I wish I knew
how this thing turns out
I won’t   

either way, it’s love or hate 
it feels the same 
     	
As time passes by
It worsens by design
I know 
it’s meaningless to breathe anymore

I don’t want to feel like this anymore
I don’t want to feel like this anymore
but It doesn’t really matter

I won’t know
until the end is here
It’s true   

ether path, if wrong or right
it leads the same 
		 
Time still passing by
non-static, undefined 
who knows
it’s meaningless to want much more

If Only I Did It

“Outlier”

I’m not quite sure 
what I’m looking for
nihilistic loneliness sets in 
    
each day ,is just the same to me
perceived losses ,and loss of me
theories of a true world makes us tame
this is just a crude map of the world

Isolation is 
the key to destruction
the self is useless without you

another day, oh god another
i’ve lost it, there is no more me
i wish i had a theory that rings true
but this too is a crude map of the world 

A crude map

Outlier

SPOTIFY

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LYRICS

Mending the past with future contributions 

No misgivings, just the sting of (life)

Summarizing nothing in pursuit of nothing

I will get here, when I lose my way

The lights are off, my heart is racing

I can feel the Anxiety building inside of me

I know it’s not real or has any meaning but it doesn’t fucking matter at all 

This is my burden and I bare it alone

everything is a feedback loop, everything is a feedback loop and malleable. 

I destroy myself on a daily basis

I don’t know why I do this to myself

It’s part of my nature

and I hate it

I hate it more, then I hate myself

The self, that’s a funny thing

What is the self?What is Me?What is You?

What the fuck are we doing here

I don’t know

Fuck it.

Ghost Monologues