just watch these numbers go up 
I’m always down my cup get me up
How you got me feeling so uh
Shawty know I still miss my son

How you slide and we fucking again
I smoke too much
I sip too much 
I shoot too much and now I’m stuck
This 38 might have him froze
I got an 8 up in my nose
I still got 1s up on my toes
This bitch smoke weed til she comatose
I pour a 4 til I comatose
I got bored so I’m sniffing coke
I put a 4 in my jack and coke
How you drop a 4 and slept all day
I’m nodding off matcha latte
She a solid 3 but I still let her suck my dick
She a broke bitch why would I hit
28 you still act like a jit 
Couple hundred dollars in your bank account
You think you’re up
I’m off a perc at the bar and I’m stuck
this bitch a vanilla backwood I’m in her guts
I fucked your girlfriend at like 2am 
I’m just tryna get a nut
I LIVE IN HELL WHY WOULD I GIVE A FUCK

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I’m watching baker 3 in 2025
This bih was my wife
This bih was my life
This bih was my world 
That kid was my world
This bih was my girl 
My Girl
I’m missing Atticus I don’t know
How I do this shit on my own
Im really getting off this shit On my own
I ain’t coking
Anymore

This bih looking right at me
I dropped my heart on the floor
I’m sippin fireball
I’m sippin too much lean
Now I got a zombie walk
I been sippin too much opiates
I been noddin off
Like I been sniffin too much opiates 
I been noddin off

God damn
Like I been noddin off once again
And I’m fuckin up again
Like where the fuck my friends?
Man I ain’t got no friends
I want tabis on my feet
Cause I’m better than my friends 
I been working like a mule
I’m in Russia sippin mules
I hope someone gets it
Cause no one understands this
I’ll be in Punta Cana in a week and a half
Yeah I’ll lose it all right when I come back
But I been lost
Thought I found myself
But I’m still fucking off
I wanna call you so fucking bad
But it’s not enough
Yeah this music so bad 
I just wanted us
I just really wanted you to
I just wish you’d come right thru
I just really want your touch
I just wish you were right here
I’m at trinity I’m sippin tequila 
Thought we were infinity
Baby I need ya

Off a couple rps I was poppin a zyn
How you wanna fake me 
Like I’m som piece of shit 
I really lost my guard when it came to your shit
Babe you said I was in charge 
When I came in your shit
I really lost myself
I really lost it all
Now I’m at the front bottoms
Yeah I took myself
I been chillin with your demons
 i been dancing with you
I just wish you’d feel me 
I’m the ghost in your room

lost freestyle p irby jolst

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Stay tuned if you want the hurt. Go to B side if you want the healing.

PLASTIC LOVE, PAPER LOVE (FEAT. KREW$) (Prod. by Hector vaè)

Art by KREW$
Guest vocals by KREW$


She  jus hit my line 
She telling me ive been talking shit
I know you been plotting bitch
Sorry but i got a bitch
Sorry im not sorry bitch
All you wanted was my dick
Now im up im getting rich

Cause She jus been treating me good
I let her roll all my woods 
I might go cop her the pack 
Stick out your tongue i got tabs
Rolling and im off a nax
Sippin to drown out my past
Girl your better than my last

Up all night kissing your chest
Baby girl know im a wreck
Baby girl know that im stressed
Baby girl promise wont flex

Up all night chilling with dup
All of these bitches are dubs
I swear i cant show no love
I just want you thats enough

Moscato Thoughts (Prod. KREW$)

This is the official teaser for this project. Welcome to teenage heartbreak! I want to thank Dutchboy, KREW$ and HOLYRAIN. I'm really excited to show you all what i've been working on and why ive been so ghost lately!

Teenage Heeartbreak feat. HOLYRAIN (Prod. dutchboy)

Switch Up w/ Joeyy (Prod. Ryo the Ghoul)

blinded +ericslake

Empty Bottles (Prod. Nitrous)

In The End (Prod. Nitrous)

Impending Doom (Prod. Nitrous)

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wlpjE7Rcvq8

Lyrics: 
Breathe in 
Breathe out
Now my tummy twisted in a knot
Whatchu really bout
She gon pull up to the spot 
With a bottle in her mouth
We ain’t chillin in the park 
Girl I got my own house
Got my tummy turnin
So I sip slow
Got the sun burnin
Up all night long
Now she wanna ride on me
To the drum of the song
We been fuckin no sheets
Cause we sippin on that strong

I’m a slip king
Fuck her like sushi raw
Playin ping pong
Now I’m fuckin like a slob
Wanna know me
Gotta dig for my heart
I been lowkey
I don’t know where to start

Breathe in 
Breathe out
Now my tummy twisted in a knot
Whatchu really bout
She gon pull up to the spot 
With a bottle in her mouth
We ain’t chillin in the park 
Girl I got my own house
Got my tummy turnin
So I sip slow
Got the sun burnin
Up all night long
Now she wanna ride on me
To the drum of the song
We been fuckin no sheets
Cause we sippin on that strong

I just fucked that bitch
then I go so ghost
I know devil know just where she go
Believe in me this part of the show
She like drinking tequila all night long

Breathe in 
Breathe out
Now my tummy twisted in a knot
Whatchu really bout
She gon pull up to the spot 
With a bottle in her mouth
We ain’t chillin in the park 
Girl I got my own house
Got my tummy turnin
So I sip slow
Got the sun burnin
Up all night long
Now she wanna ride on me
To the drum of the song
We been fuckin no sheets
Cause we sippin on that strong

I’m a slip king
Fuck her like sushi raw
Playin ping pong
Now I’m fuckin like a slob
Wanna know me
Gotta dig for my heart
I been lowkey
I don’t know where to start

breathe (prod. Opal) [LYRICS & VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION]

Runaways (prod. shiro)

Lyrics:
Cut me open
And you'll see there's nothing left of me
Baby girl you drive me crazy Bang my head all week
I dont really wanna know
Where she been all week
Take a chance and take her home 
really hate lonely

Get too fucked up
Too many my bad
I guess I gotta let it go
boohoo so sad
I just wish that you were proud of me
Cause I was in my bag
I just gotta let it go 
Shawty had me down bad
I just gotta hit the road
Gotta never look back
Ima burn the fronto
No brakes just gas
Bitch I know youll be proud of me
When you wanna come back
I know that you was always doubting me
you never played one track 
why the fuck you always clowning me
when you go behind my back
this the type of shit thats on my mind
on a long day
this can only with time
thats what they all say
got no brakes I got no time
its all a love game




Broken heart home depot fix that
Hit my plug now I wanna mix that
I got couple bad habits
now she wanna throw me out
Now she wanna drive back at it
Only when the sun is down

I know she dont care about me
why would I wanna waste my chance
I dont got time to play this shit
why would I wanna save you the last dance
She ghost on me two weeks
Then she hit me back
Merry Christmas
thanks for that

Ay fuck you
fuck
fuck you
Im so sick of you
ouuu
All I know
I aint ever looking back

Pops asked me why you so low
I dont got an explanation
I just took the long way home
I was crying in the back of the basement
Two days
Yeah I get like that
I know you can feel my pain
I dont sip no jack
Only sip dusse
Ima call you right back
I just lied to her face
Theres a party in the back
but its still no face
im the ghost in the function
watch me leave no trace
all these hoes I was ducking
All for you what a shame
Its hard for me to leave
Forget my face

GHOSO

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