Nothing Matters (Prod Jesse Brown)

double parked engine running
said she hate me, been a long time coming
i came up from nothing i feel like i’m at the summit
don’t think this world was made for me cause i was made for loving
baby tell me if u want it
baby tell me if u feel the same way that i feel when i see u
wanting me is not good enough girl, cause i need u
haven’t left my mind since the first time meeting u
she said that i’m bad news u know u should believe it too

on my shit again
shortcuts in my head
in a loop
spun around the bend in my living room
another doorway
i could put a pullup bar
just a little more
all depends, make a fool of us

i just paid my rent
I deplete my bread
in the pond it go
there it went, cut it off, better when
gone
in the wind
i'll just start again
square one, watch it go around, what a fitting end

it's a big joke
tiptoe
tripping either way
i dont know a thing, we all die alone, what a big weight
made it through
making do
they wont hear a thing
not a peep, its a long haul, how could i compete

double parked engine running
said she hate me, been a long time coming
i came up from nothing i feel like i’m at the summit
don’t think this world was made for me cause i was made for loving
baby tell me if u want it
baby tell me if u feel the same way that i feel when i see u
wanting me is not good enough girl, cause i need u
haven’t left my mind since the first time meeting u
she said that i’m bad news u know u should believe it too

bad news w/ flesh (shinju)

how could u believe anything that I say 
I know I lie but I'll be ok
maybe I'm meant to die, its ok
we all leave this life our own way

and I said I would do it
like I couldn't do this
I'm feeling so clueless
I feel like a nuisance
I feel like a psycho
like why can't I do this
I wanted my eyes closed
like its so confusing

I- I- I'm feeling hollow
fill me with sorrow
feed me the drugs and
you'll see me tomorrow 
(2x)

seemetomorrow (+jupiter)

stuck (prod. flesh x pekarot)

lyrics-

cigarettes in bed, that's a high note
baby know I'm trying but I lie tho
and I been off the drugs I won't lie hoe
ive been trying to drive w/ my eyes closed

ive been trying to drive w/ my eyes closed
ive been trying to drive w/ my eyes closed
ive been taking drugs till my eyes close
im fuckin up my life I don't mind though

and im dying on the down low
my life you could download
I don't think you realize
im a fucking asshole
I don't live in real life
living on my iPhone
living on a tightrope

they like Tyler why u drinking so much
I didn't think that any1 would give a fuck
last night I was so fucked up
can you tell me what I said
why everybody want me dead

its like they want me in a noose lil baby
they gon take my head
and every time I go to sleep they always follow me to bed
I remember I was 17 and carving on my desk
if you really do not fw me bitch say it with your chest

I don't rlly wanna think no more
I can't even speak no more
sippin on that cheap noir
I just wanna see your heart
baby we could make it far
in the backseat of your brand new car
baby can you leave a mark?
baby can you leave a scar?

ive been trying to drive w/ my eyes closed
ive been trying to drive w/ my eyes closed
ive been taking drugs till my eyes close
im fuckin up my life I don't mind though

eyes closed (prod. me)

T4blets (kemye)

**This is an old track and I didn't write the producers name :(( if anyone recognizes the beat and knows who produced it, PLSSS message me and let me know**

Lyrics:

its a joke all the memories you held
cant look forward so you sit and dwell
all the moments you could count on one hand
a lot less things that you even had planned

wait until the time runs out
and you're wondering what its all about
life goes fast and you're not sure how
it didn't last, what are you on about?
make that move cause you don't have time
you sit and watch while your life goes by
life goes fast and you're not sure how
it didn't last, what are you on about?

sat and did not as thing this summer
looking back it is such a bummer
all the moments you could count on one hand
a lot less things that you even had planned

wait until the time runs out
and you're wondering what its all about
life goes fast and you're not sure how
it didn't last, what are you on about?
make that move cause you don't have time
you sit and watch while your life goes by
life goes fast and you're not sure how
it didn't last, what are you on about?

<3

It Didnt Last (p. ???)

