Name: IF YOU ONLY KNEW by Ghost Rider (Ghost)
Duration: 3 min 44 s
Description: The lose of a baby is a parent’s worst nightmare.

Dangerous

Bad habit 

[Verse 1]
You said forever, but you lied so sweet,
Left your echo where my heart should beat.
Now I’m chasing ghosts in my bed,
Every touch just messes with my head.
You made love feel like a promise owed,
Then left me standing in the cold.
Your shadow’s the only thing that stays,
Guess I’m addicted to the ache.
[Pre-Chorus]
Tried to wash you out my skin,
But the scent of you keeps sinking in.
It’s like you branded me inside —
I keep coming back, though I’ve tried.
[Chorus]
You’re my bad habit,
The poison I taste when I can’t stand it.
You broke me down, but I still crave,
That love I can’t seem to save.
I should let go, but it’s too late,
Guess I’m just used to the pain.
[Verse 2]
You know the weakness that you made,
The way you love, then pull away.
I keep replaying what we were,
Like I could heal if I remembered.
Your lies got rhythm, they sound true,
Every line just pulls me through.
I hate the way I love the sting,
But I can’t stop remembering.
[Pre-Chorus]
Tried to wash you out my skin,
But the scent of you keeps sinking in.
It’s like you branded me inside —
I keep coming back, though I’ve tried.
[Chorus]
You’re my bad habit,
The poison I taste when I can’t stand it.
You broke me down, but I still crave,
That love I can’t seem to save.
I should let go, but it’s too late,
Guess I’m just used to the pain.
[Bridge]
No more tears, I’m running dry,
Still I call your name at night.
Every scar you left remains,
But maybe I like the way it burns my veins.
[Final Chorus]
You’re my bad habit,
The poison I taste when I can’t stand it.
You broke me down, but I still crave,
That love I can’t seem to save.
I should let go, but it’s too late,
Guess I’m just used to the pain.
[Outro]
Yeah… used to the pain.
It’s the only thing that feels the same.

Copyright (c) 2025 Lisa Andreou * All Rights Reserved

Bad habit

A broken heart is inspiration, and nothing breaks a heart like losing anyone to it.

Do you know you don’t have long

The lose of a baby is a parent’s worst nightmare.

IF YOU ONLY KNEW

For any parent facing childhood cancer. At any age, losing a child is unbearable. Whether due to drugs, alcohol or accidents. Drug and alcohol abuse destroys long before death and watching that, and knowing there is nothing you can do has been one of the hardest things that I have ever faced. The rest of us remember that loving little boy, while mourning his self destructive behavior. All we get to do is pray for him to change before it’s too late.

If you only knew extended version

No one ever wants to lose a parent. It’s a universal  truth that most want their forever to last with them.

FOREVER BACK

The cycle of abuse ended with me. 
Let it end with you!! You hold the power, don’t let you life be the price for anyones “love”!

Asylum  (Remastered)

For my little sister! Don’t ever forget to let yourself cry!! But now tears of joy, for answered prayers and that future that’s waiting for you both! Love you! You’re beautiful

HER EVERYTHING/LET YOURSELF CRY(Remastered)

FALL INTO ME EXTENDED

No song has made me work harder to find it. Totally worth it 5 days! Thank you for asking me to bring your “BEAUTIFUL NIGHTMARE” TO LIFE!!

FALL INTO ME EXTENDED SLOW Dance (Cover) (Cover) (Cover) (Cover) (Cover) (Cover)

Every song is dedicated to my life long best friend , my confident and partner in crime, my cousin Tina. She always supported my dreams, and she always saw through  the mask I wore for the world. She saw the broken soldier who came back, knowing who I use to be died over there. And she was ok with who it made me.. I lost her on February 28, 2022. I gave up writing, honestly, I gave up on everything because I was so lost in my pain, I couldn’t find my way back. This is all for her and who she knew I could always be.

I write all the songs in a matter of few minutes, and try to release them the same day or the next, depending on the amount of time I spend in production. I have to get every aspect of the song as perfect as it gets, which means  I can’t top it! It has to be as emotional, passionate or represent the anger I have as they are written.With on exception, I have had Say Goodbye in 2017. And in making of the Remix “Say Goodbye as it was meant to be” that took 4 days in production..

I grew tired of having everything rejected,  and was ready to give up all together. Every song I write, if I have to describe in a single  paragraph-

They are a very raw, unfiltered, pull back the curtain look into my life, where I expose the very private parts out loud. Mostly the struggle to find a balance, between hiding who I am on the inside, while, not letting the mask slip.

And anyone reading that, and really listening to  my lyrics…. Knows more about me than I am really comfortable with.

I have an established pattern,  where I will send my songs to my family and best friend, my best friend has expressed she listens to them but doesn’t know what to say in response. Which speaks volumes to me!!

My Sister I trust her feedback from, no one will be more honest, and thorough she may not like my final choices, she is seeing, parts of me at the same time everyone else is.

My parents however is a completely different set pattern-where, while I have deep reservations, I send them, but don’t want to speak about them.  The latest track “These Scars” I don’t want to say anything about with them. I read the heart felt response and left it alone.

In a lot of ways reading DM’s on SoundCloud are much easier to have, because, while I look forward to engaging with and establishing professional  relationships.. But be patient because presently it is taking every spare moment I have to work on my music and pulling my signature sounds out. And as today , November 1, 2025,  this is my 3rd day on the platform, and honestly, it’s sometimes a struggle to figure out what I am doing. I try to make a point of reading and responding to all my DM’s, which as of now is easy, but I really hope for many more in the future!!

IF YOU ONLY KNEW

Ghost Rider (Ghost)

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