[hook]
give a little time
know that ill be alright
never have i felt 
so low in my life
satisfy my needs 
with one more line
one more line
coked up and im anxious man 
i think its bout time
strictly in a circle 
called you toxic 1 night
so many dull fights
i can tell its not right

[verse]
dont wanna talk about a thing i know its my fault
i get upset and put my fist straight through the drywall 
im the reason that you left and broke the vicious cycle
but i stayed faithful in the end i watched my time fall
and theres some things im still afraid of 
heart break 
wet paint 
and cicadas
ashes in an urn the body dust of once a faked love
how could man be truly evil youre the one who made us

wetpaint & cicadas (pink)

talk about the night
talk about the fall
you can tell me everything 
tell me about the fault
were you even there ?
did you say you loved him
guess that i forgot
getting hard to function 

i don’t wanna talk at all
cause we don’t even talk about nothing 
and i wanna come off wrong
this reflection in the mirror is disgusting

days late all gone
i been moving too slow coming undone
same words mixed up
we’ve grown so far but we’re still stuck

talk (meutry x nihil2free)

prod. @yunnygoldz
autotune wasnt perfect on dis ik, but fuck it

LYRICS++++
Im not licensed for a tragic conversation
Move too close for comfort, slight invasive 
Nothing here to promote a demonstration
Except an evil mind with an evil motivation

Tinfoil skin i crumple up, for your entertainment 
Watch me tear apart across the stage, heart palpitation
Running off the rails, stop me at the next train station
Im a Speeding bullet, down the drain of manipulation 

Wipe away the tears, holdin onto fear
Dont let em come near, lemme make that clear
2024 yeah this my year, musketeer 
Im a pioneer

watch me persevere through the rubble on train tracks
Round n round we go on globe but never trace back
To the lost gone hopes, of our foes dont entertain that
Cause you only got 1 mind and when you die, you aint get that brain back
I aint entertain slack, if u dont got my motivation you an extra to my main act
I obtain that, through respect and plain facts,
I take damage over time even on a wall, paint cracks 

So baby inject the deadly venom
Turn my veins black
Hear the brakes screech as i lose my momentum 
On these rusting train tracks

Keep myself in comfort but my
tinfoil gets crumpled when im gripping onto
Rusting frames and rusted rails, 
Gave too much to retreat my tale
Tell my story softly, as i burn across the plains
Tinfoil will guard my heart but won't protect me at the stake. 
I might break n fall, final hand let's see my draw
Im all in, but arent we all? Slow me down but ill still crawl

Tinfoil skin i crumple up, for your entertainment 
Watch me tear apart across the stage, heart palpitation
Running off the rails, stop me at the next train station
Im a Speeding bullet, down the drain of manipulation

tinfoil skin [prod. yunny goldz]

lyrics:
sleepy hallow walking 
these squares they got me coughing 
bury me in fire 
shit the door to keep me locked in 
i woke up out in SCV
ubered in an SUV
and i can’t recall anything 
the past 2 weeks been 
off and-
she tell me i’m mess 
girl know it 
crystals round my neck 
catch the light this shit be glowing
shawty wanna text
but she too afraid to show it 
tarot on my desk 
with some and an empty bottle

think that shit was just moscato
feel like august, feeling hollow 
i don’t really to like call 
dont got too much time to borrow 
baby now i’m catching flights
leave u in the dead night 
i can’t really tell what’s right 
foggy roads don’t see the light 

and i just miss the clovers cemetary
thoughts are gotten really scary 
maybe all i want is i want is just to go there 
haunted hills in ojai
reached out while you drove by 
maybe i could reach you if you moved a little slower

I've run outta options 
Im inhaling toxins 
Hydrogen cyanide 
It's really got me coughing 
Where the fuck I been at? 
I been in the dirt bitch 
Im just sick and tired 
Of feeling so damn worthless 
I met you in oblivion 
Was off my medicine 
You are a demon 
You're not at all heaven sent 
Hell bent on ending it 
Razor blades n prescriptions 
So Suicidal It feels like an addiction

sleepyhollow w/ UV6X7 (tiedforsilver x sorrow bringer)

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seemetomorrow (+jupiter)

MERLOT

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